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Uhh... ... I don't know who they are? Sorry! Sepia or Black and White? (Woot photography! ) Xander

I need to start reading more AND get a car. I'm trying to work close to full-time this summer for that reason...so I can buy a car or get a down payment made. I work at Applebee's....Applebee's rules!! Who's with me?! *looks around hoping not to hear cricket chirping* Xander

Gay Where do I begin? Geez, I can't believe no one had taken that yet!

Uhh...nope. Best wishes to those who have though! The person below me likes going out of town so that they can act any way they want with the mindset that they'll never see the people ever again.

Hey Vivey! I decided I missed the atmosphere of GA and miss reading peoples blogs and stuff so I'm gonna try and keep up with yours again now . I also need to get back to reading your stories in my spare time...shame on me for not, tsk-tsk . About Lisa at work possibly having twins...you said she's a twin herself...is she an identical twin? If so, the possibility of having identical twins herself isn't genetically related. Fraternal are the only type that gets passed down, and it skips a generation. I know this cuz I'm a big genetics nerd . Also, my grandma and grandpa had fraternal twins (my dad and uncle), so if I was straight and I got a girl pregnant, it would skip a generation (my dad) and make the possibility of me having fraternal twins quite high. If I don't talk to you before then, tell Rich Happy Birthday for me . Love ya Viv! Ronnie

Hey Kevin! Sorry that you've been kind of testy latley...it happens to the best of us. I don't know what it is about me, but whenever I get hurt and my mom tries to comfort me, I get mad at her for trying to comfort me and shove her away, lol. I think there might be a little subconscious thought occuring that goes like, "hey, you're always bashing gays and your son is gay, why bother comforting him? he's gay." Keep in mind that my mom doesnt know I'm gay, lol. Good luck! Ronnie

Wow...that's horrible! I know HTML, JavaScript, ActionScript and VB...doubt that's anything close to the complicatedness of that baby!

Wow. Both of those videos were awesome! And as for the comment that came up, that in some places, it's wiser to keep reserved about it, yes that's true. However, I think an additional or ad like this should be made for parents, telling parents to spread the word on acceptance of gay people. It's horrible how early homophobia can start in places like where I live...a teacher I had that's a friend of mine told me that she hear's 7th graders say "fag" all the time, and you know that they've probably heard it before then. What we need to happen as fast as possible is for the old conservative generation get swept out of the atmosphere and be replaced with a friendly, positive, accepting one, people who don't judge on race, sexuality, religion, etc. And these people will teach their children acceptance at an early age and they will grow up with that acceptance instilled in their minds and pass it on to their children and so it will continue. Xander

