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This is going to sound Ultra Cheesy right now but I actually thought this was BEAUTIFUL! It shows that you are caring and actually in the minority of people who actually give more than a damn about someone , not because you should but because you genuinely do. I love it Viv!! :lmao: I'm back!! I've just about finished school and found myself with more time than I ever thought possible while i wait to retake a class and job hunt and I'm going to start writing again. Feels weird but good. and I do like your letters for 30 days. hmmm, I think I'd like to join you to get my feel back. How have you and Rich and the kids been?

Ah now everyone here and comfortable? too damn bad!! So what can you do when you feel like a bomb thats dangerously close to exploding? I've found that well placed glares work best. and the best part? The madder you get and hold it the more menacing the glare gets until people are struggling to get away from you. Now before you say anything I know you shouldnt keep your anger in and its harmful to your health and all that other crap. I just wanted to maintain my little piece(peace) of mind for just another minute or two. It's not my fault people dont know what to say out their mouth and all one really needs is a murderous expression, a bad attitude and an acid tongue to put everyone on red alert. and the fun part is i enjoyed it immensely. I was tired of the bullshit and the drama and I called for a stop. It's been alot calmer in here since then and as quiet as a mouse. You are now talking to the newest automobile citizen in MD. at least i will be by saturday. now i cant wait. I got like 10 places lined up already for where I will be going once they give me that License and nobodys gonna stop me. And what is up with the use of lines in relationships. I'm not even in a relationship yet and i got lines to limbo under :wacko: Ok I can understand that you want to keep it professional but we both know we like each other and we both know exactly how much. Lines annoy me very much. I like a challenge but damn dont set the challenge in the red just yet. besides lines are meant to be broken . But anyway I will keep wearing down th use of lines. I'm flexible so they arent that hard to get around. Oh!! Why do people insist on talking during damn movies!? I went to the movis on Friday with a group of friends( i wanted to go with him but he was going with his friends to see Sex and The City, but turns out he didnt go ) btu anyway we went to see The Strangers and while i'll admit starting the movie 20 minutes late was a good reason for everyone to start talking, being scared by a guy in a mask is no reason for anyone to talk for over an hour and a half. SERIOUSLY. and who the hell takes little kids to the movies at 12:30 AM to see a damn horror movie anyway? somebodies kid was about to get F*cked Up in that theater while sitting next to me. He talked and yelled and kicked me once, and I somehow ignored him by some force of greatness, but the other idiots couldnt be ignored. There was lots of movie dialogue that was missed cause those stupid its would not shut their flapping gums. now the movie wasnt all that bad, but i did feel like reaching out and touching a few people for all the talking that was done. let this be a lesson. and that glare does work at movie theaters and on wriggling little children too. It's almost like it's a superpower!!

