I'm probably being a bit of an idiot...
Hi Guys
I havent written in here for a long time but i think i need to.
You probably think i'm a moany little whinger and should grow some balls but bleh.
Three things to rant about today
Firstly, Jason. I dont know... I should explain...
About 9 months ago i met his old sixth form friends and lets say we had a large argument (me and his friends) and they started insulting my disability. I got very annoyed.
And he's meeting them tommorow for the first time in a long while
Now not that i have a problem with him meeting them, i just... can't see how he can like them.
They are bitchy, they are fake, most of them didnt go to university and are lazy arses...
Just generally a few of them are a waste of human space.
I just don't get how he can change his opinion. Literally every five minutes "I like them" " I hate them" "i'm never speaking to them again" "i love all my sixth form friends" I don't know if its his autisic tendencies but i just dont get it.
First time really when i havent understood him. Then there is the fact that the way they are doing it confuses me, again, probably my dyspraxia kicking in i just don't understand how half the people come from his village and they aren't holding it in the village pub where you would expect in stead they are going way out of their way to go to a village in the middle of nowhere...
*sigh* Just i don't know what to do... I mean we talk about everything but i just don't want to seem jealous or just generally rude. Cuz tbh i just don't like them.
For example, he met a few of them last week, they kept being condescending to him and rude to him and stuff and still he goes running back loving them...
Their group had a major split up, to the point of numbers being deleted etc. and i just can't get it into my head
Second
Jason again...
He's at home and has been for about a week now.
And when he's at home he just seems like a different person. Not the jason i know and love but someone different.
Just not him...
Y'know? Just feels wrong I know he needs his family time and stuff, but i've just been rejected multiple times and it doesn't feel too good.
Just want my Jason back, the real Jason. Just .... meh
I just hate talking badly about him cuz i do really love him and i just don't wanna upset him
And there he goes again, rejects me again to go off with someone he told me he couldn't stand to go game and stuff. I just don't get it I have heard from him pretty much barely over the last few days
Thirdly... My neighbours.
They came down for an evening and we were talking about 'Theatre' and the 'Business'
And they said i needed to toughen up and grow some balls. Now i'm a very sensitive person and i hate being just told and not constructed... I just feel as if all the progress i've made in confidence over the last year and a bit has all been to waste. I was very shy a year ago, i wouldnt even go to a shop counter and buy a magazine or a bag of crisps and a drink.
Just *sigh*
Any advice would be greatly appreciated
Just try not to be too blunt...
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