Modern High - 25. Chapter 21

Modern High

Chapter 21

That night when Zach showed up at Toby’s house, the look on his face when he saw that I was only half dressed, well, it was as if I could see his heart breaking in two, right in front of my eyes. The one person who I vowed never to hurt, the only person who was there for me in my time of need, I destroyed. It was heart wrenching, to say the least. However, I saw it coming; I knew that Zach would find out. Just how he did is the question...

Ring... Ring... Ring... Goddamn phone, fricken fracken son of a...

“Hello?”

“Jacob?”

“Yes, who’s this?”

“Duh! It’s me, Toby.”

“Oh, you... What do you want?”

“Oh, is that how you’re going to be?”

“Yes, matter of fact. You broke me and Zach up, you’re an asshole!” I spat.

“Is that anyway to treat someone who showed you the best time of your life?” Toby is acting smugly about what he has done to my life so far.

“Heh! You think you’re funny, don’t ya? You’re the sole reason why I don’t have a loving boyfriend anymore.”

“You can’t blame that on me, Jacob. Your relationship was on the rocks way before I appeared. So if you’re going to blame anyone it has to be you.”

“Ok, maybe you have a point. Just maybe I believe you. However, that doesn’t explain why you keep coming after me, why you keep hounding me.”

“That’s simple, I like you and when I like someone I tend to go after them.”

“Hah! You... Like me? Please. Let me tell you something, Toby. I had the best boyfriend ever. He was there for me after I fucked up, he was there for me when I started to talk about you, I mean, shit, Toby. I gave up all that for what, you?”

“HEY! Don’t you forget what kind of things will happen to you if your ‘secret’ comes out!” Toby sounded very angry with me when he told me that. I knew this was going to come about, but how can I get out of it?

“What do you want, Toby?”

“You know what I want. And you’re going to give it to me, got it?”

“Yea, yea. I hear you.” I hung up with him after he started to laugh

Damn asshole, he is... I mean blackmail can only go so far before it gets old, right? I should have told Zach about my problem before it got to where it is now, but I cannot do anything about it now. Maybe, I can ask Nathan about what I should do. He might be able to help me.

When Monday finally came, I felt like shit for what Toby was/is making me do to him. I mean, how many times do you think you need sex? How many times are you going to call me a “cocksucker”? Toby is dogging me all the time. With no boyfriend to hangout with, and no friends to talk your problems out with, you kinda just want to kill yourself. Some days I want that to happen. However, being from a religious family, I know that would be sinfully wrong. Morally wrong also. I kept my hood up, and with my head bowed. I walked through the halls of this scary place called “High School”. All day in every class no one wanted to talk to me. I could understand; really, I could. Well, maybe not. God, I'm confused. As sixth period finished up and I headed to the exit, I wondered if things could have gone differently.

“Hey, what’s up man?” some person said to me as I walked passed him, and, may I say, what a FINE ass he had... *Fans self*

“Hello...” Damn fine!

As I walked out of the building, everything seemed quiet, too quiet maybe. In these situations in movies something always happens, it’s a given. But what? At least there isn’t music; that’s a good thing, hopefully.

“Hey!”

Holy shit! Holding my chest I say, “Ever heard of calling someone from afar?”

“Why, did I scare you?”

“Yes, Toby, you did.”

“Whatever, look, come over to my house, I have something planned,” he said, almost commanding me.

“Why?”

“Don’t ask why, I’m in charge of this, not you. GOT IT?” He poked me in chest to get the point across. Rubbing the spot where he poked me, I nodded my head yes to him. He just smiled. Asshole!

Walking to his car was an irritating thing; first, he doesn’t know when to shut up. Like, god, I know he’s self-centered, but damn. Ever heard of talking about something that, I don’t know, actually matters? When we got into his car, he started right off, with what he wanted to do with me. Why, thank you Toby for asking me if it was alright! Toby acts as if I am his personal property or something, like my feelings don’t have any say in what happens.