Could you forgive your best friend for sleeping with your partner? What partner? even if i had one hell no How old will you be on your next birthday? 24! Have you ever seen a live bat? sure have Is there anything/anyone you hate? yes but i dont think ill share the reasons. Are you single? yeah Do you like the color orange? no. uh-uh, seriously Do you find it in your heart to forgive? yes no matter how I don't always want to. Would you rather not drink or not sleep? Not drink what? i barely sleep now as it is Have you ever seen a real redneck? sure have Do tattoos and piercings excite you? Hot damn. I love a good nipple ring What's the meaning of life? To go through fumbling over every little thing and feel nostalgic about it while thinking of what could have been done different What size shoes do you wear? eleven and a half... What's your favorite season? summer/ fall. the in between time Do you care if people talk smack about you? HAH! they can talk all they want. if theyy touch me we got a problem How long are you on the phone daily? I had to change my plan to unlimited texts cause i kept going over Sorry, I forgot to ask your name? James. so, whats your name? Are you in a good mood? I just woke up. nothing kills a good mood like screaming babies and asshole friends Do you believe in luck? Eh, do you? Everything happens for a reason, right? right... Would you rather skydive or bungee jump? Skydiving. Do you like snakes? Do you like your hands? I like snakes when they are not near me Where is one place that you'd like to visit? hmmm. so many places i cant pick just one Do you like waffles? yessir. i make apple cinnamon waffles Anything your looking forward to? upgrading my phone... Do you have more or less than five best friends? I have varying degrees of friends but yes more than 5 best friends What would you do if the friend you talk to most stopped talking to you? no clue. its kinda already happened. im kind feeling like saying f it. Does the number 23 have any significance to you? yes, i am 23 Be honest, do you like people in general? no. i have to force myself to like people at times. its nothing personal Big or small dogs? really big dogs. Do you like Big Macs? Nope I hate them. they taste a little funny. just like everything from burger king Did someone bother you today? It's 10 am and i just woke up. we'll see but i have a strong feeling someone willl Sometimes, do you wish you were someone else? i love being me but i hate parts of my family. id rather just get away Does someone love you? love...lust it's kinda interchangeable right now. Do you know anyone named Dave? yep yep Recently kissed anyone with the name starting with a R? nope Has anyone ever mistaken you for a family member? yes. and as someone who looks exactly like i do. apparently i have a cousin here who looks exactly like me. my mom does too. ive seen her Have you ever tried Gatorade? not that bad! now powerade on the other hand taste like salty spit Do you think that Starbucks is expensive? you could buy five pounds of coffee for every cup of starbucks Are you named after a family member? yes. Say you were given a drug test right now. Would you pass or fail? i would most definitely pass! Are you taller than 5'6"? yessir i am. very much taller Ever see a dead body? yes i have. Do you like the color blue? my favorite. How are you? asi asi, y tu? Who was the last person to send you a text message? Ines... Last restaurant you went to? Uhh, Hops... the best honey butter croissants and crabcakes! What is the weather like today? Its overcast and cloudy now, but there were storms all day yesterday. Last voicemail you received? it's been so long since i got a voicemail What did you do yesterday? Sit at work from 9-4 staring off into space. I was so bored and by myself until 2. but we got free lunch What's the first thing you would do with five million dollars? disappear and only take my laptop, mp3 player my phone and money. then make it up as i go What nationalities are you? um American. I had a great grandfather who was from Barbados and a great grandmother who was american indian. and mix that with African american. How many hours did you sleep last night? um surprisingly more than 5. Any upcoming concerts you want to attend? I wish I was in anaheim for Panic at the Disco on June 14th! Who's the last person that you felt was stalking you? this guy i go to school with. everytime i look up he's right there staring. extremely creepy Have you ever been on your school's track team? almost but i didnt have the time What clothes are you wearing? sweatpants and a wifebeater undershirt. that name is so funny. If all of your friends were going on a road trip, would you? I'd probably be the one who convinces everyone to go How much money do you have, in cash? I refuse to answer that question. Do you swear at your parents? we have an understanding about swearing? they swear i swear Is your phone right beside you? Yep. Have you cried today? haven't cried in a long time. Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now? Yeah, ... Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off? take too much time. What are the color of your bedsheets? red. Have you ever crawled through a window? Mmmhmm. Are you photogenic? depends on my mood. What's your sign? Pisces, what's yours? Where do you spend most of your money? Umm, Metro. What was the last thing you did? tried not to pop a 3 year old. it's alot harder than it seems Do you have a tattoo? Not yet... Do you still watch cartoons on Saturday mornings? No, i dont even get to sleep in. Is there a secret you've never told any of your friends? um yeah but not the one you think Have you ever changed your clothes while in a vehicle? Yeah. What are you doing in 2008? Wondering how the year seems to be flying by. What is your ringtone? Depends who's calling. What were you doing at 2 a.m. last night? i like vivs answer. but i was doing homework Are your parents married/divorced/separated? Divorced and married to someone else What are you doing tonight? supposed to be partying but i am noticeably light in the pockets. What are you doing tomorrow? i wish sleeping but itll be mothers day. Who did you last message on Myspace? My older sister. What did you dress up as for your first Halloween? Hah. no way i remember What is the wallpaper on your cell? This picture of a sunset i took in New Jersey when we were lost. Who last made you smile? My nephew Brian. The "chosen one" whats his name? Um yeah. No What's something you MUST do before you die? No clue. i'll think on that Are you single? Do you want to be? yes and hell no . What's one thing you will not eat? Brussel sprouts. ewww What color is your underwear? Blue. now the question should say what kind What's your birthstone? Aquamarine. Can you hula hoop? Oh yea theres picture proof! Who's on speed dial ? no clue. i surprise myself everytime i hold down a number Do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot? way too much Do you have any friends with benefits? Not the sexual kind... Have you ever enjoyed listening to Jack Johnson? Sitting Waiting Wishing Do you have a song by Ozzy Osborne in your library? yep yep Do you watch Family Guy regularly? Not anymore What is your favorite Disney movie? Monster's Inc. Mike Wizowski! What sport do you dislike most? golf. Have you ever gone scuba diving? No. What's your favorite smell? clean babies, new cars and peaches. Do you care what others think about you? Nope as long as they think about me. Do you follow college football? not anymore. Where was the last place you went shopping? Safeway Last time you drank alcohol? Ummm. wow it's really been that long Favorite football team? used to be the packers. Do you watch the Olympics? Parts of it. Were you an outcast in middle school? Nope. Are you multitasking right now? oddly No. Could you handle being in the military? I hate following others "Directions". we'd have a problem from day 1 Do you believe in Karma? I hope not otherwise i may be in some deep trouble. j/k What is your school mascot? The Rams.

