JamesSavik

I hate boy bands. It's not they they aren't cute and all- their music is usually sugary sweet crap. Listen to some Bay City Rollers, Leif Garrett's band from back in the day and one of the first "formula" boy bands- and see if it doesn't make you want to hurl... despite an obviously talented shirtless Leif. Boy Bands target market are 10-14 year old girls and it sounds like drivel to more mature ears.

In a second. It sucks to be gay. We are stalked by our very own special, incurable virus that can kill you all sorts of agonizing ways. We face all kind of discrimination from day 1, many of us are abused horribly in the guise of loving dicipline to motivate us to change. Not to mention it's so hard finding a mate that's not promiscious, mentally scarred and/or screwed up. In my experience the pain of being gay far outweights any joy that goes with it. This is of course a generational thing. Many kids (thirty and under) have grown up in very different conditions in which they were accepted for who they are. Their answer will be quite different.

Thanksgiving to New Years sucks. It's the time of year for drooling sentimentality that makes me want to slap the shit out of low brow yokels humming Jingle-bells. I want to murder those bell ringing f**kers at the mall and set them on fire. Why do I hate the holidays? It's the time of year when your're supposed to get together with old friends. Have a drink or ten, party, make a jackass of yourself- all the stuff I used to be so good at and enjoyed immensly. What if all your old friends are dead? What if you watched them all die one by one in the eighties and early ninties? I'm at a weird age for a gay man in my part of the country. I'm sorta like the last of the Mohicans. All the other gay men, or at least the ones with the guts to be out, my age are either long gone or long dead. That'll f**K you up. You start wondering why you survived when so many others died. How did I get lucky? Or are the lucky ones already gone? What did I do for Christmas? I looked up the squares of my old friends on the AIDS quilt. I probably would have cried but I think my pain receptors are burned out. I no longer have to do drugs to avoid feeling anything.

I am concentrated evil. It is more of a matter of finding an editor that can tolerate me.

I've done one- Collision. Created the writers guidelines, characters and set up. Recruited many of the authors. Won't do another one. Creative people are arseholes... myself included. Espically me.

I saw something like LabView for Dummies at Barnes & igNoble over the weekend. My understanding is that LabView is a language well suited for data manipulation/reduction and stats. If I had to learn it, I'd get the Dummies book first. It'll be cheaper than the higher powered books on the market and it will offer a good into. If you need more, goodness knows there is plenty out there.

It'll get better.. Oh really? How is that supposed to happen? When you've seen dream after dream go up in smoke. Everything you care about is gone. Everyone you care about is dead. How is it f-ing supposed to get any better. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem... A temporary problem? I've had to fight every f-ing day of my whole life for the right to exist. How is that a temporary problem. You've got so much to live for.. You can f-ing have it. Life is sacred... That's a joke. There are places on the planet that will have you shot and charge your family for the bullet. America is more subtle about destroying life but its the same game. You hurt your loved ones... You mean the parasites that suck the life out of you? In the end what is there left to hang onto? Love? Hope? Those things are dust and ashes. What do you hold onto in the dark of a sleepless night when everything is gone? Hate and Rage. The rage for revenge. The hope of causing pain and misery to your mortal enemies. The chance to live to piss on their graves. The possibility that through guile and treachery one day you'll get to see the look in their eyes when you put the blade between their ribs and twist it. That's enough for now.

