MrM

I was doing some reserch for a story and I came upon this quote. It reminded me of what got me through Jr. High and High school. I didn't even know this quote existed and yet it was something of a mantra for me in those days. Writing can sometimes surface some old memories and thoughts from the past. Its part of the 'blood' an author has to spill on his papers. I also get too many young gay guys that talk to me of suicide as an option. Sometimes the platitudes "you have so much to live for, things get better, suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem..." just don't work. Especially for those suffering from bullies. This quote....many times DOES work where other things fail. I guess when love isn't enough, you have to live out of hate to get through so you can find better love in the future.

"Don’t commit suicide because that’s what they want – If you commit suicide, they win. Choose life if only to spite them and p*** them off." ~Genesis P Orridge of the influential band Throbbing Gristle.

This was a fun one to write. I likened it to a 'chess game of luuuuv' as the two fenced. Snowflake is an amazing spirit. I swear since I've started writing this that he has subtly influenced me. For instance, we just had an ethnic food fair in our central park here in San Diego and I bypassed all the fine exotics and made a beeline for the House of Finland. Hehehehe. I ended up with a little cup of pea soup...a Finn staple. I felt like I was sharing something with an imaginary character that has somehow become real to me.

I'm honored that you are reading my stuff and enjoying it Cynus. You have become eminent here at GA because of your entrancing stories. One day, I hope I can turn 'rust red' too...but I have a long long way to go. This first chapter I see as fairly primative. It sets the stage but I think that if I were ever to have this published for money I'd work on this a bit. This was my first bit of prose I wrote here. It was a 'wing it' kind of story...but as the characters have spoken to me a very deep and meaningful 'play' came to exist. I hope you can continue on and forgive my roughness. I am very new to this sort of thing.

Now Chil the Kite brings home the night That Mang the Bat sets free-- The herds are shut in byre and hut, For loosed till dawn are we. This is the hour of pride and power, Talon and tush and claw. Oh, hear the call!--Good hunting all That keep the Jungle Law! ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Mowgli's Brothers by Rudyard Kipling

One fulfills the other. They are a looped continuum for me. I cannot divorce the two essences from each other.

LOL, but I was listening to this instead when Blasphemous Rumors was just coming out: It was about as deep as I could go at 14

The Gothic Masterpiece https://www.youtube.com/watch?list=PL3F17C55EDC7EAE0E&v=dwHfaK_A9sc

They looked so clean cut in 1982....then Some Great Reward 2 years later!

Yeah...they are cute when they act all tough, the both of them. Thank you for following my story, Mikiesboy!

A fencing match!

Thank you Mikiesboy. I've addressed some of these concerns in future chapters and they've helped me fill in blanks where needed. I hope you like what is to come.

My thoughts: #^(& No. You are all very welcome.

April 19 Well...yesterday was like absolutely nothing went on at all. A typical day of get up, eat breakfast, go to school, come home, eat dinner, do homework, kill a bunch of Bornean Bears to farm shin bones or something in my game, and then finally sleep. No one even came online to talk to or play with so I was like playing alone last night. That sometimes feels even more lonely then when you are just alone in your room reading a book. It’s like double-alone...I don't suppose that makes any

Lovely!

Awww....that was very ABC Afternoon Special feeling...Pure innocence. You are still and always the Master!

Jimmy ~~~~~~~~~ "AAAANNNG! UUUNnngh! Unngh. Uuh*" I collapse on his narrow back with my nose and face buried in his pretty blue hair. OH MY GAWD! We are both panting like dogs and he's still wigglin' trying to milk me for more. I'm going to have to pull out from his gripping hole 'cause if I don't I might just have a heart attack, only he won't quite let me yet. I haven't blown like that since my night with Brian. Maybe, not even that could match this! I have NEVER orgasmed like that in all m

Brandon thinks Billy is just....delicious! But...it might be time for Brandon to step up to the plate and put Jimmy in his place. Oddly enough, Jimmy owes him one.

Brandon needs to know about Jimmy. Billy needs an ally in this more potent than Sam. Someone who will want to fight for Billy to the bitter end. I believe there is a side to Brandon we haven't seen yet...or at least Billy hasn't seen yet.

Rut ro. Jimmy's trying a new ploy!! Billy, watch your butt!

"And here the Lesser Turn casts about looking for his breakfast. Alas...he has become breakfast." I love his narration on all those nature shows!

Happy Birthday Suvitar from the dreams of Snowflakes in places forever-white under phosphorescent skies...

Awwww....Billy.

This tragedy hits me particularly hard because I lived through the Cedar and Witch fires in San Diego County a few years ago. It was an utterly terrifying experience and what is happening to Alberta is our worst nightmare down here because it is so much worse than what we experienced! My love to you all up there! I pray that you all remain safe and that you get the help you need to rebuild.

Thank you for sharing in my memory of Jim.