Beneath the Mask - 12. Chapter 12

(ALEJANDRO’S POINT OF VIEW)

As I walked into my room, I tried to be as quiet as possible in so I won’t wake up Matt. Without turning on the lights, I made it to my bed. I kicked off my shoes and didn't even bother the change out of my Levi's. Before leaving my moms house, I changed out of my suit back into the clothes I arrived in.

I tried to go to sleep, but no matter what I did. All I did was toss and turn. I finally sat back up and just sat on the edge of my bed. At first, I just stared out into the darkness of the room. Thinking of so many different things that I couldn't even get my mind to stop swirling around from topic to topic!

My mind stopped all of a sudden as if I just slammed on the brakes. I can’t get my father off my mind. I can’t remember anything good about my father, because there was nothing that we did together good while he was alive that was good. Still, my mind would not stop thinking of my father.

I can’t believe the feeling I am getting right now. I am actually starting to miss my father. In fact I am starting to feel sad over the loss. At first it was just a couple teardrops falling out of my eyes, and then it turned to streams of nonstop crying.

So I don’t wake up Matt, I laid down with my face against the pillow in order to muffle my crying as best as I could. Softly I started to hit the mattress with my fists. Trying to force myself to stop this outburst of emotions for my father! He has never done anything to deserve this. In fact he has done the opposite to me.

I don't know when Matt got up from his bed or how long he has been awake, but he crawled into my bed. He pressed his chest against my back, wrapping his arms around my chest. The moment, I started feeling Matt's heart beat against my back, I just broke down completely and started crying out loud.

“Just let it out Alex, let it all out. I am here for you, no matter what is going on in your life or mine. When you are hurting, so am I.”

Matt didn't say another word nor did I respond to him. He just kept his hands wrapped around me, rocking me to sleep. Sometime later I actually did finally fall to sleep. Although it was a restless sleep occupied with dreams of my father and me, it was sleep nonetheless. I didn't wake up again until Matt shook me awake for breakfast.

I slowly crawled out of my bed, putting my feet down on the ice cold floor and rubbing my eyes to wake up. Ever since I arrived here, I enjoy the first sight I see every morning, which is Matt’s smiling face looking down at me.

I got to my feet wrapped my arms around him. As always he is checking in making sure he is ready for the day looking in the mirror when I finally crawl out of bed. I started kissing Matt down his neck several times.

“Come on Alex, you need to get ready for breakfast. You know they will not serve us if we show up late and I am very hungry this morning for some reason.”

“I can get rid of that hunger of yours with a milk shake if you would like?” I started rubbing Matt's crotch as I spoke. Matt instantly got hard as I rubbed his crotch.

Matt smiled back at me through the mirror on the door. I started to nibble on his ear lobe as I continued to rub his crotch through his jeans. As Matt started to breathe harder I started kissing him again on his neck and then I walked to my closet.

As I was looking for clothes to wear for the day, I couldn't help but look back at Matt. Boy does he look steaming mad at me for what I just did. After throwing on another pair of Levi's and my T-shirt, I walked back over to Matt and hugged him.

“You know Matt I love you with every bit of my heart don't you? I would never do anything to ever to hurt you in any way. Besides my mom and my two younger brothers, you are the greatest thing that's happened to me in a very, very long time. The day I saw you and met you is the greatest day of my life.”

Looking through the mirror I saw tears starting to roll down Matt's face. I turned him around and pushed his back against the wall. With one hand, I started to wipe the tears from Matt's face. With the other hand, I moved his head towards me and started to kiss his forehead.

Just then, our door opened without knock. I immediately walked as fast I could away from Matt, but it was too late we just got caught. I looked over to see Steve and Robert right behind him looking at us.

“Excuse us! We are very sorry for just walking in.” Steve said with a stutter as he started to push Robert out the door. Just as fast they walked in, they walked out shut the door behind them.

I started pacing back and forth in the room saying “fuck” out loud over and over again, as I pace from one side of the room to the other. Being caught by Carlos is one thing, but by these two is another story.

At least with Carlos I could have ordered him not to say word. I would never know, because he has accepted me. Now with Robert and Steve finding out about me and Matt being more than friends, there is nothing I can do to stop those two from spreading the news.

Particularly Robert because of the crap he went through in County jail by the hands of gang members in my gang. I walked over to the wall that separated my room and Carlos and I started pounding on it in order to get Carlos over to my room.

Not even a minute passed when Carlos walked in with a confused look on his face. “What's up man that you need to be banging on the wall for my attention?”

I quickly walked up and shut the door behind Carlos and started to tell him on what just happened. I told him what I and Matt were doing when Robert and Steve walked in. What my main concern is what they saw could it be read as more than a friends, one consoling the other after a loss in the family.

Carlos looked at me over to Alex it back at me with a very concerned look on his face. “Look Alex I am going to be very truthful with you on this so there is no misunderstanding on my thoughts. If Matt was wiping the tears off of your face. Yes, it could be written off to being what you said, but it wasn't that way. There lies your problem with this story and it will not float.

I warned you over and over again to be careful about what you guys do in this room. You can never know when a guard will walk in or another inmate. Today you got caught by two other inmates that will more then likely spread the news around. They could be telling people as we speak right now.”

I just looked at Carlos knowing what he's saying is true. I can’t ignore this yet I can’t just walk up to them and confront them about it. Basically, I don’t know what they are thinking about what they just saw. If they are thinking what I am hoping they are and I go and confront them that would more than likely make them look deeper into the situation.

For now, we need to head out and get breakfast. I will try to read them at the table as we eat to see where we stand. I want to make sure before I speak on this subject where they stand. Not on the gay issue, but what they saw in the room. Either they think we were consoling each other or, we are actually a couple.

We walked out the door of our room and headed down to the cafeteria for breakfast. After grabbing our food we headed to the table where we normally sit. Carlos, Matt and I took our normal seats and jumped into the conversation that and already started.