After the first fifteen minutes of Toby riding me, it got boring. I was so very close to yawning, that I just wanted to quit, but he did something that would make me automatically moan out. That was the only good part about sex with Toby. Other than the obvious, he’s just HOT. When Toby finally came he collapsed on top of me, having his sweaty body touch mine disgusted me. Sex with Toby wasn’t anything like sex with Zach. I loved sex with Zach; too bad I can’t have it anymore, even though that wasn’t the only thing good about Zach.

Zach was sweet, caring, kind, etc... So why did I have to fuck that up? Why did I have to go to that stupid fucking party and get drunk, and, I don’t know, have sex with Toby. Some days I just want to scream out, throw shit around, punch shit, and of course pull out my own hair. However, you know I can’t blame anyone but myself for what has happened. I should have seen this coming; I should have listened to Zach when he tried to warn me.

“Hey Toby, I have to go... See you later... Okay?”

“Yea, yea... Whatever, bye!” He just waved his hand at me, as if I was nothing to him other than a piece of ass... one that he is blackmailing, I might add.

“Asshole,” I said in a whisper.

“What was that?” Toby got up and stood over me, backing me into a wall.

“No---...” I didn’t get to finished what I planned on saying. Toby punched me in the jaw, making my head bounce off the wall.

As my head spun with dizziness, Toby said, “Don’t you ever let me hear you call me that again; you got that, cocksucker?” I nodded my head weakly as I pulled open the door to his bedroom. If only I could have been strong enough to beat the living shit out of him, I would have. I would have kicked his ass so much that he would have to pick himself up off the floor... god, how I wanted to. However, sadly, I didn’t.

Carrying myself down the stairs and across his paved driveway, I headed for Nathan’s house. It’s time to have someone listen to my problems and give me, hopefully, the right solution. Holding my jaw, while flexing it, I still wanted to go back and kick his ass so badly.

Getting to Nathan’s house seemed funny, until I realized how close he lived to Toby, it didn’t last long. Scrounging up some courage before I knocked on his door, it seemed harder than it was just thinking about it, knocking lightly I wished he wouldn't answer, but he did.

“Hi, Nathan,” I say as I bow my head

“What do you want, Jacob? You know if Zach knows that we’re talking he would kick my ass along with yours, don’t you?”

“Then I should just go.”

He didn’t say anything.

“Alright, catch you around sometime.”

“Fine, fine. Come in.”

“Are you sure?”

“Come in before my conscience catches up with me,” he smiled.

I tried to crack a smile, but the punch that I just received prevented me from it.

“What’s the matter, Jacob?”

“I need some advice, Nathan.”

“Ah, but I wasn’t talking about that. I meant your jaw?”

“Oh, that... Listen if I tell you things, you promise not to repeat them to anyone?”

“That depends on who’s involved, but sure.”

“Let’s just say, a lot of people.”

“That narrows it down,” Nathan laughs, which in turn gets me to laugh

“I try. Anyways, Nathan, things are getting more complicated and I want out, but I don’t see a way to do that. Other than out myself, to the whole school,” I pause because I have to think of what to say to him, he’s Zach’s best friend still. Nathan tries to answer what I told him, but I wave him off. He just huffs, but stays silent, which is what I wanted him to do.

“Anyway, if you don’t already know... Toby and I... I don’t know, had sex or something, but because of that he’s blackmailing me into being his sex pig and slave. Nathan, is there anything good to say about him? Is there a deep dark place inside him that he doesn’t let anyone see,” I start to break down in front Nathan, but I catch myself and make the tears stop coming. Seriously, what is wrong with me?

“I don’t know what to say, Jacob. You should have told Zach everything before it got to where it is now. I know you still love him deeply, but in order to get yourself out of this situation... You have to out yourself to school. That is the only way to get you spaced from Toby. Of course I want to see my best friend happy again. Therefore, I need you to apologize to him... And I also know that he'll probably accept it, but try, and see where it gets you, okay?”

