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Our Bar - 1. Chapter 1 Fly Me to the Moon

This started out as a poem, but I felt the need to tell a story.

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Fly Me to the Moon.

 

 

I watch the cold drips race down the outside of the glass before I pick it up for another frothy sip. It fits and cools my hand in a familiar way. I am perched on a high steel-backed stool at a small round table, halfway down the long wall of the bar. One foot is on the ground while the other is resting on the front rung. I recognize it is a provocative pose, with my groin thrust forward, but it is comfortable, and there is none but the bartender to see it. This is how I would sit and wait for you to finish up with a client or a meeting.

Looking through expansive plate glass at the people walking along Church Street, I see the long streaks made by a squeegee in the hands of an amateur, as afternoon sun highlights their presence. Despite those, it is a clean place, welcoming, and lit with soft and sporadic down-lights. For many, it is a second home. For us, it was our bar.

I envision you arriving at the large glass door, in late sunlight on a summer eve, your suit immaculate and your white shirt looking as if straight from the dry cleaner despite you having put in a twelve hour day. You enter and greet the bartender, and anyone else in your path, but your eyes are pointed in my direction. I know the exact moment your vision adjusts to the dim interior. It is when your face lights up and your smile touches my soul.

I signal with a raised finger to Mark, but I don’t look at him, for I only have eyes for you. I know he’s pouring your favorite lager… you always have a glass of draft before switching to either a bottled brand, or a wine to be determined later. My guess would be Corona on this warm day.

Your smile stays in place, but your eyes travel downward, and I see the familiar appreciation. Yes, this show is for you… only you. I do the same as you move toward me, smitten with the body encased in sublime, professional fashion. I will never tire of the assault you launch on all my senses. I know your body better than I know my own—I know the heat that resides below that Louis Vuitton belt, the strength of the legs bringing you closer, and the texture of the hair beneath your shirt.

Time stops when we kiss, and we don’t even notice Mark’s arrival or departure. He thinks we’re cute… adorable he once said. He’s not your typical bartender, and he roots for us.

You pull the empty stool as close as possible—you always do—before you perch in the way that matches mine, and we are both content with the contact of our legs. Our night has begun, and no matter what direction it takes, it will be perfect, because it will be about us.

You astonish me each time we talk. At first, we compete to learn about the other’s day, but soon settle into give and take. Our conversation is always easy, and with courtroom ease, you learn things about my day that I had already forgotten. We are in sync. Kisses are punctuation for us, and with each one, we know it won’t be long until the next. I love when your fingers play with the hairs on my wrist, and I am compelled to trace your blue-black jawline every so often. It thrills me with how you lean into my hand each time.

At first, we only see each other, acknowledging but not engaging with patrons who file in and stroll by. This is our time… we’ve endured the hours or days apart, and this is our reward, and friends know and respect our need. This is something I’ve never experienced with anyone else, at least not to this magnitude.

When you speak, I hear every word, feel every nuance, and learn you as I drink my fill. As always, I am fascinated by your Adam’s apple as it bobs up and down, and wait patiently for the moment you doff your coat, loosen your tie, and undo the top button of your shirt. You know the effect it has… I’ve told you, and you make the action sensual with no apparent effort.

You only ever undo the one button, never more than that. You would if I asked you to, but I don’t. The dark tuft that appears at your throat is enough. I know what that spot smells like… tastes like… feels like, and leads to—and I know the next buttons will be undone by me… later.

I tell you everything. When you hear my fears, you listen, and you don’t ever make light, even when they involve you. You understand my quandary, and it is more proof, despite the difference in years, we are in sync. If I was younger, I might call us soulmates.

As the day darkens and night awakes, we become more social. In this too, you astonish me. You are a people person, like me, and never once do you try to make me feel bad for it. No jealousy when someone touches me—you have taken the time to truly know me and the person I am, and trust me to rebuff in my own way, as I do you.

