Before I start this entry. I want to state, I didnt write it for sympathy.
I'ts to stop me bottling it all up, and sending me on a downward spiral.
So lets get this out.
Most of you know my past, or some of it. I didnt get the socialising, interacting, childhood most of you got.
I have no experience of sharing, for instance. I had nobody to share anything with. And cut off and isolated as I was and still am. I never got the opportunity to learn that stuff.
I never stop learning. Now more than ever.
You see, I'm in love with the most incredible, awesome, gorgeous guy, He's a dream, he really is.
What emotion am I blathering on about? Jealousy!
I've never experienced it before, and I'm destroying myself with it.
He is not to blame in any way. What happened before me, has nothing to do with me. I know that.
But it doesnt stop the hurt.
Right now in my life, I am struggling to move forward. My health hasnt been too good lately. My work load is huge. And I am trying to learn, there is a life beyond the farm.
A lot of people have commented about the lack of a face on my recent pic, all I can say is read my stuff and you'll understand why.
I can't move faster than I already am. I have 19 years of life, to catch up on and I've only just started living it.
All I ask for is patience, understanding and a little compassion. I really am going as fast as I can. But through hell and high water I'll get there.