Phantom

Thanks for the advice everyone and taking the time to post it... it was a bright spot in an otherwise moody day. It's just been rough lately and i'm starting to work things out in my head and set my priorities straight (or gaily forward as Matt would say) and I really appreciate the advice.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Hope it's fun and don't party to hard

It hurts right now, the thoughts echoing through my mind. It

Yes... more members to do my eeeevil bidding... bwa ha ha ha ha! Er I mean.... Congrats GA! .....Don't mind my evil plotting

Ditto to what Kevin said... my letter was sent with the same reasons as mentioned by everyone above.

Best case scenario: Just a video card issue (going from memory) or a monitor issue Worse case scenario: Your computer is dead which REALLY blows! BUT... here's the thing... If you computer is dead... you can take out the hard drive and install it into a external 3.5" hard drive enclousure, which you can then use to copy all of your documents, music, etc from the hard drive to the laptop. Yes, it sounds complicated, but its rather simple when you do it. Check out this site for deals on hard drive enclosures... it's good and I've ordered parts from there before and never had an issue http://www.newegg.com/Store/SubCategory.as...rnal-Enclosures Got any questions i'm only a pm or im away Eric

Ok... if you should know I'm a big animal lover, and if you hurt them or do anything wrong with them, expect me to do something about it! RWAR! I went to work today and across from my job is a house and on the porch was a dog who was out side. Her name (I later found out) was Dolly. I'm not sure what type of dog she is, but she was really cute. Now I could hear her barking and at first I thought it was cus she was outside. After an hour I look outside and her bark is getting more panicky (you can tell cus it started to have a whine/cry to it) and I could see her pawing at the door. I walked over and looked around and saw that she had no food or water outside and nothing to sleep on which got me ticked off. I looked and saw that there was no one home, so I called the ASPCA. The woman who answered said someone would call me back, but never did. Another hour passes by and its getting colder outside and Dolly was still barking and carrying on. One of the customers I had mentioned that the dog (Dolly) has been carrying on since at least 1pm which got me PISSED! How could you treat an animal like that? Leave her outside with no water, food or anything to sleep on and also leave her outside in the cold (the temp was around 40 or so, high of 50's). That did it for me. I called Red Bank police and reported a case of animal cruelty (thanks to my internet sluthing) and told them excatly what was going on. A few minutes later the police came by and observed the situation and told me that if they couldn't get in touch with the owner, that they would call the ASPCA. Well they couldn't so the ASPCA comes around and take Dolly away, leaving a notice on the door saying that they could contact the ASPCA of Eatontown the next business day in regards to Dolly being taken away. Well... around 10ish, I got a call from the guy at the ASPCA (cus I was concerned about the dog and asked the guy to let me know what was going on when he could) and he told me that Dolly was doing well. She was in a kennel with food and water and that there were no outward signs of abuse. He also told me that she would be staying with them until the owners were investigated for animal cruelty and from what he said, they could be issued a fine or a court summons (which I hope they do ) and that if she was abused, that they would take her away and keep her at the kennel (which thankfully is a no-kill shelter). I hope the best for Dolly and hope that everyone on GA does the right thing... if you suspect a case of animal cruelty contact your local ASPCA and ask to speak with an animal cruelty officer and tell him all of the details of the situation and don't leave anything out. If it's an emergancy, like you see someone beating or hurting an animal in anyway call the police right away! Eric

Yea.... things tend to go boom around CJ.... the goat is pure evil I tell ya! Hope your havin fun CJ!

Yup. I'm the only one allowed to corrupt the members on here

Here... hope it works this time

Well... I have a friend to introduce to everyone.... Meet Brandi Fyerce... (yes it's me)

HAPPY 23rd BIRTHDAY DEMETZ! Hope it's a great one and remember to have a blast!!!

After the most recent blow out with my mom and me, me and Matt decided that it was time for me to move out and get my own place. Well... we looked at one place today in Ocean Grove and it didn't go so hot. It was cozy to say the least, kinda on the small side. It was a bedroom, kitchen, bathroom, living room and that's it. When we looked around at it thats when we got the low down. In an area where an apartment like this should go for (according to the websites that I checked 600-800 a month) the guy wanted $1,050. To which me and Matt looked at each other and went hell no, but looked at the guy and said we would look at where we were and think about it, meaning hell no. WE told him that the highest we could go is 700, the medium of what the area is and he looked like he we were speaking greek. So yea... it sucks. It was a huge blow to us and really disheartning. Maybe we'll have better luck with a cardboard box.

Happy Bday Lugh!

I don't know how to title this... so I'm gonna leave it untitled... Me and my mom had a blow out again... this time it's left me numb and confused... I don't know what to do.. I want to run away... or at least get away from her cus the more i'm around her, the more its hurting. I know she loves me, but it still hurts what she says to me... I'm numb inside, and i'm lost and confused...

