So, i have been home since March 16, 2020.
I think working from home, really brought home to me really how serious this virus is. Yes, i'd read about it and all the deaths in China. Read about people trying to get back to Canada and people stuck on cruise ships. But the Bank doing this huge about face and letting us work from home, really made it real.
The first few weeks i really struggled. i felt lost and afraid. i could feel it in my back and shoulders, in my chest. It felt like someone was standing on it. I became borderline obsessive reading the online news over and over. i would read stories of people who had suffered through this and told their stories. Stories of surviving it, of losing people who had been young and healthy. i was absolutely terrified.
Michael knew of course, and did His best to calm me. He protects me the best that He can. Friends did the same.
I began, at a friend's urging, to try yoga. I have issues with my joints so i found a short yoga program designed for seniors. No kneeling, and it was short; 7 minutes. Frankly i am amazed at just how much doing that short routine has helped me. I feel calmer, and more centered. I no longer feel trapped.
If you are feeling alone and afraid, do something.
Here is the link to the little yoga program i do. I also like this place. https://www.yogajournal.com/videos/joint-freeing-series
I am no yoga master and i do not think i ever will be, but these short times i spend on myself right now are huge, even with the small investment of time. It somehow makes me aware of myself and the inner strength i truly do have.
Spend a bit of time on you, try it, allow it. I think you will feel better.
Hang in there. We can get through this ... reach out and talk. You are welcome to join us in the Drop in Centre anytime.