Nephylim

I'm really glad you are enjoying this story. I was worried before I started to post that in a lot of ways this story was more about emotions and relationships than action and it certainly isn't one of my sweetest ones, although there is nothing like the horror that appeared in Enigma. This is more about how people behave and how other people perceive their behaviour. Yeah... I guess that, in fact that is mostly what it's about... more than I had realised until I thought about it just now. Weird how you write things and don't even realise it until someone points it out. Hmmm River is having a tough time of it at the moment. He has to make choices and, like us all when we make hard choices he kind of goes overboard in justifying them to himself.. and others... or not

The days that follow are Halcyon days indeed. Ben and Silver become closer and closer, and it is beautiful to see. More and more I find myself on the outside looking in, my joy tinged with sadness. When Ben is asleep in bed I curl up next to Silver on the large battered sofa and wish that he was someone I could talk to about my fears and worries... but I can’t. That would be unfair because Silver doesn’t understand most of them, and if I make him understand it will crush him. When I lie ne

Is that the end? I really hope so... not because I don't want to read any more but because it's the perfect place to leave the guys and I don't want them to suffer any more. That was such an awesome story. I loved every word of it even if you do have a tendency to mix up names now and again Thank you for a tense, exciting and heartwarming story

That was a fabulous chapter, really exciting and it's great that Michael is in custody but it;'s not over for the guys is it. You just can't help yourself can you?

AAAARGGHHHH You total bitch (in the best possible way.) My nails were really nice before this Thank goodness I waited for lots of chapters to be posted.

Ah HELL. Damn you woman. Lull us into a false sense of security then BAM. I hope that Blaine is ok. I loved the way that Levi blasted the fbi. Way to go Levi

Yet another tense chapter. The FBI agents seem cool though. I think I would enjoy having either of them around

And the pressure rises. Serial killer; sexy agents... wow. I can understand why Blaine feels guilty but it's great that he now has all this support.

I like the way you went from the scary man to the sweet love. Christian is even more of a bastard than I though. he so doesn't deserve his name... hang on... yeah maybe he does I am waiting with bated breath for the next chapter so... here i go to read it

They are so good at not noticing things That was really exciting. Christian gave me the creeps. What's next

That was a tense chapter but there was room for lots of little details and side issues, like the policewoman, that really made it come alive.

I don't know who i feel sorrier for Blaine or Levi. I can see where Blaine is coming from but it must be killing Levi not only that he;s gone but why he's gone. Levi knows that Blaine didn't leave because he didn;t love him but that he had left precisely because he loved him too much to risk him being hurt. I hope that Levi doesn't just give up on him.

You last lines are always... interesting and the two guys seem really good at not noticing things. Fortunately they are definitely noticing each other which is utterly awesome.

You like cliffhangers don't you. Grrrr. Nice chapter though. it's good to see that Blaine has so many people who like him. That says a lot about his character. I think the quote 'you can judge a man by the company he keeps' is a good one. Moving on to chapter 8 can't wait to see what comes next.

One tiny tiny criticism. You called Blaine Levi at one point. Apart from that this was a really great chapter. I wanted to kill Christian when he hurt Ruff. The last few sentences were scary. I figure it was Christian. So what is he going to do? Given the story description I bet it's nothing good

Yeah, I liked the whole looking for each other and missing each other thing. I think they are going to make a cute couple but I am just wondering if the whole thing wasnt just a bit too fast.THey've just met and suddenly they're in love. I totally belive in love at first sight but this is a bit full on/ Not that I'm complaining at all because I just love them to bits

Mark's a great friend. He's just the right mix of concerned, teasing and wise. I hope that Blaine listens to his advice.