I pride myself on able to read people but with Steve and Robert I couldn't get a reading from their faces. Neither of them looked up even once from their tray on the table. Once the bell rang for us to head to first period, I am as clueless now as I was when I first walked in here for breakfast.

I notice, as I start making my way to put my tray away that Steve is trying to walk up to me. Carlos moves out of the way in order to let Steve through. As I started to throw the trash in the garbage cans Steve leaned in and whispered to me.

“Alex, Robert and I would like to speak with you and Matt after school today in private. I want you to understand you have nothing to worry about either from Robert or me.”

I looked squarely into Steve's face and nodded my head up and down to acknowledge his request. “We will meet in my room right after school today.” I said as we walked out of the cafeteria heading to class.

I told Matt about what Steve told me in the cafeteria as we took our seats in class. Matt put a half smile on his face, trying his best to disguise the worried look. I am as worried as Matt is right now. No question about that. Right now there is nothing we can do about it until after school.

The minute the tardy bell rang, we started taking our six-week exam. I missed the first part of the exam yesterday due to me being at the funeral. My teacher explained to me that she will give me a chance to make up that exam later this week.

I surprised myself that I finished my exam before anyone else. I looked up at the clock to see what time it is and realized I still have another hour of class. I got up and walked up to my teacher to hand her the test. I asked her if I could take the test I missed yesterday because I had so much time left over.

After handing me the test from yesterday, I walked back to my desk and immediately started to take it. I answered the very last question right when the bell rang for lunch. Either I learned more in school than I realized or these tests are way too easy. Whatever the reason is, I feel pretty damn good of myself today! I think I have a wry grin on my face stemming from feeling good about myself in a way that I never have before. I like this new feeling.

I grab my books and headed out the door to the cafeteria. Matt actually has to run to catch up with me. We entered the cafeteria, grabbed our trays of food and headed over to the table to begin to eat. Unlike this morning, Robert and Steve talk more than anyone else at the table. I am still trying to figure these two out and I just can’t. I’m missing something.

Instead of going outside as we normally do. Since it is too cold for us here in El Paso, Texas at this time of the year, we decided to head over to the dayroom for the rest of the lunch break either front of the TV or playing pool.

For some awkward reason, I can’t keep my eyes off of Matt today. Although he is a gorgeous looking guy and always dresses the same, there is something about him today that is getting me all worked up inside. At one point I had to stop myself from walking over to Matt and slapping him on his butt!

The rest today at school was more tests. Just like in the morning, I finished up before the others did and took the test I missed yesterday. Once again, I can’t figure out how or why I am finishing up my tests this quickly. I should stop stressing about it and just go with the flow.

Once the bell rang, Matt and I walked over to our mailboxes see if there is any mail in there for us to pick up. As always mine is empty. But Matt's is full of letters from his family and friends. Sometimes, Matt actually lets me read his letters if they're not too personal. Sometimes I wonder if some of letters he doesn't let me read are from a boyfriend or an ex-boyfriend that he doesn't want me to know about.

As we walked towards our room, Steve and Robert are already waiting for us at our door. I still haven't figured out what I'm going to say or do about what had happened earlier this morning. One thing is for sure, they can not spread any rumors around this facility about me or even Matt. If they do, I am a dead man for sure.

(MR. HENDERSON’S POINT OF VIEW)

I am still very concerned about what Alex told me the other day about the guard that escorted him to the visitation room. The problem I have with this whole thing is the attorney. This guard took him into the attorney conference room to meet with an attorney that isn't his attorney of record.

After our morning meeting, I didn't let Officer Jackson leave my office. In my opinion officer Jackson has had enough time to find out which guard was the one that escorted Alex to the visitation room. I want find out if we have another dirty guard on duty here at this facility. If we do, I need to shut it down, and I need to shut it down now.

“So what is the news about that officer that escorted Alex to the visitation room Officer Jackson? You have had several days to figure out who he is, and now it's time for you to tell me what you have found out.”

“Mr. Henderson as of now, there was no new guard on duty that evening. In fact every new guard is being trained on day shift. None of the guards that you hired have been assigned to night shift yet. To tell you the truth I am starting to think it was it inmate that did the escorting that night.”

As a words came out of Officer Jackson’s mouth, I thought my hearing was going. He actually is saying that it was an inmate that did the escorting that night. If that is the case, we are in major trouble with an inmate running around with a guard’s uniform.

“Are you certain about that officer Jackson? If that is the case we need to find that uniform and which inmate is posing as a guard.”

“Mr. Henderson, there’s another way to find out for sure if it is an inmate and not an employee that works here. We can bring in Alex and have him look at pictures of every inmate in this facility.”

“No we can’t do that Officer Jackson. If we bring Alex in and he fingers the inmate that escorted him that night, it will blow everything up that Alex is helping us with. The word will get out that Alex is working with us, and it’s all over.

At all costs we need to keep Alex where he is in order for the gang to be transitioned into Alex's vision. Once that happens, all the violence and killings and dirty guards will be a thing of the past.”

“Okay Mr. Henderson I agree with you on that point. Without getting Alex dirty, how are we going to find out who escorted him that night?”

“Easy; it is time for a shakedown. Bring in every guard and pay them overtime if you have to, but we need to shakedown the entire facility for that uniform. Let the guards know it is for a special training. Right before we are about to shakedown the facility we do a mock fire alarm to get the inmates out of the yard. While they are out of the yard we shakedown the entire facility not leaving one room, unchecked.”

“Why don't we do that on Friday since there is less staff on duty? There is no school and the inmates would be easier to handle because they all will be in one spot.”

I agreed with Officer Jackson, and gave him the orders to get it done. Officer Jackson agreed and left my office. I sat down on my chair and looked at the window thinking back to how I gained control this facility.

