My husband has gone to bed. his life right now ... I pause because I cannot think of the words ... his life right now is sadness and chaos.  And I am not sure why.  his days are filled with Prime TV and pills that numb him. 

I cannot fix him. Doctors tinker but the result is the same. 

They say time heals. But there is something inside him I cannot reach and he cannot stop. 

It makes me feel impotent and helpless.  I wonder how much time this will take. 

But in the face of this, there is nothing to do but to shoulder my burden and walk on.  Our journey is a slow one, sometimes a painful one, but it is one he will not make alone.