That was a hearwarming chapter. I loved the bit where they were walking back...the carrying thing was hilarious. And the end was so bitter sweet. I like the way you write. It's very easy to read and I'm a sucker for dialogue

That was such a cute chapter. I am sooo embarassed that I got Baine's name wrong in the last review that I suppose I should have to like him if only for that. On the other hand I like him anyway after what he did fot the pup. I guess that he got left behind when someone came camping. Little bugger must have wandered off. I hope that no one out there is too upset at losing their pet and that they don't come back and take him away from Blaine. I have so warned to Levi too although at the beginning I thought he was very pushy. You have to admire him though. he sees what he wants and goes all out to get it/ One more chapter before I get started on my chores

Well, I hate Christian, love Mark and am pretty ambiguous about Riley until I get to know him better Fine writing my dear. Can't wait to see what Riley decides to do.

I've had a song written for me for Valentine's Day by my ex, He is an awesome guitar player and songwriter. We're still good friends. He also wrote a song with my son for some occasion, I can't remember. My son sang it for me and his dad played. It was so touching especially when my son gave me the paper it had been written on and he had copied the words himself. I still have it. It is such a special thing I am really glad that it happened to you and I hope it leads to something wonderful

Thank you everyone. I know I was being silly but I guess it catches up with all of us now and again. One of the problems, I think is that I'm so damned isolated. Because of the kind of life I've led I have a lot of friends but they're all so bloody far away. And I know that some of them would be here in an instant for me (well a couple of hours travelling) but I'm not going to ask them to because they have lives and worries of their own I suppose that's why i let it out on here because you're all great but you can't drop everything and come rushing in so you won't feel obliged to or guilty if you don't. I was sitting on the train yesterday and looking at all the people around me and thinking how different I am to them all. That made me realise that I'm different to so many people there really isn't much chance of finding someone like me or even someone who accepts me as I am, are enough like me to provide me with the stimulation I need from a relationship (Not that kind of stimulation I mean someone who is on the same wavelength) I have had dates with people who ket freaked out just walking into my house. I spent a third of my life being someone different on the outside than on the inside, being afraid to be my real self, to show the world who I am. Now that I have the courage to do that I'm not compromising for anyone. I don't mean that I won't compromise within a relationship... that's stupid and destructive; what I mean is that I am not pushing what I am on the inside again. i am not going to or pretend to stop believing what I believe and doing what I do. If you don't like my blue hair I am not going to dye it. If you don't like my skulls and dakness (especially the goth dolls which are my joy and the paintings I have all around... well you've seen them so you know) I am not going to pack them all up and put them in the attic. That's the kind of thing I am a witch and a druid and I read tarot and have a crystal ball and do candle magic and celebrate the festivals. I have ghosts in my house who I like having around and am not about to force out. I have black cats and cauldrons and a view of the world that can be offputting. And i love it. I love the way I live. I love my life. I just wish someone loved me and could share it. I'm not depressed about it though. My life is very full and on the whole I am very happy. it's just that every now and again... you know...

There have been times in my life when I have felt lonely. I have thought that I would come to terms with it, that it would get easier. Today I think it's probably worse than ever. I guess I am feeling sorry for myself. It happens sometimes; more as I'm getting older and more and more of my life passes by outside the window (That's not a physical window... just saying ) I was thinking on the train today... there's about as much chance of me getting to be prime minister as of me finding someone to love me right now. I know I say to you over and over that you should just be patient and it will come... when you're in you 20's or 30's that't true. When you're approaching 50, it's not so easy. Add to that the facts that:- I have black and blue hair I am a vampire I think death is sexy and have strange kinks (even stranger than the whips and chains) I believe that I was... and kind of still am... in love with a fallen angel (Semjaza if anyone's intersted, which I bet no one will be) I'm a lawyer which gives people certain expectations I'm overweight and have a lot of health problems. I'm totally unprepared to compromise on any of the things that make me me for anyone. If there is anyone out there for me they are going to have to take me as I am or not at all So, I was figuring that the chances of finding someone who is preapred to take on all of that AND who I find attractive is about zero, especially in this backwater chav heaven. I have had my house on the market for a while and i hope to move to somewhere with more life but even then.... Meh I feel like shit but I guess it was good to get it off my chest. Any offers?

I prefer to look at content and generally dont cringe at bad grammar I just have an irresistable urge to correct it.

That was wonderful. There was just something that reached out and grabbed me. I wish I could have an experience like that