harcallard

I immediately fell in love with not only the story but the characters as well..You painted a picture of two people falling in love even though they were total opposite..I look forward to reading more of your work...

There are many things which individuals do I do not understand.. why say something and make it public, I guess for those who really care, and then run away like a frightened child when someone asks you something about it.. To be honest, in the end, no one really cares one way or the other only the individuals involved.

It has been over a month since I have written in my blog. In 7 weeks or less, I will be turning 45, and before any of you younger members say anything, that is not old and you will be there before you realize it. I have come to realize several things when I simply rid myself of negativity and people who seem to have it seeping out of their pores. I wish I had of learned all of this many years ago and I know my life may have been hard but it would not have been because I couldn't deal with certain issues caused by this. (1) That everyone you come across in your life will not automatically fall over heels in love with you.. They wont like you for superficial reasons as the way you look, talk, dress.. etc... or even worse they will believe what someone else says about you.. rather shallow indeed.. and this is okay because those type of people are not the ones you really need to have around you in the first place.The way I see it is.. It's their loss. After all, you really cant judge someone's true feelings or reactions by merely typing on a key board. Now, if you Skype etc.. then you can. (2) If you make a mistake or offend someone, do your best to make amends. I have tried to do exactly this. I have tried talking to them. Some have listened and other's have refused to because for whatever reason they seem to have to justify their reasons, have not listened. This is also fine as well. You simply walk away when you have done all you can do. (3) Dont get yourself involved in someone else's drama...If your not involved dont get involved.. if it isn't your business stay out of it. If people are so dishonest and are not willing to involve you or let you in, then its probably not worth knowing after all. I don't care what anyone says.. "What is done in the night will be known in the light".. Wrong is wrong no matter what anyone tells you in the disguise of confidence. (4) Get rid of unnecessary expectations of people. This will only lead to heart ache and problems down the road..Don't expect just because you do some thing for someone, that they will in return do the same for you no matter what it is.... I have learned in life that there are people who are takers and there are those who are givers. Do it because you want to do it. (5) Dont worry about what people say about you...I know people can hurt you with words, but only if you let them..you are the only one who can give your power away to them.. My favorite saying and one I have been using is "It's none of my business what you think of me." This is so true because if something is not your business, then you don't worry about it. My grandfather use to say.."When you are in your 20's you worry about what people say, when you are in your 40's you don't give a care, and when your in your 60's you realize they weren't talking about you in the first place." (6) Dont read into things or jump to conclusions.. in other words, don't let your mind run wild and think things which may not be true until you have proof to say other wise. (7) Straighten out your priorities.... generally everyone is the number one priority... then family , religion or whatever order you have yours in.. you have to take care of yourself and yours and help others when you can.. Don't expect to be #1 on someone's priorities. (8) Be yourself and not what someone else want's you to be. Be real with your self and others and do not deal with fake people. Deal only with those who tell you something to your face. For those are the one who hold any form of worth. Do not do anything you don't agree with to get to another place in life.. its not worth in in the long run. Never let anyone bring you down or allow them to be rude to you. (9) Find whatever it is in life in which you enjoy and those as well...sweep negativity out of your life and take one day at a time.. I hope the rest of my life will be more peaceful than the first half..It just takes sometime to think things through and decide what is important to you and what isn't you get rid of. I want to send out a shout to my friend Edward for taking the time to listen to me vent and bitch....there are also so many who have helped me along the way and there are so many and you know who you are and I want to thank you from the bottom of my heart. May everyone have a great day.

