rich_e

I strive to be a really good listener. I absolutely hate it when people don't remember things I've told them numerous times, so I would hate to be that person that's always forgetting. There's no better way to show someone that they're not important to you than to not remember little details here or there. When I'm in a stressful situation, though, I'm the worst listener in the world. It's actually freaky how it happens. I just focus in on one thing and shut out everything around me. It's not until minutes later that I realize that someone was talking and I completely ignored them. I hate when this happens!

On Monday I finally get my two raises and my keys!

You were right! He is planning to move in with the boyfriend. The trouble is the guy lives in Kentucky! He's a flight attendant so he comes to Houston a lot, and they often spend the weekend and stuff together, but apparently they've decided it's time to do the moving in thing, and they've mutually agreed that William should move there. Yep, Scott's pretty upset about the whole thing, plus he's out a roommate! AND to top it all off something else kinda cruddy just happened to him. So I'm seriously feeling for Scott As for William...well I'm pretty conflicted. I'm going to miss him like crazy of course! And I'm just kinda in shock about the whole thing. But I'm also pretty happy for him. I mean he's really happy and excited, and it sounds like he's just ready to leave Texas in general. So even though I think he might be rushing things and moving more quickly than I would advise, I think in general if he just wants to get out there and try something new he might be doing what's right for him. I mean I up and moved to a new state and I didn't have a boyfriend - however new - waiting for me. I'm just really torn. I mean he is a very independent person, and I think he'll be fine. I mean he'll definitely meet people and make a lot of new friends, and I could see him being fine even if they did break up. Plus he'd have the option of coming back. I mean I know we'd welcome him back and do what we could to help him get back on his feet. So all in all I think for him it might be a good decision. He's doing something he wants to do, it has the potential to turn out really great, and even if it doesn't I think he'll be okay. ...now I just need to explain all that to Scott. Wow. I kinda didn't want to be right. lol. But yeah, it sounds like a great opportunity for him, especially if he just feels like the need to switch things up. I just really feel for Scott. From what I take, they're really good friends. To have a really good friend not only want to move out, but move to another state... that's got to hurt. Not only that, but now Scott has to find someone else to live with. I suppose he could always find a roommate, but to find someone compatible to live with has always been hard for me. It's good that William is independent though. I would be worried if he was moving up there for the wrong reasons, and then be stranded by himself. How did you decide that you wanted to move to Texas? Was it spur of the moment, or did you have friends or some connection? I've had the oddest urge to move lately to a completely different state. It's not plausible at the moment because of school, but I wonder if I would actually do it when I'm finished. Scary thought.

Thank god I'm not the only one. I just assumed everyone rhymed it with sir, and when i read the replies, i felt like such a blond.

Religious views are a very personal issue. I, personally, am not religious. I understand the reasoning behind it, and I like the concept of it if it means making people more morally conscious and empathetic. However, I hate it when religious people take my lack of religious views to mean that I have no morals or values. If people are accepting, I have no problem. Although I would like to say for certain that it would not be an issue, I really don't know. I'd like to believe that it wouldn't. I'm not really sure.

I actually prefer "slept with" to f*ck or make love. F*ck sounds too vulgar for my tastes, and "making love" makes me want to gag. I suppose "had sex with" would work, though it's sort of blunt. Actually sleeping with someone would come out as "I slept next to so-and-so last night" for me.

I didn't think David was that bad, but I felt so terrible when he forgot the lyrics... twice. The second time he covered it up better. God, I can imagine what was going through his head.

So lately I've been kind of emotional, and I haven't pinned it to anything. I'm controlling my emotions in the sense that only one or two people even know that things are affecting me the way they are. I've done a pretty good job of putting on a smile and not letting it affect my performance at work or my mood around my friends. Whenever I get home, though, I just feel like I want to eat a pint of ice cream and watch Will & Grace and not think about anything else (which I of course haven't done repeatedly, or not, say, yesterday or anything). I'm starting to realize why I'm so sensitive lately. It's getting close. He's leaving in 26 days. I just don't know what to do. When I first found out he was leaving, I was hurt. He knew this, but I never got to tell him why. We had a talk, but it was just him saying that he didn't want me to be upset with him and that he would still come down and visit, and that he didn't want to leave, but it's something that he had to do. I don't want him to go. Since he told me he's leaving, our relationship hasn't been the same. We don't talk on the phone, we don't hang out, I don't know what's going on in his life. We see each other at work, but it's not the same since I'm constantly being observed. I feel like I've already lost him, and I kind of have the feeling that he was trying to distance himself to make things easier when he left. I understand the reasoning, but I still think it was selfish of him. Shouldn't he want to hang out as much as possible before he left? The way he's been acting has just made me question our whole friendship. These last couple of days, he's kind of been acting like he did before. He's being playful at work, and he's leaving me comments on myspace and whatnot. I'm not really responding, though. It just feels weird. It feels like it's too little too late. I guess because I've been so upset for so long, I've come to expect some grand gesture to prove that he's still a good guy and he still values our friendship. I know it's not coming. I want to tell him not to leave, but I know that's not what he needs. It just feels like I'm screaming under my breath. I miss him. The old him, the one that didn't act like a careless, immature, inconsiderate prick. I want to slap him to his senses, but I don't know how. I guess there's really not much I can do at this point.