Okay, so recently I've been going to this Christian youth group thing after school on Thursdays because one day my I was walking around after school with my friend and one of her other friends dragged her to it, and I kind of got dragged into coming too. Don't get me wrong, I'm Catholic ( I know! ) but I just tend to stay away from stuff like that because Catholics DO tend to push their beliefs in your face (yeah, I'm Catholic and I hate when other Catholics do that). Anyway, so Day of Silence was Wednesday the 18th. For those of you who don't know, my friend Jacob and I organized the first Day of Silence event at my school and it was a great turn out...we got like 35 people in a school of mostly right-wingers. But anyway, we expected prejudice and hatrid, but it was way worse than we had anticipated...don't worry, no one got hurt or anything...it was just stuff like people calling us fags or homos, and heck, like 25 or more of those 35 were straight friends of ours, and people automatically assumed that they were gay or lesbian if they were wearing a shirt for the day. One kid came up to one of my friends and said, "God hates gay people and so do I!" and then he screamed it out loud in the lunch room...do you think he got in trouble for it either? Psh...no big deal. But yeah, my close friends and I realized how big of a problem it is, and we're currently working on an effort to make the school a better place and more open-minded. So the day after the Day of Silence was a Thursday, and I found myself at that youth group again. One of the youth group leaders (my age) asked us if there was anything we felt needed attention. I took a bold move (I'm talking in front of fellow Catholics and a young Pastor here, its bold) and brought up the Day of Silence. My friend Sarah who was also there didn't think it was a good idea, but I did anyway. So I go into a very deep, heart pouring speech about how terribly we were treated, how even strong-Catholics that were our friends (one was sitting right beside me) said derrogatory remarks at us or said something negative about gay people and then acted like nothing was wrong with it (and you know that they will just go to confession and think everythings all fine and dandy). So my little speech lasted for about 5 minutes and I brought it up because I was looking to discuss other peoples views on it and why that they thought it was okay to be a strong catholic and treat others as they wish to be treated, but apparently its okay to treat gay people like that. I get done, there was about a 5 second awkward pause, the Pastor looks at me and says "Okay..." and changes the subject, completely disreguarding me. So I was pissed off. I put my heart into that, and he just disreguarded it and changed the subject. So I decided, screw it, I'm not going anymore. So yesterday during lunch, a few of us were talking, and one of the other leaders of it asked me if I was coming to it again after school. I'm like..."No..." and she asked why and I explained that I didn't really care for the Pastor at all because I wanted to go into a deep discussion about it and he just changed the subject and I didn't really care to go anymore. So I wasn't planning on going, but I had to finish a spanish test after school and I wanted to quick look something up but didnt have my book, so I borrowed one from someone who was going to that youth group. So I get done finishing my test and come to the library where they have the meeting to give him his book back and I didn't really want to stay, but they conned me with cookies so I stayed . Litterally two seconds after I sit down, the pastor says, "I have something I want to get off my chest.....last week, I felt really uncomfortable when we started talking about the Day of Silence. I don't know how many else of you felt it, but it felt like the temperature in here went up like 150 degrees." So he gave his views on the whole "h-o-m-o-s-e-x-u-a-l-i-t-y" topic and I found it to be really ignorant based. You won't believe what he had the balls to say. He said that, *ahem* "Studies show that most 'homosexuals' have been raped or sexually molested as a child and that that could be the cause of their perversion, their twist, in attraction to the same sex." What the hell is wrong with people! The audacity of him!! But wait, it doesn't end there. He even went to the point to compare someone "choosing" to be gay to the choice of being a pothead, made by one of his friends. He then pulled a statistic out of his ass and said that in a lifetime, a straight person will have on average, a total of 70 sexual partners, and a gay person will have 700!!! I couldn't even comprehend having that many sexual partners! That would be like me having sex with everyone in the Junior and Senior class at my school! I haven't bothered to do research on that study, but my friend mentioned that she had heard that somewhere too. Okay, so say it does turn out to actually be that number. However, as sad as it is, in this country, you cannot always believe the studies made, because time after time again, the groups conducting the studies pick certain people or twist the experiments in a way that they get the result they want. Let me give you an example. Sugar. Kids like sugar. Sugar makes kids hyper, there's no doubt about it. Back when Redlin (ADHD drug) was huge, it was mentioned to help a child be less hyper-active, lessen their sugar intake because sugar makes them hyper, as we all know. The sugar companies weren't too happy with this. Would you if you were affiliated with the sugar companies? It was just stated that if you want to make your child less hyperactive, reduce their sugar intake. Uh-oh. People aren't going to be consuming as much sugar, we better do something quick. There was a study conducted whos results proved "that an increased sugar intake in a child does not affect behavior or hyperactivity." Oh, thank god. Our kids are safe. They can eat all the sugar they want because that's not doing any harm, they just must be destined to take Redlin until they're 16 or older. However, take a close look at the survey conducted, and you will see that the control group was fed a diet which included an extremely high amount of sugar! Adding more sugar to the test group is going to have little to no effect on a child that is already as hyper as hell and bouncing off the walls. So I'm curious whether or not the same techniques were used to gather this data. Who were these people that they surveyed? Could it be possible that they surveyed only gay prostitutes? A number of 700 sounds more fitting to a prostitute than anyone else I can think of, even the most horny, whorey of people..even Lorena . The same goes for the forestated ignorant comment about being raped or molested. Who did they ask? Is it not possible that they selected a group of gay people who happened to have been sexually abused as a child, or taken away from their parents or something along that lines? Because I don't know about you, but I was not raped or molested as a child, and I know two gay guys here that weren't. Two of my friends each have a gay uncle. They werent. My one friend's mom is a lesbian. She wasn't. So the odds arent exactly equalling the study based on the people I know, even if that is only a few. So what do you guys think about this whole ordeal. I mean, I knew it was a problem after the DOS and everything, but I can see where the hatred starts...I mean kids who go to groups like this typically look up to the person leading it, and if they have these kind of views (which is pretty much a given with most church groups), no wonder its so bad. Post your comments/opinions on this, I want to here them. Ronnie

