Adrian Michaels

AHHH!!! LSATS!!! I'm only just out of my freshman year, and I'm already afraid of them..... EEEEEK!

One Pie... I'm not a big fan of the bagels. Relationships: Boys that are friends, or Boyfriends??

Well, its definately a weight off my shoulders, being able to come clean... but I guess I still have a ways to go. There are family members that I still haven't told, but word gets around, and I'm probably pretty naive to thing that they haven't figured it out already. I guess we'll just have to wait and see. A friend of mine from childhood just came out to his family this weekend. I found out about it later. I'm so very proud of him and how well he handled the situation. It kinda makes me wish I could go back and redo some things.

Hey everyone, Well, I was asked about it, so i'm putting up my own little thread in the discussion section. you can talk about Equilibrium here if you like. Tell me what you thought was cool, what you think I could work on, things like that.... I'm still in the process of working on the next chapter. I've been so distracted lately, its been hard getting stuff done. The good news is that I have lots of ideas, so all I have to do is sort them out. Happy Reading! -Adrian

Well here we go... I went Up 'Nort with the family (Huzzah for living in Wisconsin!) We're a camping bunch. The highlight of the trip?? Putting 5 dollars into a quarter machine and getting 22 dollars back. I even went and notified someone about it, but they didn't seem to care or believe me. I guess I got lucky!!

Wait... THAT'S what we're supposed to do?? I think I've had it the other way around. Anyway, welcome to the site. Soon you'll be like me... Spending way too much time here!!

Coming out was seriously one of the most terrifying moments of my entire life. The people I told were my good friend, but you never really know for sure how someone is going to react. You have a general idea, and a lot of the time people surprise you for the better. I've been lucky so far and haven't had a bad experience with someone I've told. However, there's the whole thing with my parents. (Which I talked about in the other coming out post.... you should look it up if you're interested. My longest post EVER!!) I think what I regret most about the whole thing was that I was unable to tell them. I didn't have any power in the situation, and that left me in somewhat of a bad spot. While we may be over it for the most part, I still have difficulty with my parents from time to time. We haven't talked about anything since the one encounter, but my mother still drops hints. Like about girls that she thinks like me. Or she'll talk about the grandchildren that she wants me to have. My father on the other hand would probably take my belief in global warming harder than my sexual orientation. Ah well, I'm old enough to understand that while I would love their full support, I'll have it someday. My parents act this way because they're worried, and they have a right to be. They grew up with the sigmas that were both frightening and sadly true. I guess I'll just have to prove them that I don't follow the old stereotypes. Then everything will be alright.

Labels are for grocery stores... not people. I have a friend who used to go, "This is my friend Ben, He's gay." She did it all the time. And thankfully, the person never had a problem with it, but i always did. I thought that it was pretty shoddy that way that I was immediately just put into a little box. So I started saying, "This is Kristen, she's emo." She didn't like that very much, even though she is clearly emo. I told her it was the same thing. She could have said, "This is Ben, he likes this, this and this" or "This is my friend Ben, we take chemistry together." Labels suck.

I know I do!!! Well, maybe I'm kinda fem... But I camp a ton.

OMG, I totally just noticed it. I had to read it a few times to makes sure that I was getting it right. WHAT?!?!?!?!? Apparently Adrien (Oooh, a different spelling than mine.) is harboring some same sex attraction. I'm betting he just got shut down by his date, and had to erm, "release".

Wow, that was interesting... At first, I wasn't very comfortable with the tests they were doing, but then I thought about it. Although the study was looking for specific characteristics which may perpetuate the gay stereotype, it was handled very well. I'm glad is was emphasized that the tests didn't work 100% of the time. The rat part was very interesting as well. I've heard of the older brother theory, but never really had it explained to me... I just thought that it was a bit ironic, considering that I'm the oldest and only boy in the family. 2% Chance?? Wow, I must be lucky. Personally, I'm not sure why we spend so much time focusing on WHY someone turn out to be gay. As I said before, I don't like the idea that its genetic, because that only means that someone is going to try and cure it... The hormone thing makes more sense, but does that mean mothers will start taking extra hormones during pregnancy? *Sigh* I'm just left with more questions...

