SilentandBroken

I’m still laughing at “Richard the Third” lmfao. 🤣 I don’t envy Robbie or Steph at this point but they’re doing the best they can with it. Don’s nefarious meddling I saw coming. Especially once we learned Steph’s Dad is his attorney. Nice try Sue. I’m not sure how it’s gonna go now.

Entertaining chapter. I’m still laughing at the expression “up the duff”. Kudos to Steph for even having the courage to tell Robbie at all. Tbh I’m kinda surprised she did. It was the right thing to do. Robbie handled it well..for now. Nathan fainting was hilarious. He’s gonna be pissed later and make himself a victim of cheating somehow just to keep the drama going me think. Oh and Nicola, yeah she needs to get off her Queen Bitch attitude. While it suits her, she is acting JUST LIKE Robbie but only to him. There’s no excuse for it. Part of me thinks she’s jealous of him and perhaps of Steph too. I think Robbie leading Mr. Lube on was hilarious but he’s also not wrong. Sue will be floored. But once she learns what the kids have agreed to I think she will be more accepting. Especially more so than Don. As for him? Yeah forget him. He’s irrelevant anymore.

I’m working in a couple theories . I think Robbie made the right decision. He needs to take care of this Nathan infatuation. Robbie has matured some and handled both Nathan’s initial mood well last chapter and I think that helped him also handle Conner well too. I think Robbie did the honorable thing still helping with the farm. He missed an opportunity with his mom to simply state that he and Conner didn’t match as well as they hoped personality wise. Perhaps she could’ve helped Conner see that later but oh well. I’m thinking Alex is Nathan‘s dealer. Or at least was. This is the history between them Robbie seems to forget to get to pursue. This brings to my mind two other points. This shows Nathan wasn’t as entirely truthful with Robbie on his habit . I also suspect Nathan is going through some withdrawal hence why he blue up at his family over denying Ginny. That was a good move too. I think she’s replaced Alex as dealer. I think Nathan has been using for longer than he said. i think Don will find out and i think fireworks happen. I hope the dr’s appt Robbie made is for an STD checkup and that’s when he realizes his mistake with Nicola’s friend.

Ok yes Nathan brings out Robbie’s better traits to a point but Robbie is also blind with his immediate goals as it comes to Nathan. Robbie should’ve addressed Why he walked away but seeing how was frosty to him at the beginning, it might’ve been better to wait. Bobbie is completely blind to the fact Nathan played the victim yet again.

No worries! The narcissist is the absolute best at hiding their true selves. You’ve created this character brilliantly

@Dodger no rush or worry on catch up.i really feel Rory is the best match for Robbie if it weren’t for that pesky heterosexual hang up Rory has

Ok so here’s the thing. I’ve always suspected Alex for the smokes and cocaine in the bottom of the pack that Robbie found. Don and Sue have clearly already forgotten about him. I actually believe Alex at this point about the swear jar money. I have a feeling he knew something more about Nathan and perhaps Nathan IS dealing and Alex was trying to get the $2k to cover Nathan’s tab to the handler. That said, I don’t know for sure if Nathan was aware of the swear jar but odds are he is. He’s been over plenty enough to know about it. Is it possible he took it? Yes in a desperate act but I don’t think he’s using. There’d be physical signs and so far they don’t match. Frankly, I suspect Don took it. I suspect possibly Alex saw him do so I don’t think Don’s using either. Again no signs physically. Plus that’s not Don’s MO. I think Don is trying to set up something nefarious to deflect from HIS behavior. Somehow I think Don knows more about the drugs. I suspect HE may be the dealer. it’s easy to assume Don’s week long absences from the family are because he’s been screwing someone on the side meaning sex. I don’t think so. I think he might be playing both sides with the police. He’s in the perfect position to lead a double life as a pusher and he’s using his cult (I mean church for muscle and transportation of the drugs into Town. It’s too lucrative for him to resist. I bet Symmons or Tony roughed up Nathan. I wouldn’t be shocked that Tony being older knows Don via the acting and advertising connections. They made Nathan and Alex mules. Then Don keeps in good with the Chief by tipping him off to the party. And where the fuck is Ginny? Is she lying low?

Ok Robbie is ugh…where to start. What a putz. If you’re that hung up on Nathan fucking go back and quit playing games with Connor. Shit even Connor is picking up on that. Connor is right that Nathan is playing with Robbie too. Im rooting for Connor to ditch Robbie now so Robbie knows how it feels. What Robbie needs to do is fly solo for a while. Alex popping up isn’t a shock at all. His $2k ask is a HUGE red flag. I bet he ditched his drugs when the cops showed and now he’s gotta recoup for his dealer. He’s not looking for bail money. He slipped out. Of course Robbie is going to give him the money which is absolutely stupid. As for the swear jar money, either Alex is lying or Robbie is right he didn’t have time or it’s Don. Don will justify it because he’s pissed at Robbie for simply being Robbie. of course the BIGGEST problem of all is none of any of all that. Robbie got that girl knocked up. Enter a whole new host of problems he’s nowhere prepared to handle. Smdh

I think it was stated Robbie’s real father was killed in a drunk driving wreck by his own doing

For me it was definitely My Only Escape. For the longest time it felt like I was the only one who lived with the fear and panic I developed even after I was free of the clutches of my abuser. It was validation and I balled my ass off for myself after the first time I read the story. I cried for me. For my forgiveness. I cried because I realized it was finally over and I could talk about it. I cried because I realized someone else knew what I experienced..I mean really truly got it. I cried for them for their pain. Nobody ever put was that panic felt like into words quite like Comicality did and I will be forever grateful to him for it. Man I miss him.