I am not just a pencil pusher sitting behind a desk having kissed ass to get the position. My career started out as a police officer, where I went to the Academy just like any other. By my fourth year on the force I made detective. Due to an armed robbery I was dispatched to, my career on the police force ended that day.

When I arrived at the convenience store that was being robbed, the perpetrator came out shooting. By the time we got him down, two officers and I got hit the line of duty. Later I found out the perpetrator was wanted on several felony warrants and did not want to go back and to prison.

After I recovered, I didn't want to stay home living on my pension I received after the shooting. I knew I couldn’t return to the police force so I went to second-best thing, which is being a guard at the state penitentiary.

I quickly grew in rank and became the assistant warden of the state penitentiary. I couldn't stop thinking about how to fix the problem of crime before it was too late for these guys. All I was doing at that point was caging my fellow human beings. Every time I saw one of the inmates get released I felt good, but months later they came back to us. They already got used to living in the system. There is nothing that we can do to change them at this point.

When the job posting came up for the open position here and I jumped at it. Here I can actually make a difference. I can actually change where these kids are heading because they're not damaged by the system at this point. Most can be shown the right way and come out as solid, law abiding citizens if they are handled right.

I went through four interviews before being even considered a candidate for this position. Once they decided I was a good candidate for the position, the hard interviews started. One thing they wanted to make sure is whoever they put in this position would not follow the same path as the one that just got fired.

Over and over again I stated that I plan to not only clean up this facility but make a difference with the youth that are incarcerated in here. I knew all about the corruption and the violence, but I also knew I can do the job.

It got down to only two of us and because of my record on the police force, and then as the assistant warden. I got the job with strings attached. I have only four years to clean this place up and set it on the right path. I am now into my second year. I am barely starting to get it above water with Alex’s help.

Now you can see why it is so important to me that Alex succeeds. If he succeeds I will succeed by his success. The gang violence will end, from the killings to the beatings to robbing each other and the rapes. They won’t go completely away, but they will go down drastically.

I got up from my chair and walked out to speak with my secretary. Although the week is short for us, the workload of five days is pushed into three. I really have no time to sit there and think back of my past although it is good to remember how I got here. That way, I will never forget the commitments I made to get this job.

(STEVE’S POINT OF VIEW)

After the final bell, I went looking for Robert. We were to meet in his room after school, but he wasn't there when I walked in. I know the poor guy is very nervous about the talk that we’re going to have with Alex and Matt. But I am more nervous not saying anything, than getting it out there.

I checked the dayroom, the cafeteria, even my room, but no Robert. Knowing Robert the way I do I'm afraid that he is going to do something very stupid. I know he is not going to go around telling people of what we saw this morning, because we’re really not sure what we saw to tell you the truth.

Just as I was about to give up on Robert, I literally ran right into him. I couldn't help but laugh a little because of the way I found him. As I helped him up from the ground I couldn't help but notice how nervous he looks. I pulled him over to the end of the hall for some privacy.

“Robert, there is no reason for you to be this nervous. All were going to do is talk with Alex and find out where we stand. Both of us really don't know what was going on in that room when we walked in on them this morning. Let's keep our wits about this thing and go in there looking unafraid.”

“I know you're right about all this Steve. You just never went through what I went through in County. Even if we are right about what we saw this morning, we’re in a boat load of trouble. There is no way Alex is going to allow us to walk around here with that kind information.”

I didn't say anything else to Robert, because nothing I can say will settle him down. We started our way back towards Alex and Matt's room. Just as we arrived I noticed Alex and Matt walking down the hallway towards the room.

As Alex approached I looked at him to see if we are in trouble or not. By the look on his face, we aren’t. Still, one thing I have learned being locked up in here is you can never read another person’s face one hundred percent all the time.

“Why don't we go into mine Matt's room in order to talk in private?”

I agreed with Alex and we walked into the room. Alex walked in first then followed by me and Steve and Matt brought up the end. As soon as Matt shut the door, he walked over and sat on his bed. Alex pointed to either his bed or Matt's bed for us to sit on.

After we all took our seats evenly split on both beds Alex started the conversation.

“Steve you requested to speak with me and Matt after last class today. I agreed, and that is why we are here. Why don't I just give the floor over to you and get this conversation going? I would like to finish it up before dinner.”

I looked around the room, trying to read everyone's faces. Robert is the easiest and he is just terrified. Matt and Alex are like stone, and I just can’t read either of their faces. I need to be able to know where to take this conversation, and not step over the line.

“Well, um, I figured that we should talk about what happened this morning. First let me say once again how sorry Robert and I are for walking in without your permission. That will never happen again, I promise. Both of us know better than that to walk in on others in their rooms.”

“Steve I am not going to lie to you. I'm pretty pissed off with you guys on not waiting for either Matt or I to invite you in. No matter who the person is, you need to give that person the respect of waiting for the invite to come in.”

“Yes Alex, we know that and that is why I started this out by apologizing for that. We can’t go back and correct that mistake from this morning. Still I do thank you for not sending someone after us.

We also promise you that we will not breathe a word of what we saw this morning. To tell you the truth, I really don't know what we saw when we walked in here on you guys. It could be taken many ways.”

Alex just looked straight into my eyes as I spoke. I could swear he is trying to burn all the way through my skull. I started to sweat really badly. Now I'm thinking what a bad idea this is speaking with Alex and Matt.

“Let me ask you guys about what you saw this morning. What do you think you saw when you guys walked into our room without an invite?”

Alex went back to the mistake we made in the beginning by walking in without being invited in. Fuck this guy is actually putting us on the spot and making us tell him what we think we saw.

“Alex, please forgive me and don’t take this the wrong way. I don’t know anything about you or Matt for that matter. What I do know is you have the power to not only hurt me, but to even kill me. So I say again. We don’t care what you guys were doing in here.”

Alex got up looking very angry at what I just said. He walked over to the door and then turned around and walked back to his end table. Just as he started to turn around he slammed his fist against the table and started speak again.

