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ADORABLE!

No, this is ‘Brandon’. An entirely different emo-ish brunette dude that looks almost exactly the same. His real name is Alex Racco. I do admit to having a slight obsession over my ‘Mason Montgomery’ model from another story. I was at once very happy and also devistated that he managed to marry his long time boyfriend last month. This is George ‘Boleyn’ Mapston: Congratulations George!

It raised you up!

I found out that the Model I'm using for 'Tyler' is a guy from Malibu called Freddie Keith. He's really adorable. A Tyler Angel if ever I've seen one.

I was toying with two of these guys and found I liked the second one better. Both are cute though.

Colin....Colin....Colin....

The Kiss Of An Angel Soundtrack.

Track List Shy (Karnaboy) - Ariel’s Theme What Makes You Beautiful (Cover of OneDirection by Tyler Ward) - Tyler’s Question Dissonance (Hammock) - Of The Banging Of Heads Against Walls Ready To Start (Tear For Fears Cover of Arcade Fire) - Tyler Breaks The Threesome Puzzles (The Mary Onettes) - Figuring Things Out Back And Forth, Forth And Back Pretty Haze (Summer Heart) - The Pink Haze Of Angelic Love Sweetness And Light (Lush) - Ariel’s Shining Angelic Soul Amor Fati (Washed Out) - Fated Love Young & Unafraid (The Moth & The Flame) - The Courage True Love Brings The Line (Mood Rings) - Ariel Spreads His Wings Dream About Me (The Depreciation Guild) - The Place Where Dreams Come True Ready 2 Wear (Geographer) - Tyler’s Angel Stay (Airiel) - The Longing Of Angels Catch Me When I Fall (Scarlet Youth) - No Longer The Klutz In Your Room (Airiel) - “Kaleidoscopic Thoughts Of Me And You” Baby (Ariel Pink) - The Miracle Of The First Time Sweetest Perfection (Color Theory) - The Encouragement Of Ryan and Randy Heaven Is A Place On Earth (Frisky Monkey Cover of Belinda Carlisle) - Angels In Heaven Earth Angel (Death Cab For Cutie Cover) - Ariel’s Prayer The Promise (When In Rome) - Tyler’s Promise ———————————— Shy (Karnaboy) - Ariel’s Theme forgive me if my words get lost on the way and all i wanna say is that i'm hopin’ this ain’t another play and i'm really glad you enjoyed this sunny, funny day and though it stormed for a while we made the clouds fade away and i can't see why i'm so Shy around you and if i stare at the sky i can't say i want to i'd rather look into your eyes your eyes (look into) your eyes your eyes your eyes and i hope to god i'm not being pulled along and i'll sing this song in the hopes that nothing goes wrong and the hour we had i hoped it would last forever and the way that you laughed it's something that i'll remember and i can't see why i'm so Shy around you and if i stare at the sky i can't say i want to i'd rather look into your eyes your eyes (look into) your eyes your eyes your eyes What Makes You Beautiful (Cover of OneDirection by Tyler Ward) - Tyler’s Question You're insecure Don't know what for You're turning heads when you walk through the door Don't need make-up, to cover up Being the way that you are is enough Everyone else in the room can see it Everyone else but you Baby you light up my world like nobody else The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell You don't know, oh oh You don't know you're beautiful If only you saw what I can see You'll understand why I want you so desperately Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe You don't know, oh oh You don't know you're beautiful, oh oh That's what makes you beautiful So come on, you got it wrong To prove I'm right, I put it in a song I don't know why, you're being shy And turn away when I look into your eye eye eyes Everyone else in the room can see it Everyone else but you Baby you light up my world like nobody else The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell You don't know, oh oh You don't know you're beautiful If only you saw what I can see You'll understand why I want you so desperately Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe You don't know, oh oh You don't know you're beautiful, oh oh That's what makes you beautiful Dissonance (Hammock) - Of The Banging Of Heads Against Walls I've been drinking, just to settle down We keep sinking, into the dark of the hollow The light breaks overhead, but we won't follow I keep drinking under endless clouds I've been thinking just to sort it out We keep dreaming in the wake of the shadows The sin has come undone, but I won't let it go I keep drinking under endless clouds There's nothing wrong with me There's something wrong with you There's nothing wrong with me We're all alone There's something wrong with me There's nothing wrong with you There's something wrong with me We're not alone There's nothing wrong with me There's something wrong with you There's nothing wrong with me We're all alone There's something wrong with me There's nothing wrong with you There's something wrong with me We're not alone Ready To Start (Tear For Fears Cover of Arcade Fire) - Tyler Breaks The Threesome (Reprise from The Arcade Junkies) Puzzles (The Mary Onettes) - Figuring Things Out Back And Forth, Forth And Back I think about it oh, I think about it still. I think I realize that it will always break. It’s just a game we love, it’s just a game we love. What a way to live, it’s not a way to live. Do I have time to think, do I have time to sink? To make it look alright I need to bend my soul. Those things we never did, those things we never said. I’ll be a numb one day, I’ll be a numb one day. I’ll be a numb one day. I’m going out to stay up all night. Let’s talk about what feels strange on the inside. Let’s make this year look good tonight. I know it hasn’t been the best year so let me know. Do you feel strange on the inside? I should be here to grow, I should be here to know that if I make it right I could be heading home. That’s not a way to think somebody told me how we only learn one way. Could that be said about us? Could that be said about us? I’m going out to stay