Why is it that every f**king time I try to find a nice guy, I fail. But if by some miracle I do find a nice guy instead of the typical assholes, they turn out to be psychotic.
I feel like going into this whole long rant about stupid people and crazy obsessive stalkers and how much it annoys the crap out of me, but I don't know if I'm up to it...
Yes I am.
So I deliberately didn't post anything in my blog about my boyfriend for the reason that Snowy mentioned... it always f**ked it up and ended quickly. But in this case it didn't happen. Here's a little background info:
I met CJ (The boyfriend, not the goat) at the club. To make a long story short, we started dancing and having fun. While dancing Josh comes up out of nowhere to say hi to me. I say hi, hug him, he leaves but stays within 10 feet of us dancing. Whatever. Fastforward to where I leave with my friends. I give him my number, I get his number and we go our seperate ways. I leave the club and get a text from Josh and CJ. CJ wants me to come over to his place, I say no I have to take my friends home. Josh wants to know who CJ is. I pretty much tell him to f**K off.
The next night, I went over to CJs. We watched movies, did whatever and went to sleep. I get a message on myspace from Josh asking for CJs Myspace. I told him I didn't have it. I then added CJ to my friends list. Later that day he gets a message from Josh and they start talking. Annoying, but whatever. I'm making this longer than it has to be, and it really doesn't add any to the story, so I'll try and speed it up more. The next 4 days I have to work. I go to work at 5:00pm, get off work at 5:30am, go to CJs house. On one of those 4 days I get a text from CJ saying he's going to a movie with Josh and some friends. I thought it was bullshit because Josh did that to me all the time. He would say lets go to a movie and we never went, and always ended up staying in. Big surprise, he did the same to CJ. They all hung out at a friends place and had a good time and what not. I didn't ask what all went on because at the time, I really didn't want to know.
Fast forward to my parents coming into town for 4 or 5 days. They stayed at my house so I couldn't exactly sleep at CJs without then asking questions. This makes him mad and he asks me to move in with him. I hesitate because I don't want to and I know it's too fast. I said I would think about it though because I can't say no. He took that as a yes. While my parents were here, I had to work those 4 nights (including Thanksgiving which sucked!) and it all just got worse as it went on. He finally told me he really wanted me to move in and I said I think we're moving to fast, lets slow down. He didn't want to. On Friday night he was pissed off at me for that so he broke up with me. I said fine and started ignoring him. Well it's hard to ignore someone when they are constantly calling and texting you. I thought my phone was going to blow up so I turned it off. I ignored him all the way until Saturday night. I was at work and talking to Jeff (Nifter) and his bright idea was to send him a text telling him I needed time alone. I listened. Stupid mistake. He sent one back saying he would give me space if I would answer his phone call for just a second. I agreed. Another stupid mistake. Me and my not being able to say no got me back together with him. Yay. I finished my shift, went home and slept for a while and my parents left.
Sunday I wake up to a non-stop vibrating phone. 15 missed calls and 23 new texts. CJ was pissed that I wasn't answering my phone. Well SORRY for sleeping. Apparently you aren't allowed to do that in a relationship. f**K him. I go hang out with my friend Michelle. We're on the way to the movies when he won't stop calling me. I finally answer and try to break up with him. He doesn't listen. I try again. Still nothing. I try 16 more times in different ways and then give up. Fine, we're still together. Sunday night a group of friends and I go to the club. Guess who's there. CJ comes up to me and starts saying how much he loves me and misses me and doesn't want to be without me. Fine whatever. I went back to dancing with my friends. I'm outside alone when Josh comes up to talk to me. We talk for a little bit until CJ comes up behind me. I'm assuming he was trying to make Josh jealous because he felt the need to hang all over me and kiss me and what not in front of him while we were trying to talk. Josh gets annoyed, along with me, and he leaves. We go back inside and dance for a while. CJ tells me earlier he made out with Joshs best friend Erik upstairs at the club. I was pissed, but didn't really care too much. We once again go back to dancing. CJ goes off with his friends, I go off with mine. I send Josh a text saying I needed to talk to him. My friends and I are sitting off to the side of the dance floor when Josh and CJ show up at the same time. I tell CJ I'll be right back and drag Josh away to talk to him. I asked Josh about what happened between CJ and Erik and he said he didn't know, he didn't see anything. Then he goes on to lecture me on how psychotic CJ is. As if I hadn't already figured that out when I tried breaking up with him. We're still talking when CJ comes over and interupts us. Josh leaves and CJ is once again glued to my hip. Josh comes back and tells me he's leaving. CJ leaves with his friends a little while after. We stay a few more minutes waiting for Michelle to finish making out with whatever random guy she was with.
We go eat, and I take them home. Then I go to CJs house for the night. I got there around 5 and went to sleep. We wake up, do whatever, and go back to sleep, wake up again, he goes to work and I take a nap. I wake up, write him a breakup letter, grab all my shit, leave the letter on his door, and drove home. I turned my phone off so it wouldn't explode from the calls and texts. I came home and went to sleep. I woke up to Tina and Michelle coming in the door looking for me. Apparently you can't leave your phone off or your friends come looking for you. They say CJ is driving up and down the street looking for my car. He doesn't know where I live thank god. So we manage to dodge his car and we go to Tina's to decorate her house for Christmas. Actually, they decorated while I read a book. I turned my phone on and saw a massive amount of texts and calls. I ignored most of them. Tina went to work and Michelle and I went to a movie. CJ then started to harass Michelle and tried to get her to talk to me and whatnot.
While I've been writing this I've gotten 4 calls from him. I realize that a lot of that doesn't make sense, and most of it was unnecessary, but it feels better to get it all out.
And I swear if the next guy I find is as much of a stalker as Zac and CJ were, then I'm turning straight.
Joe
(Who just wants to take a nap in peace!)