Why fight it. I'm evil. I'm a bastard. Your suffering makes me laugh. I stomp the brains out of puppies and kittens. I push old ladies into traffic. I think starvation in Eithopia is a hoot because there is no food there and the f-ing idiots hang around waiting for it to show up. I like wars because they test my latest technologies and the lame f-kers don' survive. I say nuke the f-ing whales. What did they ever do for anybody? I eat beef and punch vegatarians because they are wide gaping pussies. I slap preists because they molest little kids. I slap nuns because... they just bother me. I like cold steel because it cuts the worthless and weak in half. I like smart bombs because nothing is more useless than an explosion that doesn't kill people or break things. I like cluster bombs because they are real crowd pleasers. I like the classics: although its out of fashion, we really should bring back napalm because it sticks to kids. I like hard radiation because those who aren't used to it puke like little girls on a rowboat in a hurricane. I like mass executions cuz the tailgate parties are the bomb. I like bio-warfare agents because they kill mass numbers and leave their wealth in tact. I like Joe McCarthy because shaking down rich hollywood sh*theads never gets old. I like Israel because nobody kills ragheads better and makes it look easier. I like South America because if they hate somebody down there, they just shoot them in the f-ing head and call it a day. I like Russia because they kill their dissidents or send them to Siberia instead of giving them talk shows. I like France because they are some of the most ruthless f_ckers that have ever walked the planet and everybody thinks that they are civilized. I like Germany because everybody thinks they are green passificists and they have the most lethal tank on the planet. I like the British because they know how to kill people and break things, stop for tea and then give 'em some more. I like Sam Kinison because he's the funniest guy in hell. Joe Stalin and Adolph Hitler were pansies compared to me. I want to destroy your world, ruin your economy, shatter your dreams and make YOU cry. I'm a republican bastard who is going to find a way to get rich, not pay President Osama's taxes and shit on your politically correct world.

No but the reek of bullshit is too much to bear.

Comment deleted. It's my blog. If your going to post bullshit in it, it will be deleted.

Bond- There is an old saying: there are no atheists in foxholes. For those who are simplistic enough to be lieve that all the right has going for it is anti-abortion, anti-gay racists, just keep on thinking that. Some of the most anti-gay racists are conservative democrats from the South. The tame leftist media isn't going to show them to you because they aren't eveil republicans. The influence of those groups is diminishing. The socially liberal/moderate libertarians are on the rise. There will be a new republican party and the evangellicals aren't invited. JS

Most of you were children when Clinton ran the country with trial balloons and focus groups. You probably remember Bill Clinton as a guy who played the sax on MTV, liked to get hummers from interns, got in trouble for getting spoo on a blue dress and was married to that horrible b*tch senator from New York. The same one who was just thrown under the democratic primary bus by the failed President Elect Barry O'bumble. You are probably too young to remember how Clinton betrayed gay voters not once but twice. Clinton got a lot of support from the gay community and he had to give us something but what would it be. It couldn't be anything of substance. Gay issues were too unpopular and would come back to bite him. It was simply too politically loaded to allow gays to serve openly in the military so Clinton did the most nothing that he could get away with: that's how we got Don't Ask and Don't Tell. He did this in the early weeks of of his first term so that it would give voters plenty of time to forget about it. It has really not changed the culture of the military because they still ask and if you don't tell the truth they call it perjury, hang a felony on your ass and a dishonorable discharge. Clinton's second betrayal of his gay supporters was signing the DOMA (Defense of Marriage Act) which makes passing gay marriage/civil unions, nearly impossible, even more difficult. What you don't remember is how democrats operate when they are in power. Screw what they said that they were going to do- everybody knows that democrats lie to get elected and the media lets them get away with a wink and a nod. Democrats do what is popular. Whenever a democratic president is about to make a decision, the staff conducts focus groups and leaks various versions of the plan to the media called trial balloons. The decision is based on not what is right or best for the country, not on the basis of core beliefs or ideology but what is popular. Yes- that's right. Democrats are constantly running for office. They will always do what is popular because to democrats what is good for the country is for democrats to stay in power. You will never see a democrat take a tough stand on an unpopular issue. Democrats are political yes men: they will always tell you what you want to hear. They will tell you that they will lower taxes. They will tell their special interest group voting blocks that they are going to get whatever it is that they want. THEY WILL ONLY DELIVER ON THESE PROMISES IF IT IS POPULAR, PRINCIPLE BE DAMNED. That is why we will be betrayed by the new, failed Obama Presidency. Gay Rights issues are never popular. Here is how it is going to play out: we will be told that they (congress & the administration) are too busy with the economy to get to gay rights. It'll be put off and put off. Then we'll be told that the administration will make it a priority in the second term. If indeed he wins a second term, the democratic party will put pressure on him to leave it alone because we'll be facing a close election in 2016 and gay rights is never popular. We might get another little symbolic nothing like don't ask, don't tell but you can forget about all of those campaign promises. Ain't gonna happen. Not now. Not next term. Not as long as democrats are chasing popularity and their next election.