I don't believe I know this Steven, but way to be brave. And you know what, that's all the truth. Who cares if you take care of yourself and are an emotional kind of guy? Taking care of yourself shows that your smart, as Viv said, and very simply, you care what you look like. That's all, and that's great! And being emotional? Some people are just emotional! Hell, I'm a Cancer...I'm very emotional, and being emotional to me means that your more in touch with yourself, which is a great and necessary quality in a person, in my opinion. And Viv you're great! I love ya! Ronnie

Okay, so I know I always make this excuse, but I get busy with school and all the crap that I'm in that I seem to put off coming to GA on occasion throughout the year and then I feel really shitty when I come back how many months later and yeah . Anyway! Spring play! We did Peter Pan! I got a somewhat big part this time....Smee! You know, Hook's fat little assistant stupid guy . It was awesome! I got to wear this fat suit belly thing, lol. And our school doesn't have a fly-space, so I made the flying scene with green screen because I'm just cool like that , hah, lol. Our performances went great - better the first night though, because the second night, some freshmen were encouraging this one "special" guy to try and trip the fairies as they danced around down stage . Kay, so I've been wanting for a long time to come out to someone other than people I know online, whether it be Justin (more on him later), my current good friends, or the openly gay guys here. Well the one openly gay guy, Jacob, I've gotten to know better the last couple of years and I trust him as a friend and everything...so..................(drum roll please...) I told him I was gay!! Like I told Viv, I decided that if I didn't just do it and get it over with, I probably never would have, but you know, now that I did, I don't really see the big deal about it, because you know, another gay guy isnt going to care....that really didn't come to me until afterwards. So last year was when I learned about the Day of Silence, and I was going to do something myself for it, because I live in a completely right-wing town, there is no pre-established Day of Silence organization set up. Well....I got involved with something else, I can't really remember, but I completely forgot about it and it went by and I felt crudy that I didnt do something for it . But this year, Jacob heard about it (I'm assuming that he just learned about it this year, I don't know for sure) and he started to get names and stuff a while back. Well the other night I noticed that Day of Silence was less than a week away and I noticed that Jacob hadnt emailed any of us, so that was when I made my bold move to tell him I was gay, following it by saying that "I guess this kind of explains my interest in the Day of Silence, huh?" and asked him what was up with it. Apparently, he got really busy and involved with some other things (sounds familiar, no?) and that it kind of snuck up on him, but me and him have been emailing back and forth and we are working the whole thing out. Jacob had talked to the principal friday after school and he said that we more than likely would be able to (Jacob commented that he had knew better than say no, because he would have had a lawyer talking to him by the end of the day, heh) but that he wanted to talk about it to a few of the other head ones. So this morning, they called an all-staff meeting, which I thought was pretty cool, heh, explaining to them what it was all about and everything. I'm sure quite a few of them weren't too happy about it, because I know one teacher for sure that is anti-gay, because I had her freshman year. It was an Intro to Computers class and we had to do a final powerpoint project thing, and one of our choices was "Marry your friends" in which you would have it as if a couple of your friends got married, and you had to make a powerpoint and invitations and all that fun stuff. While the teacher is explaining it, she comments that she won't tolerate any same-sex marriage projects, because to her, marriage is a union between a man and a woman and that is the way it should be. Well how do ya like them apples? Gay-power! So I put posters up all around the school this morning with my and Jacob's email address, and we had a little planning meeting this afternoon after school, and we're going to have another tomorrow. We're having shirts made as well...I had made a design myself, which was the Day of Silence logo on the front, then on the back was the symbols for men and women....two girls, side by side, a guy and a girl side by side, and two guys, side by side, and above it, it said, "Support Love". Well Jacob told me that he had another design in mind, and I didn't really protest, because it is his senior year and his first and last high school Day of Silence organization, so yeah. So on the front of the new shirts, it says a quote by Martin Luther King Jr, which is, "In the end, we will remember NOT the words of our enemies, but the SILENCE of our friends." and on the back, it has an text explanation from the Day of Silence website, which says: Day of Silence Please understand my reasons for not speaking today. I am participating in the Day of Silence, a national youth movement protesting the silence faced by lesbian, gay, bisexual and transgendered people and their allies. My deliberate silence echoes that silence, which is caused by harassment, prejudice, and discrimination. I believe that ending the silence is the first step toward fighting these injustices. Think about the voices you are not hearing today. What are you doing to end the silence? Day of Silence Project So yeah, it's gonna be awesome. I am a little concerned about gay-bashers and such, as are the principals, because that seemed to be their top priority, but I guess if anything gets out of hand, we're protected under the constitution, and I guess that's what cops are for...to arrest dumb-ass discriminating hicks . Then about Justin...you know, I decided quite a while back, which you guys would have heard about had I been on here more frequently, that I'm done with Justin. Not in a way like telling him to f**K off, go die, but in a way that I don't really care what he does. I mean, I still talk to him and treat him as I always have, but I'm not tagging along with him anymore or begging for attention. I never hang out with him anymore, but he's okay with that, as am I now okay with it. I have better friends now...friends that actually care to be a part of my life and want to do things with me. Hell, like one of my best friends moved to Canada and I bet we talk more than Justin and I do when we have half of our classes together. But, I'm in a good place right now. Good friends, good people...smart people....people that don't get into trouble. Heck more than half of the people participating in the Day of Silence thus far are from my extended group of friends from drama and interp and such, so yeah. I'm doing great! Leave some comments! I haven't heard from all of you guys in so long! Ronnie

