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All days are not alike.

old bob

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In a few days, I shall find myself in the hospital for a range of unpleasant examinations. It seems that my cancer wakes up and my body has difficulty to resist its attacks.

 

This is the worst time because I should rather take care of my wife, whose health declines day by day. She needs me more and more and I'm afraid of not being able to take care of her. So we have to make other arrangements, calling for nursing staff coming home. Neither she nor I want to end up in a hospital. Our house is a haven of peace and we want to stay home until our end.

 

We are caught by our age! Learning to age and learning so quickly is never easy.

 

Now, I have lost much of my optimism. The world around us is going wrong. The conflicts in the Middle East and the crisis in Europe, that never ends, announce difficult times. I'm not afraid for old people like us, but how will live my children and grandchildren in the coming years?

 

But maybe I'm wrong? My state of mind is perhaps only momentary. All the stories I read in the evening on my favorite sites to change my mind speak of hope and happy endings.

 

Tomorrow will be another day. Hopefully the clouds shall go away. We all live in hope ...

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joann414

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I was just thinking of you yesterday.  You hadn't posted anything in awhile.  Keep a positive outlook.  All is not lost yet.  You love your wife, and I"m sure she knows that.  She'll be taken care of while you are in the hospital.  Take care and think positive.  Will keep you and your wife in my prayers.

 

Hugs

 

Jo Ann

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Ashi

Ashi 2,726

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Be optimistic (not saying it's easy).  Cloud is not all bad, if you think about it.  It adds variation and shades.  As a photographer, cloudy day is the best day to take photos.   If you can, take some photos and create some memories for yourself and others.  It is very therapeutic. 

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Palantir

Palantir 10,621

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My thoughts are with you Bob and I hope your hospital visit helps.

Remember that without those clouds of despair the sunshine of hope would have less meaning.

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Never Surrender

Never Surrender 303

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Stay strong, and keep your chin up. I'm sure everything will turn out ok for you, I've got my fingers crossed :) don't let the world get you down. If it's not ok, its not the end :)

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nostic

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Humanity is tougher than you think. There'd been wars for century, and one way or another people kept their hope.

Focus on yourself and keep on fighting, that's the only way to help yourself and your wife.

You can do it.

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Former Member

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Look for the silver lining.  Everything happens for a reason and I firmly believe that universe is not so much of a...bad person that it would give you things that you can't handle.  The sun will come out tomorrow and all that. ;)  Stay positive.

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Cia

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The bad days are often hard to remember as finite. (hug) Bob I hope that your natural positivity returns, but remember to give yourself a break. Sometimes things are hard, and it's okay to feel bad about that. I truly hope that you and your wife can weather this spell and return to the peace you deserve.

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Percy

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I hope the new day brings fewer worries, Bob.  I hope, too, that these setbacks are temporary and you and your wife are able to return to your home and find respite there.  As for the state of the world, I think each generation improves on the one before it.  This Is true, I think, when looking at humanity as a whole and over a longer span of time then a few months or years.  In fact, this perspective is one of the reasons I enjoy your memoirs so much!

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MikeL

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Bob, I'm sorry to hear our old friend is making another unwelcome visit.  PCa is like that.  It is either cured very early or it hangs on for years.  It just won't stay away in many cases.

 

Please know that I am praying  for you and your wife and expect many more years of friendship.

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