Ok, all of this talk about Purpose has got me SOOOO close to singing that song from Avenue Q. But I won't so you won't have to put up with the ramblings of a crazy theatre kid. Aww, Gary, that's really nice of you to say... PS: YAY 100 POSTS!!! WHEEE

Well OF COURSE we're smarter, I mean, REALLY!! *cough* Actually, I think its just a difference of times. The younger generation has more resources, and was taught from a young age how to use it properly. And maybe we're better at expressing ourselves?? I'm not sure. I wish I could say that the fantastic people on this site represented society as a whole, but we don't...

haha. Radio Snatch... *dies* Woo, think its time to go to bed...

My, what deep questions we've been asking on the forums... And its sooo late for me to be trying to discuss this. I guess, in all honesty, I don't really know what my purpose in life is. Perhaps I'm too young to know. I mean, I have some ideas on what I would like to happen, but only time well tell. Until a few months ago, I wanted to be a doctor. I was going to become a world-famous surgeon. My techniques would be effective and medical schools all across the country would be teaching my methods to new surgeons. Of course, I also realized that I would like to have a social life, so being a surgeon wouldn't be the best choice. I walked away from a dream that I've had since 5th grade. It was very hard. But, now I think I've found something better. I've always been good at public speaking, and things like that. I'm also pretty interested in how politcs work and how goverments are run. So now I'm Pre-Law... My dream goal?? I'm a Legal Studies major with a emphasis in Criminal Justice. I'm going to Law School (Not sure where, but U Wisconsin and U Minnesota are top choices... of course it all depends on the LSAT.) and then I'm going to be a lawyer. I'd love to get polically active, fighting for civil rights, especially those affecting the LGBT community. I'd then become a judge, run for congress, pass new laws, etc. I'd probably end up assassinated or something... But then they'd make a movie about my life. So I guess that could be cool. Of course, there's always the chance that by the time I'm in law school, the whole civil rights thing will be accomplished. Then where would I be?? Who knows. I believe that as long as you leave the world a little better than it was before you got there, then you have a purpose in life. Reach out and touch others. You don't have to make a huge impact, as long as you are making a postive one.

Alright, this is the first time that I've posted here, but I just wanted to say a few things... I LOVE THIS STORY!! (Excuse the caps... I got excited...) It's on my favorites list, and everytime there is an update it brightens my day. Also, the French is my favorite part. I haven't taken the language since high school, but I'm pleased everytime I'm able to understand without the translation. (It means I DID learn something... Madame would be so proud....) It also makes me really want to continue with my French education. Perhaps next semester? I'll have to see if it fits into my schedule. Anyway, Keep up the great work! I can't wait to read more!

I'll confess to a few thing here: 1. I too, do not leave as many reviews as I should. I'm completely in love with a few stories here, yet do not tell the authors nearly enough... And then I wonder why no one reviews my stuff... 2. My friends tried to convice my that my sister was a lesbian. I wasn't able to tell them with certainty that she wasn't. We had the talk this weekend, and it turns out she's totally straight. I had never been so relieved in my life. It isn't that I would support her (obviously) but that I was thrilled that she wouldn't have to deal with the same things I would have to. 3. I've only ever kissed one boy. And he was in a relationship at the time. And I knew about it. They broke up a week later. I've been told that I wasn't the reason, but I'm still not sure. 4. I'm still in love with my first real crush. We're best friends and see each other all the time. He knows that I liked him, but I lied and told him I was over it. He's had flings with boys before and considers himself bisexual. I confess that even though I pretend to be over it, all he would have to do is say he liked me back, and I would be prepared to spend the rest of my life with him.

Wow Kevin, You're like the quoting king!! I haven't been able to get the quotey thing to work right for me... But I think I've figured it out...

Well, I guess that's why I'm going Pre-Law... Political Activist in training right here...

Aw, man, I love onions!! Its tomatos I can't stand. The Person Below Me: Is Hoping to have a nice quiet day home alone... Bwaa haa haa, everyone else has school!! or work...