I'm not so sure about that. If you dare suggest that there are gay rights issues OTHER than gay marriage or that you vote for something other than the democratic party, the BIG GAY ORTHODOXY calls you an Uncle Tom.

My favorite gay thing is that since I've had to be different and swim upstream against a generally hostile society, I am comfortable with having my own mind and ideals. I don't need validation or acceptance. I am comfortable in my own skin. If I run into opposition, I have the self-assurance to fight go around or tell the opposition to go f**k themselves.

OK- you can hate me. I say let 'em starve. That's right, let them starve. It's the KINDEST thing to do. After the do-gooders drop some off some food and move on, they will again be at starvations door. What then? Over the years humanitarian organizations have given MANY BILLIONS of dollars worth of food and other kinds of aid to countries in the developing world. In some places food aid has lead to overpopulation in regions that can not support that number of people. In others, the aid is stolen and given to the military and supporters of the government. Another large chunk has to be given as bribes to allow access to the regions where people need it. Typically- Aid organizations are very lucky if half to a third of the food aid they provide gets to where it is needed. By giving food and other sorts of aid to these countries, you are probably inadvertently supporting the governments that use starvation as a tool to stay in power.

I plan to give Obama the EXACT SAME CONSIDERATION that the Left gave Bush. _______________________________________________ OBAMA IS EVIL! So is anyone he may appoint! OBAMA is a f-ing liar [get used to this one lefties, you're going to be hearing this one a lot] I will discuss the FAILED OBAMA PRESIDENCY in an upcoming blog. I'll give Barak the f-ing little commie b*tch boy in a $2000 suit a few weeks to find a f-ing helmet.

Did anyone actually read what I wrote or did they simply react to the mention of Bush. Here's the Cliff's notes version: When Bush is gone we'll have to find another national scapegoat for everything that goes wrong because Obama will not be held to the same standard.

I am suggesting that your most "sacred held beliefs" are media and pop culture inspired drivel. Slap! Snap out of it. What you have bought into wholeheartedly is collectivism. My generation bleed to stop it and you punks elected it. If you think the economy is bad now, what till you get a load of triple digit inflation and the taxes that are coming despite Obama's promises to the contrary. All I ask is that you hold Obama to the same standard that you held Bush. When his lies start to surface, call him a liar with the same piss and vinigar that you called Bush. As for expecting more, Life sucks, wear a f-ing helmet.

