Time Will Tell - 15. Chapter 15

In those months though, my friend was there to help me. She was my rock. And then came Trent. A hot sexy little number that I was shocked to find out he liked me just as I did him. Those days have come and gone. Only to be replaced by happier times, happier moments. Not saying that those days are not special to me because they are. I wouldn’t be here if it weren’t for Tammy and Trent. I lost my virginity to my first boyfriend. However, it was on the last day that I was going to be living in Colorado. That day was emotional, just thinking about it, makes me tear up. And that’s what this is about. This is about a short summarization of what a few short months can do for a person.

1; Got a hot boyfriend 2; Got sent to the hospital 3; Lost virginity 4; Moved to Arizona 5; Began loving my new school 6; Made new friends 7; Started to accept my family 8; Met someone new (Hint later in chapter)

Dammit I didn’t want to cry. But here I am. Wiping the tears that fell from my eyes. I’ve already accepted my fate. I’m sorry heart, but the brain is right. It’s the right things to do. It has to be done…

Part Z

One door closes another opens

After saving the journal entry. I close my laptop and sigh. It sure is funny and exciting at the same time. I mean the people that meant the most to me, are quite frankly not that close anymore. I still have love for them, but friends don’t last when you’re out of state and in high school. You make new friends, your life gets busy again. You stop hurting as much as you did before. You start to accept things.

“Hey Bro, you almost done in here. We have a party to setup for..?” My brother Josh pokes his head into my room.

I turn around and look at him, “Yea I’m done. I had to finish a journal entry. Doctors orders.” I wipe the tear that escape my eye.

“You okay..?” He asks, getting concerned

“Yeah… Yeah,” I pause, “Just got emotional is all. Things have certainly changed in these last few months.” He opens his mouth to say something, “Don’t Josh. You know what I mean. Going from that to this, it’s kind of mind numbing. Exciting but scary at the same time.”

“Okay, Bro whatever you say.” He leans against my door.

I chuckle at him, “Who’s all coming again?” Here it is the beginning of summer and our mom has promised to let us throw a pool party. Yes you read that right, mom. It took me three sessions with the therapist to even say that she is my mom. We still haven’t had the combined session yet. But, it is looking good for now.

“A few our friends… Nathan… You know some other people. This party isn’t going to be huge but it will be fun… Yeah, definitely fun. We have to start the summer off correctly.” He smiles wide and chuckles. Have I told how his laugh is contagious? NO, well it is… Because within a few moments I laugh with him.

With a huge sigh, I lift myself out of the chair and walk passed him to stairs. You know how when I first arrived here, I didn’t want to touch anything, eating anything, always scared of what I could and couldn’t do. Well that has changed, my therapist suggested trying different things, and they have worked wonders so far. Not that I’m pushing the envelope or anything. Just being a normal teenager.

Resting my elbows on the counter I look towards my brother. It’s already turning 1:30 and the party is to start at 3:00. I’m excited but scared because I have already planned on doing something later tonight but I don’t want anyone to know, yet.

“How do I look..?” I ask him

“You look hot, especially with those new clothes that you bought last week. Who knew you could dress.” He laughs

I pick up an apple and tossed it at him, he laughs even harder. “I know how to dress. Back then I didn’t have the finances like I do now.” I smile at him, “Besides I wanted to dress nice for someone…” I stop talking and blush.

“Yeah that someone being six foot one, has piercing bedroom eyes, has six pack abs, a killer smile, fine ass legs, not including that ass of his. Yeah, I know who you are talking about. You ain’t fooling me.” He smiles broadly, while my face flames up. I wanted nothing more than to sink beneath the wooden floor.

“Stop teasing your brother. It’s not his fault, Nathan is hot!” My mother comes to rescue but she didn’t have to say that…

“MOM!” I exclaim

“What..?” She acts innocent

“Ugh! I dislike you guys right now.” I pout, while my face is still on fire

“No you don’t. You love us. I’m sorry honey, we don’t care who you date…” She pauses and looks at Josh, “We just want you happy.” She smiles while she combs my hair out my eyes.

“Thanks mom.” I smirk

“Anytime hun.” She says

I turn back towards my brother, to find that he is on his phone. Smiling at whatever it is that he is looking at… “And what has my brother smiling?” I ask

“Huh… Oh, um nothing. Jeff just sent me something cute.” I roll my eye at that.

“Alright, well I’m going to shower and change. Unless you want me to do something?” I ask

“Something like?” He asks

“I don’t know help setup the party. Getting whatever that hasn’t been setup, setup…” I shrugs my shoulders.