Nathan is pissing me off and his true colors of a narcissistic little prat are showing. He’s teasing Robbie for all he’s worth to get him out of him. I think if Robbie tries go back to him Nathan will coldly say no.

Ok so i agree absolutely that Robbie is a survivor. I’ve been thinking lately about this story so here goes . i think that’s why when it comes down to it, why he left Nathan. He’s terrified of rejection & so instead of being dismissed, he cut bait first. That doesn’t mean he wanted to. Hence his hangup about Nathan. He doesn’t learn from his mistakes mainly because he doesn’t have anyone calling him out on them and using the results to make their point so he sees what he’s doing. This is where Jo is gonna come in and big. He NEEDS someone to be honest with him but also someone who he can trust. The only two people in this story he trusts are Jo and Rory. Speaking of Rory, I need to recant my last statement about him not being a closet gay. After I made that comment, I honestly mulled that over and his character in my head for most of the work day (odd I know but it was a slow day and autopilot won 🤷). Anyway, it occurred to me that I wonder if Rory is at least bi but closeted and perhaps he’s just scared of the repercussions of being so from Public ridicule and school . I’ve noticed a swing of public support at least a little in the school with Nathan and the last play with Peter Pan. He’s overtly gay, the start of the show, and he’s got enough influence to have some say on the writing of said play. That was a success despite Don’s formal complaint was telling and surprising to me. Could the town’s opinion’s be changing? I think seeing this (because Rory notices almost everything but rarely comments), it might be slowing softening Rory’s resistance to staying in the closet. The resistance in school is now apparently only in pockets. Is it due to fear of punishment by the school? Perhaps. Or perhaps something more in addition. Either way, I get the feeling that the argument Robbie had with Connor showed Robbie some cracks in Robbie’s own armor and I think he’s learning how to process that information. I think Rory and Rebecca shagging on the other side of the wall to Connor and Robbie pointed out a lot. I would almost bet, that if someone pitted all 5 boys, Nathan, Rory, Tom, Connor and even Alex for Robbie to choose at free will without any repercussions, telling Robbie that Rory is gay, I’d bet Robbie would pick him and not simply because he’s had experiences with the others. It’s because Rory’s personality compliments Robbie’s on a much deeper level, much more so than Tom’s. Tom and Robbie will always love and respect each other but I think it’s due to their history with Robbie’s heartbreak of losing his mom and Tom was there to support him. The respect is there but it isn’t the same. Rory hasn’t had to be there for Robbie to support him through anything painful like that and yet he still respects him. Rory seems to me like he’s still on the fence straight, bi, or gay. Robbie just needs to keep doing what he’s and let that relationship bloom. i like Connor, but I don’t think the distance will be conducive. Plus his folks are probably a bit too liberal in the mindset for Robbie’s comfort when it comes to sex. It seems there’s a bit lack of privacy in that family and I think Robbie recognizes he at least needs that. So no I don’t think it’ll be long lived. Connor is a sweet boy though. lastly, on the topic of unprotected sex. @Dodger, I think you’re spot on. Bravo. My ONE BIG concern here with Robbie is Steph. I hope he didn’t knock her up. I would also get checked because I may be mistaken but it doesn’t sound it was her first rodeo either. All in all, great chapter. I really enjoyed this one

That was exactly what I wanted to call him. Personally I think Robbie is still hung up on Nathan and he needs to move on

Flashbacks suck 😔

Ok I’m kinda peeved at Nicola and Steph here for their antics and this roping Robbie into it. I’m peeved at Robbie too for not having the backbone to resist temptation both Stephanie and again now with Nathan. He screwed up at the interview with the police. Since THEY mentioned Don first, he should’ve said his said Don’s a lying sack of shit and trying to spin things. He’s got to discredit him. I also think it’s time Robbie get an attorney and pay for it out of his own money. With regards to Nathan /connor, Nathan is not gonna stick around. He’s too toxic for Robbie. Connor is just too distant. Shit or get off the pot boy

Ugh I hope since he went in sans condom, he didn’t get her pregnant. You’re still an idiot Robbie

Yep everyone has a price. I think Don’s manipulation is complete with everyone except Robbie. This is far from over.

Oh and yeah I think Nathan was genuinely concerned with the note. He was clearly hurt by how they broke even IF he’s got some facts twisted. Now he will only deny those. Oh well. He wasn’t right for Robbie anyway.

