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Oh whatever I decide, but be warned, it may contain D/s and BDSM content, or not. 

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When Three Is Not A Crowd

I suppose this piece should have a WARNING … if you are closed minded, cannot deal with things outside your own experience or what you think is 'normal', or believe that relationships with more than two people are wrong. DO NOT READ THIS.      I have never been conventional. Well, I say that, yet, I wanted to be married. But I also believe you can love more than one. I believe that bringing others into a relationship for friendship and sex is a good thing and that it can work
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Life

Today tim shared a motivational poster which said: The older I get the more I understand that it's okay to live a life other's don't understand.  That made me think. While it is true many do not understand our D/s lifestyle, recently, I've found myself questioning it also.  I do not believe D/s will ever be totally gone from us. But I have found that by easing back a little bit, life is more fun and more fulfilling. I have discussed these changes with tim; these lessening of the Rules.
 

Choices

It's been sometime since I wrote anything. Life has been doing its utmost to kick my ass. Well, I have some choice words for that, which I shall refrain from using.  Seems my shoulder issues are tied into my diabetes. My physio, who is a talented and caring woman, has suggested speaking to my doctor about seeing an orthopedic surgeon. Damn it this is not what I was hoping for.  However, my wonderful and talented boy, tim has said, "You don't want to feel like this forever." And he
 

Lyric

I must say I struggled with this one. And I am sorry there is only one. However, here it is and it has been hopefully improved somewhat after a talk with AC.  This one is about our last trip to the hospital …     I force you to the hospital and you won’t recall it you fight me like a frightened thing because you are hurting   You, my love are so very strong yet you are made of glass the hidden flaws begin to show widening t
 

I Sleep - a poem

Sometimes in the early morning, things just come to you...    In the cold of the morning in the cocoon of our bed you snuggle closer, seeking my heat and my presence And I draw you to me, into my embrace, holding you tightly your sigh is comfort, a whisper to my heart I know you are happy, and I know you feel safe   I fight my desire to take you, possess you as you sleep your lithe body, close to me and I draw your scent into my lungs; the remnants of the lime col
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MichaelS36

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Thinking Out Loud

In amongst our little group online there has been a lot more talk of D/s, or BDSM lately. Which I like, since sharing information makes us more real and less something to be stared at and whispered about. I know it’s come as a surprise to some that I have a good sense of humour and enjoy a good laugh. There is more to each of us than most people think. We are not the porn-style stereotypes people usually imagine us to be. BDSM and D/s are not porn. But our life, like everyone’s has ser
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Haiku

Okay … so here are some haiku.  Six to satisfy the prompt from AC's Zero to Hero Guide.       waxy lily pads keep the green leaping frogs dry between awkward jumps   the smiling dog runs his lolling tongue evidence of his happiness       puddles line the walk jumping feet leave small footprints one of springtime’s games       leaves change colour now donning coats of red and gold a glowing far
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Tanka

Oh, writing Tanka, following AC's new Guide..  Here they are good or bad.    Walking through the snow it squeaks under my black boots; I tighten my coat however when I reach you there's no coolness in your arms Snow tops the feeder before I add fresh birdseed; the brave nuthatch waits unconcerned about my size; sure of his heroic heart    
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Marriage, boys, and husbands

I know I’ve said this before; I always wanted a marriage like my parents have. Of course, I knew it wouldn’t be traditional, given the fact I am Gay, but I wanted it all the same.   As I hung with friends, played baseball and hockey, went through school, I came to realize I was often assuming a dominant position, and often asked to lead. It was sort of a natural thing.  I ended up in school taking criminology and socio-legal studies, and received my degree. I went on to become a police
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Supporting Your Local Poets

The other day, my husband tim told me about a little poetry challenge on GA, offered by @AC Benus  He had decided to rewrite his Tanka Poetry prompt.  I decided to 'support my local poet' and offer myself up as a guinea pig. But frankly, I had doubts even though I've written some okay poetry, following the instructions and writing something 'properly' rather worried me.    But, I just had to try.    So I read the prompt.. Tanka's should be personal, emotional, show how t
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An Emotional Week

Been an emotional week around here. tim is going through something, and I can only watch and wait. But words run through my head after he comes to me, needing me. Last night he asked me to just hold him, as he tried to sleep. I did and he did.    But I know him very well. Know his heart and the kind of human being he is. It's why I love him. And why I wrote this:     You tell me you need my arms about you tight I know there's something, and I whisper tell me th
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Darkened Days

It's been difficult lately for tim, and frustrating for me. Depression is such a hard thing to live with, both for the one that suffers through it and the people around them.   Try as he might, and I am not surprised by it, tim tries to push away the bad things he feels. It is a constant fight for him.    People say he's a man, he should put the past behind him.  Move on, fuhgeddaboudit!   he does, a lot, but with his dad's passing, well, I wish the brain had real d
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MichaelS36

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Subs' Mindset

This blog is more about BDSM and D/s from my sub, tim and his conversation with a fellow sub molly's, perspective. Many of you know molly and she is the sub belonging to her Sir, Phil.  These two met on GA, when no one they knew were ‘out’ as submissives.  For a long time tim wasn’t, he hid this from people but grew tired of hiding. When he opened the Drop in Centre, he asked me for permission to come out, and though I had some reservations, I gave it. You’ve heard a lot from me and M
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We Feign Nothing - A look at the BDSM lifestyle.

