Meeko

I came into this topic really late >< Anyway you should ask him, idk it's weird becuase now that i beleive in myself that i am gay, now that i can finally admit it to other people, i seem to be able to tell right away if a guys gay or not. Now if their bi they are tricky, becuase they are most likey not too out, and make it hard for people to tell. The good thing though is i'm the same way, so i just look for what i try to hide or do etc. Let us know what he says!!! -Mike

You said it!!!

And you can't drink till you are 21!

Woohooo!!! I'm Celebrating a day of recovering from a wild night at a bar (My Late Bday Party) =D

Addicted By Stevie Hoang Since u went away its been one year two months but it just dun seem like yesterday we were still together time has passed and things have changed so why do i feel this way cos you're with somebody else and im with somebody else but whenever i think about the the love we had it hurts so bad whenever i think about the love we made i said that i'd be strong girl i really thought that i'd move on but still i find myself asking do u still think of me like i think about u do u still dream of me cos i cant sleep without u tell me if time should make a change then why do i feel the same your love has got me addicted said i dont know when im with a chick and hittin it girl i call your name said i dont know when i be with somebody else i push them away tell me if time should make a change then why do i feel the same Addicted Lyrics on http://www.lyricsmania.com i know i gotta move on but im so addicted to u its been long enough dont know why im still holding on if i had a wish babe i would turn back the hands of time cos u dont know what u got untill its gone its the reason why im writing u this song girl im slippin and i dont know what to do girl i admit it, im sick over u damn i realised my mistake, my pride got in the way i should have begged u to stay do u still think of me like i think about u do u still dream of me cos i cant sleep without u tell me if time should make a change then why do i feel the same your love has got me addicted said i dont know when im with a chick and hittin it girl i call your name said i dont know when i be with somebody else i push them away tell me if time should make a change then why do i feel the same i know i gotta move on but im so addicted to u if u ever lost someone u truely love let me hear u say yeah and if u lost someone u truely need let me hear u say yeah do u still think of me like i think about u do u still dream of me cos i cant sleep without u tell me if time should make a change then why do i feel the same your love has got me addicted said i dont know when im with a chick and hittin it girl i call your name said i dont know when i be with somebody else i push them away tell me if time should make a change then why do i feel the same i know i gotta move on but im so addicted to u A Song that pretty much sums up my best friend raynas life at this point, all but the "with someone else" part. And it really is a touching song, even if i'm not going through this at this very moment, i have before and i'm sure a lot of you have as well. =D

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WOW just wow... Thanks for sharing this with us man!!! -Mike

Of course not silly, it is and always will be your title! -Mike

Another great chapter CJ. But see you are evil too with your mean cliffhangers!!! Can't wait for next weeks chapter ^^ -Mike