I didn’t realize that I had tears running down my cheeks until Nathan quit talking. “Thank you, Nathan. I will try my best...” We stood up and hugged like real friends, even if it only lasted 30 seconds. No wonder Zach loved Nathan so much, he listens and he actually tries to help you out, wow.

“Thanks again, Nathan. I'll head over to Zach’s house right now, before my mind changes on me.” I shook his hand; this time at the door. One hug is good enough.

“You’re welcome, Jacob. I hope everything works out.”

“Me too,” I said, as I headed in the direction of Zach’s house. The last time I was there was when I asked Zach out for a walk. That was a lovely night, under the stars and having sex. More like love. I miss him so much, I didn’t think I would, I didn’t think that I would love someone so much that I would rather kill myself than live another day without him.

As I walked to the Zach’s house, I passed a strange person. Not paying attention, I walked right into him, falling on my ass was an embarrassment. “Sorry, about that mister.” He didn’t reply. Creepy.

Dusting myself off, I walked away from him. Well, more like speed walked away. Looking behind me, I saw him looking at me with a smirk, ‘definitely creepy’ I thought. One more block and I will be at Zach’s. I'm hoping he will hear me out. When I looked behind myself again, the person wasn’t there anymore... What happened to him? Shrugging to myself, I walked faster, almost to the point of running.

“You know you shouldn’t run, the night creatures will think you’re prey, and they love to play chase,” said a voice from my right, but I didn’t stop to ask him what he meant by that. Anyone with a brain could assume what he meant.

Rushing around the corner of Zach’s block, I spotted his house, but again a voice spoke out into the night, knowing fully well that it would be for me. “Hurry! They’re coming,” laughed the person from the darkness. Not caring, I banged on Zach’s door until he answered.

“What!” he snapped out, as if he was talking to someone of annoyance. However, once he spotted me, he lost the angry stance and stood there looking at me. Almost with an open mouth expression, it would have been funny if the circumstances were different, but they weren’t and we still had a huge gap between us. Looking at my sweet prince, I spoke quietly, “Can I come in, please?” Zach didn’t answer me. Instead, he wanted to slam the door in my face.

“Why?” he said with acid.

“Because, I want to explain myself, I want you to understand...”

“No.” Zach said with emotion.

“Why?” I asked him.

“Why, Jacob? Why? Let’s see. First, you stop talking to me, and then I have to find out through the school that you and Toby have something going on. And if that wasn’t bad enough, I find my boyfriend at my enemy's house. Half fucking naked... So tell me, Jacob, why should I let you in?”

“It’s different now, Zach, and I should have told you, but I knew that you wouldn’t understand, just as you don't understand now. I miss you, okay, and I love you... A LOT.”

“Oh, it’s different now. And yea, you should have. By the way, I do understand... perfectly. You gave up something great for a person who uses people. I miss you too, but I don’t know if I love you anymore.” He shut the door quietly after that, leaving me once again with the silence.

Author’s note

Let me first say, WOW! This chapter has a lot of fighting in it; not physical, thankfully. Anyways, what happened in this chapter should have never happened. I mean I wanted my characters to work things out, but I started to think. What couple actually does talk after something that breaks their hearts? What couple, at the age of sixteen, does talk things out?

If anyone has an answer, please do tell me, because I have been through many relationships and in every single one of them, we never actually got around to talking. We always settled things by yelling at each other and I know that isn’t good if you’re trying to repair something. LOL. Sorry.

Like I was saying, in the next chapter... Things will be getting worse... (Sneak peak)

Walking into the school building, the first people I saw were Jacob and Toby, embraced in a very romantic kiss.

Throwing my dad’s rope over a tree branch, I tie myself to it and jump...

TBC!

Remijay <3 ((Hugz)) Take Care and Be Safe!