I have had plenty of time to sit and try to get my head around a few things... One, I was very upset at the cliquish groups that are here.. I felt as if I were back in High School... I mean I understand that not everyone will like you and this is okay. However, When there are those who make it plain and evident this is what they are doing, then this is where I use to have a problem with. This is no longer the deal.. I could care less who doesn't want to get to know the real me... it is their loss not mine. It is easy to be upset and angry over somethings that (1) you have no control over, (2) you can not change by either throwing a fit or even by mentioning to the other person because they either they blow it off as meaningless or they just care. So the way I have learned to deal with this, is not to associate with the negativity.. I need to expel all negative people and situations from around me.. If there are groups, or individuals for whatever reason they may use to justify their behavior towards me, then that is their problem and is no longer a concern of mine. I Have also learned that if you are angry at a person(s) then inevitably, you are allowing them to take your power and control.. So from here on out, I will no longer be allowing anyone to have my power or control.. I wish I could have figured this out years ago and I could have saved a huge amount of money.

That was a nice thing for them to do for you..and I agree its refreshing to know that there are people who care about you.

I have read all the chapters so far and and I am hooked like a fish on a line...Are you making the chapters short on purpose? If you are, then it is a great ideal.. Keep everyone hanging on.. I love the story line and cant wait to see where it goes from here...West has already set himself up..poor guy. Keep up the great job Kai.

I was pulled into it from the beginning. The poor guy who was tortured seemed to be distant. I am wondering and hoping that officer will be friend the guy. I must say that I can not wait for the next installment. I agree with Carrington, it is by far the darkest you have written thus far. I was always told a writer would never be afraid to attempt something new and unknown to them. I think you have accomplished this feat.

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I am doing pretty good Yetie One.. Things have picked up at work and I have gone on several auditions, and things with the Bf are going smoothly and I am not on my computer as much as I use to be. However, I am sad....when I first joined GA I was looking to make some on line friends. Grant you, looking back, I may have went about it the wrong way. The result of this was not being able to be in the chat room.. Which may not be such a bad thing in itself....I admit I have an over bearing personality. This is who I am and I cant and wont apologize for it. I am grateful for the friends I have made on here and I hold them close to me... I have worked through some personal stuff. To be honest, I didn't like what I found with most of it. IT was a real eye opener for me. Even though it was painful, I feel it was needed. I tend to be less sad here lately but every now and then I have a bout of it....My friends that I have around where I live have grown accustomed to it and the give me my space until I get over it... It makes me feel bad at times.... Even though I may not be on as much as I have been in the past, I hope that whoever wants to keep in touch with me.... will do that. I appreciate each and everyone of you who gave me encouraging words and prayers. You will never know what it means to me. I must close now and get my lazy butt in bed.. work calls in the morning... I praay that each of you have a great day and the rest of the week. Keep a Smile on your face and Love in your heart, Harc

I haven't been on for awhile..actually it feels like forever... I have been working through some personal things which needed to be dealt with. I don't even know what is going on with everyone. It makes me feel lost. I have been working a lot lately and not much time off...I hope everyone is doing well.... Hugs and love Harc.

I have been absent for sometime now.. The reason for this is because I have been spending some much needed time with Kalen, working, and trying to figure out some things in my life......I have missed you all and hope things are going the way you want them to be.. I am not sure when I will be on again, but I will never be far away if anyone needs to talk.... Keep a smile on your face and love in your heart.

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Have a great birthday ROb and many more.

I musst say that I really did enjoy this chapter... well until I got to the part where Kyle confesses his love to Jacob. Then Jacob's reply was... "I know you do." I was like what the hell? Jacob couldn't even say it back to him.. Something is not right about that.. just saying.. I do admire BIll for beings such a supportive dad in all of this. I would like to say I agree with Sarah, but I dont. However, her way of thinking or beliefs are held by many today. I truly enjoyed this chapter.. keep them coming.

I must admit I was happy to see Jacob standup for his brother and Kyle. I think he must have really scared the other guys.. well maybe not Craig, who seemed to be the problem solver of the bunch. However, I must say that I am a little disappointed in and worried about Kyle's reaction when Jacob talked with him about having sex with the other boys... he hesitated like he wanted to have it... Doesn't sit quite right with me. Also, even though Jacob gave the group a piece of his mind over the sex issue, I am not so sure this is the last time they will have to face this issue. After all, they are all pre-teen and teen boys.. and we all know what is on their mind most of the time.

