Tiger

Avril Lavigne "Nobody's Home" Faith Hill "This Kiss"

I look forward to finding out what they are planning. I bet it's going to be devious. As for the line in Shadowgod's signature, I do not see it there. Hmmmm... has someone changed it? As for teasing Joe, you of all people know why tangling with him is not a good idea. Do you remember the petting zoo? Anyway, I hope everyone is having a lot of fun. I hope to be a part of it next year.

Nickelback "Saving Me"

Good grief... that would make him a whoredog.

Well, I was just making sure, because I don't know how long I'll be on the stuff, and when I move to KC...

Yes it does. Anyway, does Wellbutrin have a tendency of making things go limp? I hope not. I don't need that side effect. I'd rather be depressed.

I will, Gary. I just have to wait until next week to see when I can get in to see the doctor. Then, I can start treatment. I'll also have to keep Steph's link in mind. Anyway, I really appreciate everyone's concern and understanding. Anyway, I am still writing so depression has not stopped that. In fact, I have access to the hard drive now. The files are now updated on the laptop.

I'm going to go to a regular physician some time next week and try to get on some medication. Hopefully, I can go with Wellbutrin.

My Chemical Romance "Welcome to the Black Parade"

To me it sounds more like ominous foreshadowing. Someone is going to die! Drew, put the fire under the spit. It looks like it might be time for a goat roast.

Thanks for the concern. I am not always like that. It's just that some moments are worse than others. I don't mean to alarm anyone. Those moments where I feel like the sky is about to collapse upon me are definitely more than I can bear at times.

I have decided that my next project will be done before any of it is published. I still would like to serialize, however. I will admit that I need a better posting rate, and I will work to improve it in the future.

Well, that was a good line CJ, but I happen to like the line where Cody said something suggestive to Saul. Where's a guy like that when you need one? I'd post the quote here, but it is rather suggestive. Things are definitely not well between Julie and Joe. I am really starting to think he deserves better than her. I also happen to think he really has a thing for Cody too. That brings another conundrum though. Is he gay, or is he bi? If so, why in the world does he feel the need to be in the closet in a place like San Francisco?

These days I am feeling profoundly depressed. I just don't know how I can take it much longer. Everything in my life seems to be a complete wreck. I feel as though I am next to nothing, as though every thing I touch just turns to sh*t. I think I really need to get to a doctor soon, or I don't know what will happen. This time seems even worse than the time when I was in my teens, but not quite as bad as the episode during my early 20's. Still, it does not seem to subside at all. Right now I don't even care if I live or die. I know that's a terrible thing to say, but that is where I am. Some might have also noticed that this kind of mood actually does inspire me to write poetry, though it tends to become a lot darker. I even go into a mode where past emotions come back to haunt me, and then I add it to my poetry. This is a good coping mechanism at times; at other times it makes me feel even worse. I just don't think it's enough of a coping mechanism. Something has to change, or I may not be able to take it anymore.

Happy Birthday, Snowy. I hope you have a good one.

Thanks Bob. Part of my problem is that I have a hard time saying how I really feel. I think a lot of that is a lack of trust I have for people in general. Hopefully I can eventually find someone I am comfortable talking to on such a level, but only time will tell.

Duffy "Mercy"

I answered in PM about my story idea, because i don't want too many to know about it until I'm releasing it. That will be a while as I have not started writing the actual story.

The color is just fine the way it is Jamie. If he looked any cuter, people would be jumping him in the streets.

Well, I have been suffering through depression off and on for ten years now. How much of that can I contribute to my sexuality? I don't really know. All I can say is that is does have an impact on my from day to day. Some days I am fine, but other days I just feel like the sky is falling down upon me. At this point, I cannot really afford to go to a psychiatrist, so I really do not have much of a choice other than to suffer until it goes away. Either that, or it will just get to the point where it is too late.

I've made an attempt or two at evil cliffhangers, but I'm sure C James (despite his modesty and supposed agoraphobia), dkstories, and Shadowgod create masterful cliffhangers. I'm sure they can give you some advice.

Hot and sweaty is one thing, but there's also a point where a guy just stinks, especially in the armpits. :wacko:

Wow James! I am so sorry that people would treat you like that. I really do think you need to seek a way out of there so that you can move to a more progressive area. In addition, you probably need to help sorting it all out. I hope you don't take that the wrong way. I say it with nothing but compassion, sympathy and respect.

Now, it will be a while before it's time for me to start the research, but I thought I would go ahead and start this thread. I have conceived an idea for a story that involves investigation of murder. Yes, I sometimes watch CSI, but I need to know the subject in depth in order to write this murder/mystery story. Where should I start when I am ready to start this research? Are there any books or websites that can shed some light?

Blind Heart