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Jonathan Williams was once the most popular kid in his high school. He had the best friends, the worst enemies and was poised to lead his class as elected class president. Now he's a best selling author of "Hallway Hero" a novel based on his life. A life he cannot remember

Michael you are totally right in this. the kid is no longer staying with us. He's been moved to another home where they can help him better than I can. My mother was instrumental in getting him a good foster home. I know I should have spoken to chaz but when I saw the kid on the street I had to act fast. I had met his oparents on other occations and I know how evil these people could be. I called Chaz and I told him that I had to do it. I couldn't just leave the kid there. As for my mother taking him you are right she should have taken him but I didn't feel comfortable with the liar being there and all. He's not the greatest person to be introduced to, you know? David was away during all this but I did call him later on he said that it was alright with him. About me saying my house I thought about this. I need to work on this. It's just that I've been saying this since I was given the house. I really need to stop. I trust Chaz with everything it's just a matter of getting used to that. GREEN

Hi guys I know Ive been a little silent for the last couple of days. I've been dealing with a lot these two days and it's left me very emotionally drained. I through some circumstances I cannot mention as it affects my personal and professional life have taken in a homeless teen of the street. He's was living in a park for two weeks until I was made aware of it by other kids. My friends are somewhat cautious and Chaz is treating me like I don't exist right now. I am being cautious trust me but I know this kid and he's a very good kid. He's just having a really rough time right now. His parents have kicked him out over some stuff they found on his PC. We can all relate to this I think. I called social services and the social worker told me that I should keep him here until they could find a stable environment for him. I feel for this kid so badly right now. Imagine going from having everything to losing it all with just two words get out. David, even though he's being cautious I can see the concern in his eyes every time he talks to the kid as his situation was exactly the same. My mother asked me if I needed help with this maybe she could get the state to let him stay with her as she is still certified to be a foster parent (she was a foster parent for five years) I told her that it might be a good Idea. Steve has been very good with him too. Selene is in Chaz's camp right now. They are being nice to the kid but they give me their cold shoulder. I slept in the living room last night. David came out and watched a movie with me for a bit. We talked for a while. I could hear Chaz walking around in the kitchen but he never came in. This morning he left before I could wake up to go to work but I felt him kiss me. This afternoon however he wouldnt even look at me. The kid's parents have made it clear that they do not want them anywhere near the house when i went to get his stuff. They told me the most hateful things I have ever heard spew out of anyone's mouth. I couldn't believe it. I was fuming inside I don't know how I didn't flip and start hitting someone. I've been living in a dream state and I don't know if I am even doing the right thing. I want this kid to find a permanent home. This kids is one of the brightest people I have ever met even though he's only fifteen I can see a bright future for him but seeing him broken down to the point where nothing matters anymore I feel like I need to help. All he needs is for someone to care for him enough to see him through. I know Chaz is angry at me right now but I have reassured him that I wouldnt bring anyone into my house if I didnt trust him in my house. I just want to help someone that needs it right now. So you guys tell me am I doing the right thing here? GREEN + COUCH

Eww peuce! How could anyone go by that name? Not that I am judging anyone . GREEN

I was at the library studying for finals.

Okay so listen one and all this is the story of my name and I will only write it this one time. My name is Green because my parents were pseudo hippie missionaries and they thought it was great that they were going to call all of their children a different color of the Rainbow. Unfortunately they only had one child together and that was me, GREEN. It took years for me to be comfortable with this name. My middle name is Javian and when I was younger I used to go by this name. I stopped using that name during freshman year of high school and I embraced my real name. GREEN J. M.

Oh we just opened the pandoras box on this. I overheard my mom saying something about white horses. GREEN + CHAZ die slowly at bottom of a well. Seriously we will ditch them if I seea white horse. AHHHHHHHHHHH! GREEN

So my mother and Chaz's mother finally met. FIASCO was all I could think to describe this. My mother and Chaz's mother are opposites in every sense of the word. My mom is very shy and reserved while Chaz's mother can out yell a crowd of opera singers in full soprano. I was definitely nervous as we waited for them to arrive. I can also tell that my mother was nervous. I mean the woman made the Liar disappear. So we see them pull up and my stomach is upside down. They meet and they greet and my mother shows them the house and my stepfather seems to have a lot in common with Chaz's father. I was definitely relieved. My mother and Chaz's mother were getting along famously. My mother didn't even get mad when Chaz's mother asked her how she came to name me Green. SO at Dinner we all sat and really embarrassing moments in our lives were shared. Then the alcohol flowed and my mother lost her inhibitions and Chaz's mother decided that she needed to dance and Chaz and I watched in utter shock as they all started to dance very badly. Then as if that wasn't horrifying enough they started to talk about where the commitment ceremony will be held at. Chaz's family offered their house and I said absolutely not because their house is too nice to have many people there. I don't want to have anything damaged. My mother offered hers but I said no we were getting a hall no matter what. So then they sat around us and they basically told us that we had no control over this. Chaz said that it was ours to decide and Chaz's mother gave him the mother stare. Anyone with a mother or grandmother knows this stare very well. Shoot I was scared too so i didn't say anything. So now it's all in their hands and we have no say in it. GREEN + CHAZ + PARENTS

