NickolasJames8

Happy Birthday !!!!!!! I hope you got a grip of presents and $$$$$$$ for your birthday...also, hopefully you get a car

Ok, so a lot has happened this weekend, and it hasn't been easy. But I know I have to keep moving, and I'm going to. Myr just posted the Anthology today, and I was proud to see my story there. I'm not saying it was all that, but to have a story posted on the same page as Lugh and RHawes and Viv was amazing to me. Also, I have goals and I have to keep working to get them accomplished. I started almost a year ago on xanga, posting What's the difference for about 5 readers, but that grew to about 20. Then I started posting it here at the Library, then at the efiction section of the site and that number got bigger. Then I met Talonrider, who got my story straight and got me hosted at CRVBOY and also hosted me himself at The Talon House . In the meanwhile, I started my own forum, Nick's Story Discussion and eventually, my own pageNick's Story Page . I also started on My Jump Off and started writing poetry. I know that in order to ever be considered good enough to ever be a hosted author here, I have to keep writing good stories and poems and posting them everywhere I can to make my audience as big as I can. Anyway, I had to stop and think about what I wanted to do. I don't ever want to leave this place. I love it here too much, and even if I never make it as a hosted Author, I promise to keep posting my work here and to make as big of a contribution as possible.

lol...actually, I dont know. Lots of people from our church call it that and before this topic came up I never called it that. Also, Nickolaslandville doesn't really exist (except in my head ) We do sorta live in the south though

lol...actually, i did mean grip. A grip of something means a lot of it.

It's belly wash in Nickolaslandville... it's always Belly Wash

While we're all waiting, there's a grip of Anthology entries to check out by clicking the link at the top of the page

More Gabe and the mystery boy please

I thought it was pretty cool to have a deaf guy wering gloves I woulda never thought of that, and I think it fit the theme perfectly :king:

Sorry it's late but Happy Birthday...I hope you got lots of presents and $$$$

A&W and Sprite are in a tie for first place with me After that, I like Sun Drop, Fresca and Coke Oh, and ANY kind of orange soda I also think from now on I'm gonna start calling it belly wash just to see how my friends react

Sometimes I hear people around here call it belly wash

lol....um. Who calls it fizzy drink???

This was supposed to be a good day. It's a Saturday, I only had to work a few hours and I got to go to the movies with Taylor and 4 of our friends. It was just a guy thing. Later we were going to meet up at Taylors and party and kick it in the pool even though it rained here. Well, when I got home and logged on to GA to see if there was any news about Green, I suddenly felt like I got punched in the belly. I'm sure most of you know by now, and it's probably the worst thing I've read. I want to go to the topic about him and post, but I don't really know what to say because I'm so sorry doesn't seem like it helps anyone. So I went into Live Chat to see how everyone was and in about 2 minutes, I was crying and had to leave the room. I usually don't talk about my emotions too much, but it was all too much for me. I just can't find a reason why it had to happen. I've thought about it and prayed about it and talked to Taylor about it, and part of me understands that everything in this world happens for a reason, and God's will and His plan is what it is. My mother died and it was God's plan. I was born gay and it was God's plan. That doesn't make this any easier. So for a few moments, I thought about my online life and what it really means. I mean, I used to say that there were only a few people who I knew from online that I really cared about, but maybe I'm wrong. For that few moments after I left Live Chat, I thought about taking the advice of the people who voted in my poll for me to leave the forum and asking Myr to delete my account so that if this happens again, I wouldn't know about it and I wouldn't feel any kind of pain. To be honest, this is the first time someone from a forum I belong to has passed away. I didn't ever stop to think about it, but Taylor reminded me that we're all human. Even though we just have screen names here and on AOL or whatever you use, we're all still people and someday we all die. I guess that's just a risk we take when we get close to people online, and even though Green wasn't someone I knew really good, he was still part of the GA family and now he's gone. Then I had to stop and think about his family and about Chaz. I mean, what now??? I don't even want to think about losing Taylor, and Green's mom and dad and even his no good brother lost him too. Also, there's all of his friends that we've read about in his blog. What about them?? I just wonder if it's really a good idea to let myself get too involved in the forums and in Live Chat. We lost a brother today here at GA, and it's not going to be the same here without him. Maybe Green doesn't get to see this entry, but I hope that he knew how important he was to Gay Authors and all of it's members. To Chaz, I know you've read this a lot of times already, but I'm really sorry. That's all I have to say now, because if I keep going, I might cry again. Nick