“Damn it Steve, stop playing this fucking game and just answer my question. Forget my feelings or what I might do. Just tell me what you think you saw in this room when you walked in on us this morning.”

Now I am really freaking out. Alex looks like he wants to pull me up from the bed and beat the shit out of me. For sure now I know I've made the wrong decision requesting a meeting with Alex.

“Okay Alex, okay, what I think I saw this morning in this room is you and Matt being more then friends. I saw you rubbing Matt's face for some reason that I don't know.”

“You see how easy that is to just say. Now let me say this to you guys once, and once only. You will not breathe a word of this to a soul. If you do, I swear with the last ounce of power I have. I will follow through on your worries and make them come true.”

I looked away from Alex and straight over to Robert. I get an idea where this is going. The only way I can figure us getting out of this mess is by telling Alex and Matt the truth. Letting them know that they are not the only ones in here like them.

Looking back at Alex I’m trying to figure out what to really say to him in order to get out of this mess! I know Robert's objections about telling Alex anything about us, but I also know that if we don't say something now, we will lose out on any chance in the future having them on our side. I also know without a doubt that Alex is true to his word when he gives it.

“Um, I really, um, don’t know where or what to say to you guys. Um, I am really freaking out right now. Looking where you're standing at right now I can understand why you are so upset. Damn, we really fucked up this morning, and there is nothing we can do to fix it.

To be honest with you Alex and Matt, I never knew or would have thought of you guys being partners. I thought I was alone in here being gay.”

I looked at everyone to try and get a read on what they are thinking. I just threw out a piece of information that could get me either killed or put in protective custody. I don’t want neither because I have grown custom to living in this building.

“Please, I beg of you guys in this room not to say a word about me and what I just said. I have not even told my family yet. This is the hardest thing I have had to face in my life so far. The reason I am telling you is not because of the anger you are showing right now, but where I can have someone in my corner whenever I need to talk. At least I hope that is the case here with you guys.”

Alex sat back down on the bed looking over at Robert. From what I see on his face, it looks like he isn't mad. In fact it looks like he is actually thinking about what I said.

“You guys, please forgive me on the way I jumped to being my old self. It's just a protective response I do all the time when I feel threatened. The group in this room must have a selective membership. What I mean by that is no one else is allowed to join us whenever we are together talking about our personal love lives.

We all have to fear where we are at. More some then others! For example in your case Steve, you basically only have to worry about it is getting your butt kicked and maybe going into protective custody. I know that is a lot and I don’t want that on anyone.

I, on the other hand, have a lot more to worry about. It is because of the kind of life I have chosen to live. The people I have to worry about will not just stop at kicking my butt. They will further and actually kill me in order to save the rep of our gang. I will not see it coming and when it does, I am dead.

So let's do this from this moment on dealing with us. Each of us has successfully kept the secret from getting out as individuals. Now we must depend on one another and hope that with the information we know about each other we never use it against each other. In other words, we need to keep these secrets to ourselves. Do I have an agreement on this?”

Everyone, including Robert, nodded their heads in the positive. Now with that dealt with, we can move on. For me, I can actually move on more comfortably without the worry of looking over my shoulder all the time. After hearing what Alex just said, I can actually see the fears that he has to live with.

About ten minutes before dinner, Robert and I left Alex and Matt alone in the room. Robert followed me or to my room for me to grab my ID. All the way to the room we did not speak at all. I have a lot to say to Robert, but I can’t figure out how to approach what I have to say.

(ALEJANDRO’S POINT OF VIEW)

Wednesday we only had a half day due to many of the inmates getting a forty-eight hour pass to go home for Thanksgiving. Matt got a pass, but due to his family going out of town for the holiday, he is stuck in here. I didn't qualify for a pass because I haven't been here that long. You have to be here at least a year and not get into any trouble.

Steve on the other hand got a pass and left with the others after dinner. Carlos didn't get a pass because he was in lock down before I arrived. So that leaves me, Matt, Carlos and Robert to spend Thanksgiving together.

Because of the holiday we don’t have to go to sleep at the same time. In fact I found out last year, the guards actually allowed everyone to go to sleep whenever they wanted. They are going to let it happen again this year as long as there is no problem being created. We can basically go around here as if we are at home.

Matt and I decided to watch TV before going to bed. We got joined by Carlos and Robert shortly after we sat down. We are the only four in the dayroom right now. In fact, there are only twelve of us in Building ‘A’. No one is allowed to leave Building ‘B’. Those are high risk inmates that can’t be trusted to leave the facility.

Still being on the careful side Matt and I sat a part from each other as we watched TV. The four in the room right now knows about each other. We still have to worry about the guards or the other eight inmates still in the building.

I tapped on Carlos’s shoulder to get his attention. I want to talk with him in private. We walked out of the dayroom and headed over to my room. I immediately asked Carlos if he found another place for me and Matt to use. Since the first place, he found, the guards know all about it.

At first I suspected a gross look on his face. But instead, he smiled back at me. “You want to get busy with your boyfriend do you?” Carlos started laughing and punching me in the arm as he spoke. “I have found another place, but there is no way you and Matt are going to be able to get there with the amount of guards versus inmates.”

“Damn! You mean, what I plan to do this weekend is out of the question? I thought with fewer inmates it would be a lot easier for us to get over on the guards. Ever since you, me and Matt we haven't taken a chance on getting with each other.”

“I would think the same, but they did not lower the guard staff for this weekend. You have more guards actually on duty than you have inmates in this building right now. At the same time Alex, the guards don't do the rounds at the same intervals. In fact, they don't even come in here, unless there is a shift change or one of us in trouble.

What I can offer you is standing guard at your door while you and Matt have your time together. If a guard is coming down the hallway, I will knock three times on your door as if I'm trying to come in. You'll yell go away, but you know, what really the knock is for.”