It's been awhile... so I figured I would let you guys know whats going on with me of late. Recently, the weather's been getting nicer so I figured what better way to get back into shape then by biking to and from places while I wait to save up for my car. It would be a lot better (and quicker) to get to and from the train station (compare a 10 minute bike ride to that of a 30 min walk). I could use it to go places quicker and well, it would be better. Unfortunatly, lady luck decided to recently cast me with a case of bad luck. Since i'm not in school right now, my student loans came due and on top of that, my medical bills of late are still there. I've been looking around for second hand bikes and such, but no luck. Even the Wal-Mart by me has their cheapest bike at 100 bucks or so. Out of my price range right now. It's funny though, I've been thinking about starting a "Save Eric's Sanity Fund" (since these bills are making me crazy) webpage and ask for donations from people using paypal, but I'm not that desperate.... yet... lol... On a lighter note, I've decided to resurect my drag queen side and make an appearance at my boyfriends 21st Birthday party. Brandi Fyerce will be making an appearance because of a plan that me and my friends worked out. As far as Matt knows, I'll be working that night and unable to attend his birthday. Well, I got that night off and decided to suprise him that way. Well, after looking at the crazy Brit Brit pics (you know, the ones where she shaved her head and donned the infamous pink wig?) I was inspired to bring back Brandi Fyerce, albeit a bit tuned down, since we will be in a restaurant where she makes her appearance. My plan is to turn it out a little for the children and for Matt especially since he never saw my super Queen side of me lol. Speaking of Matt, things are going really well between me and him. We're coming up on our 6 month anniversary and we're loving every minute of it. He's been there for me so much, I couldn't ask for anyone better then him. I've been doing a bit of writing on some more random topics, mainly trying my hand at different genres and seeing where I go with that. It came to my mind that if I write something as good as the hosted authors here, maybe I could find someone to publish it and make some money off of it, i'm not talking about thousands of dollars, but at least something to help out with the bills a little. Gah there I go, about the bills again! *Smacks self* Bad Eric BAD! Other then that, Work and World of Warcraft have taken over my life. Yea, sad I know. Hmmm... Oh! I kinda put my smoking and coffee addiction aside for good. I'm on the nicotine patch and it's helping and the coffee is gone as well, replaced by tea. I'm trying to make myself healthier and get back in shape. That's it... see ya all's around! Eric

Oh poo. Not available in the United States, and I'm to lazy to proxy my IP address to England. Oh well... looks cool and cant wait to try it out over here. Till then, I'll stick to my iPod. Eric

Yea I remember that he's done it a few times in the past...

Hmmm huge prick eh? Can I see Let me say this... you arn't a prick, at least not one that I can see. You're a great guy and I hope that you get it Eric

It's one of the most simple questions, but at the same time, one of the hardest questions to ever yourself. It's four simple words, very plain english, and yet, it can send someone reeling trying to answer it. This question is also one that is constantly asked by people both young and old, and one that will forever haunt us and follow us when we do answer it. What is this question you may ask? What are your dreams? Easy to say right? No big vocabulary words in it, no hidden meanings, just a plain question that is the hardest one to answer. So I ask you. What is your dream? What do you want from life, something that will bring you untold joy to your future? To start, mine is simple and complex. I want to help LGBTQ teens by giving them the advice and help that they need. I want to give them a place, or work in a place where they can be free to be themselves, and not face the judgment of others. I want to give them someone to talk to that can help them, and not try to take advantage of them or their situation in anyway. I want to show them what it's like to make good choices and what it can bring about. Ultimatly, my biggest dream is to help at least one teen avoid suicide because they feel that there is nothing else left for them and no one to help them. That's my dream. What's yours?

Happy BeLated Bday!!!!!

It's time we had a cor ad cor loquitur (heart speaks to heart) It's simple really, something that was eating me all day. I have no clue with what I really want to do in the short run. Yes I have dreams, but I have no clue how to get to them. I want to work with kids, speciafically the gay kids and such. But to do that, I have to goto school, and I can't afford that, even with loans, and it's sorta depressing really. It's like having a carrot dangled in front of you, only to have it yanked away everytime you got close to it. Sad no? In other news, everything is going pretty well. I managed to buy a new desktop recently and decided to stop carting my laptop around with me unless I'm going to be out on the town or staying over a friends house and such. Me and Matt had a rough spot that we worked through, thanks to the most amazing thing. Communication. I'm not gonna bore you with the details, but pretty much we talked it through and things are looking like they're getting better. I know, it's a short blog, but I want to leave you with one last latin phrase: In omnibus requiem quaesivi, et nusquam inveni nisi in angulo cum libro.

I gotta say CJ, I'm happy your FINALLY treating my namesake right... also amazing chapter so far... I'll read it throughly later when I have a chance to take it all in Eric

I remember one time I was in New York City, back when I would dress in a very punk fashion, and on this occassion I wore a black shirt with white lettering that said "Sorry girls, i'm gay." I was riding the subway back to Penn Station when this guy who I never saw before decided to start harassing me. He kept calling me the spanish word for fag and some other not so nice stuff. At first I ignored him until I got off at the platform, a stop ahead of where I was suppsoed to get off. He decided to follow me off the platform then he did the not so good thing. He grabbed me by the shoulder. I spun around and hooked him in his face, breaking his nose (I could tell by the amount of blood that was pouring from it). I then took a step back and round house kicked him, sending him to the ground. When he was down on the ground I told him in spanish "How's it feel to get youer butt handed to you by a fag?" People who were watching started to applaud me and I smiled. I left the station and proceeded to walk to Penn Station. This is why you don't mess with someone who's had two years of self defense training and also took kickboxing... we're vicious. Also I do feel a little bad for beating the crud out of him because well, that's not who I am, but I do claim self-defense in this case so I don't feel as bad. Eric

Hey everyone! Recently I've come into a dilemma, and I figured I'd seek out you input and advice. It's nothing to serious, but it's something that I kinda want to see what others think. To date, I've been using really three different programs to write my stories, OpenOffice.org, MS Office and Google Docs. I like all three but it's getting to the point where I can't remember where I put my stories and such, or the one format I save it in isn't compatible with a program. So, out of the three, which do you prefer to use and why? It'll go a long way to helping me with this deliema. Also, if there's another program that you use, please post it and describe it a little, I'm always intrested in trying new things! Eric