“No its alright. Theres only a little bit left to do anyway.” He looks at me with a smirk, “Besides you’re going to be busy getting ready. Who knows how long that will take…” He laughs

“Are you calling me a girl?” I scowl at him

“Hah no Devon. But I do know what this party is for you.” He smiles

“Alright, whatever. I’m going to go now.”

What to wear what to wear? I ask myself, I have been going through my clothes for the past hour. My bed is trashed, it has a big pile of clothes on it. I cant even see my pillows. “Fuck!” I said to the person standing in the mirror. I’m getting frustrated how can I have this many clothes but nothing looks right on me? Just how.

“Damn.” My brother says he enters my room. One look at him, and he holds up his hands in surrender.

“I can’t find anything that will look nice.” I once again look at the mirror. Hopeless, I start to take off my shirt.

“I’m surprised you haven’t found something. So in a way you are a girl.” He laughs, “I mean no offense to it, but a guy would care less if he looked hot or not. He would just throw something together. You’re over thinking..” He picks a tee with a pair of shorts and walks them over to me. I looked at them, and sighed.

The tee had a sarcastic slogan on it. I am far from sane, I like my t-shirt to hug me. “So you think this will be okay wear?” I look at him with a skeptical look.

“It’s totally fine. It fits you to a T.” He smiles. As for the shorts, they are kind of plain looking, I mean they have some stripes down the sides. They are light grey. Why not. Shrugging I put them on and look at myself in the mirror. ‘Not bad’ I thought

“Doesn’t look too horrible. Thanks bro.” I smile at him through the mirror.

“Don’t go getting mushy on me.” He holds up his hands in mock surrender. We laugh about it for a moment.

As if on cue the buzzer for the doorbell rings. My anxiety spikes right then, letting me know just how real this is about to get. With a sigh, I trail behind my brother as we descend the stairs. With each passing moment, my heart is pounding more fierce against my ribcage. “I can do this… I can do this… Don’t freak out. You got this.” I tell myself. He went towards the front door as I went into the kitchen and sat at the island.

“Hey whats up buddy?” the only voice that could make me swoon stood behind me. I could feel him looking at me, like drilling holes into my head. Moving my head from side to side, I turn around and look at him. And damn does he clean up good. Like fuck!

“Hee…” I clear my throat, “Hey whats up Nathan?” I stammer out, mentally kicking myself for sounding stupid in front of him.

“Dude, not much. Happy summer is finally here!” He says with a wide a grin, displaying his perfectly aligned teeth.

“This last semester was brutal to tell the truth. I didn’t know if I was going to make it, honestly.” I laugh

“I think you did really well. From what your brother tells me of course.” He laughs

“What has you two all happy and laughing?” My brother comes walking up just then.

We both look at him, “Just catching up.” Nathan says

“You guys look kind of cute together.” He says as he turns around laughing and books it out the door. With Nathan hot on his heels. Nathan tackles him to the ground and straddles him. Pinning his arms above his head. And I’m over here thinking how I wish that was me instead of my brother. Shaking my head, I look somewhere else in the yard. I don’t need to be thinking like that towards my brothers best friend. Because, god forbid if we do end up dating, and then we break up. What would happen to their friendship? I wouldn’t know how to handle that.

“Hey what are you thinking about?” My brother jogs over and asks me

“You wouldn’t want to know…” I try to smirk, but I think it came off as a constipated scowl

“Let me guess… Nathan?” He asks, and of course I blush

“Devon, Trent is like three states away. The relationship that you think you have you don’t.” I literally look at him like ‘what the fuck did you just say’ He holds up his hands in surrender. “I don’t mean anything mean by it, but you do think it will last?” He asks, and then continues, “When was the last time you two actually talked, and not texted?” He asks, and then continues when I don’t say anything. “Exactly… The relationship is already over. I’m sorry bro. But it’s the truth. Now if you think by getting together with Nathan will jeopardize our friendship don’t. We were friends before you two and we will remain as such. So why the hell not? Have some fun!” He laughs

“So you think that Nathan and I should?” I ask

“Whatever you guys decide to do is on you’s not me!” He laughs half hugs me and walks backwards nearly hitting another person. I smile at him while shaking my head… “You are an idiot…” I laugh

“But you love me.” He smiles

A little while later, Nathan comes up to me and asks to take a walk with him. Now normally I wouldn’t just up and walk with someone. Because I have some insecurities about being lead to my death or worse. But, somehow looking into Nathans eyes I don’t see any maliciousness in them. All I see is kindness. I took his hand and it felt warm. It felt right.

