LillyLee

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I'm looking for a series about a teenager that goes to live with his gay Dad, meets his dad's group of gay friends. Becomes comfortable with himself being gay.The kid ends up becoming very political, and meets a bunch of important people They go to Australia where he falls in love. He's got a younger step-brother and he step-dad is a general or something.

Prompt: https://i.pinimg.com/originals/29/4f/fe/294ffe7f90dbdbc53ee2f02f322a3f0e.jpg The lights flashed again, momentarily lighting up the dark room. He could hear running feet all around him but the labyrinth walls blocked his sight from pinpointing their location. The landing above his head shook as a group ran across. Shifting his gun, he turned slowly and tried to make his way through the dark halls without running into anyone. This whole trip was a stupid idea. H

Prompt: https://i.pinimg.com/originals/29/4f/fe/294ffe7f90dbdbc53ee2f02f322a3f0e.jpg Pernico + Drabble + Pratice + Speed Write (Stories better if you don't look at prompt)

Once upon a time scientists thought the world was flat. Then they discovered chromosomes . (these two events have nothing to do with each other, I'm simply using them of references to establish a time line) Scientists discovered the (X) Chromosome and (Y) chromosome. The pattern in which these chromosomes occur decides whether someone is born (male) or (female). All eggs start out with with (XX), female. Then once fertilized a surge of hormones in the uterus decide whether a fetus stays female or becomes male. This path to maleness or femaleness originates at the moment of meiosis, when a cell divides to produce gametes, or sex cells having half the normal number of chromosomes. During meiosis the male XY sex-chromosome pair separates and passes on an X or a Y to separate gametes; the result is that one-half of the gametes (sperm) that are formed contains the X chromosome and the other half contains the Y chromosome. The female has two X chromosomes, and all female egg cells normally carry a single X. The eggs fertilized by X-bearing sperm become females (XX), whereas those fertilized by Y-bearing sperm become males (XY). That was a lot of science talk, I'm sorry. But are you with me so far? Good. So... time skip... Due to ADVANCES IN SCIENCE (dun dun dun... oh no! that means somethings going to change!) scientists have now discovered that this isn't always the case! They have found that their are MORE THEN TWO POSSIBLE CHROMOSOME PATTERNS! (le gasp!). So what does this mean? (get ready for some more SCIENCE!) Some genetic men possess an extra X chromosome (XXY) or more rarely, two or three extra Xs (XXXY, XXXXY); they typically produce low levels of testosterone, leading to less-developed masculine sexual characteristics and more-developed feminine characteristics than other men. In contrast, some men receive an extra Y chromosome (XYY) in the genetic lottery (and while they have been referred to as "supermales" that is more sensationalism than science). Some genetic women have only one X chromosome; they often display less-developed female sexual characteristics than other women. And people with a genetic mosaic possess XX chromosomes in some cells and XY in others. Even if you get the "right" combination of sex chromosomes, it's no guarantee that you'll fit into the little boxes society has defined as of male and female. For example, genetic women (XX) with congenital adrenal hyperplasia produced unusually high levels of virilizing hormones in utero and develop stereo typically masculine sexual characteristics, including masculinized genitals. Similarly, genetic men (XY) with complete androgen insensitivity syndrome don't respond to male hormones and fail to develop masculine sexual characteristics. Most live their lives as women. So what does this mean for society? Some people with penises are more feminine and some people without penises are masculine. The way we characterize this difference is called GENDER. (I know it's scary, but please, stay with me!) Sex refers to what sexual organs you have. There are two kids of sexual organs, MALE and FEMALE. And there fore four possible combonations MALE FEMALE BOTH NEITHER but! We're not done. Gender refers to your mind, behavior and thought patterns; wither someone displays more 'masculine qualities' or 'feminine qualities' , which is in part determined by you chromosomal patters (which we have now learned has MANY MANY options) and how you were raised/ influenced throughout your life (nature vs nurture debate is on going). Since the discovery of these chromosomal patters that differentiate from (XX) and (XY) scientists realized that not only does your sexual organs not always match your personality qualities but that their is a (wait for it..... ) SPECTRUM OF POSSIBILITIES! Now referred to as Gender Spectrum. This is Science (biology, sociology and psychology) So since there are more then two options we need more then two classifications, but unlimited possible patters mean way too many classifications for people to keep straight. Non-Binary is a good start. it's an umbrella term for anyone who doesn't fit into either the 'masculine' or feminine' box. But mostly what it means is; Once scientists thought the world was flat. Once scientists thought that the earth is the center of the Universe and that all other objects move around it. Once scientists believed illnesses could be cured by bloodletting. Once scientists believed the Earth was constantly growing and shrinking in size. Once scientists thought frogs and toads could give you warts. Once scientists thought lightening never struck the same place twice. Once scientists thought there were only two genders. Science changes, people. Get with the times. Educate yourselves. This has been A Science Lesson with Professor Lee. Thanks and Have a nice day

Thanks everyone for all the positive support!

