Yes, i've been gone for a long time.

Yes, i never really posted on my blog before.

Yes, i was a bitchy little teenager.

Yeah, i got my just desserts.

Most of you probably don't know me, but for the benefit of those who do, i'm not going to go in to who exactly i am and why i'm on this website right now. It's a long tedious story filled with regret and triggers that i don't want to deal with that at the moment.

So, where to start? I really don't know: let's start off with where i am right now. I have a job. I'm sort of dating someone. I have a car. I have a place to stay, though i wouldn't call it a home.

I have had a really bad week.

Sure, mostly first world problems but my life is a series of interconnected dominos that all topple at once and affect everything else, and i'm not good at dealing with that, and that's all i'm gonna say about it.

I have had a really bad year.

Things are always going well until they aren't. Of course. I may post more in the forums about it but i'm still not sure what to say.

I need some order in my life, to help get me back on track. Which is why i'm typing this right now. I never had a good support system. The closest thing i found when i was a kid was this website and the incredible people who put up with my drama. So here i am again trying to find something worthwile within a messed up world.

But mostly to vent in a silly little blog post noone will read.

So hi, I'm Matt, and i'm a mess.