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*Smiles and hugs you tight* Happy birthday Snowy

Sure he can he is mailing me one *smiles at Luc and batts eyelashes* right?

I am always late with these things but i would usually be the one making a thread for your birthday, but I had a good excuse for not being here, though still hate that i missed your birthday. *kisses you gently and wraps tight around you* Happy birthday babes, I love you so much.

I am always late with these things but still wanted to say happy birthday, hope you had a great time

good luck David, hope it goes well

*grins* I REALLY want butterball, *pouts and batts his eyelashes * can i have him ? Marina has such beautiful babies, love when they have a mixed coloring in one litter they all look too adorable.

that is too adorable, you always have the most beautiful babies lol Ben i doubt your bunny will like that

fun thread this one is the one i thought of Bingo Was His Name-o There was a farmer had a dog and Bingo was his name-o

You know it does sound like he is being unreasonable but then i don't know the entire circumstances. Sometimes friends just need some time apart and he sounds as down as you do in those message sto eachother, so maybe he is dealing with his own head and doesn't see a way to fix whatever got broken between you two. But it doesn't mean things are over for good even if they feel that way. I have been to points with my best friend that i never thought could be fixed and neither did he but eventually you find a way back into eachothers lives. It might be that your never as close as you once were and that is hard to accept but people change and grow apart, but with friendships that have lasted that long they tend to keep your tied together even when you barely speak anymore. So don't feel abandoned by him, give him some time and if he offers you a way back in then i suggest taking it and try keeping yourself open to him. Hopefully he will sort through the things in his head and you two will be able to resolve what has gone on. Hope it all works out. Mark

*smiles* the whole fate thing was very amusing imagery *sighs and hugs you* but it is messed up that they wont stop and look at this as an individual thing, Sam has never been violent and what he said yesterday seems to be the cause for the note. It was a stupid thing but it doesn't make him a psycopath or someone dangerous and if they look at him as an individual they will see that. But i have little faith in the schooling system, most of them are beyond f**ked up. *hugs you close* hope it all gets sorted out

Happy birthday Pat, hope you have a great day

Happy Birthday

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEV

awww that is very sweet, glad you come in chat more your a big part of the GA family

ok we are the right ones pffft soda is such a stupid word *hides behind Ben from the scary Americans*

It is strange how easily you feel for people online that maybe you never even spoke to but you said it well, he was part of the GA family and that is enough reason to feel his loss and feel for Chaz and his family. But I hope you don't shut people here out. Mark

is strange to have memories triggered like that Sam is great, could listen to your stories of him all day and never get bored *holds you even closer and nods* last night was a big case of deja vu and i know it messed with your head a little, becaus eit bought up all thos eold memories and bad feelings for me too, hated watching you go through that and hate that chaz now is going through it now after losing Green. *wraps tight around you* Love you Oh and tell Scott happy birthday for me

not too late I hope, just wanted to wish you a happy birthday Vance would have done it yesterday but i doubt you would have appreciated my drunken message

i'm the other one that says fizzy drink or rather i used to when younger now i tend to call it by its brand too me and Ben are the strange ones

I'm so very sorry for your loss and that greens life was ended so suddenly.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY KURT Hope your day is as special as you are

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN May your birthday be as wonderful and bright as you are Lots of hugs Mark

It is much easier to share your head online than it is to vocalise it with people you love offline, I find it easier talking about my past with complete strangers than i do with Jay who was there through most of it. I think it is a lot of the things you said about looking for signs of rejection, i even manage to do that online so I am much worse offline and yeah we create them even if they are not really there. I don't ever feel like my relationship with Jay is less because of what I have online with you, and Jay has come to understand what you mean to me. If I had never met you I'm not sure I would be here let alone in a very loving relationship with Jay like I am now and being able to be open and honest with you and others online helps me transfer that to offline life at times. When i see it's ok to be who i am and not be rejected for thinking or feeling a certain way then i feel more able to share that with people offline. I think sometimes we just need the security that talking to someone online offers and it cannot be a bad thing if it helps us deal with issues that will ultimately effect our offline relationships. ok will stop rambling *hugs you close* Mark

i am very happy you are going to stay, you don't know me but i read about you closing your blog in Nick's blog and thought i would take a look. I am still reading the blog and it is a great read was feeling a little sad knowing it would end once i got up to date so it is great to know you will be sticking around,

*holds you close* I think the fact that Mark was firstly your best friend before you became more makes it harder to let go. The love we have for friends runs on a different level and maybe you hae only dealt with losing Mark that was you lover, not losing the part that was the best friend for all those years. You know there is no time limit to grieving, it will take as long as you need it to take. Love you. Mark