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I got a call a few minutes ago.

Chaz

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My brother called me a few minutes ago. I asked why he was calling so early? He said he just wanted to talk to me. I said alright and walked away from the bedroom. Green is still sleeping so I didn't want to wake him. When I walked into the living room I found David and Selene sitting at the table as Steve made them breakfast. He asked me if I wanted some I nodded but I walked into the living room instead.

 

So we talked. He said that he wanted to speak to me about all of this. He told me that he was just so tired of being something he's not. I told him that I felt the same. When I met Green I felt like I was drowning in my own closet. I too came out because I couldn't deal with it any longer. I knew I was in love with Green from the first time I saw him. I told him all of this and I asked if there was someone he was interested in. He said yes and I asked him who it was, deep down hoping it wasn't Green or someone I knew for that matter. he told me who it was. It was a friend he and I have. He lives back in our hometown and he is supposed to be here tonight. He is most certainly straight.

 

I told him that our friend was straight and he seemed down. I told him that it's never that easy. I had to literally stalk Green just to get him to go on our first date. :wub: I invited him to the party tonight. He said He'd come. I know they're is going to be a lot of people here and maybe he can find someone to just talk to. I think my brother is just lonely right now. I know we all know how that feels.

 

David and Steve thought that it was a great idea. Selene did not but she kept quiet. I sat next to her and have her a huge hug. She softened a little after that. Green might object though, we'll see. I guess these people are also my family right now. Green has always made sure that his friends feel welcome in his home. David keeps saying that Green saved his life. We all know he saved my older brother's life. I also yelled at Selene for bringing up Green's ex and comparing me to him. David didn't know about this so he gave her a disappointed look. She apologized for that.

 

Steve is still mystery to me. He and I haven't talked too much. I guess green and David knew him from high school. Green was a wee bit mean to him. I know this though he can cook a great stack of pancakes. Blueberry pancakes that is.

 

I am going to try to get some sleep. I just wanted to add this because it's my first real post under my name.

 

Chaz

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Rocketcnj

Rocketcnj 2

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Chaz and Green,

 

I am so betting that Green will be happy that your brother is coming to the party. It will be his first social situation where he is Out. It takes time to feel comfortable in one's own skin when first coming Out. It was tha way for me. After a while, it becomes just like breathing..very natural and you don't think about it. But until then, I know you will all be there for your brother and to give him love and support and guidance. We all need that and its not easy to come Out, go out and date, meet people socially and also deal with one's own issues and all of that happening at once....Tell him to be careful to not over drink (i.e. if super nervous in a social situation, if he drinks he won't be able to guage social interactions and his own and if he drinks and his insecurities come out and issues, it will be more painful.) Just look after him at the party and make sure he feels safe, welcome and loved and it won't hurt to introduce him to a few hotties (of course since he is Chaz's twin, well he already has the super hotness factor going on and I am sure guys are going to be chasing him..but that can be overwhelming too...Plus, it takes time to develop one's Gaydar and as I always say, "damn those Metrosexuals (i.e. his str8 friend) screwing up the works..since I can't tell are they are or aren't they on OUR team..hee hee:)

 

Have a great time tonight....its awesome that Chaz and Mike are talking.....in this case Chaz, your twin will need your love and support, along with Green's and all your friends...and guidance and sounding boards. I am betting that as he gets therapy for his issues (the ones not relating to coming out) that his colder demeanor, which I am sure was a shield to protect himself, plus the colder demeanor will evaporate as he knows he is safe and he feels great being Out and accepting of himself...that will turn to one very loving twin..that's just my guess....hey introduce him to GA and he can read Green's and Doms and the other authors stories....that always helps...so he knows he is not alone and he can blog with the rest of us:)

 

Fingers crossed and lots of Rainbow Love and Hugs sent your way....let us know how it goes....

 

I am still betting Green will welcome your twin with love and acceptance....if he did with his half brother, he surely will with Chaz's twin...cause that's just Green...that's why you love him so Chaz and I know as Mike grows and heals and feels comfortable in his coming Out process, he will have so many wonderful role models...and a zillion hotties to choose from....who will be drooling and hoping he choses them...be there to guide him to choose as wisely as you have Chaz:)

 

Michael

Chaz

Chaz 0

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You know it's funny how much a difference a few days make. Things are kind of looking up now, you know? I feel like we can breathe a little better. We only have one obstcale to tackle and that's The removal of Green's tumor in a couple of weeks. I know deep down it's still bothering him. His mother calls every day and we talk about it. She is freaking too because they can always come back and they could be cancerous.

 

well thank you for your kind words Michael.

 

Chaz

Rocketcnj

Rocketcnj 2

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Chaz and Green,

 

Fingers crossed, Good Karma and Peace sent and lots of prayers and Love....and since Chaz is Green's Lucky Charm..those bad ass tumors will be chased out of town...for good....think positive and good and healing thoughts..it will happen:)

 

And your twin will be healing well too...I am so sure that all that cold demeanor was to cover up a lot of pain and angst to add to knowing he is Gay and his lack of acceptance..but he has come Out and that's a huge step.the rest will flow and he will fit inside his skin as simply and natural as breathing is to him...

 

and in the process as Mike is free of his self imposed prison and OUT in the Rainbow Sunshine...the warmth and love in his heart will come out too..you just watch....he is going to turn into Mr. Out and Romantic and one very loving and caring and giving brother and son.....and friend and boyfriend and he will blossom...I can feel it:)

 

From one Michael to another...its gonna happen....