You ever had that over worked ad underpaid feeling? I dont care what anybody says the cost of living is way too high for college students who dont go to these enormantly large universities. anyway I'm kinda waiting to hear about the decisions concerning funding for school using lenders because I just know I'll be required to learn as much as i can to answer the students questions. Does it make me a dumb ass if I would find another job in order to date someone that I've had a crush on for months? but then again it doesnt really matter if you think about it because I am stil the student. and dont worry. Cute professor is holding on to his claim of being hopelessly straight :wacko: I'm just tired of it now. I dont have half as much patience as i used to but that may be from stress and lack of sleep. i spend my days talking to one of my hot co workers who i have been shamlessly hitting on. you know this would have been strangely awkward if i didnt know he was gay and yes he is he told me so and likes my attention I have hit the biggest case of writers block ever, and if i actually did have some time to write right now I would be absolutely pissed. but dont worry. I'll try to get Twisted Dawn done and pick up AEON, and Chapter 3 of Perfect dark is half done. and I still have to do my anthology entry. I got too much crap going on. and for the record Driving School is the sigle most boring thing ever discovred and forced on others in the known world. it's borderline cruel and unusual punishment. I also apologize if it feels as if i have been abandoning everyone or just avoiding because I really am not. School is kicking my ass like the loudmouth little kid who dont know when to shut up. Anyway everyoe take care and make sure to check out phoenix_587's story X-Men Death Wish. It is one of the best XMEN fafics I have ever and trust me I read a hell of a lot of fan fics. oh and check out Myr's HP fanfic too! pure awesomeness. Holla!

I really don't care about all of the preparations and other stuff. I would appreciate it greatly but It would not affect my decision either way. I would say yes if I know we both loved each other and still feel like i was th luckiest guy alive

I think it's an awesome letter. You and Rich should be proud. and you should be lucky, when my older sister resorted to saying cause she made the rules and said so I took it as a personal invitation to step the argument up a few notches and see how long till she cracked. You are an awesome sister Viv. James

Just added a new chapter to Perfect Dark:Dark Knight. make sure to check it out. Betrayed and Hunted by the only 'family' he's ever known, a young man must prove his innocence or face off with the greatest agent to have ever graced the carrington institute,Joanna Dark. Perfect Dark:Dark KnightChapter 2- Infraction Protocol