I got a new idea based on prompts from Pinterest For a series of short stories About a young Superhero And the crazy Supervillains he has to deal with 100% Comedy So far I have three villains And I'm super excited about this

Thank you! I was a little nervous about this one, but it was one of those ones that once I got the plot in my head it demanded to be told.

“Hey! What are you doing?” Logan froze, gripping the hand picked bouquet to his chest. Damn it, he was caught. “Umm… well ...you see…” The old man climbed steadily donw the steps and crossed the yard towards Logan. The young man considered running but couldn’t seem to make his feet move. “So you’re the one who's been stealing my flowers. Too lazy to plant your own, hmmm?” “Oh! No, I swear they’re not for me. It’s just, they are so pretty and Elli always loved Lilies. I c

Prompt Sometimes I steal flowers from your garden on my way to the cemetery, but today you’ve caught me and have demanded to come with me to make sure “the girl is pretty enough to warrant flower theft” and I’m trying to figure out how to break it to you that we’re on our way to a graveyard.

is it weird that I find my binder WAY more comfortable then my sports bra? I always see people complaining about how tight and uncomfortable they are and I actually love it. Maybe it's not as tight as some people wear them? But it works so I guess that's what matters? Or maybe I'm so used to an uncomfortable sports bra it seems better. But the sports bra seemed comfy until I started wearing my binder regularly. LOL I dunno. It did start to stretch out and not work as well so I put it i the dryer and now it's back to how it was when I first got it. I seriously need to invest in a new one, maybe NOT WHITE THIS TIME. lol that was a bad idea. My mom hates that I wear it, shes totally supportive of everything else she just thinks it's not good for me. She terrified of it lol. I love walking down the street and criticizing all the drivers. Some people are ridiculously bad drivers. But I can be kind of judgmental lol. At least I'm respectful (adult) enough to keep it to myself most the time. I saw this thing online that I really liked, I think tmblr; this girl was saying how she keeps catching herself judging people and then feeling bad. She gave the example of a young girl dressed provocatively; she will see it and think something along the lines of oh my god look at that girl dressed like a hooker ew judgement, and then catches herself and internally gives herself crap like GFY she can wear what ever she wants! And another person commented that her mother taught her that the first thought is what society has taught you to think and your second thought is what you actually think. And I really like that because maybe I'm not as much of a bitch as I think. Maybe I was just socialized to be judgmental because I always catch myself and give myself crap for being judgmental (unless it's about bad parents because when it comes to that I KNOW I'm judgmental. I'm not perfect but MY GOD SOME PARENTS), and correct myself. I think I'm stalling because I'm supposed to be writing right now. bad LillyLee! Stories not Blogging! Grrrr..... Okay, that's enough rambling. Back to WORK!

I would love to say something philosophical like "because it's not really the end, it is just the beginning of the rest of their lives" But really it's because this isn't where I has planned on ending it but decided the points I was going to hit would do much better in their own story Sequel?

It's been a long while since I've written anything. My muse took a nice long vacation it seems (but also been a crazy summer, and not like "omg so much fun " crazy, but like "omg I forgot how exhausting it is to have the kid home all day everyday " crazy). I'm going to try and force myself back into it. I have ideas and I think I saw a few plot bunnies peeking out of the bush. So to anyone who actually follows me: yea... sorry bout that. I try to do better. I finally finished My Prince! YAY! Hoping to manage a Sequel thing, Phoenix's time abroad I made a little updated schedule/ story list, but because I know my own track record, no promises Current projects Multi-Chapter Stories Last Chance High - Completed My Prince - Completed Series Admirer Homecoming Admirer - Completed Halloween Admirer - Completed Christmas Admirer - Completed Prompts/ Short Stories Wicked Witch - Completed Prompt: "Years ago you promised your first born to a witch. Despite your best efforts you can't seem to get laid. She's getting impatient." Duets - Completed Prompt: “Hey, we never met but our showers are on opposite sides of the same apartment wall. Sometimes we shower at the same time and sing duets.” Satan's BFF - Approximate Completion: HAHAHAHAHAHa…. Stalled, maybe becoming a multi-chapter Prompt: "A lonely person sells their soul to Satan to be their friend. And Satan just rolls with it until he realizes at the time of their death he genuinely likes them. Since he can’t renege on the contract he takes them to hell and puts them in a high position of power." Stolen Flowers - Approximate Completion: Started, Coming along well, lets give it 1 week Prompt: “Sometimes I steal flowers from your garden on my way to the cemetery, but today you’ve caught me and have demanded to come with me to make sure “the girl is pretty enough to warrant flower theft” and I’m trying to figure out how to break it to you that we’re on our way to a graveyard.” Future Projects Multi Chapter Stories The Good Doctor - Started Outline, coming along slow The Pack - Stalled Secret Agent Kid - Outline started, hopefully finish by end of month and start writing Brat Pack Prince Charming is... A Fae? Dystopia (My Prince pt.2) My Pirate - Phoenix's story from when he left the village, - Starting Outline soon, Series Admirer Valentine Admirer - Will start outline this week Spring Break Admirer Easter Admirer Summing Loving (4th of July Admirer) Prompts/ Short Stories Saving Greg Summer Camp Amnesia - Started Outline Sci-Fi based on "humans are the weird" trend on tmblr