You wee spot on Mike:P

I would have to say honestly if they were paying me millions to be in a film with Zac ... I would indeed:P

yes get better soon lacey

I can never say enough about how I feel about this blog and everyone here. We are here for a reason, but the main thing is we are here for each other I began my restorative therapy last night..and last night was the best sleep I have had in a very long time....a person never really understands what sleep deprivation can really do to a person until you go Each and everyone of us here have different problems or situations in our life's... Some of us have very similar ones as well....I love the fact that we are here for each other to listen, to lend a shoulder, or to help some get up off the ground. In the end , it doesn't matter that someone has the answers, it maters that someone was there to listen and give words of encouragement or even something as simple as a hug.... This for me, means the world. I hope that you guys have a great day and the rest of the week,,, Hugs and Love

KC, I want to first of all let me apologize before hand because I have never been good at reviews.. I read over some of the things others have said and I was like wow!!! However, I can only y do my best so here it goes. I was extremely caught up in the story. There were many times I felt as if I were there in the story and watching it play out before my very eyes. The one time this was the strongest was in the gym.. It was as if I were sitting there and I could feel the tension building as Amanda pulled the gun and I could sense the fear on Gibby's face. I wont be ashamed to admit it, but I cried a few times reading this. The first time was when Tanner first noticed the scars on gibby's body. HE played it off as if it were no big deal.. Secondly, as Tanner lied dying, and thirdly as Tanner was saying his final goodbyes to the guy he had fallen in love with. I love how you showed that love can be eternal and it doesn't stop when we leave this world.. I truly enjoyed and was sad when it ended.. As they say, all good things must come to an end. I hipe you have many more good things to come.

I have felt much better lately... I amlearnign ot take everyday as it comes... I have had to make some difficult choices int eh last few days and I don't regret making them... I had to separate myself from things and people who were bringing nothing but negativity in my life... I did feel sad for a time, but sometimes we have to let go and move on. I hope everyone has a great day and a wonderful week to come hugs and love

Okay, let me start of by saying I simply adore Prince Harry and I am waiting for him to make me his prince consort! until then, I agree he is young and needs to sow his seeds as they say, but at the same time he was born into a position that was not of his choosing, but nonetheless it is his. He is a Prince, and thus should act more like one... just saying. Well W_L.. its okay to have private parties were your running around in your b-day suit... but at least have enough sense to make sure no one takes a picture,because you know it will be everywhere! My dad use to always say... "watch out what you do, you never know who might be watching!

Oh Mark..you and the little piglets.. I am so jealous.. Now those bring a smile to my face.. hey name one after me and make sure it is one your keeping:) name it something like "Lord Harc" Hugs and love Wayne....I am sorry if I have failed to ask you about your dad! I hope and pray that he is getting better...

Thanks Joann and Wayne and everyone else.... I have had some time to think and I know what I need to do but just don't know how about doing it.....I hope everyone has a great day and a wonderful tomorrow. Hugs and Love

I have not been away my self lately.. for several reasons... (1) I am beginning to realize, and realize the hard way, that I am not the center of everyone's universe.. (2) Things with my bf seem to be on the rocks at the moment (3) I haven't chatted on line with my friends on line or the ones off of line for several days...This seems to bother me more than it does them.( 4) and finally my new job has me working pretty strange hours. This may be contributing to not being able to chat with people.(5) I guess I have always wanted to be important in somebody's life, not the center of it, just the next in line. So I have decided to start writing again as well as I have three people I am editing for so their work will keep me busy....I am sad beyond compare at the moment. HOwever, I need to take care of me so this is why I need to start back writing again.. I am not disappearing, I just need to take some time for myself.. I appreciate each and everyone of you.. I hope you all have a great day and a great week to come. Hugs and Love