Hey All So I would like to start this blog by thanking all of you who have wished me a happy birthday, it really mean's allot. So I started today as i would start any other normal day, get up look at the time, go back to sleep rinse and repeat 5 times haha. Anyway, i finally got up and took a shower. I got dressed and headed out the door to start my day. I went around and did the basic cleaning things that are required of me to do for the job. However, today I noticed one of the lights in the elevator were out, so I got the stuff so i could change it for the first time. So i turned the elevator off and put up a sign by the door stating that it was off for the moment. But anyone could turn it back on just by walking into the elevator and hitting a button. Lucky me a woman decided not the read the rather big sign I posted and did exactly that. She walked right in and started it up right as i was putting the light into place. So since i was putting the light into place by the ends (which i later found out was a bad idea because that is where all the power comes from) I get shocked. I nearly fell off the stool i was on and almost knocked the woman down with me, but i was quick enough to fall in the other direction. So she turns to me and starts yelling about how I almost hit her and that, i was crazy for as she called it, fooling around with the elevator. At this point i was pissed, how dare she have the nerve to bitch me out when she clearly was the reason I had to go to the hospital. So after yelling back at her (which I shouldn't have done) one of my bosses walked by and saw me sitting in the elevator and asked what was wrong, so i explain it to her and she gets very upset. So i assured her that i was fine, but she wouldn't have any of that, no instead she calls 911 and has them pick me up. So by the time they got me, all checked out and gave me the okay, I got back home and decided to take a little nap. About an hour later i got into the shower again and got dressed nicely. I had to be at the park by 2:30pm to teach the arts and crafts class, then right after that i had to go to a family dinner, which started at around 5:30pm. So surprisingly the dinner went okay, nothing special or interesting happened. at around 8:00pm I left the restaurant and headed over to the Pool hall were i was going to meet up with Rayna and Cookie, and that was the highlight of my day. Only that is where everything seemed to go wrong. So Rayna and Cookie have their difficulties just like any other couple. And not to be mean, but after you spend a period with these two you can pretty much tell that they will not last. So that's exactly what happened, Rayna decided right as i got there that today of all days was the day to brake up with Cookie. Therefore, I spent the remainder of the night trying to comfort her, and for a while, everything seemed to get better. A few of our other pool friends that we knew (mostly because they were all checking out Rayna) Decided it was time to get close to her now that she's single. And so one of them decided to stay by her 24/7 and she didn't seem to mind at all, and most of the times i wouldn't either, only i felt totally uncomfortable, I mean sure i know all of them, but not really that well. And so since Joe (Not his real name) decided to be Raynas new best friend, i pretty much felt like shit. Here i was spending what was suppose to be my special day with her, and she goes and pretty much just ditches me. So when she went outside to smoke i decided i had enough and just left. She called once i got home, and left a message asking why i just left like i did, but i really didn't want to get into it with her so i just didn't call her back. I guess the reason i felt so hurt was because i felt as if she was trying to replace the friendship we shared with someone else, and just before these other friends came, she even finally admitted that she loved me. Nice way to treat someone you love huh? I don't know maybe I'm just going around sounding crazy again, but really i just can't wait for this day to be over. So here, i am now, spending the rest of my birthday alone! So much for a great birthday huh? At least I'll remember this one for a while... Hope everyone else is having a much better day, take care and have a good week! -Mike "Everything" By Michael Buble You're a falling star, you're the get away car. You're the line in the sand when I go too far. You're the swimming pool, on an August day. And you're the perfect thing to say. And you play it coy, but it's kinda cute. Ah, when you smile at me you know exactly what you do. Baby don't pretend, that you don't know it's true. Cause you can see it when I look at you. [Chorus:] And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times It's you, it's you, you make me sing. You're every line, you're every word, you're everything. You're a carousel, you're a wishing well, And you light me up, when you ring my bell. You're a mystery, you're from outer space, You're every minute of my everyday. And I can't believe, uh that I'm your man, And I get to kiss you baby just because I can. Whatever comes our way, ah we'll see it through, And you know that's what our love can do. [Chorus:] And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times It's you, it's you, you make me sing You're every line, you're every word, you're everything. So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la [Chorus:] And in this crazy life, and through these crazy times It's you, it's you, you make me sing. You're every line, you're every word, you're everything. You're every song, and I sing along. 'Cause you're my everything. Yeah, yeah So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la So, la, la, la, la, la, la, la

Hey Kev So let me start off by saying i love you ... I have been trying to figure out the name of the song you posted for nearly two years now... Nice to say when i started to read it i downloaded it instantly and am listening to it as we speak!!! so a lot of what you said about relationships and etc, i agree with. I mean for you, you want to be able to feel needed and help right? And it's funny because there are people like me who like others who take charge and help out every once in a while. I don't know why but there are alot of times i wish i had someone to hold me at night and just make all my problems go away, then agian who deosn't wish for that right? Anyway you made some wonderful points and i hope that someone has wonderful as you finds that right person who will make you happy! Take care and have a amazing day!!! -Mike P.S: "Just let me hold you while you're falling apart" You can hold me whenever you want too!!!

Happy Birthday Steve Have A Great One!!!

Hey Vic Welcome back to the blogging world No matter what it's dont to me or however i try not to bleive it, i still do and always will bleive this saying... "Things always happen for a reason" I just wish you all the best!!! -Mike

Hey All So I thought I would stop by and update you all on a little that's been going on. So last week Monday, I started my new job, got everything packed and unpacked in a matter of hours, which is a very good thing. So let me just start off by saying I love my new place. I mean I feel so free, so alive, and for once so happy!!! I got a place all to myself and I don't have to share with anyone! So now moving on to the job, I must say it isn't what I thought it would be at all. I mean then again I don't really know what I thought it would be so blah. Good news is that there are some really nice people who live here, as we'll as the two faced people who are nice to your face and a bitch behind your back, yup I'm met them too! So overall the job is going good, it's only been a week so far but I think I can handle this, I mean over this past week I've been finding myself with a lot of free time still and I like it, at least I'll have time to write now! Won't be as much time but hey, time is time. So on to today, I feel kind of depressed. I don't know... It seems every since I moved out onto my own I feel a lot more alone? (Does that even make any sense?) Like it kind of feels like my friends aren't really my friends, I don't know. I mean maybe I'm just overreacting. I know we all have our different lives and different plans but do you ever get that feeling where you feel you're not really wanted? Like I said maybe I'm just overreacting, who knows. So today at work, pretty much the whole time I was planning out in my head this story that kind of came to me in a dream, I mean a lot of it's from bits and piece of my life, but somehow it got me really motivated and interested in writing again... So Conner I know I said this before but get ready for some load, because when I get my internet back on Oct 3rd, we are going to have to bust out that red marker and work overtime!!! Best news of all is that Heroes season two starts tomorrow!! WOOOHOOO I'm so thrilled. That is all for now, hope everyone's having a wonderful night! -Mike P.S: Did I mention there are some hot guys who live in this building? Things are going to be getting interesting ...