Smile wide With tears in my eyes Holding back what makes me cry Shake my head It’s all alright I don’t want another fight Turn around The tears fall down Whispering goodbye

smile wide

Take my hand And dance with me In the pouring rain Make all your troubles Go away Thaw apart Your frozen arms Hold me tight I’ll keep you warm Lay down With me tonight I’ll hold you With all my might Don’t run away Don’t hide from me I’ll be everything You need me to be Let me in Let me help you cope You don’t need to be alone I can give you hope When times get hard And you need a hand

Take my hand and dance with me

Take a walk with a stranger And tell him your dreams Open yourself up It's as easy as it seems Take a walk with a stranger The secrets you will share The deepest and the darkest Cause this stranger won't care Take a walk with a stranger And let it all out You'll feel much better This I don't doubt Take a walk with a stranger And when you are through You'll know yourself better For this stranger is you

Take a walk with a stranger

Phoenix sat in the chair and watched the birds outside the window. It felt like that was all he did these days; watched other people live. There was no way you could call what he’s been doing living, maybe existing, but even that was a stretch he thought. He knew he had things he should be doing, things he needed to take care off. There was a whole kingdom to run and he really should be getting word out to the interested about what happened. Noah wanted his people taken care of, and Phoenix shou

Prompt “Hey, we never met but our showers are on opposite sides of the same apartment wall. Sometimes we shower at the same time and sing duets.”

uggggg..... Going to the in-laws this weekend. I'm not out to them or that side of the family. Don't plan on it either (at least not in the foreseeable future). I have been wearing a binder just about everyday for almost a month now, all men's clothes (and accessories and deodorant ect), even at work. Even just packing from me "girls" side of my dresser is making me feel uncomfortable. Trying to find the balance between 'comfortable and ME' and 'feminine enough to avoid any awkward questions' is stressful. I mean I've known them for over 7 years and I've always dressed 'tomboy' so it's not like they will expect me to show up in a skirt but with my hair being so much shorter and styled in a very masculine cut I feel pressured to dress extra feminine to counter act it. I'm feeling slightly disphoric just picking clothes out of my dresser knowing I'm going to be wearing them. Trying them on to see if they even fit (comfortably enough to wear) feels shitty. Also they have a pool, and there is a big BBQ tomorrow so we spend all day outside by the pool. OMG BATHING SUITES SUCK. I feel anxious and stressed (and I'm sitting here in a pair of boxer briefs and a muscle shirt) just thinking abut it. This weekend is going to suck. I'm also a little nervous about the hubby's reaction. He has been so amazing and supportive about this whole thing. It wasn't much of a change because I usually dressed masculine at home anyways. But it's been a while since hes seen me 'girl' I'm worried he's going to realize how much he refers it and misses it. I'm worried he won't be so cool once we come home and I go back to being ME. Chest binder and mens clothes. Ugg I have to wear a real bra! I've been wearing sports bras when ever i wasn't binding since May this is going to be so weird. just... fml.... okay, rant over.

I like labels... self imposed labels of course. It's human nature to want to put things in little boxes, even things that don't fit. Organizing them by similar characteristics so we can better understand and define them. I like this. But I believe people can only be labeled by themselves in most cases (if you have red hair your a red head deal with it or dye it lol) so I label myself and express these labels loud. So no one can do it for me and get it wrong! I have always known who I was, my personality has been the one thing I was always sure of (even my flaws). I am intelligent I am emotionally strong I am open-minded I am confident in my abilities I can be a bitch I can be judgmental (though I usually keep it to myself, and I'm working on this one) I am wise beyond my years I am independent I am an introvert I am a book-worm These are my self-imposed labels... but some of them are a little murky these days... I am a ....girl? NO ...boy?both?neither? umm.... ask me later. I am straight... umm except when I'm a boy then I guess I'm gay? so Can I be sometimes gay? ... Umm... I like cock. Am I still MOTHER even if I'm boy? Can I be confident and insecure at the same time? Ugg... I'm too old to deal with this shit! (Jokes!)

