So let's see, I got home from work yesterday and went straight to sleep (yeah it was like 4pm), and I slept until about midnight, then I lounged around in bed for about an hour. It was awesome, I love being in bed and not being asleep. I usually fall asleep pretty fast, and I usually stay asleep until I HAVE to get up, so it's always really nice to just chill. Anyway, all that aside, something useful actually happened too.

I had this really weird (kinda creepy) dream. It was about these three guys. Two of them hated each other, and the 3rd guy was somehow mixed up with both of them, I can't remember, he was either one of them's friend and the other's brother, or maybe one of them's bf and the other's friend/brother, I'm really not sure, but somehow he was mixed up with both. Anyway, so they had this dramatic showdown and the first guy tried to kill the second one, but the other guy got away.....ALMOST. He then ran into the third guy, who ended up distracting him until the other guy could kill him. Anyway so it was kinda like the third guy "woke up" in the dream, and it was as though he was dreaming about what had happened. Anyway he woke up to the sound of this little child saying something like "stay calm, and tell me why you did it" (meaning the betrayal which caused the other guy's death). So anyway the guy sits up in bed and turns around and there's the little boy sitting on his headboards. So the kid keeps repeating stuff like that, asking for an explination for why the guy betrayed his friend, and all the while he's like hopping around the bed, just out of the other guys reach. So finally the boy's standing on the side of the bed, and the guy's really upset and frustrated so he lunges at the kid and tries to grab his arm, but the kid ducks underneath of the bed. Well when the guy turns around the kid like stands up (still under the bed), and his head and shoulders come through the mattress and stuff, only it's not him at all, it's the dead guy. So really all along it was the dead guy haunting the guy who betrayed him and got him killed.

Anyway it was a really weird dream, and unfortunately the characters didn't even have names or anything, and I"m not sure of their relationships or motives. BUT I thought it was pretty interesting and fairly original. SO I think I might see if I can't revise it a little, go into more detail, and right a short story about it. I was thinking this would still be right at the beginning, and the story would be about the guy being haunted and WHY he betrayed the other guy and got him killed. Yeah I know it's not great, but I'm getting really desperate to have SOME kind of story done by the deadline, so I think I'm going to use it.

Anyway I would talk about my day etc. But I'm really trying to get out of the habit of making insanely long posts, so I won't. But basicially I finally got my Christmas presents wrapped and my cards sent. Tomorrow evening I'm going to another work Christmas party (held by different people this time), and I'm planning to not drink at all. Then Thursday we're exchanging gifts at work, I'm really excited because from the hints everyone's given me it's stuff I really want, and I can't wait to see if everyone likes what I got them, I think they will .

Oh and you guys remember my coworker whom I have a "complicated" history with, the one who took my shift for me awhile back (not Amber, her name's Kim). Well anyway I finally found out why she was all up in my buisness awhile back (2 or 3 months ago) about some stuff. It turns out she thought I was depressed and not handling it well. I wasn't depressed, I was just ticked off at her and kinda "sulky" where she was concerned, and in all fairness I got the impression SHE was the one dealing with some stuff (which I now know is also true). Anyway before it was bugging me because she kept asking intrusive questions, then telling me she didn't like stuff, but not telling me why. I just thought she was being nosey, and it probably just ticked me off more (and made it seem worse to her). I wish she'd just told me then that she was concerned, I'd have found that sweet, but then we were at each other's throats alot then, so I guess it wouldn''t have been easy. Anyway seems like we are over all that now.

One final thing, my subject title reminds me of, it's a funny scene from Friends Chandler is talking about how he hates his job and doesn't have any aspirations to do anything else. So he says something to the effect of:

"I hate not knowing what I want to do with my life, you guys all have it together, you have a dream, I don't have a dream."

Then Ross says: "Ah, the lesser known I don't have a dream speach."

Anyway I just always found that particularly funny. Have an awesome day everyone and take care.

Kevin (Yeah I know this still ended up being a long post, but I really did cut a bunch lol)