I'm anxiously awaiting the DVD release of Dan In Real Life. I LOVED it in theatres, and can't wait to own it. **omg, i just did a google search, and it's released on DVD tomorrow! freaky.

That made me actually giggle. I've never been a big water drinker until recently, but I can't drink tap water, especially after my environmental analysis and design class. I usually have bottled water on hand.

Not to pry or anything... but what did he have to say?? haha My guess is that he's considering moving in with this new boyfriend. That would explain why Scott isn't too crazy about him, and would be big enough news to have to tell people individually. At the same time, if I were Scott... I'd probably be a little more upset. hmmm.

Whaaat? I liked Danny a lot better than most of the other guys. He had a good voice. bummer.

Yeah, you'll love it! It's a great environment. Fingers crossed!

You know, it's weird because yesterday I got very upset with one of my gay friends for acting the exact opposite of you. He's a great guy, but when it comes to being dependable or just -there- you just can't count on him. It's gotten to the point where he's just being an ass. It's not a pretty color on him. My friends and I are starting to realize just how self-centered and self-absorbed (not to mention selfish) he really is. I wish he would come to his senses and take a page from your book.

I recently got promoted to a Manager position at Express, and so far I like it. There's a lot of responsibilities that I recently acquired, and sometimes I can't believe I actually put up with such stupid customers that have no shame, but eh. It's challenging, it brings out the competitive side in me, and the perks are fun. It's definitely not something I'm going to do for the rest of my life, but while I'm a student, it's a good part-time job. It's definitely made me a much more social person, and it's helped me mature. I take my job very seriously, and will not have anyone questioning my work ethic, but that's true of school and anything else really. As for my major, I'm seriously considering switching over to Criminology/Law & Society. I just don't think I have the passion to be a premed major. I may double major and then see which one calls out to me more, but either way, I'll either be going to Law School or Med School.

LMAO @ Danny with Ryan. Ryan said he hadn't noticed Danny's purple streaks, and Danny was like "mmm-hmmmm" sure. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=n6dHLl-5kEQ priceless.

Perhaps it's the energy drink talking, or the fact that I'm up at 3 in the morning desperately trying to finish writing a 5 page research paper, (that I haven't started yet) but... I'm seriously getting fed up with people. People that for the past months I've spent so much time with just keep disappointing me. It's so immature and such childish behavior too and I just can't understand WHY. And what irritates me even more is that I put up with it, I give them the benefit of the doubt, hell I even made excuses for them! And of course, they turn around and get angry at me for the pettiest of things. argh. i'm irritated so easily lately. i don't like it. i'm one of those types that keeps it all bottled up too, so people never know. i have to get better at expressing my dissatisfaction with people. it's affecting my school work because i dwell on these issues (like i am right now) when I should be focused on what i'm trying to accomplish. i really just want to grab my jacket, grab my wallet, and just leave. completely out of the blue, no notice. to the beach or something. boston?

I can relate. I HATE that I'm still sick. On a lighter note, your boyfriend's hot! Well done. lol

NO! Don't break! I only watch these two on youtube. lol http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=X0l_MwE2JoA I'm not sure what the name of the song is, but there it is.

I just watched David's take on John Lennon's Imagine... it was quite good. He's so adorable! I also think that Danny had the chance to be amazing this week too, but he really was over-thinking it. The song choice was good, though. I like a guy singing that song.

Happy Birthday, Billy! Buahahaha, you're old now too.

Haven't been able to stop listening to this since I first heard it! I love the lyrics: You keep calling my phone non-stop / Don't you know I won't pick it up / You never leave a message / Look how you've changed You got nothing to say, gettin' in the way / Show up at my house / You're gettin' so obsessive / Like I have time for you Wasn't it me you didn't want? Wasn't it me who was hanging on? Now I'm done but before I go I want you to know This is how it feels / When you wait for a call that never comes / Are you waking up 'cause you miss someone? This is how it feels / When the trust you had is broken / And you're left to burn with your heart wide open You wanted me, now tell me why / Why and how you had the heart to f**k up my whole life / That's just so you And now I've moved on by myself / And maybe I won't forgive / I'll just forget you lived / And I hope it hurts Wasn't it me you tried to blame? Wasn't it me you threw away? But before you go there's something you should know You taught me how to hate you / And I was so in love / When I tried to save us it was not enough So what the hell is different / 'cause now that I am gone / You're crawling back to tell me I'm the one Do you only want me cause you can't have me? Do you only want me cause I'm gone?

If I really loved someone, I don't think I could say that I would not have sex with them. Yeah, the risks are there, and it's not something to play around with. But if this is someone that you care for, someone that you want to be with, I think you'd want to be with them anyway. I think it would be their responsibility as a good person to want to protect you by all means necessary, though. Hmm. It's a toughie. To put myself in that position... what if I was HIV positive? Would I let someone I love have sex with me knowing that there's a chance I could pass it to them?

I would go domestic just because it's easier. lol.

Boxer briefs, trunks, and american apparel briefs are what i usually go for. every now and then i'll wear a pair of boxers, but eh. not my fav.