"Road Tasted" in my pants!

No, I don't believe so. The person below me is watching the news.

"World of Our Own" in my pants!

About time they come out with a movie about gay teens.

Uhh, lol, never heard of either one, but....I'd have to say Starburst kiss...that sounds sexier. Having a pet rabbit or a pet guinea pig. To me they're both evil things to have as pets.

How bout a round of Christmas songs? Walking in a Winter Wonderland in my pants! Frosty the Snowman in my pants! Rudolf the Red-nosed Reindeer in my pants! Jingle Bells in my pants! We Wish you a Merry Christmas in my pants! God Rest Ye Merry Gentlemen in my pants! Joy to the World in my pants! Let it Snow, Let it Snow, Let it Snow in my pants! I'm not even gonna mention "Little Drummer Boy" or "I saw Mommy Kissing Santa Claus"

I was thinking about this one day as well. I shamefully havent written down a request for notification to my friends on here, and will soon get on that! I mean, I disappear off of here every so often because I get so busy, but I'm signed into MSN a great deal of the time and occasionally find time to talk to a few of you guys on here. But should something happen to me and I'm not on here for a LOOOONG time and ditto with MSN, a few have my address and I'm sure could somehow find out and notify you guys. It's kinda scary talking about this, because like the saying goes, "tomorrow is not promised to anyone" and I know it first hand, because my best friend died when we were quite young...

Hey Kitty! You work so hard on the site and we all really appreciate it! Thanks a lot! Ronnie

Nope, I'm all fine and happy with my work hours . The person below me is so totally pissed at Sony and is one of the, probably, millions affected by their recent laptop battery recall. Yeah, so our school collected all of our batteries on Friday to sort out the suspected 350/1000-some defective batteries. We get to school today early to pick up our batteries when there is an announcement saying that we underestimated the number of those affected. Apparently, we got hit with about 850 of the bad batteries that could have a chance of exploding and burning your house down. Yeah, so they told us that it could be up to 8-9 weeks before we get replacements, so in the meantime, we have to be plugged in to use our laptops, which is waaaaaay more inconvenient that it sounds. I also don't like the fact that my history teacher finds fun in this: "You know what I like about this whole battery-recall ordeal? Shut your laptops." A few kids keep typing away. He goes over to the wall and unplugs the power strip. "I am God!!" .

Thank you Myr, for creating this awesome site. This has been a place for learning, accepting myself and not to mention, meeting some great, great friends. I don't really remember my life before GA, lol, and it's only been about two years. I love this place! You rock, Myr!

I don't remember exactly how I found it right now either, although I believe I recall something about Nifty...but then I question how I found Nifty...heh.

Hey Joey! Thanks for all what you've contributed in the awesomeness of GA. Ronnie

Ooo...ask the Baby Geniuses , lol....okay...anyone but me remember that movie? lol Yeah, I pretty much always remember it. The person below me keeps in contact with some of their old teachers.