up all night. Let’s talk about what feels strange on the inside. Let’s make this year look good tonight. I know it hasn’t been the best year so let me know. Do you feel strange on the inside? We should never forget who we are. The same flesh and blood made in sparks. I’m going out to stay up all night. Let’s make this year look good tonight. Pretty Haze (Summer Heart) - The Pink Haze Of Angelic Love [Verse 1] I had a dream on a pill, low times I know I made you up The first time I saw you I knew I'd never come down to be the same [Bridge] From now on and forever I'm yours but just behind our closed doors From now on and forever I'll adore the thing we had the ones we were [Chorus] Say you won't leave, darling, this summer of love Say you won't leave, darling, this summer of love [Verse 2] We are alone in the whole world no one can touch us where we stand For all the fame and money my love I'd give it away for one more day [Bridge] From now on and forever I'm yours but just behind our closed doors From now on and forever I'll adore the thing we had the ones we were [Chorus] Say you won't leave, darling, this summer of love Say you won't leave, darling, this summer of love Sweetness And Light (Lush) - Ariel’s Shining Angelic Soul See my life (I've been so tired) See my self (I've been uptight) See my life (I've been so tired) See my sight (I could disappear) See with you memories fading fast And with you it's never going to last You are the sweetness in my eyes You are an apple in disguise See with you I never seemed to look the other way Only to stay, only to breathe Only to see That space and light is what I really need I never wanted to tell lies You are the sweetness in my eyes You are the juice I need for life You are the sweetness in my eyes Amor Fati (Washed Out) - Fated Love [Verse 1] Don't try to find words now, you’ll fall Let go, reach out The choice is yours to find [Chorus] Inside you've got the light to guide Your fate decides the roads you're going to find [Verse 2] Relax, slow down Let hope decide Even though he’s hard to forgive But you can’t help fall in love If you know your flaws, you know that You'll be all right in time [Chorus] Inside you've got the light to guide Your fate decides the roads you're going to find [Chorus] Inside you've got the light to guide Your fate decides the roads you're going to find Young & Unafraid (The Moth & The Flame) - The Courage True Love Brings [Verse 1] Think back on what you did How you’d punk all the new kids The new wave of exclusive As if there's something new, kid [Pre-Chorus] We're the patient performer The kid in the corner We were just tuning you out [Chorus] We are young and unafraid We are young and unafraid [Verse 2] Allow me to weigh in On this conversation Here's your invitation To chew someone else's heel Your concessions are useless A filter to diffuse this Now you have to excuse us We are moving on [Pre-Chorus] It’s the rats in the basement Trying our patience We are just tuning you out [Chorus] We are young and unafraid We are young and unafraid [Bridge] Did you think we couldn't feel you there? Did you think we couldn't feel you there? Did you think we couldn't hear you there? Did you think we couldn't hear you there? We were just tuning you out We were just tuning you out We will keep tuning you out [Chorus] We are young and unafraid We are young and unafraid We are young and unafraid We are young and unafraid The Line (Mood Rings) - Ariel Spreads His Wings Come smell the fruit for a while And the time, lost despair, burns to smile And then, tonight's the night you live your life Tonight's the night you broke the line Tonight's the night you live your life I'm not surprised you broke the line Fear, fall inside, over style And if life, time exist, for a while And then, tonight's the night you live your life Tonight's the night you broke the line Tonight's the night you live your life I'm not surprised you broke the line Everybody wants to know you quick Nobody wants to let you die Everybody wants to keep you nights Nobody wants to know your mind Everybody wants to know you quick Nobody wants to let you die Everybody wants to keep you nights Nobody wants to know your mind And then, tonight's the night you live your life Tonight's the night you broke the line Tonight's the night you live your life I'm not surprised you broke the line Tonight's the night you live your life Tonight's the night you broke the line Tonight's the night you live your life I'm not surprised you broke the line Dream About Me (The Depreciation Guild) - The Place Where Dreams Come True Someplace far away Echoes through the hills Swinging through the trees I heard you say Something from the past Steady as the sea In and out of phase I heard you say Dream about me Softly, candy-sweet Like sugar from the hills A sound delivery I heard you say Empty frequencies If you're hearing me I'll be here tonight I heard you say Dream about me Oh, wait for the night Oh, wait for the night Ready 2 Wear (Geographer) - Tyler’s Angel You are a star You wear it well You blow my mind tonight tonight So we can dance all night Nothing I could tell you You look good when you wear it well Nothing I could tell you You look good when you wear it well Nothing I could tell you You look good when you wear it well Nothing I could tell you You look good when you wear it well Tonight tonight you're a star won't you stay a while You wear it well, wear it well, wear it well Sing me your song... Nothing I could tell you You look good when you wear it well Stay (Airiel) - The Longing Of Angels I love the light in your eyes Fall of your hair as you turn Stay inside for a little while Stay tonight Don't let this all be a dream Wake up lonely instead Sense of loss, though it only was In my head I slipped these thoughts on your hand Symbolized with a band By your side for the rest of my life Stay tonight I love you Catch Me When I Fall (Scarlet Youth) - No Longer The Klutz In the shade of the day