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A Christmas Eve Awakening - 1. Chapter 1

A Christmas Eve Awakening by Ronyx

          

I stood before the church listening to the choir sing, ‘Oh, Holy Night.’ The melodic tune was filling my heart with sadness. I wanted desperately to go inside, but I had turned away from the church years ago.

Now at twenty-six, it had been ten years since I had entered the huge oaken doors of the Fifth Street Tabernacle Church. The last time I was there, Reverend McGowen stood at the altar warning his attentive flock that the end of the American family was in risk because of the rising number of gay and lesbians who were coming out. He said they were threatening the moral fiber of our country.

Two years earlier, I had come to the realization that I was gay. I kept it from my family and friends, and I tried to live so that no one would ever discover my hidden secret. When I was eighteen, and two years after last entering the church, my secret was discovered when my family came home early from a night of bowling and found me in the arms of my boyfriend.

That was eight years ago, and I have still been a stranger to my own home. My mother begged me to return, but my father was adamant about never seeing me again. I refused to step foot in my father’s house until I felt welcomed. So, I enjoyed my mother’s company during secret rendezvous at a small secluded cafe early Wednesday mornings.

It was Christmas Eve, and I had been sitting comfortably at home before the fireplace in my favorite wingback chair. I am an avid reader, and I had been engrossed once again in an interesting mystery. Suddenly, the clock struck six, and I fondly recalled my childhood when it was a family tradition to go to church and listen to the beautiful songs of the season sung by the magnificent forty-five member choir. As a little boy, I would sit between my mother and father and sing in a tenor voice my favorite Christmas songs.

I can’t explain why, but I was suddenly overwhelmed with a desire to relive my past. I arose, put on my overcoat and hat and strolled the six blocks to the church. Soon, I was embraced once again with remembrances of a happier time.

As I stood below a full moon, I felt a presence at my side. I had not noticed anyone walk up. I looked over and noticed an elderly gentleman with his eyes focused on the doors of the church.

“Beautiful music.” He startled me when he spoke.

“Yes, it is,” I replied. “I used to come here as a boy and listen to them sing.”

He asked, “Why are you out here in the cold, and not inside where it is warm?”

“I’m not welcomed in there,” I replied.

“Everyone is welcomed in church,” he stated emphatically.

“Not everyone,” I responded sadly.

“Nonsense,” he muttered as he grasped my arm and led me towards the large doors. I wanted to pull away, but there was something about his demeanor that made me want to go with him.

People turned and looked at us when the old door creaked as we entered. He motioned for me to take a seat in the back. I looked around and noticed that very little had changed in the years since I last entered. The moon shone through the stained glass windows illuminating the religious pictures designed centuries ago. The aroma of the candles burning on the altar filled me with a soothing calmness.

I had forgotten in my quiet reverie the old man beside me. He touched my arm and pointed to a man sitting proudly in the front pew.

“That is Mr. Ewing,” he stated. “The church is able to survive because of his generosity. He has contributed more than three million dollars over the years. He is a stock broker, and he has accumulated his wealth by bilking millions out of the elderly. They give him their entire savings to invest in stocks that usually are worthless, thus leaving them penniless. He, however, takes a hefty percentage of it as his fee.”

I sat and watched as the puffy faced man stood and sang the chorus in rousing animation. I was filled with detest for someone I had never met. I was repulsed that everyone thought he was a generous benefactor and great humanitarian when he was no more than a thieving crook who would rob from the poor to make himself rich.

“See the woman over there.” He pointed to a middle-aged woman in a red dress and black feathered hat. Her face was heavily painted with makeup, and her hair was dyed a grotesque orange color. I’m sure that everyone laughed at her behind her back.

“She comes here every Sunday morning after spending the night before in smoked-filled bars and sleeping in filthy beds with men whose names she’ll never remember.

“Yet the people consider her a righteous woman because she cares for her mother who suffers from Alzheimer’s. To them, she is a martyr of compassion.”

