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You have two very different cats here (obviously) but probably more important than how Timmy will react is how Lucky's gonna take losing her brother. It takes some cats a long while to get used to a new environment, and during that time they are really insecure. If you can stand it they should stay together... which is probably not what you want to hear! Camy

That's Greeeeeeat! I am so relieved and happy for for Mark and you. Take care Luc, and try and get some sleep. Camy

Much as I'd like to give you advice I won't 'cause I don't know enough yet. Dez says 'Relationships don't have to be like soap operas.' I think they do, otherwise where's the fun? Just script your own. Camy You could try singing from the rooftops...

I can only hope this euphoria is going to last, and last and last and last, though realistically I know it won't and like any couple (ooh ... I like that word - Couple ) we'll have our ups and downs. I should explain that he and I had a 'fling' a while ago when I was too young (early 20's) to truly understand what love was. I thought it was another word for sex, and the profound deeper emotional levels escaped me. Back then when he said 'I love you' I thought 'great', replied "I love you too" and we had fun for a while, until I couldn't handle it. Back then it was all about me. I've just dropped him home. We spent almost the whole day together and he explained a few things ... like the reasons it's taking so long for him to get his head around this 'love' thing: Primarily it's because he thought I'd never really be interested, and he built a wall and shut the thoughts out. Friendship no problem - anything else didn't exist. Apparently when I first told him he thought I was doing it out of pity, to bolster his ego ... silly man! :wacko: Anyway this post is really to thank all those who have helped me through, getting me to the happy place I am ... all those comments about 'growing a pair' and the threat of cast bronze statuary lobbed in my direction actually worked and got me off my rather reticent arse. I'd also like to thank his damn flat mate for taking a holiday - perhaps he could join the cast of 'Lost' permanently, though God forbid he should ever read this <shudder>. I have worked out why I dislike him so much. I think it

Yeeeee Ha! Thanks all! Camy

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OK so this is the way it happened... Saturday to Wednesday: Nervous as hell and wussed out. Decided everything was ok as it was

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Here's hoping you had a good one, and sorry I missed it. Cheers James Camy

I've spent every available minute since Sunday in his company, musically we used to work together a lot, and if all else fails we've recaptured that, and our creative relationship is better in every way ... which is great, but still not where I want to be. This week has been intense from every point of view. I haven't wussed as yet, but either my brain freezes as I open my mouth, or he looks at me and asks me if I'm alright. Which mentally I'm not. I'm standing on a small rock floating in space and his rock is the only way to go ... and it's there, and I just can't make the leap. I want to scream, and I can't. I want to cry in frustration, and can't. I want what seems unobtainable, and it's not, it's there - I just can't ASK. More fool me. Anyway tomorrow we're driving up to London. Yup, that's it, I'll mention it in the car. If all else fails I can use the 'fancy a shag then?' line - or not. Why is such a simple thing so damn difficult? It's got to be genetic, or I could blame the cats... Dunderhead

His arsehole flatmate's gone away for a week! and the coast is finally clear... So today we went and 'did' a car boot sale. I don't know if 'car boot sales' are particularly English, but basically you pack all the rubbish you should really throw away, into the car, drive to a large field with other 'car booters' and sell it to some really nice idiots. It was blazingly hot, so I took off my T-shirt and tarted around I think it worked... He would have to be blind and stupid not to have sussed what I was doing, and he's neither. He bought me a small silver box! Camy

Sam's MUCH braver than I was at his age. I liked hair, lots of it to hide behind... Still do, though hats and shades work well as an alternative. Our school barber was a nazi with a pudding bowl, and best avoided. Also, I love that T-shirt! Cool son you have there Luc. Camy

This coming week will result in either one overjoyed guy, or someone who can move on with his life. I know which result I want, but I'm actually prepared for both eventualities ... so I'm a damn liar, but pragmatic. I was wondering how to start, then I read this in

Ditto, ditto, and ditto! Kevin, Like CJ I'm new here too, and you have made my days better on many, many occassions!... Actually I can't remember a time when you haven't made my day better... So here's another heartfelt Happy Anniversary! Thanks, sincerely, Camy

Cheer up! Having A/C of any variety in the UK is a total luxury. I saw one once. And the new car too ... Very cool! Looks like it has tinted windows for those 'off the cuff' naughty moments And I'll bet it has AC. I have to drive at 50mph with the windows down to keep cool in my old banger. I am NOT envious. Nope, not at all ... grrrrrrr. All in all you're a lucky LB. Camy

Ballroom? I think that's probably worthy of a good natured bit of teasing I can't dance for toffee and when I try I get laughed at ... a lot. In theory I know how to waltz, it's just the reality - and all the broken toes that seem to defeat me. Buffy the vampire slayer I love so no quibbles there. As to suggestions. You could set the cats on him to purr him into submission, though two might not be quite enough. Or tease him back.

