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well i was expecting to waste 15 minutes of my life but it only took 5 minutes to read (i speed read) so figured the rest could be wasted in a reply lucky you I think your being very grown up about it all and i was looking for this rant you mentioned as i never saw one. It's a difficult decision to make trying to make a similar one myself and you are doing the best thing you can by weighing up the pros and cons and making the best descision with what you have. i'm sure your mum and sister are just looking out for you but if you are sure of what you want to do then stick with the course you know to be best for that career despite what the school says. Anyway i think my ten minutes is up and i need to get back to wasting the rest of my day but i'm sure you will make the right choice Mark

*hugs you close* you did the right thing he is a complete wanker and it is better to have some jerk like that out of your life he has made his choice and does not deserve you. *hold you even closer* love you babes

can never have too many birthdays happy birthday Jared hope its a good one Mark

HEYYYYYYYYY i object when have i ever been dramatic ? stupid maybe but rarely dramatic i leave that to you and Luc oh and dark shadow it seems too

*smiles* your words are always beautiful and i wish i had enough of my own to write them in my own blog, but i don't have the words to say how important you are to me and how much i love you 3 years is a long time and we have been through alot together and i cannot imagine not having you in my life you have been there through it all and no matter what happens i know we will always be together in some way because we were supposed to meet and be there for eachother like we have been, i'm so thankful to have you in my life babes and i love you always and forever.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY LUKE Hope you have a great day cause you are a great guy Mark

Happy Birthday hope its a good one.

Happy birthday hope its a good one

***Your Linguistic Profile:*** 50% General American English 25% Yankee 15% Dixie 5% Midwestern 0% Upper Midwestern What Kind of American English Do You Speak? http://www.blogthings.com/whatkindofameric...doyouspeakquiz/ but but i'm British...........

i love cleaning tools too *rubs his new dyson lovingly* oooo yes in public anyway.................... i a late replying so I know you had a good time shopping still cannot remove the image you put in my mind if you had gone to the sex shop still cannot stop laughing at the thought. :hugs: ooo hope your not getting ill again and cannot wait to start reading your stuff in more depth Mark

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KEV HOPE YOUR BIRTHDAY IS AS AWESOME AS YOU ARE Mark

so glad they are doing ok awww and cannot wait for pics i LOVE baby kittens they are so purrfect

Hey Ketchupcola I am sorry for the situation your in but i honestly feel your better off with your aunt than with parents who would treat you this way because your gay. I'm sure many people unfortunately have gone through similar things to what your going through and many people here will understand how hard it is so you should talk to people if you need to almsot everyone here is willing to listen if you need someone. I do know what it is like to be forced from your home and i do know what it is like living on the streets and i knew that at 13 and i'm the same age as you are now and I would do anything to keep mself off the streets again. They should be your last option. Stay with your aunt whilst she is still willing to keep you in and take her help until you can manage on your own. Hope it works out. Mark

I imagine that bird is not going to give up those words easily they are like children they get hold of a bad word and say it repeatedly which is amusing for everyone who is not you or the owners And i hope your feeling better soon Mark

i like this one offline i don't hug people unless i am close to them actually feel uncomfortable when i get hugged by just friends, my boss hugged me when i left and i just sort of stood there arms hanging at the side lol but with Brian and Jay both ex boyfriends and both good friends still I am comfortable hugging them and my hugs depends on the kind of relationship i have with that person really, with Jay we have been best friends for years and our hugs have alway sbeen intimate with us hugging eachother tight our head on eachothers shoulder and we do the rock thing vic mentioned and we just stay like that for a long time. With Brian he is smaller than me and i always feel protective around him so I guess that is why the hug is different he tends to snuggle up to me and i hold him tight in my arms whilst his head rests on my shoulder my head gently resting on his head, or rather we used to lol but yeah different to different people and i guess in different moods. I love hugging online though lol and probably do it wayyyyyy tooooo much sorry but i like hugging here i feel comfortable lol Mark

your too cute to give up on love Joey and it really sucks not knowing where you stand and i know its not easy to actually put yourself out there and tell him how your feeling and ask him how he feels but everyone else is right when they say you should talk to him and find out what he is after with you so you know before you decide to go further ok rambling now the trip sounds like it could be fun, just don't meet any members from GA they are all pervs who want your body

nothing better than getting that bug to do some DIY projects around the house, i got one last year around summertime too hmmm must be the weather i am probably just sad but I love hearing stories of projects people do like this so keep them coming

people who speed need to stop and think about the people they could kill because 99 % of the time no one gets hurt but there is always that 1% and i assure you if you asked most drivers who accidently killed someone from speeding they will say they never thought it could happen to them, but it does and no one is immune no matter how good a driver you are or how big your balls are, if you speed your a killer on the look for your next victim and you keep looking and you will find one. *hugs you close* and you know how i felt about Mark and how senseless his death was and I do know when he promised forever he meant every word. You have come a long way since you lost him and i was always convinced you would never be happy again. Whilst your are happy it never stops something as painful as losing Mark come back with full force when people say things to trigger that.

Happy birthday hope its a great one.

Drinking water is about the best thing as it replaces fluid lost as that alcohol is not hydrating fluid so it leaves you dehydrated which causes headaches and that sluggish feeling. So pop a couple of pain killers and drink plenty of water. It is usually better to try and drink a pint of water before you go to bed and throughout the night, but if your like me when you drink you are probably too wasted to care about tomorrows hangover Though failing that you could try eating greasy food which seems to helps too

:hugs: you should always feel important babes because you are and you and Scott will sort this out I think both of you just got carried away and need to just let it go, I think aybe at times he is insensitive to you when he knows your issues with things like talking but maybe he was just trying to join the convo, not sure but I know he loves you and you are much mor ethan a piece of ass that cooks to him and he may not always show it or you may not always be able to see it but doesn't mean he loves you any less, i think people like scott perhaps don't care if someone did that to him so they don't see it as a problem but he should know why you react like you did hope you both sort it out. Mark

Happy Birthday hope its a good one

yes i loved this one too, liekd the sexy Doctor with the familiar name too but i thought it really was a great twist and very different to anything i have read. I think you should write more. I really felt sad when he woke up in his real life knowing he had lost the other life that hadn't been perfect but it had been better and it was heartbreaking that he lost the love that he had just found, left me wondering what happened to his lover in the other world and think you need to write more of it infact i DEMAND you do or at least write more of something becaus eyour very good. Mark

*smiles* i did get the privelage of reading this before others and I also know how personal this is to you but even if I didn't know that it i would have loved this story all the same. Kevin is right it does show so clearly teh grieving process someone is going through and how they are trying to hold that memory close but also let it go too. I also loved the light at the end of the tunnel and how no matter how much it hurts it isn't the end of the world for the chracter. Love your writing style and Kevs right your stories are emotional because they tap into peoples emotions so well and let us see ourselves and our responses in your characters or maybe how we think we would respond. Great story, you should continue it at some point. Mark

happy birthday Jas, hope its a good one