James Matthews

It was my pleasure

Part 3 'Loss' The first time being in love is hard to describe. The first time being extrapolated out of love is even harder. Being in love, or falling in love as people like to say... well, I guess it feels like a fulfilment. It's all those stories you've read. For me It was in those women's magazines my mum brought home. Stories of poor women finding rich men and falling hard for them. For me it was never about material objects... fuck, I was 14! I had my own

I'm thinking alcoholic Mother. Father dead. Mother doesn't even know where she is let alone her Son. With Ben's unruly behaviour, bit psychotic, perhaps not a stable upbringing. Mind you, at 18, he could have gone out and lived his life a loner and no one has any reason to think he's missing. These are all guesses. I'm the last person who would speculate correctly.

Your gifs have always been dry and perfectly placed. I owe you and all my readers more thanks than I deserve. I'm flattered by your comments and so glad you came along for the ride. You mention things inside my head? Believe me some days it's a mess and writing brings me such calm and clarity. It's my little island in my head to escape for a while and to have all of you enjoying my output is tremendous. <<<< I rarely use that word. Always makes me think of Trump! I've used it with genuine affection 😁.

Thank you, appreciate the comments Man Thanks for being along for the ride.

Your words are too kind. Thank you. I have enjoyed writing this from start to finish and to have you and all the other guys who had something to say along? Well, what more could I ask for. I'm so grateful that people actually like what I write, and to get nice words at the end of each chapter has been humbling. You've made the characters more alive than I could ever have done alone. ❤️

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Yeeeeaaahhh, I kinda left it a teeny bit open for a sequel to slide through maybe, sort of, perhaps.... haha. Thanks Weiner, you'be been there cheering from the start. I appreciate it

Shit! Maaa Bad! Lol. Yes it's an epilogue LMFAO!!! whoops!🤭

LUKE After spending so much time at the hospital, I had effectively put my life on hold. It was a terrifying feeling because I knew people and 'stuff,' would be waiting for me when I came out the other side of this. But what was this? Was this my new life now? A helpful hand for Leander, or still an obsession. Some might say the lines are still blurred. I loved him, simple. The love I had for him was something I would never be able to comprehend in one lifetime fully. On my way home

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Thanks Pvtguy You're too kind.

Awww, thanks Ford! That's lovely of you to say 🥰

Part 2 'Having' "I can join you for that," were the words he chose. I'd got my reaction. Surprisingly it felt like the one I was expecting somehow. But the relief of not being punched in the mouth or him storming off to tell our parents still lingered in my mind somewhat. I could see Joe begin to masturbate under the covers. His hand slowly moved back and forth. My mind felt electric as I watched. I dared not touch myself, or it would all be over almost, embarrassingly, imm