MrM

Holy effing guacamole!

Thank you! Yes, this one is another one of my voices in my head!

Alas, as I put pen to paper I am filled with a sense of stark trepedation. Such an anecdote made solid by the reality of the written word can be and often is a source of evidence. Evidence of things long thought improper or even perverse in our society's appraisal of such. Yet, I am of an age and have been through a time of such challenge that such improprieties seem, at once, absurd as notions of moral accord. The depredations of Herr Hitler and his black bloody minions seem to cast into l

"I have grown tired of remembering. Mes souvenirs tuent. My memories kill me. So it falls to me to make them known in these writings before my soul is set free at last." ~ Lord Cedrick Temple, Duke of Buckingham

Happy Birthday, Mr. Fashionista!!

This album has inspired my new story The Seashell (https://www.gayauthors.org/story/mrm/theseashell). I think it's the most beautiful concept album I've heard in many years. It is by an artist I've put up before here called Brothertiger. I am blown away by his work! Single: Beyond The Infinite Here is the whole album, Out Of Touch http://brothertiger.bandcamp.com/album/out-of-touch-lp

~swallows hard~ Wwww-OOOwww!

Yeah! Someone read this one! Yes. This one is my 'Tolkien Saga' one. I need to get back to adding content. Thanks so much for the Comment!

A Greek Myth, that's where it will go! it won't be one of my longer stories, but I hope it's a fun one. It came to me last week while listen to a new album I bought. Thanks so much for the review!!

Soon! Well...Alexis is going to have an experience no mortal youth has had since togas were all the rage in Athens.

Aww...thank you! Yes, I think Chapter 2 will roll out pretty soon!

Thank you so much! I'm a little verklempt at the moment...your comment touched me so!

My name is Alexis the son of Aristedies, my father, and Zephyra, my mother. We are visiting Chania on the Island of Crete, my family's ancient home. We are visiting our ancient land from America where we moved when I was very young. I am mostly American although I can speak Greek very well and know the ways of Crete. My family here likes to tease me about my American accent in Greek. They tell me it has a 'twang'. I laugh with them, though I do not really get the joke very well. I so very much l

Crete is an ancient land of mysteries and myth. Sometimes myths are not myths at all.

I'm totally sick in bed right now. I'm reading this and I want a Ryan in my bed SO bad right now! Someone come and rescue me!!

Cool! A Space Warp!

April 15 Ok. So...Cedrick is like all over me about Marie. We played a massive Dungeon instance in World of Warcraft last night and we all got wiped because he wouldn't stop asking me in Personal Chat a thousand questions. Geeze! This is a MAJOR game boss we're talking here! I need all my concentration! I'm the Healer after all! He wants to know: What colour is her hair? What colour is her eyes? What colour is her skin? What colour is her pubes? I mean...how would I know Cedrick? He then

This one made me cry...

Oh, that doesn't surprise me in the least. The most vocal gay-bathers are often gay guys in the closet being desperately afraid of being found out. They attack who they are attracted to because they are actually trying to destroy that part of themselves that they can't accept. I found this out when I discovered my secret weapon against bullies. When they came at me like that I'd simply ask them why they wanted me to be gay? It's strange but it stopped them in their tracks and they usually didn't mess with me again. I don't suggest doing that though if you know this person is dangerous. It is very inflammatory because it's a mirror to the truth.

Ah yes. I love that song. I'm terribly sorry you have had to experience that level of pain in your life James. I hope someone has come or will come to 'Fix You' too.

The responses by my contemporaries in age are exactly what I was looking for. One of the things that brought me here to GA was to learn if my own particular experience growing up had been unusual or not. For many reasons both social and religious I spent most of my life in the closet. Half of that time I lived in a state of complete numb denial. I went to live in fantasy worlds and avoided contact with most everybody except a very select few. I never had a relationship with anyone. I closed off. I became frozen. Like the cartoon. Finally, last year I thawed out but, alas, I feel like my winter ended too late. But hearing other people's experiences, I see that we are all like wounded warriors from a long battle. We fought the oppression in our own ways and came away with our scars, but survived. Its sometimes good to sit down and compare notes with our 'children'. I know, here in Hillcrest, a lot of the young ones come to me and want to talk about the old days. I have not much to tell them because to survive those times I had to live an unreal existence. I love a song by 'Radiohead' from 2000 called 'How to Diasappear Completely'. It's refrain is 'I'm not here. This isn't really happening'. That was my life. What the young ones have is far more genuine and oddly they have more experience about being gay than I do. Thank you for sharing your thoughts. More are welcome. I hope some of the younger guys can weigh in here and let me know how they feel about what they have read here. Compare notes. See what's changed.

Earlier Methodwriter posted a topic about 'old' Millennials. It got me browsing the Interwebz and I found this interesting article about why many of us who grew up in the 80s and 90s are so completely screwy. Those of us that came out early...were brave leaders. The rest of us...being in the closet was understandable. However...this time was better than being Gay in any time before 1979. What are your experiences or impressions of growing up gay in these times or the times before? http://www.geekscape.net/gayscape-10-growing-up-gay-in-the-80s-and-90s

This is interesting. I've just gone back to catch up on my Anne Rice reading and I'm currently on The Vampire Armand (my favorite vampire of all). Interestingly, she seems to model 'Amadeo's' relationship with his vampiric sire, Marius, like the relationship that some artists had with their apprentices/charges. This part of the story is set in Venice at the time of Leonardo Di Vinci. Its worth looking over for ideas. The sexual 'fluidity' of the boys under Marius's charge is very apparent and Armand becoming Marius's 'favorite' is reminiscent of how Di Vinci chose particularly companions. Anyway...this may only be tangentially connected to your question but it can serve as a guide for ideas, perhaps. Anne Rice's narratives are lush anyway. I unconsciously model my writing after her's just because she hits all the 'right notes' for me.

Drew, you are like me then. Generationless. I have things I identify with from before me and keep myself up to speed on things coming up. Generation pigeon holes always either put me in Y or Babby Boom because Generation X was a label that meant something to Baby Boom media and I never fit their stereotypes.. I've never been a slacker and I didn't really like Nirvana that much at the time. We are immortals, Drew!