It's hard to concentrate When everything is Out of focus Please tell me When it's time to go I don't want to Stay too long I, sometimes Dream of a deer Carrying me away While I am drifting In a soft serene world X In the silence of night We're slowly healing It's still summer So we have time To figure it out Before returning But we don't want to Leave at all I, sometimes Dream of a deer Carrying me away While I am drifting In a soft serene world Catch Me When I Fall When I let you go Catch Me When I Say ‘I will miss you so’ (X) In Your Room (Airiel) - “Kaleidoscopic Thoughts Of Me And You” I always try to keep my eyes from closing besides I still see you it seems so right to think of the time we could have tonight and it's so cold it seems my hands are colder than yours, warm me up inside your face turns red and so does mine and we climb all around you stare into my eyes and watch me drown inside you whisper to me softly as I lie you shine so bright a light inside my head i love the thought of staring at you asleep at night kaleidoscopic thoughts of me and you and you're just so cool for me to see the life we'd have and we'd tell everyone your face turns red and so does mine and we climb all around you stare into my eyes and watch me drown inside and whisper to me softly as I lie Baby (Ariel Pink) - The Miracle Of The First Time [Intro] Oooh baby Oooh baby [Verse 1] When we're out in the moonlight Looking up at the stars above Feels so good when I'm near you Holding hands and making love [Chorus] Ooh ooh baby You're baby You're baby Yes oh baby [Verse 2] Sandy beach and just making love As the tide moves in on us Feels so good walking side by side Want to be with you all my life [Chorus] Ooh ooh baby You're so baby You're so baby Yes oh baby Sweetest Perfection (Color Theory Cover Of Depeche Mode) - The Encouragement Of Ryan and Randy (Reprise from Ryan’s Heart) Heaven Is A Place On Earth (Frisky Monkey Cover of Belinda Carlisle) - Angels In Heaven [Chorus] Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth? Ooh, heaven is a place on earth They say in heaven love comes first We'll make heaven a place on earth Ooh, heaven is a place on earth [Verse 1] When the night falls down I wait for you And you come around And the world's alive With the sound of kids On the street outside [Pre-Chorus 1] When you walk into the room You pull me close and we start to move And we're spinning with the stars above And you lift me up in a wave of love [Chorus] Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth? Ooh, heaven is a place on earth They say in heaven, love comes first We'll make heaven a place on earth Ooh, heaven is a place on earth [Verse 2] When I feel alone I reach for you And you bring me home When I'm lost at sea I hear your voice And it carries me [Pre-Chorus 2] In this world we're just beginning To understand the miracle of living Baby I was afraid before But I'm not afraid anymore [Chorus] Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth? Ooh, heaven is a place on earth They say in heaven, love comes first We'll make heaven a place on earth Ooh, heaven is a place on earth (Heaven) (Heaven) (Heaven) [Pre-Chorus 2] In this world we're just beginning To understand the miracle of living Baby I was afraid before But I'm not afraid anymore (Heaven) [Chorus] Ooh, baby, do you know what that's worth? Ooh, heaven is a place on earth They say in heaven, love comes first We'll make heaven a place on earth Ooh, heaven is a place on earth Ooh, heaven is a place on earth Ooh, heaven is a place on earth Ooh, heaven is a place on earth Ooh, heaven is a place on earth Ooh, heaven is a place on earth Earth Angel (Death Cab For Cutie Cover) - Ariel’s Prayer Earth angel, earth angel Will you be mine My darling dear Love me all the time I'm just a fool (just a fool) A fool in love, with you Earth angel, earth angel The one I adore Lovely for ever and ever more (I'm just a fool) I'm just a fool (oh what a fool) A fool in love with you Yes in love with you I fell for you And I knew The vision of my love's loveliness I hope and I pray that some day I'll be the vision (vision) The vision of your happiness Angel my darling Last night I fell in love with a little piece of heaven on Earth It was you The way you walk, the way you talk The way you bat your eye lids as I pull up in my open-top Chevy I don't know what I'd do without you Earth Angel I will never let you go Angel of angels Earth angel, oh Earth angel, earth angel Will you be mine My darling dear Love me all the time (I'm just a fool) I'm just a fool (Oh what a fool) A fool in love with you Oh, my love I'm just a fool (Just a fool) A fool in love With You Fool in love with you The Promise (When In Rome) - Tyler’s Sacred Promise If you need a friend, don't look to a stranger You know in the end, I'll always be there But when you're in doubt, and when you're in danger Take a look all around, and I'll be there I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be But if you'll wait around awhile, I'll make you fall for me I promise, I promise you I will When your day is through, and so is your temper You know what to do, I'm gonna always be there Sometimes if I shout, it's not what's intended These words just come out, with no cross to bear I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be But if you'll wait around awhile, I'll make you fall for me I promise, I promise you I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be And if I had to walk the world, I'd make you fall for me I promise you, I promise you I will I gotta tell you, need to tell you, got to tell you, I've got to tell you I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be But if you'll wait around awhile, I'll make you fall for me I promise, I promise you I'm sorry, but I'm just thinking of the right words to say I know they don't sound the way I planned them to be And if I had to walk the world, I'd make you fall for me I promise you, I promise you I will I will I will