Yep. That's right. You are going to miss him. Fat chance. You will miss him. Just give it time. I sincerely doubt it but you are welcome to try to defend King George. Oh no- I'm not going to try to defend him. In many ways his generally incoherent style of public speaking made him one of the most ineffective presidents in living memory because he simply failed to explain his policies. Don't you mean the worst in history? No. I'm older than most of you and remember Jimmy Carter. I'm better versed in history than most of you too and I remember some real losers that have occupied the White House like Grant, Coolidge, Buchanan and Andrew Johnson. I said ineffective. Not worst. Bush's problem with communication made him an easy target. He tried to speak plainly but this backfired on him terribly. His style of speaking and his propensity to verbally stumble were easily misunderstood, taken out of context and generally made the man look like an idiot. For instance- his use of with us or against us in regard to the War on Terror was a particularly bad choice of words making some friendly countries feel like they had to take sides and lead directly to poor relations with traditional allies. Well he was an idiot. Bush got his undergraduate degree at Yale, his law degree at UT and his MBA at Harvard. He is no idiot. Over and over his political rivals have failed to take him seriously and he defeated a string of democratic notables- Ann Richards, Al Gore and John Kerry. OK genius. Why are we going to miss him? First- Bush's actions were always a product of his beliefs and/or ideology. He did not fly "trial balloons" or consult focus groups and see which way the wind was blowing. He made the decision, popular or unpopular, took the heat for it and did not make excuses. Second- For years democrats have blamed everything on Bush from bad weather to bad luck. His style of refusing to get into bare-knuckle partisan brawls and simply refusing to acknowledge charges that he considered ridiculous made it look like the man was hiding from his critics. Now we are about to have an administration which will be held accountable for nothing. Third- What Bush has done in Iraq, Afghanistan and the rest of the world is to protect America's interests. Period. If you think the economy is screwed-up now, consider carefully what would have happened if Bush had failed to answer the challenge of Al Qaeda. Had Hussien stayed in power, how long would it have taken for him to cause even more trouble in the Gulf? Of course the Chinese, Russians and French didn't like it. They were getting rich and America was getting screwed. Bush's actions in Iraq have reset the table and if we play our cards right, we'll be sitting at the head of that table if the new administration does not squander the opportunity. But he lied... Oh horsesh*t. By 2003 when we started Operation Kick Saddam's Ass II, Saddam had pissed off half the world and was bribing the other half. So many people wanted him dead that he never slept in the same place twice. The Kuwaiti's had a price on his head. The Iranians had a price on his head. That sort of thing happens when you start two wars of aggression and kill a million people. Did Bush lie about weapons of mass destruction? He had people telling him everything from Saddam was rearming to Saddam was becoming a pussycat. He had to use his best judgment. Judging from Saddam's past history and the way Iraq was playing pussyfoot with inspectors- the smart money was on there being fire behind all the smoke. OK. But he fu-bared the economy... As a republican and a believer in free markets, Bush believed that the way to allow the economy to grow was to get out of its way and let it grow. The problems in the economy came from governmental meddling in the lending markets which occurred in a prior administration and high level cooperate malfeasance. Could regulation have avoided these problems? Probably not and you can bet that regulations would cause more problems than it would solve. If he was so good why does everybody hate him? He wasn't that good. He was unapologetic plain vanilla pro American moderate republican who didn't like partisan bickering and put his foot in his mouth at the worst possible moment. Not everyone hates him. OK: if he was so great, why did things seem to suck while he was in office? Bush's presidency was very much a product of the times. No President has ever had to cope with the complexity of the world situation that George W. Bush stepped into when he was sworn in Feb. 2001. Twenty years after, the world is a very chaotic place in the wake of the Cold War. Allies and alliances are changing out of national and economic interests, the rise of the European Union, China and even India's emergence as a regional power, petro-politics, terrorism, rouge states like Iraq, Iran, North Korea: you have to consider it a success to keep the whole thing from exploding- or at least controlling most of the explosions that did occur. The majority of Bush's Presidency is mired in the Middle East because the problems festering there had been ignored for far too long. You can count on chaos because that's the world that we live in. What do you mean we're going to miss him? For years it has been something of a national excuse to blame Bush for whatever goes wrong. Now- for better or worse, the Presidency, house and the senate are solidly in the hands of the democrats. The buck stops there. It is in their hands- now lets see them take responsibility for it and defend the national interests of the country without surrender. Furthermore- since we can no longer blame Bush and the media won't allow you to blame Obama, you'll just have to blame yourself for whatever goes wrong in your life.

think metaphores for the movie like "Rear Window" for the guy with the telescope looking out a window or Alien for the alien in the belltower.

Why do writers write? Why do painters paint or sculpters sculpt? I believe that there is a drive in some prople to create. If they don't write, they simply use another media. It does come from the same place whether its done on paper with words, on canvas with oils or in carved marble. Others have a message or want to be understood. Or they read a paperback at $5.75 + tax that is such drivel that they think I couldn't do much worse and this clown got paid..

BTW Dom: did you ever find a new home for the tall pretty boyfriend with a cat?

Hey Dom- Think canned. It's a lot less trouble and most people are used to them.

In cases where there needs to be a serious legal definition, you'll see a lot of ANDs, ORs, BUTS and language like TO INCLUDE, EXCEPTIONS and EXEMPTIONS. IMHO the defining characteristics are chromosones which do not lie. XXY's and other anamolies are different.