He pointed his narrow finger toward the altar. “That is Reverend Fleming.” I looked at the man dressed in a purple robe, raising his hands to the air in worship to God above. “He spends his evenings chatting on the internet to young girls who think he is a teenage boy,” he said angrily.

“And the woman beside him, his wife.” I watched the thin, wispy woman with strawberry blonde hair and gaunt features clapping her hands in tune to the choir’s singing.

“She is having an affair with Deacon Emerson.” He pointed to an obese man, dressed in a dark suit, two sizes too small for him. His jacket looked ready to burst from the buttons that were pulled too tightly. He was standing along the church wall below a figure of the Virgin Mary holding a baby Jesus.

“The entire congregation knows about it,” he explained, “but they are too embarrassed to say anything.”

He grabbed my arm, lifted me up and muttered harshly, “We have seen enough.”

We walked outside, and he turned to listen to the beautiful lyrics of ‘Oh, Little Town of Bethlehem.’

“So, you see, My Son,” he said gently, “It is not the Church that does not accept you. It is the sinners who dwell within. They can sing of the love of God, but they do not know it.”

He grabbed my arm and led me down the sidewalk. I should have once again resisted, but I felt the need to follow him. “Come with me,” he said. “You will experience God’s love before this night is through.”

“Where are we going?” I asked, but he ignored me and walked briskly in the cold night air. I almost ran beside him to keep up.

We walked for about ten blocks until we came to a small mission. I had noticed the building for years, and I always wondered who dwelt there. A few times while driving home, I had noticed small women sweeping the sidewalk meticulously clean with their oversized brooms.

“Where are we?” I whispered as he opened a side door and motioned for me to enter.

“This is the home of the rejected souls.” I shuddered as he uttered the gloomy words. I could hear muted moaning coming from the cubicles alongside the desolate hallway. “Here live those whom no one wants. They come here to find peace in death.”

I wanted to turn away and run out of the ghastly building he was leading me through. Suddenly, he stopped and pointed to an old, withered woman dressed in shabby garb. She had her sleeves pulled up, and she was struggling to carry a large bucket.

“This is Maria.” He walked over and took the bucket from her and carried it down the hall to a cluttered storage closet. She smiled gently and nodded at him as she scurried off to another destination.

“She left the church forty-two years ago,” he explained. “She found God here.”

I looked around at the shabby walls, unpainted it seemed for decades. Large spots of plaster had disappeared years earlier, leaving gaping holes in the hall. Most of the furnishings consisted of rickety chairs and tables, ready to fall at the slightest weight.

As we walked, I peered into the dim, sparse rooms filled only with beds with tattered sheets. In each bed lay a thin, frail figure moaning from pain. Tears began to fall down my face from the utter desolation I was feeling.

“I can’t go on,” I cried. “This is too much for me.”

“You must go on,” he stated firmly as he grabbed my arm and led me further down the hall. “If you want to find yourself.”

We walked to the end of the hall where he led me into a dark room. I adjusted my eyes to see a small boy, no more than ten lying on a bed. He was frail and thin with colorless eyes sunk into deep sockets in his face. He smiled weakly at the old gentleman.

“You came,” he muttered almost inaudibly. The old man walked up and brushed his hair back gently.

“Of course I came,” he said softly. “I told you I would. And look, I brought James with me.”

I looked at the gentleman surprisingly. He knew my name! I had never told him mine, and I had never asked for his. We had been like two strangers who had passed in the night.

“Come here.” He held out his hand as I walked cautiously over to him. He took my hand and interlocked my fingers with the small boy’s.

“This is Christopher.” I looked down and a huge smile appeared on the young boy’s face.

“Then I won’t be alone tonight. You know it’s Christmas Eve?” I squeezed his small, frail hand as tears fell down my cheeks.

Just hours earlier, I had felt remorse for the isolation of my life. Yet here lay a boy completely unknown to the rest of the world. He had probably lain for years in this desolate place with no one to talk to except for his elderly caretakers.

“Why are you crying?” he asked weakly.

I turned away and wiped the tears from my face. “I don’t know.”

