Nephylim

There have been times in my life when I have felt lonely. I have thought that I would come to terms with it, that it would get easier. Today I think it's probably worse than ever. I guess I am feeling sorry for myself. It happens sometimes; more as I'm getting older and more and more of my life passes by outside the window (That's not a physical window... just saying ) I was thinking on the train today... there's about as much chance of me getting to be prime minister as of me finding someone to love me right now. I know I say to you over and over that you should just be patient and it will come... when you're in you 20's or 30's that't true. When you're approaching 50, it's not so easy. Add to that the facts that:- I have black and blue hair I am a vampire I think death is sexy and have strange kinks (even stranger than the whips and chains) I believe that I was... and kind of still am... in love with a fallen angel (Semjaza if anyone's intersted, which I bet no one will be) I'm a lawyer which gives people certain expectations I'm overweight and have a lot of health problems. I'm totally unprepared to compromise on any of the things that make me me for anyone. If there is anyone out there for me they are going to have to take me as I am or not at all So, I was figuring that the chances of finding someone who is preapred to take on all of that AND who I find attractive is about zero, especially in this backwater chav heaven. I have had my house on the market for a while and i hope to move to somewhere with more life but even then.... Meh I feel like shit but I guess it was good to get it off my chest. Any offers?

I prefer to look at content and generally dont cringe at bad grammar I just have an irresistable urge to correct it.

That was wonderful. There was just something that reached out and grabbed me. I wish I could have an experience like that

Ooooh that was wonderful. Poor Blake. He's going to feel crap in the morning. Oh heck... he's going to remember what happened and he isn't going to think about Haze holding his hand he's going to think about all the other stuff that happened and about Derrick. And Derrick knows about Blake being in love with Haze. Lots and lots going on, a whirlpool in his mind and heart. Is it going to pull him down or is it going to shake him out of it., Wonderful writing. This story sucked me in at the start and is still holding me by the throat

Gosh I missed the boat again. Sorry I'm late guys but welcome to GA anyway. Hope you learn a little, laugh a lot and overall have fun

Gulp. That was some roller coaster. After my own stories i can't really call you cruel can I but you've certainly hooked us in there I'm used to sitting around hospital beds there's pretty much one in every story I really like your characters and your descriptions. Looking forward to finding out what happens next

I am more than happy with the no sex bit. I think that, given the tone of the rest of the story it wouldn;t have fit. It was a little too testosterone loaded for my taske but that doesn't mean I can't appreciate the strength of the story or the fabulous way it is written. I liked the story.

Boy, you are pertty I LOVE the blue hair It's time is numbered Not getting rid of mine for no one and nuthin' Good luck with the job hunting.

You can always come to stay with me but wirth 2 1/2 days not really feasible is it Sorry hun, don't know the US at all. But good luck for an awesome break and you have to tell us all about it when you get back

Marylin... looking good There are lots of people who don't have english as a first language. If you are worried get and editor or beta to look over the work before we publish. We always love to see new writers. Breeze... very glad to meet you I hope you enjoy yourself in this crazy place

WOOO 20 years old old old old old :music:HAPPY BIRTHDAY :wub:

I'd kiss anywhere and anywhen as to whether i would with anywho... well that's for me to know my favourite kiss is in the rain

Welcome welcome welcome everyone Been having a little computer trouble so unfortunately there are too many of you to give personal welcomes but hey..... welcome to GA everyone. I'm looking forward to getting to know you

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Uh oh... two in one chapter. TUT TUT Coop. He's going to have some explaining to do... although I can't help feeling that it was Kyle's fault. He cant say... just go with it and then be pissed when he does.... although he probably will be

Ooookay. This is getting way too sweet. Something is in the air and it looks to me as if it's going to be Michael

Uh oh... justifying.. NOT GOOD. If you have to justify your actions then there were undobtedly wrong and the G word is following close behind (Guilt that is)

This weekend, some hot stud is going to come along, look at you the right way and before you know it, you’ll be half bent over a kitchen counter with a rolling pin sized cock in your ass - that line was just utterly classic. It painted such a wonderful picture This is getting more and more complicated. i wonder if Kyle means what he's saying or is being insecure and giving Coop a way out. Coop is a good guy but I wonder if he isn't storing up a whole world of pain

You are definitely improving hun. This was a wonderful chapter, very delicate in the way it was written. it contains a deceptive amount of detail in information, hidden behind a good story and simple style and strong believable characters. How far they have come from Matt's first day at university. The visions invtroduced some real tension... not that it needed any more... and a poignancy that flavours everything that occurs betweent the two boys between now and then. The details of the world they inhabit are becoming more vivd and I am getting more and more drawn into it. There are still some issues with the formatting though that makes some parts difficult to read.

Terrible timing. Poor poor Blake... and Haze too for that matter. Gods Blake is in a dangerous situation... I'm litterally shuddering to thnk what could happen next. There is a possibility for TOTAL disaster.

Yesterday we visited Sam. It was the first time Ben had been there and he loved it. From the moment he set foot in the garden he got excited and dragged Silver and Jake off to give him a tour. For the rest of the day the three of them ran wild. Sam did a barbecue in the garden and I don’t think any of them stayed still for more than a few minutes to grab a quick bite or two. They raced around the garden, playing football, climbing trees or just chasing each other. When they got tired they we

oh the things those three boys get up to. But it can't be really can it? Silver isn't twelve or fourteen years old. He's a grown up and at some point he is going to have to grow up. In the meantime though they're having a blast. Thank you as always for the review, they are always really appreciated

Snuggles to everyone

As soon as the door closes, Silver all but collapses. It has all been too much for him. He didn’t understand a thing about what happened and it scared him. I think it scared him even more than he revealed at the time. How the hell is he going to get over his fear of people, when people treat him like this? The comments made by Aunt Sophy were the start of it and he has tried so hard... so hard. One good thing is that Ben, sweet adorable Ben, instantly forgets his own distress, climbs up on

Thank you sooooooooooo much everyone. I am so grateful but my beautiful Sam fixed it for me like an angel out of the blue and I have Word again BUT. while I'm on the subject of help... why are my statuses coming up twice. Not a real issue... just wondered Updates coming up