Yes, now we can know what Brandon was contending with as he pursued his relationship with Billy. Dad is very . . . traditional. By the way, @Dodger BIG congratz on your promotion!

Brandon Smiling, Entry 36: https://www.gayauthors.org/story/mrm/brandonsmilingfromthebillychasechronicles/36

May 31 So, I apparently wasn’t off the hook after I got taken home last night. First of all, I have to say this immediately, I WANT A PORSCHE SOME TIME IN MY LIFE! OMG! Ok, now that I’ve gotten that out of my system, I can explain: I was taken home by Chandler last night (OMG #2!!) because Mr. Cross was too, um . . . ‘tired’ to drive. He apparently got driven home by Mrs. Cross because he had gotten a little too much ‘fire water’ in him. Marie told me that her Pop is not a heavy drin

This may have been a punishable offense when I was going to high school. I'm not sure if it would have been administratively, but it SURELY would have been socialogically. Shit would have gone down. See? Things ARE getting better!

Will Contain: new kid in school: Randy's Serenade The Sound of Ryan's Heart Kiss Of An Angel: The Soundtrack Why Don't You Play The Game, Arcade Junkie?

Track List The New Kid In Town (The Eagles) - Being The New Kid Gentle Rain (Snow In Mexico) - Finding Sunshine On A Cloudy Day Sapphire Eyes (Blue Jay) - A Risk Is Defined By Treasures In His Eyes Smile (The New Division) - Love Found In A Smile Tootsie Roll (Mister Chase) - Tootsie Rolls and Eye Candy Lovestruck (The Fauns) - Randy Casts His Spell A Key Turns (The Depreciation Guild) - Ryan The Gatekeeper, Randy the Key Master Strawberry Cream (Oiel) - What Strawberry Blonds Make On High (Sound Pool) - Love Gone Stratospheric No. 1 Fan (Majesty Crush) - Ryan Obsessed Boyfriend (Tegan and Sara) - Troubles And Secrets Taste Like Honey (Swallow) - Missing Randy’s Taste F^#k Me (Wendy Ho) - Sex On The Stairs In Mind (Brothertiger) - Randy Always On His Mind Your Lips, My Mouth (Airiel) - 69 Ways To Please A Lover You Look So Fine (Garbage) - A Rock And A Hard Place Sweetest Perfection (Depeche Mode) - The Example Of Ryan and Randy Strawberry Afternoons (Lonely Benson) - Heaven In A Basement Randy’s Hot Tonight (Electric Six) - Marathon Love With The Dreamboy Our Story (Ryan Stewart) - The Ballad of Ryan and Randy Digital Love (The Royal Concept Cover of Daft Punk) - Helping The Threesome Too Shy Cover - Holy Ariel, The Bashful Angel What Makes You Beautiful (Alex Groot) - Tyler X Ariel You’ll Be In My Heart (Peter Hollens and Bryan Lanning) - Ryan’s Heart Call Me Maybe (Glee Cast) - Call Me, Maybe? ———————————— The New Kid In Town (The Eagles) - Being The New Kid We’re talking about the new kid in town…. Gentle Rain (Snow In Mexico) - Finding Sunshine On A Cloudy Day Etheric vocals Sapphire Eyes (Blue Jay) - A Risk Is Defined By Treasures In His Eyes Sapphire Eyes as deep as the bright blue sky you've got your hand laced in mine before we leave and I never thought that we'd come this far with three years past and some love in our arms and it's hard to believe that you came to me (Chorus) Hey, whoa whoa... don't you ever go away Hey, whoa whoa... don't you ever leave this place sing me a song tell me about everything that you ever dreamed of sing me a song tell me about you (X) (Chorus) another story ends this is the beginning of something new again I'm growing older my heart is a little bit colder But I still want it for you and me (Chorus) Sapphire Eyes you've got your hand laced in mine oh-oh oh-oh oh-oh Smile (The New Division) - Love Found In A Smile I see you walk at night with the pain inside of all of us I know you talk and write of the stories from another book Your words are cold but your heart is right You will find it in the morning light Your tears are gone and your face is bright I see you're Smiling all the time I see you Smiling in my mind Tootsie Roll (Mister Chase) - Tootsie Rolls and Eye Candy That Tootsie Roll That Tootsie Roll Gimme Gimme Jelly Bounce it all around Knick knack paddy whack Make it touch the ground Dip it To the Right To the Left Up and Down Shake it shake it baby Shake it all around I can make twerq Make it worq Make it go All the other boyz be watchin make em say OH! Make their eyes big make dem blush fo' sho' Make dat ass go ticky ticky just once mo' Now (chorus) Ohhhhhh! I want that tootsie roll (ow) Gimmmeeee That tootsie roll! (ow)X (drop it) Check the unicorn hidin out in my pocket he's a little sly might sneak into your cockpit squeaky like a rubber duck make him go quack baby, shate that tailfeather bring that thing back Jelly . . . Gimme Jelly . . . SUPERCALISWAGILISITICSEXYHELLADOPENESS Throw ya hands up in the air & Shake it like ya hopeless Do you like when I spread ya body on my bed? body on my bed? X (chorus) Do you, do you like it when I move my feet, my feet X O00000ooooooooooo0000000000oooooooooh Give ME that Jelly! X (chorus) That Tootsie Roll That Tootsie Roll Lovestruck (The Fauns) - Randy Casts