Phantom

Mysterious... very mysterious......

A good site that I use (though i'm not sure if anyone else outside of the US can ) is Clicker, it lets you find all the shows you could want on the net http://www.clicker.com/ Eric

I was at the apple store today and was playing around with it... and I was impressed with it, though i'm going to stick around for the rumored Android/ChomeOS tablet that's due out this fall

Hey! I went with a friend lol... I figured I'd blend in

This was me at Foreplay this year.... I went with a friend of mine lol... needless to say I miss dressing like a punk anymore

I was reading an article on the advocate and next season they're introducing a new hard core Christian character that's supposed to be the anti-Kurt. I'll post the link as soon as I find it again heh. PS - found it: Glee Gets Godly [The Advocate]

Oh wow... that sent chills down my spine.... Can;t wait to see what you do James!

My Favorite Summer Time Recipes: Pea Salad: One 10-ounce package of frozen tiny peas (thawed) A cup of diced red peppers 1/2 Brick of cheese (Cut into small cubes) Dressing: 1/2 cup sour cream 1/2 cup salad dressing Mix together the diced red peppers, cubes of cheese and peas into a large bowl. Once mixed throughly, mix the dressing in with the contents in the bowl throughly so that its mixed through together. Serves 8-10 cup servings. And my other favorite recipe for the summer (though you gotta be old enough to enjoy it... ) The Eric Special: 2 shots of Skyy Melon 1 cup of club soda with ice Shake the vodka and ice together to chill if needed and pour into the club soda and enjoy

The All-American Rejects - Gives You Hell http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hamHPC7BuIc Whenever I'm feeling angsty I always listen to this song... god I love it

Happy Birthday!!!

I had a shot of Patron 100% silver tequila... is that okay?

Thanks everyone for the birthday wishes again It means a lot to see them I'll have a picture up tomorrow of my new clothes that I got and my new hat (insert ominous music here). Cheers!

Just so you know i got a new hat today and I'll be taking a new puc tomorrow so ill see how everyone likes it oh and nom nom to a special someone... i'm at the bar so expect a sober and/or hungover message later... Meanwhile ima keep to my tqeuila drinks for the night haha... catch y'all when I'm sober lol

Kurt is one of my favorite characters but during the gaga show he was annoying reallly... But I have to say this episode was a character building one... The whole interaction brween fin, his father and him was what made the episode, IMHO, perfect. I personally can't wait to see what happens next...

Hmmmm.... Zombies..... A James Savik Project.... yet another story to read

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NATER!!!! NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM NOM

Looks interesting... can't wait to see where it goes from here

Saddly I have attempted a few times. Most of the time it was stress and depression that lead to it, another time it was because of my low self esteme. I know it sounds really pathetic but it's what did it for me. The first time I tried was with a bottle of SoCo and two bottles of sleeping pills, I got caught by my best friend at the time and he helped me get some help. The second time I attempted was when I was drivng home and I pulled off on the side of a bridge and stood there ready to jump into the water about 300 feet below. Only thing that stopped me was a call I got to go into work. The third and final time was the most serious. Nothing seemed to be going right for me, I was really depressed and lonely, and it felt like no one was helping me. I left to go to work and stopped at the pharmacy and picked up a refill of Xanax and went to the liquor store and got a bottle of Jack daniels and took the pills. On the train I drank the bottle of Jack and started on my way to work. When I got offthe train I started throwing up and I passed out. I woke up in the hospital and was asked what was going on. I told them and said not to treat me and let me die. Well my parents overrode my wishes and I was treated. I had to drink charcoal and got my stomach pumped. Afterwards I spent two weeks in a crisis unit where I was given intense therapy and met others like me. I have to say it helped and taught me things that I never knew before. This was two years ago and from then on i've helped others with similar thoughts and that's made me feel better about myself. Now I'm glad I failed because I'm doin much better. I'm working at a job I love, with staff that are good to me and residents who've i've known since I was younger and look up to me. I know what I want in life and th goals I've set for myself have helped me. I still have low self esteme issues, anxiety issues and depression issues but I know when to get help if needed and I now have peoe I feel that I can talk to. But the biggest person I can credit for helping me is trebs. He's helped me with things and still helps me to this day when I ask him. There's a few others on GA who've done the same and I know that if it wasn't for them I'd be another statistic. I also think that my issues have made me a stronger person because I use my experience to help others. Eric