I'm just tired of everything at this point. Friends, Family, school. How come nobody ever tells you that sometimes rage can feel good? I'm ready to go. I've been thinking of moving away from everyone i know and then remember I have no money. so instead I lock myself away and visit that place in my mind(o_O) no I just imagine sweet freedom and a noticeable lack of people i know so thoroughly. I just need to distance myself for while. I'll come back to this later. and dont worry theres no urge to do anything but i am amazed at the current level of assholes that I am close to on a daily basis

OK finally I have posted a new story Perfect Dark:Dark Knight. It's part fan fiction and part original fiction, but I plan to make it as dark as possible. Don't be afraid. stop on by and have a peek. I would like to know how you feel about the story Perfect Dark:Dark Knight Ch. 1

Thank you to you both. I just wanted to do something here that I have never seen done and from my P.O.V. I think it was well worth the time and effort. I mostly wanted the character to be portrayed as human as possible. I wanted him to be vulnerable and distressed. and follow the entire range of emotions I would expect to feel if i was running for my life. But I thank you for reading and giving feedback. and you too moonwolf. I thank you for helping me to produce the story

THANK YOU VIV!!!! I love the story and I love you for taking the time out of your schedule to provide such a grand adventure. Now I may just have to start bugging you for a new adventure though j/k. I'm with steve(above) though. I would like the next chapter if you please. Thanks again Viv James

THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!! So far I'm enjoying it and it's not everyday you get to have someone sing happy birthday to you in italian and try to slam cake in your face. Thanks for all the birthday wishes! J

ah i remember those days of pig latin. i want you to have extra fun and celebrate hard this weekend. I have to do a FAFSA workshop(the horror) and the best thing you'd ever want in your mouth o_O. you had cinnamon bun flavored chewing gum!?! tell said i said hello and didnt even mentio loving men this time and I have left you a comment on your profile fair lady:) James

so I just found out about the censors after my last entry. I expressly had the need and desire to say f**K!! and if i was in the mood I'm pretty sure I could work the word i This absolutely pisses me off. half of my well thought blog has disappeared. I'm tired. i. i crave affection today for some reason. I just feel like my heart hurts and for the life of me I'm drawing a blank as to why. I'm feeling like that alot lately. I just tired of doing whats expected of me all the time. Im expected to go to school and keep a job. what if i want a semester off? I'm the one killing my credit with these crazy student loans. I want to take a trip. I dont care where right now as long as it's away from here. I want to find someone who can keep up with me and not always want to go out. you can have just as much fun staying in sometimes if not more. I want some of my friends to simply just accept that I am me and stop trying to get me to conform to what society says. What would possess someone to actually think that I would like to spend my birthday in a crowded club. seriously. i want acceptance from people who said they would support my decisions. you know support is not when you try to convince me that I'm just going through a phase and just need a girl to be sure. and it's damn sure not trying to convince me to date my closest friend cause you want her to be happy. i like men. always have and always will. i've accepted it, and moved on. why does everyone act like it's a big deal? I am forcing no one to think about it. it shouldn't even be associated with how you see me. it's a part of who i am but it's not a description of me. why does everyone harp about that. and then the people who dont know who make those f**ked up comments to you and you have to keep from busting their bubble and hold yourself in check. and why do people automatically think you have to tell them that you're gay. personally i feel it's none of your damn business no matter how you find out unless i am the one to tell you. and I apologize to you B. you know who you are. I'm not trying to be mean or an ass but you are seriously too young. and yes I've gone through hundreds of times what it could be like but I would still be close to seven years older than you. no matter how much I would like to.