His Spell You and I And those bright eyes Eyes, eyes that bring me back To life All of time is in your eyes The song of your eyes Is the song of my life You and I Wonder why The breath of our sighs Feels so nice Lovestruck I feel you inside Stay here Don’t say ‘good night’ Love Lovestruck X A Key Turns (The Depreciation Guild) - Ryan The Gatekeeper, Randy the Key Master There is a figure in the glass He moves through the dark house White candle visions flicker fast Uncover the unfound Leave everything that you have known It must go Cut down the tree to plant the seed All you need And to your side, i will speed A key turns inside another past Uncovers the unclear Ghost resin synapse fires fast He knows he has been here Down to the place you've been before There is more Slide like a spirit through the leaves Do you believe There is truth to what you've seen? Down to the place you've been before There is more Slide like a spirit through the leaves Do you believe Love is a light that can't be killed So rebuild Never again to shed a tear The coast is clear In the dreamhouse, we are here Strawberry Cream (Oiel) - What Strawberry Blonds Make Etheric distortions of heavenly peace. I want just a little more of Everything From You On High (Sound Pool) - Love Gone Stratospheric Something, Something We’re on High. No. 1 Fan (Majesty Crush) - Ryan Obsessed Yeah Oh-oh Yeah Yeah Oh The Butterflies won’t go away I’m in my car going insane I feel your love inside my chains I’ll take a car, a train, a plane Kill anyone that gets in my way I’ll never ever leave this chase Well, I’m your Number One Fan No. 1 Fan . . . Yeah Uh-huh Sent you a letter today Found out the places you were staying But things still got in my way I’ll take a car, a train, a plane Kill anyone that gets in my way I’ll never ever leave this chase Well, I’m your Number One Fan No. 1 Fan . . . Yeah Uh-huh I’d kill a President I’d kill a President I’d kill a President I read everything that you wrote Sang everything that you sang Watched everything that you played on I’ll take a car, a train, a plane Kill anyone that gets in my way I’ll never ever leave this chase Cause, I’m your Number One Fan Your No. 1 Fan . . . Yeah Uh-huh I’d kill a President I’d kill a President I’d kill a President (For your love) (X) For your love (X) Boyfriend (Tegan and Sara) - Troubles and Solutions Tell you that I love you, that I can't hold back The feeling that you give me, wanna give it right back I know you always win at this particular game I need to know the rules if you want me to play You treat me like your boyfriend And trust me like a like a very best friend You kiss me like your boyfriend You call me up like you want your best friend You turn me on like you want your boyfriend But I don't want to be your secret anymore I'm trying to be honest cause I can't relax Oh, when I get around you I can't hide the facts I let you take advantage cause it felt so good I blame myself for thinking we both understood You treat me like your boyfriend And trust me like a like a very best friend You kiss me like your boyfriend You call me up like you want your best friend You turn me on like you want your boyfriend But I don't want to be your secret anymore Don't wanna, don't wanna play the crying game Do you feel the same? You feel the same Don't wanna, don't wanna spin the bottle again Do you feel the same? You feel the same You treat me like your boyfriend And trust me like a like a very best friend You kiss me like your boyfriend You call me up like you want your best friend You turn me on like you want your boyfriend But I don't want to be your secret anymore You treat me like your boyfriend And trust me like a like a very best friend You kiss me like your boyfriend You call me up like you want your best friend You turn me on like you want your boyfriend But I don't want to be your secret anymore Taste Like Honey (Swallow) - Missing Randy’s Taste Tastes like honey But burns inside of me I've tried to tell you And what more could I do You'd find my secrets Would take away your breath And the sense of pain Fills me day after day And it's killing me It's killing me It's killing me It's killing me I saw you hide your smile In someone else's eyes And it tore the pleasure Right out of my heart It's killing me It's killing me It's killing me It's killing me I shouldn't feel so lonely But just look at me I shouldn't feel so empty When you're touching me But it's all I've ever been All I've ever been All I've ever been All I've ever been And you are just killing me And you are just killing me And you are just killing me And you are just killing me F^#k Me (Wendy Ho) - Sex On The Stairs Raunchy In Mind (Brothertiger) - Randy Always On His Mind I feel you all the way In destinies begun The shadows on my face Dissolving in the sun I know my own mistakes Have driven you along Then go and make your place Wherever you belong In mind I don't know if you want me to take you away You're