It's been over a month since my last blog so I figured I'm due for an update. My life was going relatively uneventful until these past few days.

Let's start with the whole San Francisco thing... I finally bought my plane ticket so I'll be there from Friday morning at 10AM until Monday morning at 7 or 8AM I think. I'm looking forward to it a lot... there are a few people going that I've been dieing to meet for a while now and I'm glad I'll finally get the chance. So if you're thinking about going but are unsure, I say go for. You'll have fun, I promise!

I've been told I'm a bad gay guy. I have no fashion sense what so ever and I can't dance worth a damn. I blame the dancing on the fact that all the people I go to a club with are a foot shorter than I am and I just can't get that low! The fashion thing is true... I can't pick out clothes and usually don't match, I just wear what's comfortable. My friend Jane took me shopping a few days ago and then Lawrence took me again ok Wednesday. Needless to say, shopping with a straight girl one day and then a gay guy the next, I spent a lot of money. But on the bright side, I did get a lot of nice clothes.. even though he insisted on me getting smalls instead of mediums. I'm going to get fat and not fit into any of them and it's going to be all his fault!

Work. Work sucks. Work sucks bad. All hell is breaking loose at work now and it's getting on my nerves. One of our managers is leaving to move to PA, and then 3 more are transfering to another store and we get 2 of their managers in return. So we're loosing 4 managers and only gaining 2. And now this is where I come in. They're promoting me to a manager, but they're only giving me a week to train. I started training today and I have until the end of next week to be finished and be able to run the store on my own. Usually it takes at least 2 weeks and most of the time 3 to train someone. The owner told me they were going to give me the 'crash course' on it. Great! Not to mention that a lot of the other team leaders are pissed that I'm the newest one and I'm getting promoted before any of them. Most of the good people have quit, or are quitting for various reasons and our GM only seems to be hiring people with an IQ lower than room temperature at a pace that's going to leave us with zero people in a months time. It's stupid, and I hate it, and I want to quit but I need the money. GAH!

And now for the real issue that's been eating at me these past couple days. I'll start at the beginning because I have nothing better to do right now. Well I do, but I don't want to do it so I'm going to use this as an excuse to put it off. Anyway, Tina (coworker) and I got off work on Wednesday night and were talking and she said she had to go to Albertsons and get cheese. I agreed to go with and we went over after we got off. We're in the store when all of the sudden Tina stops, turns around and says "That guy over there is Dustin...". Dustin is a guy that our other friend Michelle was trying to hook me up with. So we're leaving and we're talking to one of the people that works there that we know and Tina mentions Dustin and how Michelle was trying to hook us up. So fine, we left. We're out sitting by my car talking when Dustin comes walking over to us. He introduces himself and all that and we started talking. About a minute later, Tina turns and yells "Jonathan!". And here's where things get awkward. Jonathan is my ex and our relationship ended in a not-so-pleasant manner. It wasn't bad, we just stopped talking. So he comes over and starts talking to Tina and every once and a while glances over at me. Dustin gets bored and leaves with his friend and it's just the three of us. So Jonathan says it was nice seeing us and he hugs Tina and turns towards me and it looked like he was going to hug me and I just looked at him. He stopped and looked at Tina and then went inside the store. Tina knows about Jonathan and I, but Jonathan doesn't know she knows. So were still sitting there talking about what happened when he comes back out. He says bye again and Tina and I leave for my house because she wanted to see the clothes that Lawrence picked out for me. While we're at my house I get a text from Jonathan telling me it was nice to see me again and he really wanted to talk to me and for me to get online. So I did and he apologized for being a dick and ending things the way he did and gave me somewhat of an excuse for doing what he did. I'm not one to really hold grudges so I accepted the apology. Well we got to talking and it really seemed like he was interested in getting back together again, but I really don't know what to do. On the one hand, I really liked him and never wanted to break up in the first place, but on the other, I don't want to get f**ked over again and end up hurt. So I've been talking with a few people about it (thanks viv, jeff, and myr!) and I've pretty much decided to give him a second chance and see where it goes.

That was a lot longer than I anticipated, so I'll give a short version: My ex wants to get back together and I'm confused on what I should do.

Well, that's about it for the drama in my life. Until next month!

Joe

(Who gives pitty to the person that actually reads all of that.)