First read the lyrics: Gold Lion by The Yeah Yeah Yeah's (Or listen to the song.) Gold lions gonna tell me where the light is Gold lions gonna tell me where the light is Take our hands out of control Take our hands out of control Tell me what you saw Tell me what you saw There was a crowd of seas Inside Outside I must of done a dozen each You was the height I grew Wait the show is crushing you I've been around a few Tell me what you saw I'll tell you what too Gold lions gonna tell me where the light is Gold lions gonna tell me where the light is Take our hands out of control Take our hands out of control Outside Inside This is a moon without a tide We'll dim the fire in your eyes We'll dim the fire When the colors Gettin' brighter Cold as I Makes a move without a tide Tell me what you saw I'll tell you what too Three days ago I was driving to work and I was listening to "Gold Lion" by the Yeah Yeah Yeah's. I got so into the song that I forgot that I was on a very busy road where children were people were driving during rush traffic. So I ran a red light because I was too busy singing to actually realize that I was crossing an intersection. Then after my initial shock I was Like (this is very stupid mind you) Damn I need to listen to that song again. So I play it again and I nearly sideswipe a couple of bikers. I got angry so I rolled down my window and I yell at the bikers, one of which flips me off. So when I reach my job I sat with a co worker and I let her listen to the song not knowing that my boss hates that type of music. He calls me into his office and proceeds to grill me on how I should use discretion when I listen to my music. "Not everyone likes this type of propaganda music," He says. My boss is a very conservative guy. I mean in the very extreme sense of the word. So I tell him that the song is not really political and it's not hurting anyone, because it was on my ipod and not on the loudspeaker or on a radio. He then tells me that maybe I should listen to it at a lower volume. I really didn't want to get into some big fight so I told him that I would and I walked away. Mind you this isn't over not by a long shot because an hour later he is playing his own annoying deep country music that I was quite sure had a very derogative comment against women so I got angry and I saw my chance when I saw his superior walk in. I asked him what the policy was on music and he told me that there wasn't any as long as it wasn't played too loud. I asked him what about the ipods? He said he didn't have a problem with those. So I told him what my boss had said. He got pissed because we could hear his own music from where we were and his office was closed. So he walked into my boss' office and the next thing I know my boss was walking out very angrily. I had gotten him fired and I really didn't want to do that. Other than this I had never had a problem with him before. So his superior walks over to me and said that he was here because he was going to fire him anyways. Apparently he had done something really bad. I didn't want to pry so I didn't ask what he had done. So were expecting his replacement soon. Then during lunch I found myself listening to that song again. It had definitely grown on me. My friend Jonathan bought me it on Itunes, saying that I needed to listen to it. This is when I decide that I should take a walk. I was listening to it so hard that I was almost run over by a dump truck. I think that maybe I should stop listening to this song. So I stop and I pretty much have a normal day after that. Then I go to my house where I find Chaz and David And Steve and Selene and Chaz's brother watching the songs video. I was like oh no not again, so I walk away. Chaz walks into my bedroom behind me and looks at me weird and I can tell he's shaking. Then he gets on his knees and proposes to me. I was like oh my god no, I mean yes I mean we need to go now and I pull him out of the house. I needed him to come with me. Since our really bad valentines day week fiasco I have been entertaining the idea of proposing. Even if we can't really marry right now, but the idea feels right so I bring him to my car and I drive him to my mother's house where the ring I had bought him was. Right in front of my mother I proposed to my boyfriend. I had to, he couldn't outdo me I wasn't having it. We're aiming at a fall commitment ceremony. Steve said he'd cater. LOL Um our rings arent the same but I hate yellow gold so he gave me a white gold band. I gave him a gold one and where going to etch our names on them soon. So Gold Lion is either going to kill me or make me the luckiest person on earth. GREEN + CHAZ + GOLD LION

Hi Guys as a way to thank you guys we've decided to have a Q and A session with you guys. Send us an pm with any questions you would like answered and we will do the best to answer them. Just please do not ask where we live, anything pertaining to what goes on in our bedroom or where we go to school because we will not answer that. Anything else is alright. Thanks GREEN + CHAZ

Aww Thanks Guys. We will miss all of your comments. They mean so much to us. Hugs for everyone all around. GREEN + CHAZ

Hi guys. Hello guys! Are you there? Alright so Chaz and I got to talking and we decided that we will not be posting in our blog anymore. It's time for us to concentrate on our own lives and lead our own private existence. We've been very open with this blog so far and we want to try to move on now. It's time you know? Just so you Guys know Chaz and I are engaged. Yes who would have thought right? Well it happened last night. He bought me a ring and I bought him a ring. You should have seen the look on David when he saw them. Our last post will be the last chapter to the Shadow Boys. I believe that were on post 124. Our last will Be post 125. Again Thanks a lot You Guys. Chaz and I are very grateful for all of your replies and all that was shared. You guys are all truly great and we will really miss you guys. This doesnt mean we still wont be around GA so drop us a line here and then. GREEN + CHAZ