We begin to move around, drifting from table to table, drinks in hand, in the now busy bar. Sometimes we’re at opposite ends, but still we are connected. We last a handful of minutes at most before we check in with each other, by look or touch. We are in love, and everyone in this place is aware. Most know you, and they love you too. I am new here, but have quickly become a fixture, and a part of the family.

I never expected to find you at this stage of my life, but I am thankful for it. It is a gift that is immeasurable, and I am happy. So are you, and we live gloriously in and between the moments. Compatibility has taken on new meaning.

Soon, Reggie the piano man arrives, and against all odds, you get me to sing, albeit weakly while your voice rings out with clarity. Yes, you are astonishing. I watch you as you sit beside the musician and sing the whole of “Fly Me to the Moon” directly to me. Who does that? You, my love, and like everything you do, you do it well.

The glass washer starts up with a roar before the motor quietens, and the sound releases me from the past. Sighing, I glance over. I don’t know this bartender, and wonder if Mark still works here. More patrons have arrived, but none I recognize.

It’s been quite a while since I’ve been in here, and things have changed. The bar has changed, and so have we. It’s time to go. My glass is empty, but my heart is full. I still love you. I always will, and I have no regrets, but this is no longer our bar, and I can’t be here when the piano comes alive. The music wouldn’t be the same if I can’t share it with you. Just know that you did fly me to the moon, and I will forever remember how we played among the stars….

I take one last look around, but stay in the present. A solitary man is staring, and he makes his interest clear rather blatantly. Does he see his like? My loneliness? I contemplate the interest, and nod to him, but when I get off my stool, I head for the door. Sorry, guy, it’s nothing personal, but this used to be our bar, and I don’t want to violate the memories in any way.

I begin to hum our song as I walk down the street. I was a fortunate man… I got to see what spring was like on Jupiter and Mars….

 

  

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Thanks for reading. Yeah, this one is kind of personal. Let me know what you think if you are so moved. Cheers... Gary....
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3 hours ago, Drew Espinosa said:

Sad and beautiful. I love it, Handsome! :glomp:

Thanks, Drew! I haven't been writing nearly as much as I would like, because of the effort it takes to focus and type, so it means a lot to have people connect with and like this little piece. It makes me happy. :)  I appreciate you letting me know what you thought, little buddy. :hug: 

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2 minutes ago, dughlas said:

My heart sighs with my brother's for I suspect I know the inspiration behind this lovely tribute to a time and a place. My heart sings as I remember a certain brother's joy at finding love. My heart smiles in contentment that my brother knows peace in his heart. Namasté my brother may all be well with you.

I suspect you do, my brother. I think we both know love is to be cherished, not only while we have it, but after as well. It's not rare that relationships end... it's rare that they last, but love... love can last forever. Thanks, dugh... my smile, I suspect, matches yours. :hug: 

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Such poignancy in so short a piece of art!  Not only for the loss of a treasured one, but also of the places which were such integral parts of those sacred moments.  A true reminder that you can never go back, except in your own heart and mind where those tings are eternal.

You crafted all this without giving us the reason for the current state of solitariness--but I lean toward the view that the other was taken away by outside events rather than troubles in the relationship itself.  No trace of bitternesss or rancor that might indicate an end to the relationship.

This might be a short work, but it ranks up there among the best things on site my dear.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

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On 6/8/2019 at 12:21 PM, ColumbusGuy said:

Such poignancy in so short a piece of art!  Not only for the loss of a treasured one, but also of the places which were such integral parts of those sacred moments.  A true reminder that you can never go back, except in your own heart and mind where those tings are eternal.

You crafted all this without giving us the reason for the current state of solitariness--but I lean toward the view that the other was taken away by outside events rather than troubles in the relationship itself.  No trace of bitternesss or rancor that might indicate an end to the relationship.