“You would stand guard for me and Matt? I am very surprised you are actually taking this thing with me and Matt the way you are.”

“You are my best friend Alex and no matter what you do I would never stop being your best friend. I love you like a brother and I know you didn’t make a choice like that. So with that said yes I would do anything for you including standing guard.”

“Thank you, thank you very much Carlos. You know that you are my brother and don’t need doesn’t need to be said from neither of us. So it doesn't look suspicious, I will pull Matt back here in an hour or so.”

Carlos shook his head as we walked back towards the dayroom. It is taking every ounce of restraint I have to not walk up to Matt and wrap my arms around him in front of everybody. These five years are going to be long as hell.

I looked up at the clock in the dayroom to see what time it is and realize that Carlos is right about the guards not coming in here. They are already fifteen minutes behind schedule if they were going by their normal routine. At that point I knew I could take Matt to the room.

I got up and started my way back to the room. Shortly after I got to the room, Matt walked in and shut the door behind him. I started to slap my hand on my mattress in order for Matt to come and sit by me.

As Matt sat down I turned to face him. Our knees touched as I turned. I placed both of my hands behind Matt's head and leaning his head towards mine. With our foreheads touching, I took my right hand and placed it on Matt’s heart to feel it beat.

I leaned in as I lifted his face back up. Our lips touched and we started to kiss each other. I took my hand off of Matt’s chest in order to run my fingers through his hair. I love to do that every chance I get.

We slowly took each other’s shirts off with out breaking the kiss. We are both wearing button up shirts which made it easier to take them off. Once we took our shirts off, I slowly lowered Matt to the bed. As I lowered him down, I started to kiss down his neck.

I sent a few minutes playing with his adams apple before I moved on. I made my way to his left nipple and then to his right nipple giving each of them even time and attention. Just then Matt slowly flipped me over where I am on the bottom and he is on top.

Just as I did to him, he started kissing his way down my neck to my chest. He actually started to kiss all the way down my arm to my hand and fingers. One finger at a time Matt slipped them in and then out of his mouth. Once he sucked on each of my fingers on one hand, he moved to my other hand and did the same thing.

I have never in my life got this hard. My dick is so hard it wants to pop out of my jeans. If I don’t get my dick out soon, it will actually rip through my jeans. Matt moved on top of me and started kissing me. Once his dick touched mine, I knew he is as horny as I am right now. I really want his dick my mouth.

Matt placed his finger on my lips as he started kissing down my body once again. I opened my mouth and let his finger slip in. As Matt sucked on my nipples, I started to suck on his finger. Matt didn’t try to remove his finger from my mouth as he started burying his tongue in my belly button.

He lifted his face from my belly in order to take off my belt. In a snap Matt got my belt off and my jeans unbuttoned. Slowly he lowered my zipper and then reached in to play with my dick. I know I am leaking a lot of pre-cum because I can actually feel it.

Matt looked up with a smile on his face as he played with my dick. He pulled his hand out and stood up. He picked up my right leg to unlace my shoe and then took it off, doing the same to my left shoe before pulling off my jeans. With a little help from me, he actually got my jeans off with one pull.

Matt leaned in and placed his hands around my waist to pull down my boxers. Matt slowly pulled down my boxer’s inch at a time. Once he got my boxers past my mid section, my dick flew out at attention. At that point I looked at Matt to see a big smile across his face as he looks at my hard dick. My hard dick is impatiently waiting for his warm mouth to go around it!

Matt spread my legs apart and got between them. Leaning down he took my dick in his hands and started to play with it in his hands moving my foreskin up and down where my head would appear leaking pre-cum and then be covered back up with my foreskin once again. Matt did that several times before actually putting my dick in his mouth.

As he placed my dick in his mouth, he started licking around the head driving me crazy. I started to grab at my mattress trying to hold in my moans. It didn’t take much more for me to start moaning. As Matt deep throated my dick, I lost it. I got loud enough that I grabbed my pillow and placed it over my face to muffle my moans.

Matt really hasn’t started bobbing up and down on my dick yet, but I am about to hit climax. He lifted my legs over his shoulders in order to have access to my butt. At first he just played with my pucker not really sticking his fingers in yet. Then I felt his finger penetrate my hole. That threw my into another gear I didn’t even know I had.

I threw the pillow to the side and lifted Matt’s face from my crotch. We started to kiss as I flipped him to his back. I made my way to Matt’s waist. I started to take his belt off and the unbuttoned his jeans.

I didn’t even bother to unlace his shoes like he did for me. I just yanked them off his feet before going back to his waist. I pulled off his jeans and noticed for the first time he is wearing boxer briefs. I love the way the boxer briefs fit him.

I separated his legs in order for me to drop to my knees between them. I started to lick the outline of Matt’s dick through his underwear. Matt is already rock hard and his dick wants to be set free, but I want to play with his dick a little more while it is still inside his boxer briefs.

After noticing that Matt’s boxers are getting soaked with my spit and his pre-cum, I slowly pulled them off. As I went back between his legs, I put them over my shoulder. At first I started playing with his head of his dick and then took it all in.

As I started to bob up and down on his dick, I took my middle finger and slipped it into his hole. I wiggled my finger a little in his butt trying to find his prostate. As I hit his prostate Matt’s dick jumped several times in my mouth. He also moaned each time I touched his prostate.

With regret I let Matt’s dick slip out of my mouth and my finger out of his butt. I got up from my knees to sit back on the bed next to him. I rolled on top of Matt and started to kiss him. We kissed for another few minutes before I broke the kiss.

“I want you inside me Matt so bad it is killing me. Please Matt will you fuck me now before I lose my mind?”

Matt didn’t say a word, he just smiled. He got up from the bed and went between my legs. One at a time, Matt threw my legs over his shoulder. He separated my butt cheeks to start licking my hole. Each time Matt stuck his tongue into my hole, it drove me up the wall. Matt knows exactly how to hit the right spot to drive me to the breaking point.