Up until now I have been using the identifier 'non-binary' , mostly because I have no idea what my gender is, how I want to express it and so on. Also, it just fits. Over the last few months I have been paying around with my gender expression; clothing, hair style, accessories, binder. I also started using men's body wash and deodorant. I definitely feel best when I'm as 'man' as I can be. The idea of top surgery in theory is nice, and I would love to take T to give my body more masculine features, again in theory. But I'm not yet sure if t's what I really want, to be just 'man' always and forever. I don't know if it's my identity that's stopping me from next steps or fear. I have been so lucky with my husband; he has been super amazing and supportive and just.... I have to admit I was amazed. We have had some really great talks and he has just been so positive. But the other night we discussed potential trouble areas I may face if/when I decide to come out 100%. It made me really nervous and kind of shut down. Maybe I'll feel like I'm in a place to deal with it one day, but I'm not right now. My mom wouldn't understand at all, she would be nice but treat it the same way as she treated my pagan religion "yes, okay your 'pagan', sure." Thinly veiled skepticism. She wouldn't be hostile, but she doesn't understand the concept that gender is different than sex (she still is weird about Caitlyn Jenner). It's not as bad as it could be, but it a struggle I don't know I'm ready for. My mother in-law would be the type to just flat out ignore it; she has made some comments about what she calls "this gender movement thing" and "kids these days just need to make all these things up" . Sure I could sit them down and show them the science stuff behind it and explain it and talk about how it FEELS, but again, even he idea is exhausting and I don't know enough or how to explain to even try. I work in retail so dealing with being misgendered at work with customers is another thing that feels like it would be exhausting. It's hard enough every time I have to correct someone when they assume I'm a child (I usually get 16-19 vs my 27), I couldn't imagine having to do the "actually sir/madam, I'm not a female child, I'm a adult male" . Sigh, I need a nap just thinking about it. In the end it will probably feel worth it, but I'm not there yet. Also, what if I go through it all and then have a 'girl day' ? Like 'oh shit, I know I told you all I'm trans but hey... hahaha I'm not.' I mean... yes I know I can feel like a boy and dress like a girl Gender can be fluid My gender is defined by ME and ME alone I get to decide what kind of 'man' I am, maybe I'm a man who wants to wear dresses sometimes (i know I'll be a man that paints his nails). Fuck the haters But knowing it and feeling it are two different things. Arrrgg... this became lots of word vomit hahaha. It's a bumpy ride, huh?

I always hated shopping. I would see cute clothes, but not cute FOR ME. Nothing ever felt like it fit right, even when it fit the way it was 'supposed to'. I found myself constantly passing by masculine looking clothes even though they felt more ME. I never understood the 'in fashions' or shared my friends idea on perfect outfits. I felt awkward in the women's section, like I was an invader that didn't belong. I always felt like people were looking at me thinking ' you shouldn't be here!' especially in the change rooms. Just the idea of having to go out shopping for new clothes was exhausting and just felt so 'wrong'. The last 2 months or so I have started shopping in the men's/boy's section. I have been choosing clothes that FELT right and fit COMFORTABLY. Men's jeans and t-shirts, long board and cargo shorts, muscle tanks and men's accessories. Shopping doesn't feel wrong any more. Getting dressed doesn't feel like a lie. I don't feel quite so out of place (maybe only a little because I don't pass very well, but it's ignorable because I FEEL like I belong, fuck what others think) . I invested in a really nice and comfortable binder tank and I LOVE it. I feel more comfortable and confident while wearing it. I feel like I look more RIGHT, more like ME. I even wore it to work for the first tie today. At first I was super nervous and shaky, because I'm not exactly out to everyone there and I didn't want any awkward questions. I don't know why I thought someone would say "hey, here did your boobs go?" but it seemed like a legitimate fear on the way in. Of course no one said anything, and there was no weird looks. I felt so much better! I even told my one work friends who I am out to I was wearing it and how excited I was and she was cool about it and asked how it worked and commented on how well it worked. It was really nice. I'm going to request a new uniform shirt, men style because the women's in tapered and extenuates my hips awkwardly, and I think that will help even more! I just need well fit men's dress pants and my work uniform will be ballin' ! It's still super awkward to go to bathrooms and change rooms though. Since I'm not 100% out (and even if I was I don't pass very well I've been told), I still use the women's, but it feels wrong and like with shopping I feel like I'm in the wrong place and I'm invading. I just try to time it to make sure I'm not in there alone and it's the only time reminding myself 'the rest of the world thinks I'm a women' is a good thing. But that will come eventually.