This might be a short work, but it ranks up there among the best things on site my dear.
xoxoxoxoxoxoxoxoxo

thank you, cg! there is beauty to be found in some personal pain, and while it is natural to want to cut that pain off, we deserve to remember the beauty. reaching the point we can can give us back something we think lost. 

you are right in this case. their relationship wasn't the issue at all... it was about those other influences you speak of, dear friend. your words are so kind and uplifting... i'm having trouble typing but i wanted to respond to this now. xoxoxo no eloquence this time... just deep appreciation.

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16 minutes ago, Onim said:

Oh...Gary the gifted one...you astound us again with your beautiful writing!!:worship: Some how, you always manage to make us think, feel, smile, cry, when you write...:wub:  This was poignantly BEAUTIFUL...:heart: :thankyou:

Oh my goodness, Onim. What you just said is food for my soul, and I know that may sound corny to some, but it's really true. Writing, and I can only speak for myself, needs for me to lay myself bare at times, and a comment like this recharges me. It lets me know the hard work, discipline, and the honesty, are all worth it. I don't do this for money or fame... I just want to know I reach people, that what I create is worthwhile, so I humbly thank you for giving me that.  I am filled to the brim, and I thank you.  Cheers, my friend... Gary.... :hug: 

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1 hour ago, Mym8te said:

Captivating narrative. I like how there are so many thoughts and memories without anything really being explicitly said. Just knowing there is a history, a magic, a sparkle, such joy. Its intoxicating.

Hope that shoulder is a little better today.🍺

I only wanted this to be a glimpse, and in fact, it was going to be a poem at first. It couldn't, however, be contained in verse, so I chose this way. I'm pleased you were captivated, Mym8te. To find it intoxicating means a lot. I was quite surprised at the reaction to this little piece, and am grateful. Thanks for reading, and for the kind words, my friend. You have made yet another day brighter. :)  

Actually, my shoulder is better today. I managed to write four hundred words, and my exercises were less painful just now. :D  

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What a poignant vignette!  Like @ColumbusGuy, I prefer to believe that the relationship did not end because of a breakup.  I envisioned the death of the partner, and this was a visit to "our bar" in memoriam.  For me, the pain of a breakup would have made a fond return to "our bar" impossible.  I'd have either avoided the place entirely or taken it over as mine, doing my best to erase any association with my ex.  (I can be a real S.O.B., sometimes.)

One really sweet touch was the description of the hair showing at the top of the shirt---wicked sexy, that.  I love men with hair on their chests, and I abhor the current fashion of grown men wanting to look like prepubescent boys.  I can enjoy a naturally smooth man, but shaved?  No way!  If you've got it, I want to see it! 😄

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58 minutes ago, BigBen said:

What a poignant vignette!  Like @ColumbusGuy, I prefer to believe that the relationship did not end because of a breakup.  I envisioned the death of the partner, and this was a visit to "our bar" in memoriam.  For me, the pain of a breakup would have made a fond return to "our bar" impossible.  I'd have either avoided the place entirely or taken it over as mine, doing my best to erase any association with my ex.  (I can be a real S.O.B., sometimes.)

One really sweet touch was the description of the hair showing at the top of the shirt---wicked sexy, that.  I love men with hair on their chests, and I abhor the current fashion of grown men wanting to look like prepubescent boys.  I can enjoy a naturally smooth man, but shaved?  No way!  If you've got it, I want to see it! 😄

Thanks, Ben! Seeing that you left a comment, I went back and read this again. :)  I'll let you believe what you want, but I can tell you there was no issue with the relationship itself, Absolutely none. 

Still, things changed, and the narrator finally worked up the nerve to revisit the bar and the memories. I'm so pleased you found it poignant. The narrator is fine... it took some time, but he can remember without feeling sad. 

I agree about hair, and the current fashion to shave most everything. :no:  Thanks for reading this and leaving such a wonderful comment, buddy. This is a personal favorite, and you just made my day. :hug: 

 

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