Matt stopped licking my hole and replaced his tongue with a finger. Once I adjusted to that finger, he put in another, and then another. Once he got three fingers in and I adjusted to them. He knew I was ready for his piece of meat to go in.

Matt removed all three fingers and pressed the head of his dick at the entrance of my love chute. I looked up to him as he leaned in with a smile to kiss me at the same time letting me know he is about to enter my ass with his dick. I nodded my head yes to let him know to go for it.

Slowly Matt pressed his dick in. Knowing this is only me second time getting a cock up my ass, he doesn’t want to hurt me. As Matt pushed a little he told me to bear down like I’m trying to ‘go’. I did and I found that it makes my hole relax and more easily take his cock in. Matt was going in and stopping a bit at a time. He kept doing that to let me adjust with his dick inside me. Once he got his dick completely inside me, he stopped and allowed me to adjust to it.

As I adjusted to having Matt’s dick in my butt, he started to play with my dick. I am already very close to hitting my climax. I let Matt do as he wishes with my dick. I love him so much I would let him do whatever he wants to me whenever he wants.

It didn’t take as long for me to adjust to Matt this time. Once I adjusted to him, I started to wiggle underneath him. Matt got the hint and started to move out slowly and back in slowly. He did that couple of times before picking up speed.

Once we got into the groove, if there is anyone in the room next door would know what we are doing in here. Each time Matt pounded my ass, my bed actually hit the wall hard. It hit the wall several times really hard and I thought we might actually go through it.

Matt continued to fuck me as he leaned in to kiss me. As our lips touched, I felt like I got shot into space in a rocket. We are not just doing raw fucking. We are actually in love with each other and I can feel it in the gentleness Matt is treating me.

“Matt please don’t cum in my ass. If you feel you are about to cum, pull out. I want to suck you off. I want your cum in my mouth.”

Matt nodded his head yes before returning his lips to mine. Matt fucked me for another ten or so minutes before pulling out. With his right hand he jerked himself off a couple of times. At first I didn’t know why he did that, but later I found out. He wanted to clean off his dick before putting it in my mouth, you know, with his dick having being up my ass and all.

Just as Matt put in dick into my mouthy, he started to shoot. Shot after shot of his hot cum hit the back of my throat. I started to swallow the minute Matt started shooting. I don’t want one drop of his cum to drip out of my mouth. Just as he finished shooting, Matt’s dick slipped out of my mouth still hard. If I am not mistaken he can actually go another round.

Matt fell on the bed breathing heavy as hell. I looked over to him to see his eyes closed and his hands on his chest. I looked down my dick which is still standing at attention and wanting to shoot so badly but I am not letting it. Then I looked over to Matt’s dick to see it at attention still.

Without warning Matt, I reached over and grabbed his dick. Matt tried to push my hand away. The key word is trying and didn’t succeed to do so. I started to jerk him off to see if I could get him to cum once more.

I moved closer to Matt in order to take his dick back into my mouth. I started to suck his dick as he started to moan out in pleasure. With my free hand I grabbed the pillow to place on his face to muffle the moans.

It didn’t take long to bring Matt to another climax. To top it all off, he actually shot as much the second time as he did the first time! I got a second milk shake within twenty minutes of each other!

Letting Matt’s dick slip out of my mouth the second time in less than twenty minutes, I turned Matt over to his stomach with his ass in the air. Immediately I spread his butt checks and started to lick his hole. Nonstop moaning is all I hear from Matt right now.

Once I felt Matt’s is ready to take me, I got up to my feet in leaned into his body. Positioning my dick to the entrance of his hole and slowly I entered into Matt’s tight hole. Every inch as my dick went in, the closer I am getting to cum right up his ass.

As I reached his prostate, I fell onto Matt’s back. I started to kiss up and down Matt’s awesome back. I can’t get enough of Matt. He just drives me so crazy I can fuck all night long and then some with him.

I wrapped my arms around Matt’s chest and started to fuck him slowly. Little by little I picked up speed until I got into rhythm. Once I got into my rhythm, I felt I’m in heaven. The tightness of Matt’s hole alone sends me over the top.

I leaned in and started to kiss Matt’s neck up to his ear lobes and back around to his other ear lobe. I started to whisper in Matt’s ear as I reached around to his right one.

“Matt I am about to cum! You are so fucking hot man, I am going mad crazy over you! I am about to cum Matt, I love your ass, I love your body, and I just love everything about my boyfriend. I love you Matt!”

“Please Alex pull out where I can suck you dry! I want to feel your dick in my mouth as you shoot your load.”

I pulled out as Matt flipped over and sat up. Just like he did, I wiped my dick off before putting it into his mouth. I leaned in grabbing the back of Matt’s head. Just as my dick entered Matt’s mouth, I started to shoot. I know I don’t have to hold Matt’s head, but it is just instinct to do so.

Matt did as he said he is going to do. He actually sucked me dry. Matt didn’t even have to play much with my dick before I started to shoot a second load down his throat. We make each other so horny that we can shoot another load within minutes.

As Matt let my dick slip out of his mouth, I laid down on my bed. I pulled Matt down next to me. I wrapped my arms around Matt and we laid there cuddling with each other. Something I wish I could do with Matt every night we are together.

I started to doze off to sleep when I heard the three knocks on the door. Remembering what Carlos and I agreed on I yelled out what I am supposed to. I shook Matt awake in order for him to go to his bed.

I jumped out of my bed naked as the day I was born gathering the clothes and stuffing them under the bed. I jumped back into bed and covered up right when the door opened. The guard peaked his head in to count Matt and me. Once he saw we are both here, he shut the door and left to the next room. Had he lingered a moment more, he would have caught that the room reeks with the smell of hot man-man sex!