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Thanks guys. I am just really tired because I can't sleep and the medication is making me drowsy. GREEN

It's over for now. My back hurts and I am cranky. Chaz is irritating me,but it's sweet. Selene has fallen of the face of the earth which is good and David seems to have turned into a mute. My brother and mother seem to think that I am entertainment and my father keeps throwing his god fearing rhetoric in my face. I don't know why they have to even be here right now. The only one not annoying me is my stepfather and that is because he is being quiet and helping Steve cook for everyone. Oh speaking of Steve I have conviced him to go to culinary school. So we are his guinea pigs. Now about the surgery. Everything went fine and I dont have cancer, but they did find a fourth tumor that they did remove. Other than that i am okay. My back hurts but that is to be expected as I am trying not to take the pills they gave me every other hour but as prescribed, but they arent working. The worst part of it I must say is that sterile smell the hospital has. I can't stand that smell. GREEN cut up and bruised.

I am well. I am kind of tired so I will update tomorrow, but I wanted to say thanks to all of you for keeping me in your thoughts. GREEN

Green and Chaz's blog will be closed due to Green's Surgery. We'll be back in business soon.

Oh you silly little goose let him come I have nothing to hide, and I am not that bad. I wear white gloves. GREEN

Chaz and I drove back to his home town today. He wanted me to meet his friends. Yes this includes his ex girlfriend. I only agreed with the condition that I could see his grandparents. I love his grandparents and I really wanted to see them, plus we have a card rematch to take care off. Chaz said that he would take me if they were around as they go on trips every other month and this one was the other month. I agreed and we were off. His grandparents weren't home they're in Chicago right now. I was sad but he took me to see his parents that seem to just want to talk to me about the removal of my tumor next week. Then we met with his friends at a restaurant. His friends hate me. It's fine I don't expect anyone to like me. They are his friends not mine you know? So I kind of kept to myself as they talked. But they tried to bait me. I guess Chaz had told them about the music collection and they found it extremely funny to call me a music guru. Whatever I wasn't about to be baited into their trap. Even chaz was getting uncomfortable. I guess Green isn't good enough for their Chaz. So I kindly excuse myself and I leave them. Next to the restaurant there is a luckily enough a Barnes & Noble. I quickly head in there because it was an easy place to hide. I called Chaz and i told him that when he was done with his friends to call me. I found a book I wanted and I found a corner. About five minutes later I am interrupted by someones shadow. It's Chaz's friend Dumb ass I mean Craig, He sits next to me and proceeds to ask me what makes me think that I am good enough for Chaz. I was getting angry at this point. Chaz's friend actually asked me this? So i asked him how long he's been waiting to tell Chaz that he himself likes him? He looked freaked. I told him that whatever he has against me to drop it because Chaz and I are together and until we decide to end our relationship he doesn't have a chance. He couldn't stop looking at me. I told him that I wasn't here because I wanted to make new friends. I was there because Chaz asked me to go. I could care less what any of them thought about me because I don't have to talk to them. He walked away after that. I sat alone for about another ten minutes when Chaz came in looking furious and gave me a huge hug. We left after that but his friend decided that he needed a ride. Please any one of his friends could have given him a ride they were conspiring against me and I wasn't going down without a fight so I asked him how long since he came out? He looked freaked again. "I'm not gay," he said. You see the goal was to make him feel as uncomfortable as they had made me feel. "So then I asked him why he keeps gawking at Chaz?" He looked so awkward that I started to feel bad. So I stopped and we drove in silence until we reached his house. He got out barely saying goodbye. Chaz gave me a look that could kill and we drove in silence once again until he kissed my cheek and made it all better again. GREEN

Thanks guys. Umm were not telling SELENE just yet. She went away for the week with her daughter so we're bracing ourselves for the worst. I already asked her to behave but she never really listens to me so were defintely scared at what she will do to Chaz. Well anywhoo, Chaz is sleeping right now next to me. Which is distracting because he looks so cute when he sleeps. GREEN

I woke up this morning to find my boyfriend sitting next to me Indian style watching me. After I jumped across the room from fear I sat down next to him. I exhaled and I asked him why he did what he did? First he pulls out a check made out to what I had spent. I tore it up and handed it back to him. He frowned and then he pulled out a couple Styrofoam cartons filled with breakfast food. He also pulled out a rose. I had to give it to him because he was trying to get to me but I am not forgetting. We ate in silence and then I got up and took a shower. He tried to get in with me but I said no. He's not out of the dog house by a long shot. I got dressed and I left the room. I could feel his sadness so I came back and I gave him a kiss. I told him to meet me for lunch. At lunch I was still kind of cold with him until he licked mayo from the side of my lip and kissed me. I couldn't stay mad at him after that. I kissed him back and I told him that I love him but the next time he pulls this crap it's over no questions asked. I wont deal with it. So I am finally home. He's been good ever since I came home. He's so happy right now and I feel like an idiot for letting him off that easy but he's my Chaz and I love him Plus I am tired of being angry. GREEN