 

Now, go have fun with the party and on vacation....I am betting Mike gets a zillion phone numbers this weekend and then make sure he consults with all of you so he can sort out the Good, the Bad and the Ugly...since you will all know the truth about whom you are inviting....this way he gets the benefit of all your wisdom....and of course Chaz will making sure only the best for his twin and Green too since Mike is in a sense his bro in law:) and a friend in the making:)

 

and see, I told you that Mamma Selene would come to her senses....it was her Latina pride flumaxing her up...things happen.....I am sure she understands now that Chaz and Green come first and foremost for each other and that is how it should always be...its .just as her sweet daughter comes first for her and also her BF of course:) just natural....yeppers:)

 

Michael

GREEN

GREEN 10

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It's so funny that you would think of her as a Latin person. She's pure Irish. LOL :lmao: David is the real Latino here. LOL

 

GREEN

Rocketcnj

Rocketcnj 2

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Green...

 

Now its me turning beat red..shame on me for making assumptions..I just see Selena with her fierce personality as a Latina....but then again, never mess with the Irish..one of my Aunts is like Selena..very loving, very protective but heaven help the person whom she sees as messing with one of her loved ones....

 

well, I apologize to any one I have offended...sorry.

 

Michael

GREEN

GREEN 10

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Green...

 

Now its me turning beat red..shame on me for making assumptions..I just see Selena with her fierce personality as a Latina....but then again, never mess with the Irish..one of my Aunts is like Selena..very loving, very protective but heaven help the person whom she sees as messing with one of her loved ones....

 

well, I apologize to any one I have offended...sorry.

 

Michael

 

No worries man, However you keep saying her name is Selena when it's Selene. I think that this is the route of it. :2thumbs::lmao: :ranger: B)

 

GREEN

Rocketcnj

Rocketcnj 2

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Green...you are correct....duh..dumb ass me....sorry Selene!

Former Member

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Huggles 4 Mr Green n Mr Chazzzzzs's Rainbo color house :2thumbs: Huggles

Bardeara

Bardeara 132

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Question for you guys...

 

How on earth did you guys get it so that you both can do a blog under the same thread, yet have your names split? :blink:

 

Cool I like it...

 

As for the party and your brother, I'm certain you and Green will work him over just fine while finding him a person to call his own. :2thumbs:

Bev

Bev 0

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Okay, I have a question here...

 

...How did Green get so lucky as to snag Chaz???!!!

 

Chaz ~ Green is more than lucky to have you as his boyfriend. And Mike is more than lucky to have you as his brother. And Selene and David are more than lucky to have you as a friend. And as for the rest of the world....how did we get so lucky to have you in this world of ours?

 

Chaz, I cannot get over how loving and forgiving and caring and accepting you are. I am just in awe. :worship:

 

That's all I can say for now...I'm speechless! (and believe me, that is a feat all on it's own)

 

Bev

JamesSavik

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As for the party and your brother, I'm certain you and Green will work him over just fine while finding him a person to call his own. :2thumbs:

 

You might want to go slow there. Chaz's twin (Mike?) may not be ready.

 

No strike that. He's not read- please encourage him to go slow in the romance department.

 

 

-JS

Rocketcnj

Rocketcnj 2

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As for the party and your brother, I'm certain you and Green will work him over just fine while finding him a person to call his own. :2thumbs:

 

You might want to go slow there. Chaz's twin (Mike?) may not be ready.

 

No strike that. He's not read- please encourage him to go slow in the romance department.

-JS

 

James, I agree but I am sure that Mike will go slow...as he gets more comfortable in coming Out and acceping himself....I am betting he goes at his own pace and takes his time and with Chaz and Green and their friends to guide him..Mike will find his way and that will be cool....and better he is surrounded by people that love him and will help him then to throw him to the wolves out there....and he can look to Chaz and Green and Dave and Steve and their friends for support, acceptance and to be able to help him as he comes out and comes to terms with his own self acceptance...we all should be so lucky to have a Chaz and Green and a James, David and Steven (even Selene..there I said it) in our lives, whether coming out or as we grow and develop in life:)

 

Michael

AFriendlyFace

AFriendlyFace 191

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You know it's funny how much a difference a few days make. Things are kind of looking up now, you know? I feel like we can breathe a little better. We only have one obstcale to tackle and that's The removal of Green's tumor in a couple of weeks. I know deep down it's still bothering him. His mother calls every day and we talk about it. She is freaking too because they can always come back and they could be cancerous.

 

well thank you for your kind words Michael.

 

Chaz

Hey guys,

 

Good luck on your surgery Green, and make sure to go back to the doc FREQUENTLY for follow ups, if they do come back they shouldn't be too big a deal if caught early, but you don't want to let it get out of hand.

 

As for the party and your brother, I'm certain you and Green will work him over just fine while finding him a person to call his own. :2thumbs:

 

You might want to go slow there. Chaz's twin (Mike?) may not be ready.

 

No strike that. He's not read- please encourage him to go slow in the romance department.

-JS

I agree James, was about to say the same thing :)

 

It's probably best for him to come to terms with everything first and then get his feet wet slowly, but as Michael said at least he has the benefit of more experienced people he can turn to.

 

best of luck and take care,

Kevin

buttershots

buttershots 0

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First off. Hi! I'm glad to see that you, Chaz, can now blog under your own name. ;) Nice.

 

Second - How'd the party go?!? :D I hope it was great and everyone had an awsome time! No "little debbie cake" accident's I'm hoping? ;)

 

Take care both of you and let us know...the suspence is KILLING me!!! :P

 

- Kaiten

 

 

Edit: p.s. I really hope that your brother, Mike?, had a good time and was able to just relax and have some fun just being himself. :) Was "the Liar" invited? If so, I hope everything is going good in that direction as well. Well again, take care and I hope you had a great night! :D

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