keeping me In mind I am hoping that everything will remain You're keeping me In mind I don't know if you want me to take you away You're keeping me In mind Time slowing and every look you give me gets me high I feel you all the way In destinies begun I'll show you how to make Your soul and mind as one Your Lips, My Mouth (Airiel) - 69 Ways To Please A Lover Sun ray skies and we're lost The hallway's upside down You stumble over to me And blow me away with a smile Your finger's teasing my brain "Forever ends today" It's slow to get you to see How you're teasing me tonight No one's into you No one's into me But oh, they're into us and they can't see Roulette in my brain "Forever ends today" Over and over they'll see How your lips and my mouth should be Dancing 'til we both fall backwards Time and time again Spinning 'round in my bed I'll dream of you tonight Oh, they're into you Oh, they're into me But no one's into us They can't see They can't see You Look So Fine (Garbage) - A Rock And A Hard Place You look so fine I want to break your heart And give you mine You're taking me over It's so insane You've got me tethered and chained I hear your name And I'm falling over I'm not like all the other boys I can't take it like the other boys I won't share it like the other boys That you used to know You look so fine Knocked down Cried out Been down just to find out I'm through living for you I'm open wide I want to take you home We're wasting time You're the only one for me You look so fine I'm like the desert tonight Leave him behind If you want to show me I'm not like all the other boys I won't take it like the other boys I won't fake it like the other boys That you used to know You're taking me over Over and over I'm falling over Over and over Loving me one more time Hide inside me tonight Do what you want to do Just pretend happy end Let me know let it show Ending with letting go (three times) Let's pretend happy end (four times) Sweetest Perfection (Depeche Mode) - The Example Of Ryan and Randy The sweetest perfection to call my own The slightest correction couldn't finely hone The sweetest infection of body and mind Sweetest injection of any kind I stop and I stare too much Afraid that I care too much And I hardly dare to touch For fear that the spell may be broken When I need a drug in me And it brings out the thug in me Feel something tugging me Then I want the real thing, not tokens The sweetest perfection to call my own The slightest correction couldn't finely hone The sweetest infection of body and mind Sweetest injection of any kind Things you'd expect to be Having effect on me Pass undetectedly But everyone knows what has got me Takes me completely Touches me sweetly Reaches so deeply I know that nothing can stop me Sweetest perfection An offer was made An assorted collection But I wouldn't trade The sweetest perfection to call my own The slightest correction couldn't finely hone The sweetest infection of body and mind Sweetest injection of any kind The sweetest perfection to call my own The slightest correction couldn't finely hone (nothing can stop me) The sweetest infection of body and mind (takes me completely, touches so sweetly) The sweetest injection of any kind (reaches so deeply, nothing can stop me) The sweetest perfection to call my own (takes me completely, touches so sweetly) The slightest correction couldn't finely hone (reaches so deeply, nothing can stop me) The sweetest infection of body and mind (takes me completely, touches so sweetly) The sweetest injection of any kind (reaches so deeply) Strawberry Afternoons (Lonely Benson) - Heaven In A Basement When I saw you in the morning You were on your way to work I bought your coffee 'Cause I liked the way you talk It's kind of funny now to think I know the name of your perfume I never dreamed I'd be here lying next to you [Chorus] Strawberry afternoons By your side Where fields of flowers bloom In your sunshine And when we kiss Isn't it bliss? Strawberry afternoons [Instrumental] [Repeat Chorus] One spray, two spray Three’s too much One spray, two spray That's enough One spray, two spray Three’s too much One spray, two spray Quite enough ‘Cause I love you where you are When you’re here lying in my arms Close to my heart [Repeat Chorus] Randy’s Hot Tonight (Electric Six) - Marathon Love With The Dreamboy Dance like nobody's watching you, Randy And love like you've never been hurt Supersize it when you get hungry, Randy And eat like it's the last night on earth You could be nobody in heaven Or you could be a star in hell You could have a billion dollars and blow it all away Randy's hot tonight He's hot tonight He's hot tonight Randy's hot tonight He's hot tonight He's hot tonight Randy's got tonight He's got tonight He's got tonight Randy's hot tonight He's hot tonight He's hot tonight Cause we just wanna see the hot hot side of Randy Now Randy said "If you live in Japan You're Japanese. If you live in Canada You're gonna freeze. If