I've seen this before and each time I read it... I cry because of how powerful it is...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! You deserve all the good and warm feelings coming your way today Have a drink and don't do anything I wouldn't do

It should be easy Baaahhhahaahahahah bahhhahahahhahaahh bleeetttteeee

I've been drifting a bit when it comes to school lately, mainly because my job right now is changing. I just got a promotion from a Substitute in the residential program at Arc to a full-time staff member in what is soon going to be called Assisted Living. It's going to be nice especially since I already have a good relationship with the individuals in the program. When I went for my interview both me and the manager figured out that I've known most of the individuals since 1993. Yea, 1993, and here's why. My mom used to work for Arc starting in 1991 and she introduced both me and my sister to them at a young age. Her philosophy was that she wanted us to see that people like them were as normal as us, that they just needed help. I credit her really for not only my experience when it comes to working, but showing me that everyone is the same, it just a matter of getting help and etc when needed. When I first substituted at the Assisted Living program, all of the residents recognized me immediately and were thrilled that I was working with them. They opened up to me and came to me before most of the staff there, which is something that both management and the director saw and questioned me about. When I told them about my mom, they immediately knew the name and were thrilled that I was working there. They were even more thrilled when, five months later, I asked about working full time with them. Many of the regular staff that I worked with said that I have a gift with individuals like them. That it takes a strong heart to not get stressed when they can't do something, a trait that is very hard to come by. When I told them during my interview with them that I believe that my job is not to help them and wait on them hand and foot, but to teach them and assist them, they said that is exactly what we're here for. Many misconceptions about developmentally disabled persons is that sometimes they need help with everything. Well, one thing that I learned from working with them is that I can learn a lot from them and they can teach me things that I should know. It's going to be nice working full time (once approved) and finally getting a decent paycheck and health benefits after not having any for so long. On that note, I spent this morning going with my family for portrait shots of the family and individual shots as well. When the photographer took mine he was really thrilled because I was really photogenic. That shocked me really because I hate having my photo taken lol. Usually when I do take one is cus I'm bored or my friends take it. When my parents and sister left he pulled me aside and told me that he could tell I have self-image problems by the way I was carrying myself during the whole shoot, and I told him that yea, it's something I've been working on but it's hard. He said that I'm a fine young man and would probably make anyone happy to be with me. I smiled telling him that it's easier to say then to believe and he said that he used to do the same thing at my age but now he's happy with the way he is. That inspired me a little bit to start talking to my doctor about it. I've gotten a lot under control of late, and I think it's really time I start looking into fixing this flaw with myself. I get complimented all the time, but it's really hard for me to accept it, I always find something wrong with myself, even though It's mostly self-esteem issues that are really affecting me. So today when I'm done writing this and getting some bills paid at home, I'm going to go and get some things done as well, including working on getting my gym membership renewed because it's something I let slide lately. Now an update on my living situation. My parents picked a moving date, well month and year really. They're wanting to move in May 2011, about a month before my dad starts his new job. In the mean time I got a lot to do before I can really live on my own, including getting serious about sticking to my budget and getting a car. I was looking at cars recently and I saw a Scion xA that I was thinking about getting. It's an older one (2005 or 2006 I forget which) and it was pretty decently priced. Also since I'm starting my job soon, I figured I'll be able to afford a car loan and pay off a good chunk of it before the rents move. Finally about me. I'm still single but it's not bothering me as much as it used to. I'm finding that I'm enjoying my time more being with my friends and talking to people more then putting myself out there to date. I still don't think I'm ready after my whole thing with breaking up with Matt, but time will soon tell... meanwhile I'll be gawking at the boys Well off to get things done and enjoy my time off before I go back to work on Tuesday.... laters!

BEST WISHES AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!! Hope you get all that you want and more on your special day

Oh man... yet another story to read I can't wait

Love is an amazing adventure Good Luck PAYA!