Ok kiddies. todays lesson you ask? Why do parents search and search for your boiling point and then when you reach it act like they haven't been feeding the fire of your unstoppable meltdown? and why do they insist on doing it so frequently that your constantly walking around with a permanent f**K you expression when you know they're nearby? I honestly do think they can't help themselves anymore after you turn 21. I mean come on. i go to work and am there all day. I finally get in at close to 10 while you have been "working" at home all day( or so they claim) an as soon as i walk in you start automatically picking about every small detail. clean your room, wash the towels, get me this do this do that go find AAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!! can i get some f**king time to relax!? and I know that you know I'm rattling off the smartest ass answers in my head as you go off on your tangent while some answers do eventually get said out loud. I pay rent to you out of my piece of paycheck. this room can look like a nuclear bomb went off in here and I wont give a f**K and you have no control over it. There is a closet full of towels, towels do not need to be washed everytime the closet looks like three towels are gone. besides if people stop getting more than one(what do you need that many towels for anyway) I wouldn't have to be washing towels so frequently. calm down on all the demands I ONLY HAVE 2 ARMS and 2 HANDS. you need something that bad you got feet and wouldnt you know it your own 2 ARMS and HANDS. dont wait till i come in to start making requests. and DO NOT talk to me like a f**king idiot when I'm the one who does everything in the house. I work and go to school too. why is it I'm the one doing everything when there are supposedly 4 adults in the house? and one last thing. you know the kind of temper you have and you know mine is worse. WHY do we have to keep playing this game every few days when we both know that most of this shit you can do yourself? There is no reason you should be calling me into your room to cut off a f**king light that sits less than three feet from you. thats just f**king lazy. get the hell up.

Happy Birthday Dan!! :king:

I passed all of my finals thankfully and walked away with a 3.25 gpa. but my classes start back tomorrow. DAMN!! Why do some people always feel the need to try to take advantage of you when you try to help them? I went into work saturday to make up a day missed on wednesday, and I was only supposed to be there to assist the girl who was working but she never even showed for work. during registration. needless to say everyone was past pissed, but add to that the fact that admissions were acting like spoilt brats and you have a good time. someone had been telling everyone we closed at 2 instead of 1 and was highly disappointed when I shut everything down at 12:50. ok so i closed 10 mins early. i was pissed. he just assumed we were staying and when he found out we weren't tried to get the head of the department to force us too. but seeing as he left early as well that didnt happen. so next he tries to talk people into staying and finally looks at me and says well cant you stay til 2 cause i've been telling everyone thats what time you close. i say no, and e actually makes a comment about leaving the office open so they can still bring students in after we close which i instantly shoot down. you will not get me fired for leaving you unattended in an office with others personal information. went to a birthday party saturday night for one of my good friends and had so much fun dancing and laughing. Never play any form of spin the bottle when drunk!! ours was you had to tell your darkest secret and if not spin the bottle again and kiss who it landed on. needless to say alot of secrets got told. thanks viv and I hope very close attention. He actually did make sure to come talk to me after i finished my 2 hr final in 15 minutes . so he hung in the back of the room and talked for awhile before going to enjoy a cigarette. and no all that happened was random conversation with a lot of staring at each other. i can be good. but anyway I did get the second highest score on the final. and anyway i have another 2 classes with him this semester. looks like another semester of professor watching.