We round the corner of the house and he stops, looks both ways and leans in. I back my head away and look at him like has lost his mind. He smirks, because I think he likes the chase.

I slightly push Nathan back and ask, “What did you want Nathan?” I ask

“I wanted to be alone with you Devon. I have been thinking about you a lot. And I wanted to see if you felt the same way. But I guess trying to kiss you isn’t the best of choices.” He laughs at himself which I find cute

“Nathan I do like you. I like you a lot. But are you sure?” I ask

“What isn’t there to be sure about?” He asks cocking his head slightly to the right

Instead of answering I reach for his hands and place them on my hips. While I wrap my arms around his shoulders. Normally I am not this bold but looking into Nathan eyes, I have the overwhelming desire to kiss those full red lips. They’re like just begging to kissed you know. “You sure?” He whispers against my lips. I don’t answer him with words, I answer with a tentative kiss.

Leaning back some, breaking the kiss, I look into Nathans eyes and they sparkle with the sun. They have a desire, a flame, a heat that radiated off him. IF that wasn’t hot enough he softly guides me to where my back is touching the wall of the house. There he places his hand on my cheek and runs it down until it lightly runs over my bottom lip. Leaving goosebumps prickling my skin. I have always dreamed of a guy being this attentive. This soft and caring. Why did it have to be after my beatings after my getting together with Trent. Why did have to be when I moved to Arizona? But however looking at him with that smirk, all those thoughts left my mind and all I wanted to do was kiss him again.

“What are you thinking about?” He asks sweetly, I look at him with kind eyes

“Where have you been all my life.” I know cheesy but it’s the truth.

“Waiting for you to get here.” He answers

“Good answer.” I smile

Nathan leans in and lightly kisses me, I reach up and grab his head. Running my fingers through his hair. He has really soft full hair. Shaking my head I clear it of nonsense. And I focus on the increasing pressure of the kiss, not including the tightness of my shorts. Damn this boy knows how to kiss…

As our kiss deepens, I moan into his mouth and let me tell you that is like the hottest thing I could ever hear. He grinds his hips into mine and damn did I want him…

“HOLY FUCKING SHIT!!!” We both jump apart, sputtering. And yelling at the same time. We look towards my brother with wild eyes. He just sprayed us with very cold water. I guess it was a good thing that he did. But fucking dammit, I want to kill him.

“Seriously? Why…” I look at him with murderous eyes

“It looked like you guys needed to cool down some.” He laughs

“I am so getting you back for this… You just wait.” Says Nathan.

“Come on, I have some clothes that might fit you. I’ll steal some of Josh’s.” I smile at him

“UGH! You suck Josh.” Nathan says as he laughs walking passed him

“What are best friends for?” He laughs harder

“Apparently ruining good moods and times.”

“I’m sorry about that…” I didn’t know what to say honestly. It’s not like they haven’t done anything like this before. I can’t say for sure though. I think Josh is trying to take in stride about Nathan and me.

“Par for the course Devon. Josh has always been like that. And I’m glad for it too, because that way I know how he feels towards us…” He moves his hand between us.

“I need to do something real quick…” I couldn’t finish, because as soon as we reach my room and shut the door behind us, Nathan pushes my body against the door with a thud. He bites his lip, and looks at me with desire. God how I wanted nothing more than to have his lips smashed against mine. Looking from his eyes to his lips, I lick mine. And he soon licks his. Talk about hot like fuck!

“Nathan…” I whisper out against his lips. They are so close, so close.

“Devon…” The huskiness of his voice has me grabbing onto his shoulders encircling his neck. I am so turned on; I can feel his member hard against my thigh. Talk about impressive. Nathan takes my arms and lifts them up and pins them above my head, as he teases me by hovering just out of reach for a smoldering kiss. Instead he attacks my neck. Nipping, lightly scraping his teeth, licking, and fuck! This is making my skin crawl with desire. My breath is coming out in short rushed huffs as he hits that one spot on my neck. I squirm against him… He lifts his head and attacks my lips with force. Making me growl deep in my throat.

“Nathan… Nathan… Nathan please!” I whisper pleading once he releases my lips. With a sexy smirk he releases my arms as he dips down and takes my shorts in both hands, in one fail swoop he has his prize staring him right in the eye. Nathan looks up at me with pleading eyes. I nod once, and he takes my member in his hand and slowly start to pump it…