I looked over to Matt, and we both smiled and started laughing. I got out of bed and walked over to his and crawled in. As I threw the blanket over me and Matt, I wrapped my arms around him and pulled him into me. I don't know when, but I fell asleep cuddled up against this awesome guy.

The next thing I knew, I got woken up by the blaring sounds of the fire alarm. I quickly jumped out of Matt's bed and started to pull out our clothes from beneath where I stuff from an earlier in the evening.

Not even looking at whose clothes I started to put on, all I cared about is getting dressed. I don’t want a guard walking into this room, and finding me and Matt naked. There is no way I could explain it away.

I walked out of the room, or should I say skipping out of the room trying to put on my shoes. Carlos and Robert walked out of the room just as Matt walked into the hallway. We looked at each other trying to figure out why in the world they would have an alarm at this time of the night.

Before any of us could say a word, we got escorted out to the yard. I looked over to the Building ‘B’s’ yard to see if they were coming out as well. Just like us, they were being escorted out in to the yard.

Matt and I got joined by Carlos, Robert and Steve. We each looked around to see if there is another fire somewhere in this facility. This time we can’t find any smoke coming from any of the buildings. So, that means this is a fire drill.

Carlos tapped me on my shoulder and pointed over to the gate. Ashton and a couple of his guys are standing there waving us over. Not saying a word to the others, Carlos and I started to walk towards the gate to see what they need.

We walked up to the gate and Ashton started to speak. “Alex I need to know when you plan to talk with whomever to bring our guys out of lockdown. I need to be prepared for their return to our dorm.”

“Ashton you don’t need to be prepared for anybody’s return. You run that dorm, and nobody else. If you can’t handle that I will replace you with somebody that can. I don’t need to report to you or anyone here for that matter.”

“No Alex, you are taking it wrong. I need to make sure when they return to the dorm they understand the new policies of how things are being run now. All I want is just a heads up.”

I looked at Ashton trying to figure out what his real intentions are. I know it's not just what he said. This guy plans ahead on everything he is going to do. He has something planned that he needs to know when these guys are coming back.

“Ashton, it is not like I can walk into Mr. Henderson's office or walk up to a guard and put in my request. All the guards that were on the take, except Officer Jackson, are no longer here. I need to be very careful asking Officer Jackson for anything in the future concerning special favors.

I'm biding my time to make sure it is the right time to put in the request. In the mean time what you should do is fly a kite over to them. Explain the new rules and the way you want things to run in that dorm.”

“Okay, I have no problem flying a kite over to them. Another issue I have right now is I have requested a meeting with you. That request has been granted. I need to know what the routine is now and to do that I need to sit down with you.

If the only time we ever have a meeting is when you call it, I lose a lot of credibility with the guys in there.”

I stood there looking across the yard trying to figure out what to tell Ashton. I could simply just tell him that I don’t report to him and let it go. But I know that will not suffice with the new way of running things. There has to be a way for Ashton to communicate with me without holding a meeting every other day.

“Ashton what we need to do is get a line of communication set up between us where we don’t have to hold meetings all the time. The only time we should hold face-to-face meetings is when it is necessary. For routine things, there has to be a way where we can speak to one another.

What I'm thinking is that when you need to send a message to me, do it through the kitchen staff. I already set it up where we run the kitchen in both buildings. In your building, members of our gang do it all. Then you choose a couple people come over and do the dishes in the kitchen in Building ‘A’.

Don't look at me like that because they will not allow any gang member in the kitchen of Building “A”. We are very lucky I was able to pull several strings to get two guys into the kitchen in Building ‘A’.”

“That will work for me on this issue. Whenever we send kites to each other, it will be done in sealed envelopes. That way we know that no one knows the business we are discussing. I also want to let you know that I sent forward the monthly up to the main guys in the prison.”

I completely forgot about the monthlies since my father passed away. I need to clear, what we are supposed to do and be sending up to the prison system with Mr. Flores. Right now, we can’t be running businesses as usual as far as merchandise being sent up.

Not wanting another issue between me and Ashton this evening. I just shook my head and asked if there was anything else he needed to be taken care of right now. Ashton said ‘no’, and we parted ways at that point.

I walked back over to the others with Carlos at my side. As soon as I reached them, we decided to walk over to the bleachers and wait out this fire alarm. It is weird the amount of time it is taking for this fire drill. For some reason I don't think it’s just a fire drill. I think they are using a fire alarm as a disguise for what they are really doing in there. Whatever it is has to be very important.

I leaned back against the bleachers behind me and dozed off to sleep. I was more than routinely tired after the heavy love making Matt and I had. For the first time since my father passed away, I am actually sleeping without any kind of dreams haunting me. I am actually sleeping better here in the bleachers than I have been in my bed.

I heard Carlos' voice from afar calling me. Slowly he got louder and louder until I opened my eyes. As I opened my eyes Matt has his hand extended to help me up. I grabbed hold of his hand and he pulled me up from the bleachers.

“So guys, did anyone else have a good night sleep like I did?” I laughed as I walked down the bleachers to the grass. I looked at the others and they were not smiling at all. I noticed at that point, the sun is coming up. The fire drill actually took all night.

We walked in and immediately headed to our rooms. At this point I really don’t care what they were doing during the fire alarm. As we walked into our room, Matt and I got my question answered.

I looked around the room to a huge mess left behind by the guards. They actually did a shakedown while we were outside in the yard. Whatever they were looking for, they really want it because they went through everything. When I say ‘everything’, I mean they went through everything!

Since breakfast is just an hour or so away, we decided to go ahead and clean up the mess the guards made out of our room. We had to sort through all the clothes in the middle of the room to make sure we have the right clothes.

As soon as the clothes got separated, we folded them up and put them away where they belong. We went to our closets and straighten them up. As I picked up my shampoo and toothpaste and really anything in a bottle, I found it all poured out into the garbage. I looked over to Matt trying to hide my anger.

