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Oh whatever I decide, but be warned, it may contain D/s and BDSM content, or not. 

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Marriage, boys, and husbands

I know I’ve said this before; I always wanted a marriage like my parents have. Of course, I knew it wouldn’t be traditional, given the fact I am Gay, but I wanted it all the same.   As I hung with friends, played baseball and hockey, went through school, I came to realize I was often assuming a dominant position, and often asked to lead. It was sort of a natural thing.  I ended up in school taking criminology and socio-legal studies, and received my degree. I went on to become a police
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Supporting Your Local Poets

The other day, my husband tim told me about a little poetry challenge on GA, offered by @AC Benus  He had decided to rewrite his Tanka Poetry prompt.  I decided to 'support my local poet' and offer myself up as a guinea pig. But frankly, I had doubts even though I've written some okay poetry, following the instructions and writing something 'properly' rather worried me.    But, I just had to try.    So I read the prompt.. Tanka's should be personal, emotional, show how t
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MichaelS36

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An Emotional Week

Been an emotional week around here. tim is going through something, and I can only watch and wait. But words run through my head after he comes to me, needing me. Last night he asked me to just hold him, as he tried to sleep. I did and he did.    But I know him very well. Know his heart and the kind of human being he is. It's why I love him. And why I wrote this:     You tell me you need my arms about you tight I know there's something, and I whisper tell me th
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MichaelS36

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Darkened Days

It's been difficult lately for tim, and frustrating for me. Depression is such a hard thing to live with, both for the one that suffers through it and the people around them.   Try as he might, and I am not surprised by it, tim tries to push away the bad things he feels. It is a constant fight for him.    People say he's a man, he should put the past behind him.  Move on, fuhgeddaboudit!   he does, a lot, but with his dad's passing, well, I wish the brain had real d
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Subs' Mindset

This blog is more about BDSM and D/s from my sub, tim and his conversation with a fellow sub molly's, perspective. Many of you know molly and she is the sub belonging to her Sir, Phil.  These two met on GA, when no one they knew were ‘out’ as submissives.  For a long time tim wasn’t, he hid this from people but grew tired of hiding. When he opened the Drop in Centre, he asked me for permission to come out, and though I had some reservations, I gave it. You’ve heard a lot from me and M
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MichaelS36

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We Feign Nothing - A look at the BDSM lifestyle.

First of all this is no attack on how you or anyone else chooses to live, that is up to each of us to decide. This blog is simply an answer to a few things I read in an article the other day. It called itself an introduction to the BDSM lifestyle. I found much of it offensive, rather like most looks at our lifestyle are. What did I read? ·         That submissives feign their subservience. ·         That Dominant tops only act dominant, because we need to be nurturing and loving
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MichaelS36

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I Will Not Let You

Living with mental illness and depression is difficult. Having a partner who suffers, is also challenging, but I will not let him down.  I am proud of him and he is worth all my love and effort.        I watch the ghosts of your past Swamp and overwhelm you Though I intervene, too often Their pull is greater than my power But always I will be your tether And safety net, I will not let you fall      
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MichaelS36

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This Dom's Pledge

We talk often together about our lives, about D/s and what it means to all of us here who have chosen this lifestyle. I say choose, but is it a choice?  I could never choose to be submissive, just as tim could not be a Dominant.  But as we are, we are two halves, and only together are we whole.    as always, for my sweet boy, I leave you this;     This Dom’s Pledge   As days tumble into years you are still with me. A gift, as precious to me as any tr
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MichaelS36

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For tim

For tim   You are this beautiful creature that has graced my life A zephyr that blows softly lifting nary a hair I cannot cage you or keep you from those who love you Water that runs unfettered through my fingers You love is like the grains of sand on a long white beach Quicksilver that flows, cannot be molded or shaped Your radiance cannot be closeted or hidden Clouds that skim playfully through the blue above How can I lock up the wind?  
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MichaelS36

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Pledge

Pledge   Our lives have slowly changed Not for the better I’m afraid I have to be your man again Will be The one you deserve and desire So things will change Of that be sure You will be mine again, boy   Interesting session with a psychologist who is a counsellor to those of us in BDSM or D/s lifestyle, I wasn’t sure what to expect. Dr. R greeted us both, we sat, and he sat within a small grouping of chairs.   He largely ignored ti
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MichaelS36

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An Open Letter to tim and friends

Some of you are angry /disappointed/ or whatever with me.  I can understand why. You read what I’ve written about me and how I feel about tim and you probably laughed and if you are in the know, you have likely said, “Sure you do.” I do love him, very deeply. He has certain expectations of me because of our lifestyle, expectations I have been failing in providing. That leads to his unhappiness, and he is less sure of himself, of me, and us. In the recent past I watched as
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MichaelS36

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You're a What?

Just a bit of background...   As I went through my younger years I found that other’s seemed to naturally follow me, and look to me for direction. As sex came into the picture, it was the same in the bedroom. I learned that I liked to lead play there, liked my partners to be submissive. I thought simply that I was a top, I am, but I am more.   I am what is known as a Dominant, a Dom. It is not about being a brute or sadist (well it is if you are a sadist). It is about honesty
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On Your Knees, Boy

I, dressed only in black denims and boots Watch you strip down to nothing You are always unclothed, baring all to me For you belong to me, you are mine   You stand at room’s centre, in submission Rising for my chair I circle you, gaze at you When my hand caresses your back you flinch The skin there still soft, unscarred, sweet   You utter no sound as I walk around you I want you, desire you, control you My own manhood, hard, wanting
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MichaelS36

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Submission - a poem

You requested a poem .. here you are   Submission   You kneel before me unclothed Like you’ve done a thousand times Knees spread apart So you’re open to me, vulnerable   I walk around you saying nothing Your head is bowed in submission Hands on thighs You know to whom you belong   Your back marked from our play Pain you will carry for days Borne with dignity Your strength a source of pride   You are my
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MichaelS36

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tim

Warning: D/s BDSM subjects... some mention of sex, oral sex.        I met tim serving lunch at the mission where we both volunteered. He was less than impressed with me and not interested in my good cop-self. That was fine, but I knew it wouldn’t stop me. I would have that sweet skinny-assed boy.   Though I knew he’d be mine, I also knew his back story. I knew I had to be careful. I knew I had to take my time.   After finishing with serving lunch, the vol
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