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Interesting turn of events. It was sort of inevitable that the guys would eventually come across another survivor. It's smart that Wayne and Mark have discussed how to handle the possibility of others joining them. Their resources are limited unless there's a Walmart supercenter or Costco within raiding distance. I love how you had Mark handle Wayne's insecurities. It was perfect. Both men have their vulnerabilities and being friends first allows them to support each other exactly as needed. On another note, it took me way too long to read this chapter. How many times can one person be interrupted when they're home alone with two dogs? Dumb mutts... can't go out at the same time, can they? Thanks Wayne.

Pffttt... like you wouldn't.

Back to our usual hijinks.... we never stopped. We've both been writing. Chill. Ummm..... And?

So I totally forgot to look at blogs until today. Sue me. I miss Loe and Jay. They were fun to spend so much time with. A lot of time. Oh those last minute changes were a blast! Honestly though, this is a great story. Well worth a good binge session or two.

Awesomely awesome! Thanks for all your hard work!

So true.

Thanks. So far a tentative truce is in place. Not ideal, but better than last week.

Sometimes it's so hard.

Pretty sure @astone2292doesn't mind a little junk in the trunk but my trunk is in the wrong closet. Lol.

They are blowing smoke up Uranus.

@astone2292 is gonna have a field day with this one but he's gonna have a hard time topping @Mancunian (take that however you want) 🤭☺️

Who says tentacles are for octopuses?

ET, do you accept collect calls?

Wythuf would be proud!

You have no idea how much I appreciate your support. You are a safe place for me to seek out when I need it. A mere thank you seems inadequate, but I'll say it again anyway. Thank you.

Having members of this community such as you helps so much when I need a reminder of the positive and good things in my life. Thanks.

Just knowing that you understand brings me a sense of balance. You are one of the people I am proud of. You recognize your struggles and do the best you can to manage them. Thanks for supporting me and making a positive impact. ❤

I have a weakness for stupid natural disaster movies with bad acting and any apocalyptic end-of-world story. Engineer Benson is a great take on the classic zombie theme. I hated the break you took because I'm hooked on this story. I understand why though. Just don't do it again. Thanks @Wayne Gray for this little insight into your world.

Betrayal exists and is one of a few things that can rip your heart to shreds. This past week has been probably the worst experience I've gone through in my life. The hardest part for me is the unequivocal fact that the betrayal came from someone who was supposed to love me unconditionally and vice versa. When unconditional love starts to impose conditions which are only beneficial to one person it's time to step back and reevaluate. Even if that person is a vital part of your family. Are there things I could have done differently? Things I could have said or not said? Probably. It's a lifetime of 'what ifs'. Mental illness is real. It serves to disrupts the lives of those who it affects and those who know them. It's particularly hard on those who love them. It's a destroyer. It destroys relationships, it destroys dreams. It destroys hope. Worst of all, it destroys love. Yes, it can make people stronger and of course it can be managed. I have friends who have succeeded and done well even though they live with depression and anxiety and I'm so proud of them. But when mental illness is used as a crutch or a means to manipulate others it becomes a problem. Anyone living with someone who has mental health issues will tell you, that person is the only one who can decide to help themselves. When they refuse it wreaks havoc as this past week has shown me. Making the decision to go no contact with someone is difficult. I'm a fixer. I want to fix the problem, even if my attempts at fixing are rebuffed over and over again. But I had to face reality and cut ties in order to preserve my own mental health. I can no longer live with the constant lies, broken promises, and refusal to take accountability for one's actions. Am I okay? Absolutely not. Will I get through this? Absolutely. I don't know if the relationship will ever be repairable. Only time will tell. For now, I have to step back and let time pass. A few of you know the details and have bolstered me immensely these past few days. You know who you are. I can't thank you enough.

Is emotional and mental pain included? If so, apparently I'm all in.

Just wasn't feeling it, Boo. Sorry to disappoint.

❤

We all have our good days and we have our bad ones too. There are those days that are so good you want to freeze the moment to make it last as long as possible. Then there are days like the last few I've been having. Days that make me just want to get in my car and drive. It doesn't matter where, as long as I just keep going so I can escape the reality of the shit life throws my way. Unfortunately, the road to my happy place is closed due to needed repairs. It's not even what's happening to me that is causing me angst. It's those that I love the most. The hardest thing to do sometimes is nothing. I've said before that my circle is small, but for those in it, I will fight fiercely for them. Except when I can't. There are just some things that are out of my control. I hate it. It will pass. Bad times always do. It's hard. It hurts. I'm thankful I can come here and vent and know you understand.