OK. so i know that i got out of class at noon today and should have came straight home to study for my final which i have in 9 hrs, but acting like a fool in DC seemed like so much more fun at the time. Me and two friends who we will call euro and logic went to the fashion center at the pentagon to start. now keep in mind that euro is a girl and logic is a guy. so euro drags us to forever XXI(WTF!?!) and we end up laughing at the clothes as well as the employees. we even get told off nad nearly kicked out for taking pictures of us wearing sunglasses. SUNGLASSES! s after we left and head over to metro center where we find H&M. now stop me if you've heard this. their clothes are all on the extremely im sorry i forgot to eat for a few years side. so anyway we pick out shirts looking for the biggest size(and no not because of fat, muscular baby) and we proceed to give the ladies and gentlemen(o_O) minding the dressing room a good show. so after round 1 of trying clothes on we go back into the mens department and euro decides she needs to get a random guys opinion on how a sweat hood is fitting on me. the guy makes plenty of excuses but can't seem to stop staring at my nipples which were kinda hard(it was cold. thats my story anyway) i'll admit. so after thoroughly embarassing this guy we play the lets try on clothes in our "proper sizes" game because euro wants to see how they fit. so after putting on these clothes i know how a roll of sausage feels. the pants were so tight i didnt think i could move and if i happened to get aroused i wouldve destroyed a pair of pants( they were that tight. no room at all). so afterward we finally settled on purchases and left to see Fool's Gold. now keep in mind also that logic is straight and this was his choice of movie. and no he does not go with euro. she already has a boyfriend and he is pissed with me because he thinks i'm trying to steal her from him. funny as hell by the way. so anyway my teacher has decided he's going to challenge us to Tekken tag and 5 for those who don't know a fighting game. I think this is absolutely hilarious. I'm going to wipe the floor with his ass. yes i know cocky as hell but i am actually that damn good at the game. plus i play dirty as hell but he don't need to know that. how cool is that. my teacher is 29. and hot. and I think i'm in lust. i want to date him but he's my teacher. but he won't always be my teacher and we kinda are very close in age. and he is paying close attention.

Not really, does going up and down the stairs every 2 minutes count? The Person Below believes Finals were made by cruel and nasty professors who have nothing better to do than viciously torture and obliterate students well being!!

Thank you, and I appreciate it!

My very first blog entry. I'm actually at a loss for words right now. so anyway I have finals this week. Yaaaay! NOT! i hate programming and networking and I'm actually beginning to rethink my choice of major. and work is just getting crazy. I'm waiting to hear back about a full time job at my college. wish me luck. but anyway, I am glad to be able to finally say that I have completed my very first anthology entry and can't wait for it to be posted. I don't know how much longer I'll continue Twisted Dawn though. I have no clue what anyone thinks of the story and don't see any reason to continue if no one shows interest in it . this goes for Aeon too. Besides that I have two new stories in the works one of which will most like be a collaboration with a friend of mine somewhere down the line but look for my newest story Darkness(working title- still subject to be changed) within the next month. Well i have to get to sleep so i can be well rested for the first of my finals tomorrow Wish me Luck!! Oh, and never believe anyone when they say that snowboarding is so easy any one can do it. and first timers should never just jump onto the intermediate slopes with no prior experience. That mountain owned me, and thats no joke. it was still fun though, and i finally learned to steer the snowboard halfway down the mountain but anyway make sure you see Jumper. that movie is seriously hot. In all implied meanings( ) of the word. OKluvUbye -Faust

I love the Odd Thomas series. Right now i think my favorite would most definitely be Forever Odd, but I do like Odd Thomas and Brother Odd fairly well. I think there is another book in the series coming too. I seriously hope there is. Dean Koontz is one of my favorite authors

Janet Jackson- All for you(CD) Erykah Badu- New Amerykah vol 1

Happy Birthday Rick!

always nice to meet someone else who actually knows who jack johnson is. his new cd is great. but I have Another Rainy Day by corinne bailey rae. I absolutely love this song. i can't get you out of my head too by kylie minogue Another Rainy Day- Corinne Bailey Rae I got taken in We feasted on olives from the fridge We stood the whole lonely day We made love all afternoon Til the stars went blue You wrote a ballad We dined on oysters and champagne That's what it seemed like We connect in so many ways So easy, I must say Why am I so shy around you? Why am I so shy? Why do I take care to astound you? Why do I even try? Another rainy day We sat inside by the radiator watching old black and white films Where everybody sang You played in my solitude Didn't get dressed 'til 2 The rain says all I wrote this song on my guitar But it didn't turn out right So we just connected in other ways So easy, I must say Why am I so shy around you? Why am I so shy? Why do I take care to astound you? Why do I even try? Why am I so shy around... Oh why am I so shy? Why do I take care... Why do I even try? Can't get you out of my head- Kylie Minogue La la la la la la la la La la la la la la la la La la la la la la la la La la la la la la la la I just can