Hey Man HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!

Let me just start by saying congrats on the promotion and raise thats awesome!! And i hate you, we'll not really hate more like jealous! hahaha i love the Fall Out Boys, tell us about it and have a blast. -Mike

Hey Kevin You know i've always knew you were a nice guy, but this blog just proves how nice you really are Anyone should be more then happy to have such a great friend like yourself Kevin. I'm glad you had such a great time at the concert, and about the Gay Couple that's wonderful!!! Everyone has good days and bad ways, but the way i see it, it all depends on how you make of the day, and as far as i'm concerned i'm sure you will have a much better day tomorrow, and i hope you have more better days after that too! Take care and have a wonderful day -Mike

It seems i won't be able to make it either. I just got a new full time job, which will be taking all of my free time, and i won't be able to get the time off But i do wish all of you that are attending a wonderful trip! -LC

Gee who knew you were so old..... I think i need to find a younger more sexy editor..... HAPPY BIRTHDAY CONNER Best wishes to you, and may you have a wonderful year and more years to comeP

Hey Kevin I always look forward to your blogs, as they are always something more then worth reading, and i enjoy hearing about you =P I'm very glad you decided not to quit GA though, i don't know what i would do without you >< So here's to many more blogs, and many more times with you!!! Take care and have a wonderful night Kevin \ -LC

