.........You know what I really want to go, not to stand up or anything, but to meet my real friends, I don't care about the others. 3 came out at our last re-union. And here I was with my wife now going on 29 years, what could I say, I know she knows, but I have never had the courage to utter those words to her. So here I stand, do I want to f**k with it and go and spend a lot of money? Or just leave it alone?That is my problem, I'd love to see Gyra, my girl that I had a crush on, I'd also love to see Mike who I had such a crush on that I avoided him for over 6 years, he never married that I understand, still he was a surfer boy hetero kid in my eyes. That was the hardest thing I ever had to do in my life, avoid the kid I lusted after, funny I never lusted at anyone else in school, I kept my poise straight (Haha).
Strange as it is, I have had my encounters, but never a connection, if I go to the re-union I will definitely confront Mike, but should I? What am I going to tell him? That I fell in loved him since the 7th grade? That our most significance meeting was in gym class when we had to wrestle against each other, crap that is when I decided to avoid you!
In one part I want to confront this, on the other I want to forget it, being outted 20 years ago and not knowing about until recently was a shock, but not one I could withstand it went from there with the 'best friend scenario doing it'. So here I go, don't' care about him, nor his peers. Do I want to see Mike? And if he says no to me it will crush me beyond your beliefs.