Aww. what a good boy. I love Labradors. Camy

My Anthology entry has been given the green light by Kitty, which started the weekend off on a good note, then one of the four cats, Percy, brought in a shrew. Percy is waay cool, 'cause he brings mice and shrews in unharmed to 'present' as his contribution to the housekeeping ... which is ok provided Cody isn't around. Cody doesn't give a stuff about handing over live food, for the benefit of all, she'd far rather eat it ... whatever it is. So they have a fight, and the poor mouse is cowering in the corner, too scared to leg it. Cats shooed away, I finally caught the trembling beastie under a glass and returned it to the woods. My soulmate, who is ultra good at pretending everything is ok was diagnosed with type 2 Diabetes a while back and I, naive old me, didn't think twice about it. I had a lot of facts wrong, through not doing any research because he said everything was fine. Dumb. I was put straight by a member of GA who has helped enormously, and I want to publicly thank him. You know who you are. And that's another weekend gone. Damn. Camy

Hey Nick, Have a great holiday! I'm mildly jealous 'cause I love theme parks. Why not learn a bit of html? It's really easy using a plain text editor, and you don't need to know a lot to put a story on a page. Word processors also add all sorts of unnecessary rubbish – and you should also add keywords too, which help with people trying to find your work. Pick any page and go ‘view source’ to see the code behind. Have a good one Camy PS Dad's are designed to annoy their kids. It's part of the programming. It sounds like you're away with $800, and you'll still have your savings when you get back ... which in my book is a win win.

Commiserations James, dieting seems awful. My soulmate was told four months ago he has type 2 diabetes, and as he refuses to take insulin - because once you start you can never stop, he has had to diet... He follows Atkins, and the weight has fallen off, and quickly. People either think Atkins is crackpot or swear by it, and there is apparently lots of evidence both ways ... but I can say it has worked for him. He cannot eat anything with carbs, chocolate , but he can eat meat - lotsa meat, and cheese. Milk is out, but double cream is ok - weird. Today I got given a HUGE bowl of strawberries and half a pint of cream and was nearly sick. which is odd because you'd think you'd put on weight by the truckload with cream. Luckily I've never had to diet - touch wood. I follow the 'when you're hungry eat, and then stop' regime. Camy

Kevin, just to add my support to Sharon's advice. It sounds like a great plan to me, or else just go and eat there a lot and he'll probably come back - unless you get fed up of Vietnamese food first. Or get a job there, or... What you don't want is to get a LBTW cast iron Buddha thrown at you. They hurt. Be lucky. Camy

Just want to stick my oar in on behalf of flash. It's a wonderful bit of kit, providing it's designed and built with a modicum of intelligence. Content can be delivered cross platform, and on CD and DVD too. It will do just about anything and is the future for multimedia. Though it is true there is a lot of bad flash about, don't hate it; that's like never watching TV again because of one bad program. Now popups and popunders are my bug bear. Don't get me started on those. Camy

I was working on the computer this afternoon when the power goes out. Annoying. But what's more annoying and downright worrying is the fact that everything I do, be it work or play, requires power... minds out of gutter please. I have a deadline for artwork - can't complete it no computer. I could hand write a story, but since computers my handwriting is shot. No TV, no kettle - so no coffee, etc, etc. BAD NEWS! Finally I went for a walk in the woods. It was just fantastic. Gotta get out more. Luckily I had saved my work a couple of minutes before the outage, and it's back on now - obviously, so back to work I go. Sigh. Camy

There's a great Indie band called 'The Majestic Twelve' from Wilmington, North Carolina Their new album 'Schizophrenology' is available for free download (49mb) at http://www.themajestictwelve.com/ If you're into Dean Koontz check this out to: http://www.themajestictwelve.com/archives/koontz/ Good stuff. Camy