Okay, it occurred to me that some of you don't know the whole Justin and Lorena story.

Here we go...

*Vroosh!* Back to mid-eighth grade. I'm sitting in chorus class. A girl passes a note to another girl who passes it to me. I open it and read it:

I immediatly start laughing my ass off. I couldnt help myself...in the entire time we knew each other we never really talked about girls and I didnt really see him going out with a girl. My laughter of course draws the attention of the entire men section of chorus. Justin sitting next to me asks me what's so funny. I show him the note, and he looks at the girl with a somewhat disappointed smirk. Back then, me and him called each other every night and talked for a couple hours at least. For like the next week after school and on the phone at night I would ask him what was going on with that girl. He just responded that he had it taken care of. I just shrugged it off. Then a week or so later, she adds me to her MSN list. Hmm...kind of a nice way to find out my best friend is going out with her, dontcha think? This was back when she was okay to me. She hadnt done anything wrong to me and I didnt yet realize my feelings for Justin. Well a few days pass and she changes her display name to 'i wuv Justin'. Obviously, this puts peer pressure on him and pretty soon his name changes from 'Justin' to "i wuv lorena'. This sorta pissed me off. They've known each other maybe two weeks and shes 'making' him say he 'wuvs' her. About another week passes and she changes her name to "i love justin'. I figure at this point that Justin no longer has a mind of his own, especially when he changes his name to "i love lorena". Then Lorena asks me in chat, "do you think Justin really loves me?" I just wanted to smack her!! They've known each other a little over two weeks and she expects him to love her! First of all, in most cases, when going out as teenagers, it's only puppy love. But shes expecting him to love her after two weeks... I for the most part stayed out of it because I didnt want to get him mad at me. Maybe I should have stepped in and maybe that would have saved me a lot of heart ache but it's a little late for that now. I noticed at this point that he stopped calling me as frequently as he used to, as it was him that most of the time beat me at calling him. I still called him but it seemed the time he talked diminished each time I talked to him. I know, I know, he's got a girlfriend now, less time for friends but I'm just saying. After a couple months of primarily talking to him on MSN with the disgusting display name "i love lorena', we were talkin late at night. It was maybe 2 in the morning and he starts telling me that he has something he needed to get out. Me being his best friend tried to comfort him and assured him that he could tell me. He tells me that a few days after going out with Lorena that she had told him that she was feeling suicidal and had been cutting her wrists with a razor or something . My reaction at first was of course shocked and I even sent a few emails to our school counselor to try and help her. It didnt take me much longer to figure out that she wasnt suicidal. That was simply all an act to get Justin trapped emotionally. For if he ever considered breaking up with her, his caring compassionate heart would be afraid of her doing something to herself, and of course it would be 'his fault'. I sooo bad wanted to suggest to him that if he wanted to break up with her to go ahead, that he had no obligation to stay with her had she been actually suicidal...that it wasnt right of her to immediately tell him that, that it was obviously a trap that he walked right into.

This of course went right up into 9th grade where mid-December a girl asks me out. Great, right before this I had started to have feelings for Justin. I felt that I would never find anyone more compatible (which was later put into context perfectly by Jimmy Kimmel and Adam Corolla on the Adam Corolla Show) than the connection me and Justin had before Lorena came into the picture. But.....she was a friend of mine and I dint want to hurt her feelings by saying no, and plus, I wasn't for sure of my feelings, they were just there so I figured it didn't hurt accepting her proposal. Well we went out till a couple weeks after Valentines day, when it seems that I had started to somewhat ignore her a little. She emailed me and proposed that we break up which was a great relief to me because of my feelings for Justin. I now wish I had simply told her that I saw her more as a friend to begin with to prevent hurting her later on, and making her and me still be pretty good friends. At this point, I still didnt get to talk to my friend on the phone much anymore. I started noticing that Lorena tried excluding me or tried pushing me aside in every day school things. I wasnt about to let her, I mean he was my friend first and I wasnt just gonna give him up. Well apparently she has more amo than did I so he still spent almost all of his time with her and talk to me and the rest of his friends less. See thats another thing...its bad enough that she pushed me aside, but she also wanted to push aside ALL of his friends so she could have him all to herself. Our friend Lance saw it too once I laid it out for him. He didnt care as much as I did, most likely because he doesnt have 'feelings' for Justin. Summer comes and I did maybe 3 things with him the whole summer. We're not exactly rich so I couldnt invite him places like he used to me. Tenth grade (this year) comes along and her fighting strategy dramatically improved as proven in my past blog posts. I would also like to point out a few things in relation to them going out. 1) Justin ALWAYS used to be happy...he always had a smile on his face and thats what put a smile on my face...now he's every so often depressed . 2) Kinda related to number 1, he has started to listen to kinda gothic like music...he used to listen to punk rock which we both loved. 3) He every so often kinda talks to me like I did something wrong, until I try to get him to laugh. 4) Some of you may wonder where 'Whorena' comes from... well, this happens quite frequently, at least 10 times, I kid you not. We'll be talking at lunch and a random guy's name will come up...she says, "Oh, I went out with him, hehehe"....right in front of Justin!! But wait, that's a slut, not a whore...well guys, Slutena just dont fit...but Whorena... fits like Cinderela's glass slipper. 5) He has never previously gotten into trouble...every so often somebody disses Lorena about her being a bitch or what have you, and who can help it? She's a bitch to everyone except a few of her close girlfriends and Justin. I know a guy should stick up for his girlfriend when he's going out with her but I don't think its worth getting into serious trouble such as getting in trouble for punching someone. He hasnt gotten in trouble yet but he most likely will soon unless Lorena stops being a bitch to everyone and I dont think that will end anytime soon.

So there ya go. That's pretty much the entire Justin and Lorena story. I just want my best friend back the way he used to be and Lorena-free. And trust me, even though I'm a little pussy when it comes to telling how I feel most of the time, if the opportunity ever came along that he broke up with her or vise versa, I would tell him that I was gay in a heartbeat to possibly have a chance with my best friend .