After one the worst years of my life last year, I look to 2014 with a new attitude and a new fondness for life.

2013 brought about the loss of a friend (they didn't die), an unexpected emergency surgery and the length of my hair.

The friend, I'd mentioned in a past blog I'd written, is still a sore spot with me because I never received the closure, I felt I was owed from my ex-friend. I've seen this person but I was in a rush to get to catch the last bus for me to get home. I saw her and I know she saw me but after trying to talk to her multiple times over the year, I kind of treated this moment the way she had prior and pretended I didn't see her. Childish?...most definitely. Did it help? No, not in the least. I still miss hanging out with her and would love for there to be a resolve. Not only for my peace of mind but for her too. Then we can go our separate ways and be familiar strangers. Does that make sense? I'd rather be cordial rather than trying to avoid situations or events that this other person could possibly be.

The unexpected surgery throw me for a serious loop. I'd written about that in another blog too. Over the last two years or so, I'd experienced lower back pain that always ripped me from my sleep. It took hours before the pain would subside and I was able to function. Nothing seemed to help the pain except time. The only thing I could do was lie on the couch and try to find a comfortable position. I'd gone to the emergency room a total of four times before I got an actual diagnosis. The surgery had me out of commission for nearly a month and I actually found myself kind of depressed. I was unable to work and that put a huge financial strain on me, I'd just moved to a new townhouse two months prior. Not making money made it hard to pay my portion of the rent and my roommate was awesome in helping pay a little extra. I'm still trying to play catch up. I'm enjoying my new digs and hoping the job interview I have on Monday will lead to another job and make things better. The only good thing to come from the surgery was the way I had to approach eating food. Since this happened, I've lost nearly forty pounds and the weight is still coming off. YAY!

My hair has paid a huge price. I stressed so much over everything over the year that my hair fell out in patches. My hair normally shoulder length had to be cut to almost an inch to accommodate for the hair that I'd lost. I'm hoping that once the stress has alleviated that my hair will once again start to grow. FINGERS CROSSED!!!!!

What do I want for the new year? To not have a repeat of what happened last year. No more losing friends, no more surgeries and definitely no more losing hair (IT SUCKS!). Plus, I'm hoping to start up a little something, something with my crush, Chad from work. He's so fine.

I hope the new year brings about all the changes you'd like to make for yourselves.