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After reading this on Nifty, I'm torn between reading every chapter as it's posted or letting a few build up to binge, as I can't wait for what comes next; So worth the re-read. One of the best stories online, anywhere.

I second that.

AAAAAAAAMMMMMMMEEEEENNNNNN

Diaz needs to feel in charge and he needs Jake to feel weak, that's the pattern of their relationship and Diaz isn't interested in changing it. He may be an ignorant fool but Diaz is fighting for the only life he knows and I understand that. He knows Jake doesn't fit into that world and should want better for him but Diaz thinks better for Jake will make Jake better than him and he can't have that; It's sad really, because in thinking about the best for himself, Jake will have to leave Diaz behind. Jake already belongs more in Klaus' world than Diaz's. I can see him growing more confident in himself and his intellect and becoming more sophisticated. I don't know if Klaus will truly let him into his heart and his life but they could be a good couple if Klaus embraces love and monogamy. I look forward to the next part of the tale.

Nope, I can't agree with that part. They are in the slow lane but they were working toward that at their own pace. They came back from Erik's f^<k up in the car and he already said he didn't want to leave him. Erik is a nice guy who is even liked by her child, even as a concerned, (over)protective sister, Rachel had no right to interrogate him like he's poo on the bottom of her shoe. Love declarations between the guys should have NEVER involved her. Unless she only still sees a porn star (which is not necessarily a negative in my opinion), she owes Erik an apology before their wedding. WOOOO SAAAAA. On a different note, I know Ryan prefers to bottom in RL but he topped in the movies; Will he ever top Erik? Does either of them want that?

Thank you, droughtquake and the esteemed teller of this tale for your interpretation on the line that gave me concern. I will take Aceinthehole as the final say on that and let it be. droughtquake, your earlier line about size reference hit me with humor and sympathy; I guess average can be given a below average complex with every other character packing a salami. It is nice to see everybody covered: size wise, hood wise, curved, straight and every combination in between.

"....I'll get better, if not for my own health than to lay with you one last time Teddy." One last time?!?! I know people joke about that being a way to go but not them, please? that last line scared me.

Your comment is a reminder that the stories an author starts tend to take lives of their own, the characters use the author as the vessel to tell their story and it may go in a direction never initially intended, . I hope you enjoy the ride they are taking you on.

Glad to see another chapter. While Jeff started out the main character and I still love his and Paul's love story, we benefit from his connection to the other characters, as he has been our introduction to them. Some could be in standalone stories of their own. Raymond and Daniel are now my favorite couple in this story, it's a win/win whomever gets highlighted, as you are weaving such an engrossing tale.

You are SOOOOOOOOOOO GOOD at sex scenes and still manage to tie in the not just sex part, which always enhances any sex, whether it's sensuous lovemaking or hot, hard, sweaty, nasty f^*king. Your stories always satisfy my romantic and my slut side at the same time, . Another good chapter. Thanks, Mr. H.

Like fungus, Nate will turn up again. His firing, blacklisting and potential criminal charges are not a strong enough fungicide to make him disappear for good. If anything, he's more dangerous now because he has nothing to lose. I hope everyone is careful and I hope his quest for revenge destroys him, literally. I'm interested in seeing the "nothing" that will happen when they become bedmates. That first time is going to be epic and I think they'll be very active bed mates afterward.

THAAAAAAANNNNNNKK YOUUUUUUUUUU.

I can't choose the love/sad emoticon at the same time but I feel both for this chapter. Sometimes just being there is enough, as there aren't always words that can comfort someone's pain. Good for Ryan keeping Erik from using sex as a panacea; I think that's a slippery path for either of them given their past. I think Ryan allowed Erik the liquid comfort thinking that might be enough. Ryan confessing his love was the "love" emoticon for this chapter (yes, confession-they've been in love with each other for three years now). That was a huge move for Ryan. A good, bittersweet chapter, Mr. H.

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The apocalypse can't come fast enough for Hell to claim back it's spawn. How do people who want to harm find themselves amongst the most vulnerable?!?! Instead of angels of mercy, they are angels of death. It's so ANGERING (yes, it's worth a new word, lol). On another note, thank you for this story. I'm in love with someone who suffers from depression on this level. I feel he's my soulmate but he's afraid to believe he's worthy of unconditional love. It means we won't have a romantic future together but I still believe in him. I know HEA's aren't a certainty in this scenario and if it gets one, it won't be bells and whistles and rainbows (well kinda rainbows but you know what I mean, ). I'm still hoping for one, though, I guess a vicarious hope. Please tell me that Teddy destroys Neil. He won't have to betray his oath, letting him know he isn't worth having a place in his life in any way would be enough.

Rachel's sisterly concern is tinged with more than a little judgement about the guys' past, no bueno. I think it gives Ryan the excuse to start wondering about the "What If's" that tend to go through our heads when things are going so good at the start of a relationship; He would have done it on his own later; Maybe it's better to get it out of the way now. They are too attuned to each other not to know when one is bothered by something, I hope Ryan works this through with Erik instead of self sabotaging. Very satisfying sequel so far, Mr. H. Thank you.