Oooh... I totally had this discussion in one of my SafeZone meetings at college. We were discussing the whole "Labeling" system, and how its applied to the community. The way I see it, no one can label anyone except the person in question. In my case, its quite simple... I'm gay. Gay. Gay. Gay. I have no sexual desires or attractions to females at all, and if you were to put me on a scale of 1-10, 10 being totally and utterly homosexual, I'd probably be anywhere from a 9.9 to 11....Perhaps I'm one of the lucky ones that has an easy time with this. That being said, I feel that being gay is one of the most insignificant aspects of my life. I refuse to let it define who am, nor do I allow it to shape my social circles. I have straight friends, and gay friends, and honestly, I find sexual orientation about as interesting as eye color when it comes to my friends. It may be a noticable and beautiful characteristic about them, but it has no effect on how I regard them. Of course, society would not have it this way. They NEED to label. That's why I'm seen as *ahem* Middle-Class, White, Male, Gay, Protestant, Midwesteran, and Liberal. *whew* I've always views this as an extension of middle school. Everyone fits into their own little groups. Preppie, Indie, Emo, Straightedge, Skater, Jock, Nerd, Cheerleader. Its all the same, but in the big kid, grown up, adult world (look! More labeling!) People can do some SERIOUS judging... and its not always pretty. Bottom line, you are who YOU say you are. I'm gay, and that's all there is to it. You could be bisexual-leaning-towards-males-except-I-like-women-who-are-half-English-half-French. And you know what, that's totally cool with me. You probably have a very interesting love life. I have friend who don't like to label themselves, and won't put a name to what they are. (Which, ironically, puts them into the group of "non-labels" essentially labeling them when they didn't wish to be labeled. Yeah, wrap your head around that...) What right do I have to say that they have to conform to my view of society. None. And that's the point, isn't it??

Oh man... this is so hard. There are so many songs that I feel have special meanings to me. I may end up posting more than one song. First of all, I'm a total showtune freak... Its like the only thing I listen to, and I love discovering small little off-Broadway shows that most people don't know about. I know... I'm a dork, but hey, sue me. I guess at the moment, my favorite song is from the musical Zanna, Don't! Long story short, its a pretty amazing musical about an alternate world where everyone is gay, and its the normal and accepted thing. There's a heterosexual couple at school, and they have to keep their love secret, because everyone would be against them if they found out. Truely an amazing show. The song I love most from Zanna is sung by a guy while he's reflecting on his boyfriend, and how he's treated in the relationship. The first time I heard his song, I played it over and over and over, and just soaked up the words. Its really great for anyone (like me... too many times...) who's loved someone that didn't quite feel the same way. This is part of my "Emo Broadway" playlist on my iTunes. Man, I need an MP3 or an iPod or something... I Could Write Books I could write books, about all the things you don't know about me Page after page of all the things you didn't say I could write books, about all the things you didn't do And then write twice as much about how much I still love you I drop hints about my birthday, you forget it anyway I say "Pick me up at Seven", and you do, but the wrong day Is there something I should know about, that's going on inside? What is wrong with me, that there's so much of you you hide? I could write books, about all the ways you hurt me. All the ways that you didn't know, could destroy a person so. I could write books, about all the things you took from me And then write twice as much about how much you give back. I could fill all the desert sands, with ancient scriptures from my hands. Watch Siroccos come erase them, and then write them all again. I just don't understand why I do, all these things that don't make sense. But Love it seems has a logic, that defys all evidence. I could write books, about all things I don't know about you. Volumes one and two of all the doubt you put me through And maybe I don't know why I do the things you do. But I do know, I'll always love you... 'Cus deep inside I think, you love me to. *sigh* such a great song. ... I'll post more when I think of other songs.

You know, its funny you say that, because just as I submitted the chapter, I thought to myself, "Hmm. I have no idea what Adrian looks like..." I mean, I kinda did some vague details when comparing him to his parents, but nothing beyond that... Here's what I do know: Adrian's about 6'1" (and I'm making Harry about 5'11") and naturally has Dark brown hair. (He'll change it a few times, but nothing too extreme. Auburn, or lighter brown, things like that. The length will also change from time to time. Yay for magic spells!) He's also got hazel eyes, and those tend to shift colors depending on what he's wearing. The rest, I've gotta figure out later. Thanks again for reading and commenting. It makes my life!!

Haha. I agree!

As I said in my review, there will be!! And I also just realized that I technically put this in the wrong forum... oops. I'll be sure to use the right one from now on!