TEN EMOTIONS. 1. are you missing someone right now?: no 2. are you happy? Somewhat yes. 3. are you talking to anyone right now?: Ashlee!! 4. are you bored?: Nope 5. are you German?: Nope, tho i have been to germany ^^ 6. are you Irish?: Half 7. are you French?: No 8. are you Italian?: No 9. are your parents still married?: Yes they are >< 10. do you like someone right now?: Define like =P TEN FAVORITES. 1. store: Hmm I guess AE or T&C. 2. flowers: ??? 3. color: Blue! 4. sport: Basketball, Baseball, Tennis, Pool. 5. mall: Ala! 6. movie: Hmm, I'd have to say Transformers. 8. season: Summer/Winter 9. animal: Dogs! 10. state: Not sure. TEN FACTS. 1. hometown: Born and raised in Honolulu Hawaii. 2. hair color: Black =P I know I'm plain like that 3. Birthday: September 25 4. hair style: It used to always be really short, until i decided to grow it longer. 5. eye color: Light brown. 6. best friend: Rayna, Ashlee, Alex, Brandon. 7. mood: Content 8. skin color: Ugh i used to be really dark during the summer, but i got white agian =( 9. available: Yes, but i'm enjoying the single life. 10. left/right-handed: lefty!! TEN THINGS ABOUT YOUR LOVE LIFE. 1. have you ever been in love?: REAL love? Noper 2. do you believe in love: Sure do 3. why did your last relationship fail: He only wanted sex. 4. have you ever been heartbroken: I have... 5. have you ever broken someone's heart?: I was told so, although i don't beleive it. 6. have you ever fallen for one of your best friends: Yes 7. have you ever liked someone but never told them: Yes 8. are you afraid of commitment: It depends really. 9. has someone ever kissed your hand: Nope 10. have you ever had a secret admirer: Not a clue. TEN THINGS: THIS OR THAT. 1. love or trust: Both 2. hard liquor or beer: Haha here's a hard question... it depends on how drunk i want to get! 3. night or day: Night it's so much better!! 4. one night stands or relationships: Relationships 5. television or internet: TV for Heros, Internet of everything else. 6. pepsi or coke?: I don't drink soda, Ice Tea!! 7. wild night out or romantic night in: It depends 8. chocolate or vanilla: Both 9. phone or in person: In person 10. Love or Lust: Love, but lust is always nice too >< TEN HAVE Y0U EVER 1. have you ever been caught sneaking out?: never had to sneak out 2. have you ever skinny dipped: Nope, but i would like to try it one day 3. have you ever done something you regret: Haven't we all? 4. have you ever sky dived: Nope, but i plan too 5. have you ever been on a house boat: No 6. have you ever finished an entire jaw breaker: I don't remember!! haha 7. have you ever liked someone so badly it hurt?: Yes 9. have you ever danced in the rain?: I do it every night as i walk home from work =P 10. have you ever had a hang over?: Not yet WHO 1. Who was the last person you laughed with? Rayna and Tammy 2. Who can cheer you up instantly?: Only two people can, and they are Ami and Rayna. 3. Who do you think will make you smile tomorrow: A Co Worker for sure, we have a big meeting tomorrow so we'll all be there ^^ 4. Who is making the world a more terrible place to live in: My Family 5. Who dominates the family: >< 6. Who is like a brother/sister to you: Ashlee <3 7. Who is the youngest person you know: TJ he's 2!! 8. Who makes the best dinner: My Aunty 9. Who needs to chill: EVERYONE! WHAT 1. What do you hope will happen next week: Nothing!! 2. What would you name a newborn puppy: Jazz 3. What relaxes you: Shooting Pool, MUSIC! 4. What is the most difficult decision you had to make: Moving away from the family 6. What's your style: It depends. 7. What is your number one priority: Kids! 8. What is the worst movie you've ever seen: I don't remember the bad ones! 9. What do you want for Christmas: Being surrounded by my friends. WHEN 1. When is it a good time to be truthful: All the time? 2. When was your last break-up: A few months ago. 3. When do you take time for yourself: Whenever i get free time. 4. When is the next time you'll see your best friend: We'll considering i'm at her house, and sitting on her atm, a few seconds? 5. When will world hunger end: The day i stop eating 6. When was your last bad hair day: EVERYDAY! 7. When do you usually take a shower: Mornings,afternoon and at night. 8. When are you going to go on your next date: Most likey not for a while. 9. When will emo kids grow up: ? 10. When did you first learn about sex: Hmm around the age of 13 or so? Yes i'm slow i know! WHY 1. Why do you feel the way you do right now: Because i always feel good when listening to music i like. 2.Why are teenagers becoming more apathetic: They are? 3. Why did you say the meanest thing you've ever said: Because i mean't it?? 4. Why can't perfection exist: Who said it deosn't already. 5. Why is gay marriage illegal: Becuase people are stupid? 6. Why, in your opinion, are some countries more privileged than others: Beats me 7. Why is your father the way he is: Becuase he's old fashion. 8. Why do bad things feel so good: I don't know 9. Why would you hurt someone, if you ever did: It's not something i do on purpose, but somethings you just can't help it. 10. Why did you go online today: What else would i do >< SPILL YOUR GUTS Q. First thing you did this morning?: Talked to Ashlee, ugh she woke me up at 5am!!! Q. The last thing you ate?: Kailua pig and cabbage YUM! Q. What's something you look forward to most in the next 6 weeks?: My Birthday Q. What's annoying you right now?: Nothing! Q. What's the last movie you saw?: Rush Hour 3. Q. Do you believe in long distance relationships?: Sure i've been in one, and all i can say is it's hard. Q Where is the last place you went?: Pool Hall Q: Who is the last person you called?: Rayna Q: Been cheated on?: Nope Q: Do you think that someone is thinking about you right now?: Nah. Q: Do you wish on stars?: At times yes. Q: Did it work?: no, not really Q: Do you untie your shoes every time you take them off?: Nope =P Q: When did you last cry?: This morning, it's something i haven't done in a few months now. Q: Do you like your handwriting?: No ugh, it looks like a 12 year olds. Q: Are you a friendly person?: I try to be yes. Q: Are you keeping a secret from the world?: Yes Q: Who's bed did you sleep in last night?: My own bed! Q: What color shirt are you wearing?: Not wearing a shirt >< Q: Do you have any pets?: Yes my dog Jazz and Meme, tho they live with my parents =( Q: What is the color of your bedsheets?: Green and Yellow Q: What were you doing at 9 last night?: At the Pool Hall Q: Last person you talked to: Rayna <3 Q: When is the last time you saw your dad?: Last Week Q: Look to your left: My Bed! *sigh* It's calling me agian.... Q: Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Yes i have Q: Ever cried on your friends shoulder?: Yes Q: Song that makes you cry?: The hawaiian song Friends, it gets me every time. Q: Are you a normally happy person?: Agian i try to be! 1. Smoked a cigarette: I took a puff and never did it agian 2. Smoked a cigar: Nope 3. Drank so much you threw up: A year ago >< 4. Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back: Yes 5. Been arrested: No 6. Gone on a blind date: Nope 7. Skipped school: *Bites Lip* Yes 8. Seen someone die: No 9. Been to Canada: No, but I'd like to. 10. Been to Mexico: Nope 11. Been on a plane: Yes 12. Been lost: I'm always lost, look at my name silly! 13. Been on the opposite side of the country: How about the middle of no-where?. 14. Swam in the ocean: a while >< 15. Felt like dying: Not for a while. 17. Played cops and robbers: Yes, of course 18. Recently colored with crayons: Nope 19. Sang karaoke: Yes Friday night!! 20. Paid for a meal with only coins: Noper 21. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't: Had to eat those twinkes >< 22. Made prank phone calls: Long time ago 23. Laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose: haha yes! 24. Caught a snowflake on your tongue: I wish 26. Written a letter to Santa Clause: Yes 27. Been kissed under the mistletoe: No, though I'd love that to happen *wink* 29. Blown bubbles: Of course 30. Made a bonfire on the beach: Heck ya 31. Crashed a party: never! 32. Gone roller-skating: A while back Personal questions to know you better: 1. Nicknames? Winky, R _ _ _ y, Mikey, Meeko 2. Mother's name? Suzie 3. What is your favorite drink? Water/Ice Tea 4. Tattoos? I get chicken skin just thinking about it. 5. Body piercing? Nope 6. How much do you love your job? Alot, I mean wouldn't you like a job where you do nothing? 7. Birthplace: Hawaii 8. Favorite vacation spot? Hilo 9. Ever been to Africa? No 10. Ever eaten cookies for dinner? haha not ever. 11. Ever been on TV? For work yes. 12. Ever stole any traffic signs? No way. 13. Ever been in a car accident? A while ago. 14. Was it your fault? Nope, stupid people who talk on cell phones. 15. 2 doors or 4? 4 Door 16. Favorite salad dressing? Ranch 17. Favorite pie? Pumkin, or Custard 18. Favorite number? 5 20. Favorite holiday? Christmas 21. Favorite dessert? Tammy's Crack Brownies ( I swear she puts cocane in them to make them sooo good!) 22. Favorite food? Pizza!! 23. Favorite day of the week? Lately? Friday 24. Favorite brand of body soap? Axe haha. 25. Favorite TV show? HEROES!!! 26. Favorite Toothpaste? umm. 27. Where do you see yourself in 10 years? Hopefully in front of a classroom filled with kids. 28. What do you do when you are bored? Many things, mostly clean, then listen to music, then go out ^^ Wow so that took a lot longer then i thought it would. So things are still pretty rough with the family, but i'm trying to look past all of this and continue on with my life. This is the point where i feel i need help the most, and surprisingly i'm getting a lot of it. Not only from you wonderful people on GA, but from a lot others in RL. All your words mean so much to me, and for that thank you! Another note, I started writing agian, Idk if it was conner yelling at me that did it, but i opened up the folder and just started to write. Thank you Conner. I'm going to leave you with a song that's gotten stuck in my head lately. Shades Of Blue, By Nick Lachey Looks like another day is Slipping through my window shade Chasing the dark away Sneaking into my room again Are you a sad and lonely thief Come to steal my peace of mind The only peace I find Is pretending that you're still lying next to me so why why why The sun has got to shine shine shine Why don't it just stay away Why do dreams have to fade Into all these shades of blue Where I wait for you Pray love reaches through All these shades Shades of blue When you close your eyes Feel me by your side I will wait for you In all these shades of blue Thinking back on my mistakes I can't undo all the days that I misused I thought that you'd always stay It's hard to face the simple truth That that time brings no relief but time is what you need you said Had to go and clear out your head While you're trying to decide If you'll come back to me Why why why do we have to cry cry cry Tell me why this has to be Why don't you give in to me Baby all these shades of blue Where I wait for you Pray love reaches through All these shades Shades of blue When you close your eyes Feel me by your side I will wait for you Here in all these shades of blue Here in all these shades of blue Why did you have to leave Why did you have to set me free Why did you have to go Baby all these shades of blue Where I wait for you Pray love reaches through All these shades Shades of blue When you close your eyes Feel me by your side I will wait for you In all these shades of blue Here in all these shades of blue -LC

Let me start off by saying i want pictures!!! Secondly i'm very glad you had such a wonderful day, it suits such a wonderful person tho. As for your writing i'm more then egar to write them, you have such talent and i can't wait for you to share more of it with us Have a wonderful Labor Day Kevin -LC

Sad to say, with everything going on right now it's looks like i prob won't be attending, as much as i want too i just can't right now. But it is still a few months away, and no one knows what may happen by then so who knows ><

Simply Amazing, wow....

Hey CJ You did it once agian, bringing another great chapter to us, good job and keep it up -LC