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All alone


Douw

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I don't really know what to do so ill just babble here maybe ill feel better... It hurts so much... A lot has changed mustily i'm out now but that mite not be a good thing just like i feared my dad is a bigot... not to mention the rest of my family and that hurts like a b... especially when you have to look at them every day guess that is whey i hide everyday up in my little perch away from there nasty words and dirty looks...

 

Oh i guess i forgot about the little talks... Yes those kind of talks... He reckons that he has right to now everything that happens in my life and i have no say what so ever also he reckons that any man that is ever interested in me he will beat up i may also not leave this house...

 

I fight i do i try but i feel so defeated the few friends i have i never see they life just to far... When i see a couple happy in each others arms i cant help it my hart just brakes... Every day i look for something to fill my mind so i cant think of this so called life and every night i pray for a live a way to escape but come dawn all that is left is one more day in this hell they call paradise...

 

I hate this and i don't know how long i can stand it God help me...

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Toast

Posted

Never alone Douw. And you are strong and can be as strong as it takes to get thru this. Love Sam

rustle

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Some things, a guy has to do for himself, but like Sam said, you're never alone.

 

 

Marzipan

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:hug: This will not last forever. You will get to live your life the way you want. Focus on that. I'm sorry for your family to failing to see what an amazing person you are.

 

 

Nephylim

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If only I could be there to knock a few heads together. I mean COME ON. You are such an awesome person how could anyone not be proud to have you as their son.

 

The only confort I can give is that it won't last forever. Everything changes, the good and the bad. Just watch and wait for the chance to escape. It will come. Prepare for it. Save, plan, even keep a bag packed but one day I promise it will come. Hell, I tell you what hun, when I win the lottery i will fly over there and rescue you myself.

 

You are young. Have faith that one day half of that happy couple will be you.

 

We love you darling, hang on in there.

Douw

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Thanks every one it means a lot to me;~}

JamesSavik

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Dude-

 

Pack your stuff. It's time to go. You're 20 years old. If you are being treated like a child, it is because you are allowing it.

Bleu

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Douw,

 

Your life has changed quite dramatically in the past year. Try to keep positive about the future. There will be things that you won't be able to change and others that you will have some leverage with. Focus on what you can do, write down all the possible options and, like Nephy said, be ready for opportunities. You don't need to burn all the bridges at once, but you can't let people (especially family members, who should be protecting you) walk all over you for ever.

 

*Sending strength*

jeet01

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your dad hav to beat like million men in the future who will be interested in you.So tell him to hav some kind of commando training :P.and dont be sad, life has its own ups and downs.Try to adjust as much as possible to this current situation.Hav faith and think and plan for future.You r smart and cute and.....oh here i go again :rolleyes:.there is a happy life waiting for you.When u feel depressed or sad we are here.G.A. is here to talk and feel better :)

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