First of all this is no attack on how you or anyone else chooses to live, that is up to each of us to decide. This blog is simply an answer to a few things I read in an article the other day. It called itself an introduction to the BDSM lifestyle. I found much of it offensive, rather like most looks at our lifestyle are. What did I read? ·         That submissives feign their subservience. ·         That Dominant tops only act dominant, because we need to be nurturing and loving
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MichaelS36

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I Will Not Let You

Living with mental illness and depression is difficult. Having a partner who suffers, is also challenging, but I will not let him down.  I am proud of him and he is worth all my love and effort.        I watch the ghosts of your past Swamp and overwhelm you Though I intervene, too often Their pull is greater than my power But always I will be your tether And safety net, I will not let you fall      
MichaelS36

MichaelS36

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This Dom's Pledge

We talk often together about our lives, about D/s and what it means to all of us here who have chosen this lifestyle. I say choose, but is it a choice?  I could never choose to be submissive, just as tim could not be a Dominant.  But as we are, we are two halves, and only together are we whole.    as always, for my sweet boy, I leave you this;     This Dom’s Pledge   As days tumble into years you are still with me. A gift, as precious to me as any tr
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MichaelS36

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For tim

For tim   You are this beautiful creature that has graced my life A zephyr that blows softly lifting nary a hair I cannot cage you or keep you from those who love you Water that runs unfettered through my fingers You love is like the grains of sand on a long white beach Quicksilver that flows, cannot be molded or shaped Your radiance cannot be closeted or hidden Clouds that skim playfully through the blue above How can I lock up the wind?  
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Pledge

Pledge   Our lives have slowly changed Not for the better I’m afraid I have to be your man again Will be The one you deserve and desire So things will change Of that be sure You will be mine again, boy   Interesting session with a psychologist who is a counsellor to those of us in BDSM or D/s lifestyle, I wasn’t sure what to expect. Dr. R greeted us both, we sat, and he sat within a small grouping of chairs.   He largely ignored ti
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MichaelS36

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An Open Letter to tim and friends

Some of you are angry /disappointed/ or whatever with me.  I can understand why. You read what I’ve written about me and how I feel about tim and you probably laughed and if you are in the know, you have likely said, “Sure you do.” I do love him, very deeply. He has certain expectations of me because of our lifestyle, expectations I have been failing in providing. That leads to his unhappiness, and he is less sure of himself, of me, and us. In the recent past I watched as
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MichaelS36

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You're a What?

Just a bit of background...   As I went through my younger years I found that other’s seemed to naturally follow me, and look to me for direction. As sex came into the picture, it was the same in the bedroom. I learned that I liked to lead play there, liked my partners to be submissive. I thought simply that I was a top, I am, but I am more.   I am what is known as a Dominant, a Dom. It is not about being a brute or sadist (well it is if you are a sadist). It is about honesty
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On Your Knees, Boy

I, dressed only in black denims and boots Watch you strip down to nothing You are always unclothed, baring all to me For you belong to me, you are mine   You stand at room’s centre, in submission Rising for my chair I circle you, gaze at you When my hand caresses your back you flinch The skin there still soft, unscarred, sweet   You utter no sound as I walk around you I want you, desire you, control you My own manhood, hard, wanting
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Submission - a poem

You requested a poem .. here you are   Submission   You kneel before me unclothed Like you’ve done a thousand times Knees spread apart So you’re open to me, vulnerable   I walk around you saying nothing Your head is bowed in submission Hands on thighs You know to whom you belong   Your back marked from our play Pain you will carry for days Borne with dignity Your strength a source of pride   You are my
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MichaelS36

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tim

Warning: D/s BDSM subjects... some mention of sex, oral sex.        I met tim serving lunch at the mission where we both volunteered. He was less than impressed with me and not interested in my good cop-self. That was fine, but I knew it wouldn’t stop me. I would have that sweet skinny-assed boy.   Though I knew he’d be mine, I also knew his back story. I knew I had to be careful. I knew I had to take my time.   After finishing with serving lunch, the vol
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