“What the hell Matt? Do these guys think we are made out of money that we can re-buy all this stuff or what? Even if we can buy all this stuff again, we can’t go to the store until next week.”

Matt shook his head back and forth and went back to work cleaning up his closet. I couldn't help myself! I walked up behind Matt and wrapped my arms around him. I started to kiss up and down his neck. As I reached around and put my hand into his pants, I found his dick right away. It is easy because he is hard already.

I want to throw him against the wall and rip his pants off, but there is no time. So I let go of his dick and pulled my hand out of his pants. I still turned him around and kissed him squarely on the lips. I don't want to ever let his lips go.

After we had breakfast we headed back to our room and finished cleaning up. As soon as we cleaned up our room, I went to take a shower. I stink of not only sweat, but of sex as well. I need to clean all of it off of me. Don’t get me wrong, I want the smell of Matt on me all the time, but not the smell of …… well, you know what I’m referring to……

After the nice cold shower, I got dressed and found the guys in the dayroom. They are setting up and getting ready for the football games. Dallas always plays on Thanksgiving Day and another two teams. The game I am more interested in is the Dallas Cowboys. I've said this before and I will say it again. They are going to make it all the way this year.

The only thing we did all day is sit in front of the TV and watch football. We got up and had a small lunch, but really never left the TV. Lucky for us that Cowboys game is being played later in the evening so when they called us for dinner we all got up immediately and headed over to eat.

The Thanksgiving meal that got prepared for us is pretty good. I really thought the meal was going to be some kind of TV dinner warm-up. Instead it is a real turkey and all the fixings that go with it including pumpkin pie!

We joined several of the tables in the cafeteria together where all ten of us could eat together. We sat there talking about everything under the sky except being in this place on this day. We all want to feel as if we are not in this place but in the free, with family, for at least this meal!

As I looked around the table, I realized I'll be sitting at this table for at least five more Thanksgivings before having another at the table in my mom’s house. I hope when that day comes, Matt will be at my side. I really don’t think there is anything that will separate us, but there is still a lot of time ahead of us to test that theory.

TO BE CONTINUED……………….

WRITER’S CORNER:

{Alex realized in this chapter that he is actually a smart guy. When he returned to class and started taking his exams. He finished up with time to spare; enough time left over for him to take the exams he missed the day before. I really hope that Alex fully understands how smart he is. He needs to take advantage of every bit of education that this facility has to offer the inmates locked up in there.

Alex also realized he has some kind of feelings towards his dad. When he returned back to his room after the funeral, his feelings came out. Whatever the reason was that he felt sad about losing his father, he felt the loss.

No matter what walk of life we are from we as men try to act tougher then we are. We can’t show any kind of weakness. With Alex right now, he has to act tough. Any sign of weakness on his part, could kill him. I am glad that Matt was there to comfort him when he needed someone to be there for him.

Carlos is turning out to be a very cool guy. He is not bothered by the fact that his best friend is gay or that he wants to make love to his roommate. He offered to stand guard and let him and Matt have their moment. That is a friend I would kill to have in my corner any day of the week.

I wonder if Mr. Henderson and the guards found that missing guard uniform. They think it is an inmate that dressed up as a guard that evening in question. The question I have is how did that inmate first get the uniform and then get away with acting like a guard. Doesn't each guard know the inmates in there? I still think there is another guard on the take that Mr. Henderson and Officer Jackson are unaware of.

Alex is surprising me more and more as I get to know him. I would think he would be the dominant guy in sex, but instead it's Matt. Those two make a perfect couple in my mind. Neither of them fights to be the dominant guy while they are having sex.

This chapter was pretty mellow, but don’t get used to that. When everybody returns from Thanksgiving, things are going to get heated up. We now know that Steve, Robert, Matt and Alex know about each other. The problem that comes with others knowing about you is the better the chances are of your secret getting out. Trust me when I say this. There are problems ahead for Alex.

So much going on right now and some much to come! As I did with “Shadow Of My Father”, the cliffhangers are gone. I will do the same with “Jacob Finding His Way” as well. I believe I have three pretty good developed stories I don’t need the cliffhangers to bring you guys back the next week. I really hope I am right!

I don’t want to say too much more and spoil the future chapters to come, so I won’t. I warn you though! Don’t skip a chapter, or you will be lost. There is a so much to answer in the chapters to come. Keep reading the future chapters, and enjoy! Please email me and let me know how I am doing at jacobmillertex@aol.com, Thanks!}
EDITOR’S CORNER:

I think the intrigue of the phantom guard is going to be an interesting twist. Knowing Jacob as I do, whatever any of us think is the scenario, we are going to be surprised.

Like Jacob said, Alex is beginning a journey of self discovery. He is learning a lot about himself as his personality is allowed to develop without the direct influence of the streets and his father. Step one was Alex letting his true sexuality surface and to actually be able to act on it. Of course, with Matt as a mentor, that realization and actualization was made somewhat easier! Alex is just now discovering he’s truly intelligent. I’ll be interested to see how he learns to apply his intelligence and, as Jacob says, to see if he grasps the opportunities to get all the education he can.

Alex has already shown his intellect by his desire to restructure the gang and legitimize it more. At least now he has a superior that agrees with him and will support his efforts. It takes an intelligent mind to realize that the status quo isn’t working to the best interests of those involved.

Ashton worries me. I sense he has an agenda that might prove troublesome for Alex. I think Alex has caught this and is going to be watchful.

Another new dimension for Alex is the discovery of sex coupled with love. Jacob said that Matt seems to be the more dominate. I sense that things are wonderfully balanced. I am a bit surprised that Alex’s personality has allowed him to “bottom”, but then again, that shows the true depth of his character.

I would also like to mention a reader that wrote and touched me deeply. Bobby, you are on my mind and I hope I hear back from you.

Until next time,
“Daddy” Rick