MrM

Happy belated birthday, Great One!

See? All smiles!

I love Comicality so I'll just leave this here: https://www.gayauthors.org/forums/user/21-comicality/?tab=stories

Happy Birthday Monsie! My favorite token straight guy!

They are the apex predator in the insect world and they kill spiders (which I prefer to wasps until spiders grow wings).

Containment at Chernobyl is breaking down.... http://nautil.us/blog/chernobyls-hot-mess-the-elephants-foot-is-still-lethal

A perfect organism: unclouded by conscience, remorse, or delusions of morality. A survivor! Donald Trump?

May your angel's sweet spirit be forever young... From the Brandon Smiling soundtrack: ...and may every child know that they have time to bring some goodness into this world. Stay a while longer and bless us with your life.

Anne Rice. Her style and ability to promote human feeling in the sublimated normality that is, for us, supernatural always amazes me. Also her gothic style harkens back to the time of the victorian romantic writers. I follow her lead and style when trying to write prose. I also take keys from music. I generally make 'musical outlines' for my stories. This 'mixtape' approach of organizing a story helps me to keep the spirit and feeling of what I'm trying to write in order. I usually try to publish the playlists I'm working from as a mutlimedia 'Table of Contents' to go along with the story. A soundtrack of sorts.

Thank God for Ashi's eidetic memory of his High School period during that time. I'd forgotten half the S#!t that went on. Like I said, 1995 was all work for me. I did have Compuserve as my ISP, however, as i recall. I would wait for 5 minutes for a picture to load over dial-up of some guys getting it on. I lived a dual existence in my mind. I 'sinned' by finding said guys on the World Wide Web (the long-winded 'friendly' name for the Internutz back then) and then go to Confession at my local Catholic Church to confess my pornography addiction. Like 5 pictures of guys doing things I'd love to have done is an 'addiction'? I ask you! I think I spent most of my time gaming during that time. Yeah...Doom was a favorite as was Doom II. Heretic was good. I think Quake had come out by that time, but I never really got into that. I had the first first person shooter Star Wars game Dark Forces. Star Wars has always been my comfort place... (see what happens as you get past 40? Your mind wanders!) But I digress, despite all my closting, I still managed to catch glimpses of real gay life. I know that one of the most affecting things I watched during that time was 'As The Band Played On'. I suggest this program or the book to anyone interested in LGBT History during the period between 1985 - 1995. It was a BIG part of the gay experience back then. One of the reasons why I found excuses to stay in the closet was my fear of gettng AIDS. The Elton John song "Last Song" brings me to sobs to this day and I consider it the theme song of that era. Here is a video of that song Sir Elton did live in 1994: Even in 1995, a diagnosis of HIV carried a good chance of death if not caught soon enough. Before the breakthroughs in 1991-1993 in treating HIV, getting HIV WAS a definite terminal diagnosis. I am still haunted today by two men whom I befriended in college in the early 90s who had progressed to AIDS. They were rail thin. As thin as Nazi Concentration Camp victims. They were covered with Karposi Sarcoma, the rare skin cancer that was the telltale outward sign of uncontrolled AIDS. Both men would die shortly after I would graduate from College. As late as '93 advanced AIDS was always terminal. These men had no hope of survival. Their ghosts live with me to this day... Anyways...that really was a big part of the Gay experience for me then that isn't as big a deal now. In my mind it SHOULD be, but with today's medical advances my Millenial Sweethearts don't have the same fear that I had when I was 'twinkalicious'. I wish I had the clarity of memory that Ashi still has of the time. If you'd asked me about 1988, I might be able to give a better account. Those precious years in High School make the most lasting impressions upon a young mind. Later, in the twenties, at least for me...things start to blur a lot. 1988 was a time for Gay rebellion. Its the time when boys wore makeup and the 'goth/scene' movements really started to take off. A gay boy could hide behind the Goth mask which would always confuse the issue for homophobes. There were plenty of straight and many bi Goths to muddy the waters. In actuality, the 'straight' or 'bi' boys were almost always gay. But...it was a shame that they had to dress like 'deviants' just so they could express their natural feelings. I was semi-scene/mod/new romantic in my dress back then. I lost interest in self expression in the 90's. I just buried myself in my college and career work and 'disappeared' socially.

This might be an interesting resource: http://confessionsofaboytoy.com/2015/06/19/los-angeles-gay-pride-vintage-photos/ The 1995 Pride pictures are the last set on the page. I was somewhat out of it in the 90s. It should have been when I was 'picking up my heels' but I was bogged down trying to get work and fighting my homosexuality with every fiber of my being. Sad really. But, from what I recall, at least in San Diego, with the exception of things being a bit more colorful and vibrant, Pride's being a bit smaller and intimate, and the joy of new drugs on the market to combat HIV...not much has changed, really. Its really interesting the images of Prides through the years on this page look very much like the prides of today.

Well...maybe I'm the only one that can hear it. Oh well...

KInd of neither. Those shorts have a weird front. I have to lace the front up and there's like a codspiece thingie behind it all that catching 'things'. Sometimes it looks like its hanging loose when it's really not. Its a California thing. I don't particularly like it, but the shorts are still cool.

THANK YOU ALL SO-OO MUCH FOR ALL THE WELL WISHES! GA has become a very important part of my life. You guys will never know!

I uploaded the video with my comments as I'm watching the Leather Pride group pass me during San Diego Pride this year. LOL... I sound SO gay here! I don't hear it. Honestly. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yrk_PrnJmJA

Wishing you the best Sixteenth Birthday Evar Evar Evar, TOR!!! Brandon T sends his love to a big fan!!!

Hehehehe! He sounds just like he sounds when he's in my brain! I'm glad that when I described Billy's voice in Brandon Smiling I caught the run on sentences and the 'chirp'. Too funny! The animation is adorable!!

I think J.J. Abrams intends Snoke to be Snoke. Who or what that is will be fleshed out some in Episode VIII, but I don't think he'll be anything we've seen before. Kind of exciting really. http://moviepilot.com/posts/3719178

I still have some blonde hairs mixed with my gray ones.

K... How did this end up in the Sports Bar?

::| HAPPY BIRTHDAY FOOPY! |::

I totally missed this. Happy Birfday Skinny!!

That is the d@mn truth about Little Richard, bless his soul. Oh and ....thank you sthooo much RJ!

Oh myyyyy! Thank you thsoooo much! We mosst sserttainly do. We allwayyss eenuunssee-ate.

I am at the short strokes of my bandwidth so I can't watch this right now (later perhaps), but regarding: I didn't know I had the 'fem' voice until I heard a reaction I had at Pride this year in a video I'd taped of a particular entry. I literally said 'Ohhh, I Love it!!!" I sounded SO gay! Hehehehehe! So, to all of you straight folks out there that think we put this on...actually no, we don't. I don't even hear myself when I talk. I just sound 'normal' to me!