you live in a plastic house You'll never die in a fire. If you work in television You're a fucking liar!" Don't become unfocused, Randy And everything'll be ok That confidence will come in handy And everyone will be forced to say That Randy's hot tonight He's hot tonight He's hot tonight Randy's hot tonight He's hot tonight He's hot tonight Randy's got tonight He's got tonight He's got tonight Randy's hot tonight He's hot tonight He's hot tonight Cause we just wanna see the hot hot side of Randy Our Story (Ryan Stewart) - The Ballad of Ryan and Randy Sweet and Gentle Piano Instrumental by Ryan Digital Love (The Royal Concept Cover of Daft Punk) - Helping The Threesome [Verse 1] Last night I had a dream about you In this dream, I'm dancing right beside you And it looked like everyone was having fun The kind of feeling I've waited so long [Verse 2] Don't stop, come a little closer As we jam, the rhythm gets stronger There's nothing wrong with just a little little fun We were dancing all night long The time is right to put my arms around you You're feeling right, you wrap your arms around too But suddenly I feel the shining sun Before I knew it, this dream was all gone [Verse 3] Ooh, I don't know what to do About this dream and you I wish this dream comes true Ooh, I don't know what to do About this dream and you We'll make this dream come true [Interlude] [Outro] Why don't you play the game? Why don't you play the game? Too Shy Cover - Holy Ariel, The Bashful Angel Reprise from ‘The Arcade Junkies’ What Makes You Beautiful (Alex Groot) - Tyler X Ariel XOXOX Reprise from ‘Kiss Of An Angel’ You’ll Be In My Heart (Peter Hollens and Bryan Lanning) - Ryan’s Heart Come stop your crying It will be alright Just take my hand And hold it tight I will protect you From all around you I will be here Don't you cry For one so small, You seem so strong My arms will hold you, Keep you safe and warm This bond between us Can't be broken I will be here Don't you cry 'Cause you'll be in my heart Yes, you'll be in my heart From this day on Now and forever more You'll be in my heart No matter what they say You'll be here in my heart Always Why can't they understand the way we feel They just don't trust what they can't explain I know we're different, but deep inside us We're not that different at all And you'll be in my heart Yes you'll be in my heart From this day on Now and forever more Don't listen to them 'Cause what do they know We need each other, to have, to hold They'll see in time, I know When destiny calls you, you must be strong I may not be with you But you got to hold on They'll see in time, I know We'll show them together 'Cause you'll be in my heart Believe me you'll be in my heart I'll be there from this day on Now and forever more You'll be in my heart No matter what they say You'll be here in my heart Always Always I'll be with you I'll be there for you always Always and always Just look over your shoulder Just look over your shoulder Just look over your shoulder I'll be there Always Call Me Maybe (Glee Cast) - Call Me, Maybe? I threw a wish in the well Don't ask me, I'll never tell I looked to you as it fell And now you're in my way I'd trade my soul for a wish Pennies and dimes for a kiss I wasn't looking for this But now you're in my way Your stare was holdin' Ripped jeans, skin was showin' Hot night, wind was blowin' Where you think you're going, baby? Hey, I just met you And this is crazy But here's my number So call me, maybe? It's hard to look right At you baby But here's my number So call me, maybe? Hey, I just met you And this is crazy But here's my number So call me, maybe? And all the other boys Try to chase me But here's my number So call me, maybe? You took your time with the call I took no time with the fall You gave me nothing at all But still, you're in my way I beg, and borrow and steal At first sight and it's real I didn't know I would feel it But it's in my way Your stare was holdin' Ripped jeans, skin was showin' Hot night, wind was blowin' Where you think you're going, baby? Hey, I just met you And this is crazy But here's my number So call me, maybe? It's hard to look right At you baby But here's my number So call me, maybe? Hey, I just met you And this is crazy But here's my number So call me, maybe? And all the other boys Try to chase me But here's my number So call me, maybe? Before you came into my life I missed you so bad I missed you so bad I missed you so, so bad Before you came into my life I missed you so bad And you should know that I missed you so, so bad It's hard to look right At you baby But here's my number So call me, maybe? Hey, I just met you And this is crazy But here's my number So call me, maybe? And all the other boys Try to chase me But here's my number So call me, maybe? Before you came into my life I missed you so bad I missed you so bad I missed you so, so bad Before you came into my life I missed you so bad And you should know that So call me, maybe?