Okay, so I'm thinking about changing my user name for some odd reason. I'm not sure why, but I have this idea that somehow changing my profile name might make my stories seem more exciting and people would want to read them. Unfortunately, I went to change it, and the name I was going to go with (Nick) was already being used by someone who hasnt been on since like 2003. Oh well, I have a few other names in mind....here's the choices I'm considering Mikehawk(sayitfast) W00t1991 SouthsideNick Nicktheprick ********* (okay, this one is a secret because i don't want anyone to steal it) I'm open to suggestions if you think there's another name I should think about using Edit: 12:30 YAY!!!! So far, two people want me to leave the forum!!!! I feel so loved Thank you, thank you very much

Happy Birthday, Kurt..... Hope it's a good one and you get lots of presents and $$$$ w00t w00t

Hey Kevin, I know you made this entry a long time ago, but I just want you to know that I'll be praying for you. You're such a sweet guy and everyone here likes you, plus you're really smart. Anyway, I wanted to give you a and say hi

Happy Easter Ok, so I know I just updated this thing. I messed around and did the same thing on myspace. Anyway, I'm doing really good. I didn't have to work as much this last week as I thought I was gonna have to. But, I did get paid Besides that, it's back to school for this boy, and I'm actually ready to go back. I felt guilty about not having to wake up and go for some reason. Maybe it's because I have my routine down and I got to break it last week. Either way, I'm glad to be going back....btw, guess who got straight A's on his report card.....not Taylor Sorry, Taylor. I couldn't help myself. Also, I've been hard at work getting my story, What's the difference between me and you? edited and fixed, now I can start posting the finished work on Gay Authors again. I really love the way my editor worked hard with the mess I gave him and made it look so good My other story, My Jump Off, was updated today. I posted chapter 5 this morning and I have to say, I'm pretty happy with the character development. Also, I've been trying my hand at poetry. I've been getting some good reviews on it, but I posted a poem at Kaspers forum and no one has said whether or not they liked it...maybe they didn't Oh well, it's okay, because I'm gonna keep working hard to get better at it. The first poem I wrote was about dysfunctional relationships, and no, it wasn't about me and Taylor at all. The second poem I wrote was for my dad. I just got up one day and sat down and wrote it for no reason, but it basically said all of the things I wanted to say about how much I love him. That's the one I posted at Kaspers forum. The third one I wrote was for my boo, Taylor. It was all about us and our relationship and how much I love him and how we've grown in the Word of God. The forth one I wrote was for my mom. Even though she's been gone my whole life, I still love her and I miss having her in my life. I just wanted to let some of my sadness out and also to tell her that just because my dad and Lori are married, that doesn't mean I don't think about her everyday. Because I really do. I have dreams about her and I wonder about all kinds of stuff. Anyway, I'm gonna stop now because I'm getting all emotional and I don't want to do that. I have so much to be thankful for in my life. My family(that includes Taylor and his folks), my friends, my church and most of all, God, who sent his only Son to Earth to die on the cross for our sins. That's what Easter's all about, right? I mean, yeah, we have the easter egg hunt, and we eat candy and have Ham and Mash potatoes and rolls and brocolli and pies, but in the end, it's all about the miracle of Christ's resurrection. Okay, so I'm done now I just wanted to check in and spill my guts for a little bit. I hope everyone has a blessed week

My poems are cheesey????

Ok, so I've started a Poetry Series at the efiction section of this site. and I've been getting some good reviews. I mean, my first poem wasn't that good. It didn't rhyme, so I think people naturally hate it. But my other poems have gotten some good reviews. Of course, that doesn't mean that I'm not writing stories anymore. As a matter fo fact, I'm almost done with chapter 6 of My Jump Off. I'm going out tonight, so I won't get it done until either when I get home tonight or tomorrow. But I promise that it will be posted no later than tomorrow. Anyway, if you read my poems, please leave me comments and rate them. Even if you hate them and you think I'm the worlds worst poet and writer, I would like to here from my readers.

.......Follow the link that Afriendlyface posted and go read it......omg it's fricken awesome!!!!! Also, what's up with DD losing so badly in the poll??? I mean, I liked Log Way, but I kept thinking it was going to eventually end up being about the forest or a sawmill or something and TOU was ok, but I think DD was wayyyyyyyyyyy better. Of course, that might be because we had to wait 5 months for chapter 9 Either way, it was totally worth the wait and hopefully Dom puts With Trust on hold for 5 months so he can work on Out with harrison Polk

Actually, I heard from someone that Dom's stories were all pay per view now( evil laugh) jk

Um....I was just thinking. Maybe you should do what Dom does and not read the discussions until the story's over so that you arent influenced....well, unless you want to be.

Happy Birthday Ben

Right here.