I think Jackie truly does love Damian, unfortunately not as much as she loves herself. She looked at Ludo as a way to get the life she thought she should have, but at some point, realized she didn't really want it. This is not a new concept! Tons of people have experienced this. Most either put up with it and live a silently miserable life, or they divorce and escape. Jackie's solution to boredom was monumentally stupid and hurtful. Andreas is possibly even more stupid! Planning all this to get money he didn't need for a life his wife didn't want!