The Brothers From Another are really good for each other. I do find the intimacy of Billy’s feelings for Sam interesting, though. How he notices Sam’s domesticity. I also find it interesting that when Sam speaks of find his ideal partner . . . He is basically describing Billy. Hmmm . . . Brandon might be ameanable to a threeway with Sam and Billy. It might need to go four-ways, though. Stevie needs some comforting too. Two blondes and two brunettes . . . Hmmmm. ??

Fascinating look at the thoughts of a member of the 1%. The beautiful yet unfulfilled. It’s easy to write an underdog if you’ve always been one. It’s hard to think through the mind of someone ‘privileged’ to see that they actually struggle too!

I suspect that Chandler, being the experienced homosexual he is, in trying to tease out Brandon’s true sexual identity. Often, it’s meeting an older member of our orientation that get’s the ‘Outting’ process going. They are an example of what it is to be actively Out and ok about it. It’s a reason why older Gays need to take more responsibility for being good rolemodels for the younger ones. One thing a lot of us don’t have growing up is good rolemodels to be the best of who we really are. Maybe as things continue to get more normalized for the LGBT community more descent Gay rolemodels can surface to help guide LGBT youth in becoming the best persons they can be.

Dad’s tend to be more cavelier about their sons. Boys need experience and adventure to grow. Well . . . ChanChan is both wrapped in a Grindr t-shirt! LOL Thaks Dodger for continuing to follow the story.

Thanks again, Dumplin'.

Brandon Smiling, Entry 35: https://www.gayauthors.org/story/mrm/brandonsmilingfromthebillychasechronicles/35 Meet Chandler Cross:

May 30, Continued After Marie kissed me, she was pretty much attached to me at the hip for the rest of the evening. She tried every trick in the book to get me to go back with her into one of the bedrooms or back rooms or bathrooms or closets or . . . whatever room! Didn’t work. I now know what ‘on the make’ means. Marie is now the best example I have for that set of words put together in that way. I should be the luckiest boy in town having a girl *that* beautiful wanting to drag me off

Awww! I can’t wait for the date!

I need to find a head for my pillow butt. 😮 What?

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