Yes BUT it takes a skilled therapist to read body language and know how to ask the right questions and deduce what vague answers mean and how to keep fishing without appearing to do so. Jo is very good. Her laid back demeanor and rebel look help set the tone right out of the gate even BEFORE Robbie realized she’s his mom’s doppelgänger (everyone has one it’s said). There’s a lot of work to go and now comes the true test with Don showing up like a pile of dog shit where you weren’t looking where you’re stepping. Great work Doger

Skipping the commentary this time. When Robbie said “tired” after the session I flashed back to my first session. It gets worse kid. But I’m glad you can see the light at the end of this tunnel

Ok, whew..breathe Silent breathe… it’s with a very ashamed heart of pain that I can say I’ve been in Robbie‘s position of suicidal ideation triggered by teen rape and gay in a time where it wasn’t widely accepted. I’m glad my one attempt was 1/2 hearted and unsuccessful. I said it in the beginning and I’m glad to see it come to fruition. Nicola is going to be Robbie’s strongest ally and while he doesn’t yet realize it, he is going to have to rely on her very heavily very soon I suspect. She would make a good detective. Tough but has a soft side & not ashamed to show either side and knows when to use them. Robbie is obviously in a very touchy spot. I wish he spilled the beans to Nicola but I suspect it doesn’t matter. She’s figured it out. I still hold out hope Sue gets shaken enough by this to realize her mistakes and she changes her behavior too. My one hope is that by stiff arming Alex on Florida, he still has hope for himself. His hesitation with Connor is a sign of maturing. He needs to have a heart to heart with him too. No, this is too big a job for Nicola to handle by herself but I suspect she’s gonna need help and not the adult type. I think she’s gonna bring her friends, and Connor’s sister in as well as Connor to build a ring of love and support to Robbie. That’s exactly what he needs, something he’s not really gotten yet since he’s left the UK. As for Alex, there’s a lot of work that needs to be done to save him but frankly, he’s much more selfish and I don’t see him accepting any of it even if it were offered. I’m not gonna lie, that’s one I won’t miss if he’s written off. The ONE mistake Robbie did in this chapter aside from not spilling the beans to Nicola, was going to Amy and apologizing. I think he really hurt her. He needs to right that.

I just want to know who has the smokes in the work shed 😆

Omg I knew Alex was gonna spring on Robbie again but I didn’t expect it to be so violent. Some yes. I am confused as to why Alex was crying at the end. Maybe I missed something. Anyway, Nathan has a LOT of holes in his argument and justification but like a true narcissist, he made himself the victim and he loved an audience with those girls so he used it to his full advantage and I believe he lied on how many he’s been with. He’s an actor after all. Back to Alex, that piece shit. Unfortunately the only way to get anyone to believe Robbie is have the cops find Robbie first. But of course that isn’t going to happen. What if Nicola comes home first? Or Daniel? They’re the only ones who will be even capable of backing up Robbie. Speaking of Daniel, I wonder exactly what Nathan told him. Anyway, back what needs to happen .911 and charges. Which won’t. But a hospital might due to the concussion. Although I doubt it. I think Robbie still won’t say anything. He COULD try Mr Andrews but I don’t see that. Good chapter yet again.

I’m seeing Robbie really become better at being a conversationalist. This is good because I think he’s learn not to fly off the hand so much at negative comments. This in turn hopefully will help him get some of anxiety under control. Part of me feels like because he’s so focused on it right now, he’s seeing it happen more. I still think he needs therapy. And quickly. Conner is very appealing. I think he will honestly compliment Rory’s style of how to care about Robbie very well. I think Robbie needs this and deep down, I think even he knows it. The exchange between Nathan and Robbie in the hallway was very telling. Nathan is very hurt but he doesn’t understand why Robbie left. His personality blinds him of seeing his faults. That’s a narcissist for you. They mean well in the moment but in the end if it doesn’t serve them, they move on. In the end, they’re only ever truly able to love themselves. On the face there’s nothing wrong with that mentality but there is when it comes to how cheap and used they make others feel while propping themselves even higher on the pedestal they built. Unfortunately, like most narcissists, their colors don’t really truly show until about 6-8 months in. The sadder thing is, while Nathan is like-able for sure, he can’t help that behavior. Therapy to “cure” narcissism takes years and often doesn’t work. Good chapter

Good chapter outright. I enjoyed the joking around in conversations throughout. I noticed very quickly is that Fran, regardless of what Robbie thinks, knows him pretty well and seems to have his best interests at heart which is good. So does Rory. I have a feeling Sue is feeling pretty frustrated herself given her tone when Robbie firmly yet politely told her honestly what’s what with him. I think she feels like she’s losing the control she always thought she had and that includes influence with Don. I expect her frustration to continue to grow in the coming chapters and she is not going to end up handing it well. Alex is clearly feeling better. This is going to be a problem and as others stated, he’s in for a shock because he doesn’t know about Connor and probably thinks now that Nathan is out of the way, he can have Robbie whenever he can sneak it. Robbie better not cave. I think he will be VERY tempted but I think especially after Nathan and now the very good bonding with Rory lately, he seems to have found a measure of self worth he actually enjoys. Now he’s starting to fight for it.