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  1. Fairytale romance: Just a Question of Love North Sea Texas Realistic: Out in the Dark Weekend Erotic: Free Fall
  2. Warrior1

    Chapter 28

    I literally lived through this story and fell in love with them.
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    Goodbye my Love

    I take Mirtazapine, which might be a milder antidepressant than the SSRIs. So my emotions, sex drive and overall personality is still intact, and now that I am on a lower dosage, I feel my emotions more strongly than before. At least my personality hasn't been permanently damaged.
  4. I have been on very high antidepressant for a long time. My mental health deteriorated so much that it was unavoidable. The problem with these ‘happy pills’ is that, though they can safely curb your depression to a great extent, they can effectively turn you into a zombie. I literally lost my ability to feel any kind of deep emotions. Life became numb, with no ups and no downs. For a moment, I had to actually wonder if the emotion center of my brain actually got irreversibly damaged. Until, that is, I met you. I didn’t want to come to class, but when you sat beside me and my eyes fell upon your face, I was so glad I did. Something shook inside me. Not only did I feel the emotions I thought I’d lost, but I felt them more strongly than I’d ever felt before. It wasn’t just your perfectly sculpted face (though I am as shallow as any other gay man, so yes, your beautifully handsome face made the first impression on me). It was your cheerful mannerism, your friendly gestures, your kind attitude … and so much that can’t be explained in words (or things even I couldn’t figure out). When you smiled, your nose used to wrinkle in an adorable way – a sight that is etched on my mind. I can’t forget how you used to keep sit for me, or ask me to keep one for you. I can’t forget how you once went to the front of the class on our sir’s insistence that one of us has to sit at the front of the column, and you chose to sacrifice for me. I cried thinking of you that day, and I still get teary eyed when I see your faced in my Facebook. But then you slowly drifted apart. Was it my own fault? I started ‘hearting’ your photos on Facebook against my better judgement. You felt uneasy about my approach, I assume, and you started ignoring me. When we met, you were cordial, but not the same warm person you once were to me. And I understand. It was my fault. How can I be so flamboyant in my love? I treaded on your personal ground, I made you – presumably a straight man – uncomfortable in my overt expression of my love. I deactivated my Facebook a long, long time ago, and kept it that way longer than I’d expected. But some dormant feeling inside me wanted to see you. I just wanted to see your playful eyes and that radiant smile one last time. And what a cruel surprise did I get when I opened your profile! You got married, to a girl just as beautiful as you. Maybe some good did come out of it. I swear I will not stalk you anymore because I know you are already taken. Good bye my love. I hope you all the best in your new life. May your life not be like mine. I hope you found what you were looking for in her, and you have a blessed life ahead. That’s all that matters to me.
  5. Despite coming from a deeply religious and conservative Muslim family, my parents have been very accepting and approving of my sexuality and future life. They are willing to send me abroad in a gay friendly country so that I can have a good life.
  6. Reposting it from another gay forum I visit: I was born and raised up in Bangladesh, which is as homophobic and religious and conservative a country as you could hope. Now I'm moving out to Canada to study. Hopefully will try to do PR and settle there. Now my question is ... How gay friendly is Canada? Am I taking the right step? As per my research, Canada is quite gay friendly, it stands at number 3 after Sweden and England for lgbt rights issue. Though I understand it differs from cities to cities. I am going to Ottowa (in Ontario) - does anyone have any personal experience with it? Legal rights are all there , but more needed is social acceptance. Can I come out easily to anyone? What's the chance of finding a bar or bathhouse etc? Chance of finding a relationship? Can I eat out / hang out / stay in same flat with another man in public without fear of discrimination or bullying? Looking forward to the life I always wanted but never had. Thanks (please be positive -- even if the answers are negative, try to put it in a positive way).
  7. At Swim, Two Boys by Jamie O Nail Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky The God of Small Things by Arundhati Roy Call be By your Name by Andre Aciman The Sands of Time by Sidney Sheldon Harry Potter and the Order of the Phoenix by J K Rowling
  8. You have no idea how much this piece moved me. Maybe because it's a personal account that I feel so captivated by it. The endless parties and sex are delightfully exciting to read, but maybe there's something quite ... 'empty' about that life too which makes people eventually settle down. And thanks for the recommendation -- the book sounds like premise of TV movie The Normal Heart which I absolutely loved.
  9. Hi there, do you remember me? :)

  10. Warrior1

    Self Esteem

    It's something that you can't improve overnight, or with a few short fixes. It will happen gradually, and you need to work hard at it. Try to improve in the areas you lack. For instance, if you are shy, try going out more. Also, try accomplishing something big -- when you have that sense of accomplishment, you automatically realize you are worth it.
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