When I looked back down at him, he said with a smile, “The sisters say I leave tonight.”

“Where are you going?” I asked.

“To a place where there is no more pain.” He said it so calmly that I realized that he had been prepared for this night for some time. Before me was a child who realized that he was going to die, and he welcomed it.

“What is wrong with him?” I turned to speak to the elderly gentleman who had brought me to this place, but he was gone. Instead, stood Maria, the woman I had seen earlier.

“He is dying from AIDS,” she replied mournfully. “His mother was a drug addict. He came into this world with it.” I felt his frail hand squeeze mine. I looked down as he smiled up warmly at me.

He asked hopefully, “Can you stay with me tonight?”

“Yes, of course,” I replied as I gently brushed his hair back. “I will stay with you.”

I sat in an old chair beside his bed. I took his hand and held it while he lay sleeping. Occasionally, he’d open his eyes and smile warmly up at me. I must have fallen asleep, because I was awakened by his hand squeezing mine tightly. He had a frightened look on his face.

“Sing to me, please!” he begged. I stood before his bed and gently sang, ‘Oh Holy Night,’ the song I had first heard earlier outside the church. He closed his eyes, and a calm expression appeared on his face. I watched as his chest rose and then he took his last breath.

I sat by his bed and cried uncontrollably until I sensed a presence standing beside me.

“I told you that you would feel God’s love tonight,” a voice said reverently. “Welcome to My church.” I looked up and no one was with me in the room. Only the small, dead child who had shared his last night on earth with me.

I have now spent eight Christmas eves in my church. I have not missed a Sunday or a Christmas eve since that night I first came here and found myself again through a sick, little boy.

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Copyright © 2006 by Ronyx<br />All Rights Reserved<br />
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I have read this story many times, and each time I reach the end I'm either in tears or close to them ... Life is so unfair to Christopher and yet he's managed to redeem James so that he could feel love for his fellow man again ... just a simple act of kindness ...

 

Thank you Ron

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We often fail to think of Christmas a time of self-discovery, but you have shown us here a beautiful way to remember. Thank you for your gift, and for posting this memorable story.

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I read this previously on your site, which I will continue to plug whenever I can.

 

Your story illustrates the hypocrisy that makes me reject organized religion as an Agnostic.

 

It also reminds me of the several years I spent as a volunteer for a local AIDS organization. One year I decided that I should create a new poster each month to advertise one of their projects. I would use their copy machine and literally copy-and-paste my creations and hand-color them. I had the local Gay Community Center post them with all the other flyers for local organizations. Mine stood out among all the other photocopied or printed black-and-white pages. The Community Center staff liked them so much they'd move the old ones to a different bulletin board when I bought them the new ones.

 

Along with a bunch of other volunteers from the AIDS organization, I went caroling at the AIDS ward of the county-run hospital. Since we are the 'ugly step-sister' to the glamorous big city across the Bay, our hospital was mostly forgotten. As the suburban kid that I was (and still am to a certain extent), I was shocked to have to pass through metal detectors to get upstairs. And since this was the very late '80s, the patients looked like the pictures you may have seen with the frighteningly skeletal faces and extremely frail bodies. They and the hospital staff were so appreciative of our visit!

 

It was good for me to be reminded of the past situation on World AIDS Day. We've come so far, yet we still don't have a cure. Even the drug cocktail that works for so many doesn't work for everyone – and is priced out of reach of the majority of those diagnosed in Third World countries.

 

Thank you for posting this today!

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On 12/02/2016 08:28 AM, droughtquake said:

I read this previously on your site, which I will continue to plug whenever I can.

 

Your story illustrates the hypocrisy that makes me reject organized religion as an Agnostic.

 

It also reminds me of the several years I spent as a volunteer for a local AIDS organization. One year I decided that I should create a new poster each month to advertise one of their projects. I would use their copy machine and literally copy-and-paste my creations and hand-color them. I had the local Gay Community Center post them with all the other flyers for local organizations. Mine stood out among all the other photocopied or printed back-and-white pages. The Community Center staff liked them so much they'd move the old ones to a different bulletin board when I bought them the new ones.

