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Also, this conversation between Brody and Zack is such a mature and binding one in their relationship. It’s a bond building one. Brody is such a strong leader and really is an angel to Zack. For that matter so is Adam. Zack deserves a lot and he’s finally allowing himself just a peak of what hard looks like and doing so has helped his perception of himself flip which is crucial because at this point the kid is borderline suicidal.

IMO it’s Comsi‘s best work even better than GFD because it is biographical sorta. Unfortunately Comsie passed before completing GFD bc it’s truly a great story, it isn’t THIS. It’s hard to explain what I’m trying to say. He’s done others that are a damn near close to it complete with spin off stories of his friends but this one, this one stands by itself. Even GFD can’t do that.

I.. I dunno if I can do that. We’ve talked in dm a lot about this. Even though my therapist calls me “healed”…at least to the point of needing therapy and true hour and a half sessions weekly, or even monthly, even doing what Comsie did and create fictional characters to tell my story and dialogue and all that…no wonder it took years to write this. What an intimidating task much less fight through the flashbacks and night terrors that will undoubtedly return with a vengeance were I ever to try. Sure, it’d be therapeutic in the end I’m sure..but at the risk of sounding like Zack.. “I’m ok, I’m good seriously..(sniff)”

I forgot about this chapter as I am revisiting this story in remembrance of Comsie. Zack had me in tears at the end. He sees but he doesn’t see what telling Brody everything would do. He sees the negative and danger he could face because Brody would definitely march right through that back door and stand up to Zack’s father but not before he’s called the cops on his ass. This naturally wouldn’t go over so well with Zack as Zack would absolutely freak out in an effort to protect Brody as well as his own mother. What Zack doesn’t see is the positive side and chance at ending the abuse altogether. What had me in tears is how, looking back at my own story of abuse, I realized not for the first time, that I didn’t have a Brody. Oh how life would’ve been so different for me. I grieved a bit for both myself and for Comicality for what we’ve been through and I trust he’s found his peace and sunrise. I know he has.

Rereading this story after Comsi’s passing (😔) i find myself focusing on the characters more. Last chapter mom is beginning to notice subtle signs from Zach something is amiss and tbh, the timeline of her picking up the signs seems good. Brody is missing them and yeah it’s expected because he doesn’t really know Zack yet and he’s also young and inexperienced in such things but at the same time, Zack is struggling to maintain the illusion and Brody notices that most. He fails to act on them which is unfortunate. Only someone who’s been through abuse or is trained to know what to look for can do that well. I’m not criticizing here, just commenting that it’s noticeable and to a compliment to Comicality, he’s got it down perfectly.

Absolutely there’s a parallel between Zack and Brody and Justin and Taryn.

((((HUGS))))

This is my second read of this story. Now I’m reading it again in remembrance of Comie. I’m still not accepting his passing very well and I know what he’d say to that. He’d say that death is part of life and that it was his time. The he would be right. But I know none of us have to ever like it. Having been the victim of a sexual and narcissistic abuse that included physical abuse as well, I know unfortunately all too well what that shit feels like. I applaud is drive to bring light to others. He certainly did me. This chapter is a mixed bag of emotions for me. I wanted to shove that PlayStation where the sun doesn’t shine and a whole more. Brody is adorable. Zach is too

W, it is. it works for Justin in GFD too.

I highlight and listen to the stories here by using my txt to speak option using voice Siri #5 on my iPhone. It sounds like a teen boy to me. This story was the first story I did this with. To me, it’s Zack’s voice. It’s become Comsie’s. Sigh it’s just not the same here without him 😔

The rumor mill is a fire on the dusty Great Plains. Robbie just confirmed everyone’s prior suspicions by his behavior at the rehearsal. Tomorrow should be interesting at school. What shocks me is that Nicola hasn’t confronted him privately yet. I mean Amy sort of almost did, she wanted to anyway. That conversation between Amy and Robbie was a perfect display of how much kids Amy’s age pick up on things but have questions to confirm their suspicions even in their own little ways of understanding. The point is they notice much more than they typically let on and they can only hold their questions for so long until it drives them nuts. The nice reveal here is that Amy knew to wait until she had Robbie to herself to ask him instead of blurting it out at say the dinner table. Making good on the math class will earn Robbie more support from the faculty once the news is out for sure of his orientation because there clearly will be some flak he will have to defend himself and Nathan from. Literally is some cases I suspect. I also don’t think Robbie realizes how talented he might be nor how much support he has towards acting and coming out. He’s had to act pretty much most of his teenage years in most situations in attempts at covering his true orientation, he just needs proper training. I say go for it.

First off, Robbie had every right to get pissed at Nicola for answering his phone without his permission. Her nosiness is going to cause more issues and quickly. Secondly, I still say once she does find out, SHE will be Robbie’s most staunchest supporter and confidant. I don’t even think she knows it yet

Sniff 😢… this makes so much more sense now. Even still, I’m still in a bit of denial

My Only Escape was very similar to my experience and sigh…. I’m still in denial he’s gone.. I keep looking for a new post, SOMETHING .😪

@Blue Dhalia that was beautiful. Got me in tears all over again 😭

We never know when our time is up. We have but one life to live. I’m of the mentality to make the most of it. I think Comsi would not want you to hold regrets. He wanted to reply back to my dm after I broke down and told him of my past trauma. He promised he would reply with a longer response but he said he was swamped at the moment. I think he was trying to shore up what he could knowing his time was close without actually saying it. Liver failure isn’t something that happens overnight. He had to know. I just wish I discovered GA years ago instead of nearly a yr ago😔 perhaps I would’ve gotten to know him better. I’m happy for what I did get don’t get me wrong..I’m sorry I’m just trying to get my mind settled and it refuses

I don’t REALLY me to rush you of course. Not good things such as this. So it’s all in jest of course. But I won’t lie, I’m not the most patient person especially when I’m hooked on stories such as these. In all seriousness, take the time needed to do it right. 😘

Idk, to me, the twin’s attachment seemed more typical of a cousin staying over for the summer and the younger sibs trying to contain their excitement and make up for lost time in 5 minutes or less, constantly vying for their attention. But perhaps you’re right.

MORE! So hot and so cute. And you’re right. Nothing can be taken for granted. While I appreciate the quick turnaround for chapter releases, I love long reads. That said, it’s difficult to write long chapters quickly for posting. So I’m at an impasse and can’t decide what I want more of 🤪 Now, poor Mike is one confused boy. In some areas, Liam cleared up a LOT of suspicion by whether he was gay, and actually wanting to mess around or simply just using Mike’s attraction as a means to an end to get rid of the sooo annoying teenage horniness. On the other hand, there seems to be a bit of drama or at least tension between Liam and his parents. I hope more is disclosed about that. It didn’t seem like there was open disagreement between Liam’s parents and himself prior to this but maybe it’s just been well hidden. What’s going on there? 3 days is a while not to talk to your parents as a teen while you’re still living under the same roof

Yep. Looking back now at your most recent posts…I think you knew. Oh Comsi…you are missed my friend😭

I think you knew then your time was short. Such a legacy you’ve left behind. The more I delve your writing the more of an impact you’ve left. I hope your sunrise was glorious. RIP

Every Ok I’m confused. This was a great chapter but if Karen is Nathan’s sister, who’s the girl constantly all over him? Ginny or something?

After a long long day at work, I found myself all day coming back to our pm conversations Comicality. You had sooo much more to offer and your encouragement and love will never be forgotten…these lyrics just say it right.. 😘😪

My Only Escape spoke to me in ways I never knew possible as it is similar to my experience in a few ways.

RIP Comicality 😔 Reposted edited with a better lyrical version