 

Along with a bunch of other volunteers from the AIDS organization, I went caroling at the AIDS ward of the county-run hospital. Since we are the 'ugly step-sister' to the glamorous big city across the Bay, our hospital was mostly forgotten. As the suburban kid that I was (and still am to a certain extent), I was shocked to have to pass through metal detectors to get upstairs. And since this was the very late '80s, the patients looked like the pictures you may have seen with the frighteningly skeletal faces and extremely frail bodies. They and the hospital staff were so appreciative of our visit!

 

It was good for me to be reminded of the past situation on World AIDS Day. We've come so far, yet we still don't have a cure. Even the drug cocktail that works for so many doesn't work for everyone – and is priced out of reach of the majority of those diagnosed in Third World countries.

 

Thank you for posting this today!

You are, droughtquake, what I call one of the quiet heroes. You do wonderful deeds out of the goodness of your heart and expect nothing in return. I'm sure those whose lives you touched were grateful. I did post this story today because it is World AIDS Day. We've made great progress in the past couple of decades, but there is still so much more to do. (And thanks for the plug!)

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On 12/02/2016 07:20 AM, Parker Owens said:

Thanks for this tale. It is as beautiful as it is tragic; as sweet as it is painful.

Thank you, Parker.

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On 12/02/2016 06:07 AM, AC Benus said:

We often fail to think of Christmas a time of self-discovery, but you have shown us here a beautiful way to remember. Thank you for your gift, and for posting this memorable story.

Thank you, AC.

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On 12/02/2016 05:23 AM, avidreadr said:

Such a beautiful, sad story. I'm in tears. Merry Christmas.

Thank you, avidreadr. If you are in tears reading it, you should have seen me when I wrote it. LOL.

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On 12/02/2016 05:11 AM, hohochan657 said:

I have read this story many times, and each time I reach the end I'm either in tears or close to them ... Life is so unfair to Christopher and yet he's managed to redeem James so that he could feel love for his fellow man again ... just a simple act of kindness ...

 

Thank you Ron

Thank you, hohochan.

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On 12/02/2016 03:55 AM, wenmale64 said:

How sweet, how sad, how true.....

God Speed to all

Rob

Thank you, Rob.

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On 12/02/2016 03:22 AM, flamingo136 said:

Thank you Ron......Merry Christmas to you and yours, Mike

Thank you, Mike. Happy holiday to you too.

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A pretty powerful story, and a good message not just for for this holiday season. Thank you, and Merry Christmas. Jeff

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What a beautiful story. Reminds me of the love of God for all of us who are imperfect, but His love for us is perfect. Thank you for sharing this!!!

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On 12/02/2016 11:20 AM, Okiegrad said:

What a beautiful story. Reminds me of the love of God for all of us who are imperfect, but His love for us is perfect. Thank you for sharing this!!!

Thank you, Okiegrad. I'm glad you enjoyed the story.

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On 12/02/2016 10:29 AM, JeffreyL said:

A pretty powerful story, and a good message not just for for this holiday season. Thank you, and Merry Christmas. Jeff

Thank you, Jeffrey. Happy holidays to you and yours too.

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I read this somewhere else a while back and it's as heartbreaking and inspiring
now as it ever was. Thank you so much for publishing it here so I'd read it again.

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On 12/02/2016 03:44 PM, Graeme said:

Beautiful...there's nothing else to say :wub:

Thank you, Graeme. Happy Holidays.

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On 12/03/2016 02:46 AM, Stephen said:

I read this somewhere else a while back and it's as heartbreaking and inspiring

now as it ever was. Thank you so much for publishing it here so I'd read it again.

My pleasure, Stephen. I'm glad you enjoyed the story.

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On 12/14/2016 08:15 AM, bubby1234 said:

I would not have expected anything less from you my friend.

John.

Thank you, John. Happy Holidays to you and yours.

Ron

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